4/6/2025
Sunday is my second favorite day of the week, Shabbat my favorite, both days of rest from all work. I have the best of both worlds - Gentile and Jewish. I welcomed the day and thanked Abba for the new day. I fed the cat and said "good morning" to my son. We even played around with our little (stuffed) Grinch, animating the grouchy little fellow and bantering playfully back and forth. Silly little game we play that may seem childish, but we need to be childish some days, most days. I snagged some coffee and headed back to my room to spend some quiet time with Abba before the true start of my day. I've spoken of the time I spend alone with God, listening, worshiping, and studying the Bible. This is important for my day, and for my life as my desire is to grow closer to Him. When I got back in my room, I don't know what happened, but I felt so confused. All these disturbing thoughts were going through my head, and I just seemed confused. I remembered the dream I was having about having to start and stop whatever I was doing, and start again. There was a long line of work stations, and I would go to one, then the next, and on and on, never really finishing the one before. I couldn't remember all of it, but it seems as if something was missing or something amidst. My mind got jumbled from the previous night, wondering, as always, what some of my dreams were about.
Later, I began thinking about the blog I had posted the night before, as I was finishing up another one for the next day. I had gotten behind, and my notes on each day seemed confusing to me. This has never happened to me to this extent, not since my last blow to the head. I thought I had forgotten a day, and I thought I'd mixed up the posts from the actual days. I had my notes for each blog, but I had not been able to find the time to just finish it. I was a mess! I tried talking to my son, Daniel, and I think he became concerned about my mental health. So I decided to just take my shower and get ready for church, as the prayer call would begin soon, and I wanted to be ready to leave for church services right after the meeting. It's such a beautiful day, I thought the walk to church would do me good. Clear my head!
I sorted out my mess with the blogs, and I discovered that I had put my cleaning blip on the wrong day, but that wasn't a big deal, as it fit into what I was writing and added a bit of whimsy. I always have crazy thoughts as it is. I fumbled my way through the prayer call, and afterwards, I walked to church without falling into a ditch or being hit by a car or truck. I even crossed the highway without stopping traffic. Pastor John has been teaching from Galatians, and this will be my third study of the book this year. I should be an expert by the time we're finished. There are so many events going on at the church that that confuses me. But all is well. After I returned home, I had some time to rest a bit, eat a little and think about my debacle over my memory. I realized that I have not eaten well for two days, and my body and mind have been effected. From now on, I am going to ensure that I have something ready before I go to services, because I have multiple things to do. Now at the end of the day, I am finishing the blog of the day on the right day, relating the correct thoughts. I'm sure I left something out, but there's always another day, or so I hope.