Day 309 The Day After

 

11/5/12025

"I feel it is far better to begin with God, to see His face first, 

to get my soul near Him before it is near another. 

In general it is best to have at least one hour alone with God

before engaging in anything else."

E.M. Bounds

"His compassions fail not. They are new every

morning: great is Thy faithfulness."

Lamentations 3:22-23

 

Arising much too early again, I decided to stay put awhile later tucked into my nice warm blankets, at least until I had to get up and face the day. I was greeted with a hazy, windy day, perhaps a foreshadowing of the one I was destined to experience. Spending time alone gave me the courage and insight to update an earlier blog that I had already posted, yet it was not quite ... there yet! Early morning coffee with Jesus does so much for my ability to write a few good lines, or at least to me they seem good. He also gives me confidence, because, after all, this blog is of His doing. Or at least I hope it is what He had in mind. Somehow I am never quite certain, but my intentions are good.

I brought along a trusted, well-loved friend with me, as you will note above the column. I wanted to share him with the little girl of yesterday, but somehow I think she may have found a friend. At least in my imagination she did. I think she may have on dancing shoes today - fake it til ya make it day! She probably hasn't seen the news yet. Way too early as a wee one needs their rest. Heaven knows what lurks outside the school house today or inside. Will she be forced to participate in a reading program of questionable and inappropriate content? If so, does she feel as it's safe to express her feelings to her teacher, who is supposed to protect her, right?! 

I have no words to express the way I felt when seeing the final results of yesterday's election. My heart is grieved, because the choices people make, without even caring to check the facts, will bring hurt in the long run. People make promises they never intend on keeping, because the loopholes are already in place. And I'm a optimistic person who looks for the best in all situations, but I admit the east coast is sinking. I remember when it was predicted that California would one day break off and fall into the ocean from the fault lines and eventual earthquake that make it happen. But California is still above water, although it has sunk way deeper than any ocean depth into social depravity, immorality, perversion, and lawlessness. The one good thing is that Hope California is there, and there are churches who love Jesus and stand for righteousness and godly living. The pastors I know and support are not leaving either, not fleeing to another state to find safety to wait out the storm. Nope, there is hope, and His Name is Jesus.

Tonight we have chosen to worship and to share communion, remember the One who died to set us free. There are many the nation has forgotten who sadly have been written out of American history, but the greatest loss is removing the greatest story ever told and sharing the best that's to be. Our hero is coming back to rescue us, because when He said "It is finished," He meant it. 

So we live to fight another day. I'll put on my dancing shoes, grab my tattered friend, and we'll dance! Like David danced when the ark was returned to Jerusalem. Strike up the band, the timbrel and the horn! Jesus, our King of Kings is coming soon!  

Day 308 The Valley of Decision

 

11/4/2025

"The LORD brings the counsel of the nations to nothing;

He makes the plans of the peoples of no effect.

The counsel of the LORD stands forever,

the plans of His heart to all generations.

Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD,

the people He has chosen as His own inheritance."

Psalm 33:10-12

I awakened early again this morning in expectation of the day, wondering how things would turn out, knowing God holds the whole world in His hands. His most capable hands. Reading through the psalms reminded me of the goodness of God and of His faithfulness to those who love Him. Not that I need to be reminded of that fact, but the psalms roll over the tongue like life-giving water, bringing refreshment to a thirsty soul. Psalm 34 says "I will bless the LORD at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth." On a morning when all the earth stands still, holding its breath, praise seems the right thing to do. It stills the heart, brings comfort to the soul, rejoicing and shouts of joy! Worship is the best when alone in the quiet of early morning when the only ones astir are me and my Beloved. What joy shall fill my heart!

I spent some time on the Prayer Watch with Kehilat HaCarmel in Israel, worshiping and listening for the voice of the Lord as we prayed for the needs of Israel. Tuesdays are special times tuning in to listen with others who live stream the watch. Although I am not there in person, I can feel the love and fellowship of this small group of intercessors and visitors who are in Israel stopping by to pray. Times are still uncertain there as life is always uncertain in this small country. But we stand our ground, positioned on the wall of prayer, and as believers in Jesus, we know how the end of the story turns out. 

Here in America on this day when people are headed to the polls to vote, I wait in prayer, going about my day, waiting. Today will be a day of decision, but I wonder how many realize the significance of this moment in history, prophetically speaking?! I've spoken how I feel, how I know God feels about His chosen people, and the results will affect the Israeli-American citizens directly. New Youk City has a large population of Jewish Americans, and with antisemitism rising greatly in that area, the results can prove very discouraging and detrimental for many. Here in Virginia things are not hopeful, but sadly God allows people to get what they want or think they want. It seems no one learns from history. I don't want to speculate. Too soon. But the blind ignorance of trusting people grieves my soul. Like sheep to the slaughter, no presence of mind except to follow the leader.

God speaks of the Valley of Jehoshaphat in the end times where God will gather the nations and bring them down into the valley to enter His judgment with them. They will be judged according to the way they treated His people, His heritage Israel, whom they scattered and divided up the land, His land that He chose to give to Israel. It's a sobering call in the end times. It's a call to all nations who have tried to exercise judgment or control over the people of Israel.

"Multitudes, multitudes in the valley of decision! For the day of the LORD is near in the valley of decision. The sun and moon will grow dark, and the stars will diminish their brightness. The LORD also will roar from Zion, and utter His voice from Jerusalem; the heavens and earth will shake; but the LORD will be a shelter for His people, and the strength of the children of Israel." (Joel 3:14-16)

I'd say the Lord put it very clearly, as Paul did in Romans, Chapters 9-11, but no one sees, no one listens or wants to hear the truth. But soon...!

Notice the image above, a child with her balloon held loosely in her hand, her mind obviously burdened for one so young, leaning against the wall to support her weary body. The shoes on her feet are way too big, suggesting someone expects more of her than she is able to give. The streets are long and empty, lifeless suggesting the loneliness she obviously feels. I'm certain she has a multitude of thoughts passing through her too young mind, carried on her small shoulders, supported by small feet in much too big shoes. All that's missing is her suitcase and perhaps a teddy bear, a ragged one from so much love, clinging to it in the cold, abandoned nights, afraid to sleep. But here I am speculating again. But my heart goes out to the children of today. They have to bear way too many burdens, experience things beyond their years to know, afraid, confused, not knowing what's so or not so. Truth is a sparsity these days. But we'll see what tomorrow brings. I hope she can rest more easily if given proper rest and shoes that fit.  

 

Day 307 The Day After Tomorrow

 

11/3/2025 

"Every time we pray our horizon is altered, our attitude to

things is altered, not sometimes but every time, and

the amazing thing is that we don't pray more."

Oswald Chambers

 

"Prayer fails when the desire and effort

for personal holiness fail."

E. M. Bounds

"So close to the timber yet so far from the blood. We are

so close to the world's most uncommon event, but

we act like common crapshooters huddled in bickering

groups and fighting over silly opinions. How many  pulpit hours

have been wasted on preaching the trivial?... So close to the 

cross but so far from the Christ."

Max Lucado

"No Wonder They Call Him the Savior"

 

I wasn't really aware of depth of my growing irritation and dissatisfaction with the modern church until yesterday. Why are we so self-absorbed, interested only in what is going on in our world, our weekend experience, without caring to glance at what is happening elsewhere, perhaps even across the road, in full view? I'm serious, I really want to know why the hearts of so many have become cold to the world situation unless, of course, a bomb drops in their lap one Sunday while they're sitting comfortably in their pew. I jokingly said to someone once who was apologizing to me about her messy home that I probably wouldn't pay attention even if someone was on the floor, I'd step over them and continue. I said that not in the crude way in which is comes across. What I meant was that I don't look around a person's home to see what they own or if a room is messy or how extravagantly a person lives. I tend to focus my attention on the person I'm with, rather than the surroundings, whether I'm in a home that is opulently furnished or one who has less. I much prefer the warmth of a person's character. But I do pay attention to surroundings when it concerns the health, safety, and general welfare of others. As a case manager in charge of assessing the needs of individuals with whom I served, it was my duty to observe the home in this manner as well as attend to their medical and mental welfare. I became involved with the family and with those who were responsible for the day to day care, including home health care, physicians and other health professionals. My skeptic son once noted as a weakness in my character the fact that I cared, really cared (his words were crude) about people. Then, he had to admit that this was a strength also, because he understood that I try to look for the best in all people. I prefer mercy over judgment, and God has blessed me with great compassion and, yes, love, for all people...ALL people. Sometimes that is difficult to do, so these days I have decided to pray the blessing of Aaron found in Numbers 6:24-26 over those not walking in obedience to Christ or those who have never given their hearts and lives to Jesus. As Proverbs 18:21 says: "Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit." So, the blessing:

"The LORD bless you and keep you;

The LORD make His face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you:

The LORD lift up His countenance upon you, 

And give you peace."

So why am I so upset?! It seemed incredulous to me that no one mentioned the international day of prayer for the persecuted church, at least at the churches I follow. I need to lay it down and forgive, for they know not what they do, as Jesus pointed out as He hung on the cross dying for all our sins. Mine included.

On the flip side, people are being reminded to go to the polls to vote tomorrow, but they are not being told what's at stake. Pastors, as shepherds of the flock to which God has entrusted you, your sheep must be guided into all truth, that which the Lord Himself has written in His Book, the Holy Bible. It's not telling someone how to vote, but it is instructing them in  the direction and clear counsel on godliness and right standing with the Lord. What is at stake should be no surprise to anyone, as we can look around us and see very clearly that satan wants our children. When the disciples told the parents to take the children away, Jesus told them to let them come, and He blessed them. He also warned those who would harm them in any way or cause them to lose their faith, their innocence, it would not go well with them. Look around today, listen to the people who want to kill babies up to birth, and if they're born, leave them on the table to die. We had a governor here in Virginia who felt that way prior to Governor Youngkin. Look at our schools. Is there any morality left? Are our children learning to be better citizens, moral and upstanding, kind and compassionate? Are they learning how to read, write, and do arithmetic? Are they taught etiquette, how to cook and care for a home, or how to fix things? Life learning? Do they know what a book actually looks like, or are they glue to a device? Do they know resources are available to them for greater learning? Are they taught about government? Even in kindergarten children are being told that they are not the gender they were born, or they have access to explicit information they are too young to consider much less see in action. Where does the fault in this lie? I'll let the readers figure it out. 

I seldom hear an altar call, and I seldom see conviction so heavy that regardless of the presence or absence of an altar rail, people are not rushing forward, falling on their faces before God, seeking His face. I remember my days in Colonial Heights Assembly of God with Larry Briggs as pastor preaching the uncompromising Word of God. Many, many times I would rush to the front of the church, along with others, kneeling or bowing, or lying prostrate on the floor, seeking His face, forgiveness, pouring from our hearts for others. What has happened? Personally, if I need prayer, walking up front in a line, waiting my turn to be prayed for doesn't cut it. Call me old-fashioned, but:

 "I run to the Father
I fall into grace
I'm done with the hiding
No reason to wait
My heart needs a surgeon
My soul needs a friend
So I'll run to the Father
Again and again
And again and again"

This is the chorus from a contemporary song, Run to the Father, by Cody Carnes and Matt Maher, and it adequately expresses my feelings. These are troubling times, and Jesus is the only answer. The return of Jesus is imminent, but Christians cannot sit it out, we must occupy until He comes. We have a higher mandate than a sedentary lifestyle. True intercession is costly, as it requires everything from a person, even if the majority of the time is being silent, listening to what the Father has to say to us or what Holy Spirit is relaying.

In Luke 18 Jesus is continuing his discussion regarding the Kingdom of Heaven, and He shares The Parable of the Persistent Widow, "that men always ought to pray and not lose heart." The story is about a widow who returns to her home and finds another in occupancy, so she goes to an unjust judge to seek help. Finding none, as he is unjust and unconcerned about her problems, she persists in her demands, until out of weariness, he sees to her needs. He has no fear of God over the matter, only what will bring ease to himself from her persistent nagging. In explanation of the parable Jesus says:

"Hear what the unjust judge said. And shall God not avenge His own elect who cry out day and night to Him, though He bears long with them? I tell you that He will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless, when the Son of Man comes, will He really find faith on the earth?" (Luke 18:6-8)

Will Jesus really find faith when He returns? 

Day 306 The Persecuted Church

 

11/2/2025 

 "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news.”

Isaiah 52:7

Today is the International Day of Prayer for the persecuted church, and we remember those who are suffering and who have given their lives for choosing to follow Jesus as Savior and Lord. Many have lost their lives and continue to be imprisoned just for speaking the Name of Jesus and for sharing the Good News. In some countries persecution is far worse than others, but the persecution, imprisonment, torture, and savage murders, and burning down of homes has increased, especially in Nigeria. Until recently when our President Donald J. Trump put Nigeria back on the list of those suffering harshly by their governments, the country had been removed by the former administration, causing things to become much worse. From a report I received today from the American Center for Law & Justice, "Over 7,000 Nigerian Christians have been killed in 2025 alone. Islamic radicals have decimated the nation. Encircling villages in the dead of night - massacring, raping, pillaging, and torching Christian communities. The Nigerian president has given cover to the ISIS-affiliated terrorists - brushing aside the targeting of Christians. At a mass burial site in Nigeria, Pastor Ezekiel Dachomo cried out: 'Nigerian Government (says): "There is no genocide of Christians in Nigeria." And look at it today. Is there any Muslim here?'" 

I have long followed the ministries of many who provide assistance and support to those areas that are heavily affected. Back in my younger years I became acquainted with Brother Andrew, a Dutch missionary, and the founder of Open Doors through his biography, God's Smuggler, that details how he smuggled Bibles behind the Iron Curtain in 1955. After the publication of his biography he became more concerned with the reaching other nations. This is an excerpt from a short biography from Open Doors:

"In 1975, Brother Andrew had a strong desire to bring together people determined to reach into communist China. With the help of Open Doors Asia he organised Love China in Manila, in the Philippines. This brought together more than 400 mission leaders, most of whom had served in China before Mao’s government kicked them out.

“Every time Andrew heard that word ‘impossible’ he perked up,” says Johan Companjen, the Founding President of Open Doors. “He had a vision to bring together people who were seriously interested in China. Andrew challenged the group that this was now God’s time for China, and our organisation paid most of the costs.”

"Within a year, Mao Zedong had died and most of the conference participants were able to start working once again in the People’s Republic of China."

"In 1981 Open Doors completed its most ambitious smuggling operation, delivering one million Bibles in a single night. Two thousand Christians were eagerly waiting for them on a secluded beach in China."

Brother Andrew continued his work until his passing in 2022 at the age of 94. 

Since early childhood I have been drawn to missionary work, and it had been my desire to travel to Africa once I retired, but God had a different plan. He showed me the world condition through other ministries - Voice of the Martyrs, International Christian Concern, and American Center for Law and Justice. I have been following Voice of the Martyrs for many years also, and more recently to others who rescue, assist, and support those persecuted to start a new life, live in safety, and grieve the loss of their loved ones while ministering the love of Jesus, for whom they gave their lives. Although Nigeria has been the hardest hit, North Korea has been listed as the number one country on the World Watch List provided by Open Doors, while Nigeria has been listed as #7. Many arrested for their faith in Jesus serve in severe, abhorrent conditions. Eritrea is listed as #6, and there have been several pastors who have been imprisoned for twenty years. A few years ago I received word that 350+ Christians had been released after serving ten years in Eritrea's prisons. On October 29, 2025 I received a communication from International Christian Concern informing of the kidnapping of American missionary pilot, Kevin Rideout, 48, from his home in Niamey, Niger, in the middle of the night by Islamic jihadists. The US Embassy in Niamey is working with local government, but so far I have not received an update. 

The photo I have included in the introduction is of Richard and Sabina Wurmbrand, missionaries to Romania during Communist occupation. Richard was arrested and served fourteen years in the cruelest of prisons, suffering untold torture, and a witness of murders and extreme abuse leading to deaths of others. It has been said that his survival after the unspeakable atrocities he endured was miraculous. His biography, "Tortured for Christ," is the story of his and his wife, Sabina's amazing journey in Christ's service. His documentation of Communist interrogation and subsequent life in prison is very vivid, but because of the delicacy of some forms of punishment, he did not elaborate. Knowing quite a bit of the barbarism inflicted upon prisoners in other countries, like Vietnam and Japan in earlier years, as well as reports I have posted on my bulletin board of Christians now serving in various countries, obviously I could include many more stories of men, women, and children who have overcome by the Blood of the Lamb, the word of their testimonies, and who loved not their lives to the death.

Suffice it to say that the stories are widespread and numerous, and the cries for prayer, support, and for others to serve are overwhelming. Mostly, what these ministries and the people they serve would most appreciate is knowing that someone cares and prays, someone listens, and someone shares. This is the ministry of the church, but sadly, the church is silent unless it directly affects one the missionaries serving in safer countries that they support. I do not mean to be harsh, but sometimes the truth is hard to accept. I write, because I must, and when, if God opens the door and says "Go," then I will go, even if my age seems impossible in making a difference. I have lived my life loving the people no one sees, and I would gladly give my life to walk beside them. In the meantime, I will obey God, and I will write the stories, hoping someone will hear the cries of the persecuted and answer the call.

 

Day 305 Lech Lecha

 

11/1/2025

 "Now the Lord had said to Abram:

'Get out of your country, from your family and

from your father's house, to a land

that I will show you.'"

Genesis 12:1

 

I woke up very early this morning with a massive spinal headache. I usually try to force myself to remain up, take a couple of acetaminophen, if I must, and stick an ice pack at the base of my skull. This morning, however, the pain was so intense that I was forced to lie back down and remain very still. Being a particularly chilly morning, the ice pack was not comforting, but eventually I was able to relax and fall back asleep until the alarm sounded. I was pretty hard on myself for giving in to my flesh earlier and lying back down, but I doubt that I would have been able to focus clearly had I remained up, but not at'um!

Today being Sabbath I was anxious for the service with Jacob's Tent, as I've missed the first two messages with Pastor Bill for the new year that recently started. Today begins our study of Abraham, with whom God made a covenant that believers enjoy today, although I seriously doubt that many fully understand the significance of God's covenants and how Gentiles truly fit into the picture. Each day I am baffled at the ignorance in the modern day church, how much Biblical history has not been taught about our Judaeo-Christian belief system. Such a shame that even today, theological seminaries and colleges teach heresy when it comes to God's land and God giving the land to His chosen people of Israel. Each Monday since May the International Christian Embassy Jerusalem (ICEJ) offers a webinar discussing the fallacy found in the church, as we discuss the Council of Nicaea from 1700 years ago, and the beginning of errant teaching of Replacement Theology and the birth and rise of antisemitism. These informational videos are available for anyone to watch on ICEJ's YouTube page.

Our Torah portion for today came from Genesis 12:1-17:27, and it is called "Lech Lecha" which translates to "Go for yourself." The Haftara or prophetic reading comes from Isaiah 40:27-41:16, and the Gospel portion John 8:51-58. Our Pastor Bill is an amazing and gifted story teller as he weaves the scripture portions together to form a comprehensive overview of scripture and how it relates to us today. So many people get the wrong idea that we're fixated on the five books of Moses, but we are being taught the whole counsel of God's beautiful Word for us today. And it answers every question asked if someone has the discernment and understanding to seek God with the whole heart and lean not to their own understanding. This is the mystery of God that Jesus spoke about using the Old Testament to reveal the veracity of the New Testament. God doesn't leave anything to chance.

In the very beginning God instructed Abraham to leave his father, his family, his homeland and go on a journey not knowing where the path may lead:

"Now the Lord said to Abram: 'Get out of your country, from your family and from your father's house, to a land that I will show you. I will make you a great nation; I will bless you and make your name great; and you shall be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and I will curse him who curses you; and in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.'" (Genesis 12:1-3)

Because of Abraham's faith and obedience to God, he is listed in Hebrews "hall of fame" scriptures:

"By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to the place which he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. By faith he dwelt in the land of promise as in a foreign country, dwelling in tents with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with him of the same promise; for he waited for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God."                  (Hebrews 11:8-10)  

Hebrews 11:1 introduces the faith God honors: "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."

Abraham was instructed by God to leave the familiar things associated with his life in a pagan country, to abandon connections, his heritage, or any associations that might impede his spiritual journey and growth. As we begin our walk of faith in Christ we are told that we follow the example of Christ by dying to ourselves, surrendering our new lives to Him and to His service, no longer a slave to our old flesh and sins. When we follow Christ in baptism we are following him in his death, burial, and resurrection to new life in Him, following His teachings, becoming salt and light to a world that desperately needs a Savior. In short, baptism is described as death to self, burial of our old sin nature, and resurrection to new life in Christ. By following God's instructions Abraham, then known as Abram, became the father of the Hebrew nation. It's interesting to note that Abram camped between Bethel and Ai (pronounced "eye") - Bethel means "the house of God." Ai means "ruins." By camping in between these two locations, it draws a careful thought about how we have the continual battle spiritually between God's best and our human desires that always war within us in our walk with the Lord. No one is perfect, except God, until we meet Him, we will have trials, but through Christ we overcome.

Looking at the teaching and applying it to my life, I can see more clearly that God has indeed had His hand on my life since very early childhood. We never will understand why such horrible things are allowed to happen to people, but we do acknowledge the bigger picture of the Lord. In looking at my own walk of obedience with the Lord, I have had to re-read accounts written in my journals that bring up many memories, mostly painful ones, but necessary as Holy Spirit is revealing to me things I did not understand back then, or had forgotten, and opening my eyes to see the meaning. Like Abraham I was asked to make a 2,000 mile journey in obedience to my husband who was running from something he did not want to deal with back then, and to date, he most likely has not put the matter to rest, hence his overwhelming thoughts of old age and the disability it might bring. It's sad to live confined to what could be rather than embracing all that God has for us each day. The move we made back then in 1987 was done clearly out of God's timing, and when we place our tents in Ai, following our fleshly desires, ignoring God's clear messages of caution, consequences will follow. These consequences did not only effect his life, but it also impacted mine and our children's lives. Today the pieces are slowly being meshed back together, but the process is slow because of the unwillingness to forgive.

As regards my life, however, I am beginning to see that although I failed at that time by walking in fear, rather than trusting wholly in God, I made a terrible mistake by trusting the wrong person. Women are prone to stupidity in most cases, but God had trained me better, and He had warned me early on before any of these things happened that ripped our family apart. I didn't understand then, because the word was hard, as were Jesus' warnings to the disciples, not believing we could slip, or misconceiving that we could be so noticed by the enemy that he would single us out. But Jesus said that the world hated Him, so it would hate us more. This is because when He ascended to God, back to His throne, He sent Holy Spirit to dwell inside of us to remind us of His training and the words He spoke, and so that He could intercede with Jesus and God the Father on our behalf. God never leaves us, never forsakes us. The problem is our wanting to "help" God, just as Abraham tried to do through Sarah's suggestion regarding Hagar, Sarah's maid. Look at the can of worms that opened that still plagues Israel today.

A closing thought about Abraham's obedience in following God's voice: Abraham believed what God said, and He left the comfort of all he once knew and struck out across the desert not knowing where it would lead. Thomas, the Apostle of Jesus Christ, however, would not believe Jesus had risen from the dead until he could actually see and touch His wounds. Isn't it much simpler just to trust Him, as He asks us to do? 

 

Day 304 Reformation Day

 

10/31/2025

 

Today is known as Reformation Day which is a Protestant Christian observance that commemorates Martin Luther's act of posting his 95 Theses to the door of All Saints' Church in Wittenberg, Germany in 1517. The theses was a list of objections to practices found in the Catholic Church which sparked the beginning of the Protestant Reformation. The tenets of this movement included: salvation by faith, the authority of scripture, and direct access to God. It is always celebrated on October 31st, because that is the day Luther performed his act of defiance towards what he considered a church that had strayed. I'm not sure that I have ever seen this day celebrated as such, but I was aware of the movement from history. So I learned something new today. That is always a positive thing.

Martin Luther was concerned with making things better, changing abusive practices of the Catholic Church in his time to conform to Biblical moral standards and values. It could be compared to the reign of King Josiah of Judah who was responsible for restoring true worship to God's house upon locating the book of the law. He was remembered for making many reforms in the land during his reign. Sadly, Luther did not remain as kind to the Jewish people, and this lead to antisemitism in his time. He is not alone in his opinions and feelings about the Jewish people, as the errant Replacement Theology is widely practiced in the church today. This is the belief that the church has replaced the covenant God made with His chosen people and established a new covenant since the religious leaders of Israel denied that Jesus was the Messiah. They feel that the Old Testament is no longer relative, so only the New Testament which speaks of Jesus is valid. I have spoken about this misconception previously, but if there remains doubt, a quick reading of Romans, chapters 9 - 11 should settle any disputes.

Otherwise, the day has been rather full, as it was a day of catching up on my reading, and it gave me a little extra time for personal reflection. It was also the birthday of a dear friend from New Mexico who passed away shortly after I moved to Virginia. I will always miss her, as she encouraged me to continue to write, and she made me laugh when times got tough. She always had a way of brightening my day, even when she struggled with her many health challenges. I know she's happy being home with Jesus, but I selfishly wish she'd stayed here awhile longer. My scripture verse for today seemed to fit the occasion well: "Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!" (Psalm 34:8) I can honestly say that Irma made the most of every moment, and she tasted of the goodness of our Lord, sharing His light with others. If someone needed a place to stay, she would open her home and invite them in. Every time someone visited, she made sure that they had something to eat. It always amazed me that there was always food prepared just in case! She knew I loved enchiladas, so magically they were always ready when I stopped by. She always made me feel part of her family and loved. Perhaps this was her way of bringing reformation to the lives of others.

Many thoughts passed through my head today, as I rummaged through some old cards and letters looking for one particular item. I've been trying to clean up some things, as my usual neat freak habits have waned since being here, so I cannot seem to locate anything I am looking for. When I neatly packed for the move, I think I didn't organize things very well, and although I've had four years to correct that mistake, things are still in a state of confusion. If there's a free spot on the table or any flat surface, it becomes a spot to stack another pile of important papers until I can file or sort or discard them. I was successful in cleaning off the kitchen table, filing most of the papers, while stacking a few on the dining room table, just until I can move them to the bedroom desk. I think I need to go back to work so I'll become organized again! 

My mismanaged papers are a far cry difference from the disorganization in our nation and world today. It is not surprising to me in light of the prophetic Word of God, but what I cannot understand is the lack of reaction and action from the church. How long will it take before those who call themselves servants of the most high God to get off their pews or get out from behind the podium and actually pray, on their faces before God, for a real revival that will truly reform this world?! Back in Luther's day change was made because someone was bold enough to shake the foundations of what was then known as the established church. We talk about our nation being founded on the principles of moral law, but I don't see any morality or sense of godliness left in this world. Certainly things have riled up since the murder of Charlie Kirk, but there is much more to be done, not just in Charlie's memory, but for the cause of Jesus Christ, and the God we are supposed to be serving. 

Right now our United States government is in a shut down, because seemingly mature and some godly men are actually behaving like despots. Rather than work together in unity displaying a strong and "united" government, they are showing the world the opposite. In case you have not noticed, the world is in chaos and being held captive by a handful of power-hungry people whom someone put in office, and I am not referring to our President, whom God Himself put in office to aid in the reform a corrupt nation. The world is being held captive in a web of deception, and it is time to wake up. New York City is about to vote in a man who clearly has stated a socialist view for government as his goal. He also is antisemitic, and the city has the highest population of Jewish American citizens in the country, to my understanding. It is interesting to note that this man, who has openly stated his antisemitic views, is being supported by a Jewish Senator. Nonetheless, just listening to what he considers the be an acceptable way of overseeing the affairs of the city is appalling. Would having someone with true godly morals, who happens to be in another party, be worse than this type of rule and law? It seems as if no one is able to think for themselves any more. It's follow the leader, regardless of whether the leader has any common sense or allegiance to the flag of the United States. Certainly this is my humble opinion, as everyone is allowed to have, or at least some are without being hauled off to jail, but something needs to be done. This nation is seriously overdue for a revival where God comes down and rocks the world back into shape. When the people, beginning with the church, realize the deep web of sin they have fallen into by doing nothing and caring only about themselves, only then can true reformation and sanity be restored to a nation and world that has clearly lost its way. If my words are not enough to stir the heart, check out the words of God written in the Bible, that is if you still have one and aren't relying on the Almighty AI on an electronic device.

"If my people, who are called by My Name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land." (2 Chronicles 7:14)

Day 303 Can We Mend?

 

10/30/2025

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on,

when in your heart you begin to understand...there is no going

back? There are some things that time cannot mend.

Some hurts that go too deep...that have taken hold."

Frodo Baggins

 

Considering Tolkien again - The Lord of the Rings trilogy. Listening to comments made by characters in books and plays by well-spoken gentlemen of earlier years, brings my own deeper thoughts to my remembrance. In the quiet hours of night, after my son goes quietly off to bed, I have only the cacophony of his raucous snores and the serenading bull frogs to inspire my creativity in writing. Then there's Mia's softer snoring and her occasional sharp retort.

Tonight we had eight ladies in attendance at my group meeting, including myself. That's pretty good, as attendance has been less sporadic lately. The discussion was about maintaining one's cool when trials and tests come, as they surely will come. The enemy tries to destroy our faith and peace while God allows tests and trials to build our faith and trust in Him.  Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego serve as examples  of demonstrating great faith when they were cast into the fiery furnace for disobeying Nebuchadnezzar's mandate to bow down to a statute of himself. Earlier, after Daniel and his friends were exiled to Babylon, they were put to the test immediately. King Nebuchadnezzar chose the young, handsome, and intelligent men to be prepared for his service, and as part of preparation to meet the king they had daily food requirements including being fed the best and richest foods. Daniel and his friends were not used to this type of food, so they requested a simple diet of vegetables and water. Daniel found favor with the chief eunuch in charge of their care, so he persuaded him to feed them their diet on a trial basis for comparison. He did, and the Lord blessed the young men for choosing to put Him first. Throughout the story of their exile in Babylon, Daniel and his friends found favor in the eyes of their overseers and the king, because they continued to put God first, and when recognized for a service and promoted, they gave credit to God.

God used Babylon to punish Israel for her disobedience to Him, just as He said He would, but He also used those whom He allowed to punish and take Israel into exile, to bring His people back and to foot the bill. He used King Cyrus of Persia to allow the return of those who had been exiled to return to Jerusalem for the rebuilding of the temple. Later on King Artaxerxes allowed Nehemiah, his cupbearer, to return to Jerusalem to build up the walls around the city that had been destroyed by invading armies of Babylon previously. All of this had been detailed in scripture, as well as the current return of the Jewish people who were scattered across the globe. The return of the modern day "exiles" is called aliyah, and God is calling His people back to Israel, even in the midst of the present day crises. Biblical prophecy is playing out before our eyes, although there has been much confusion in the church and in the secular world about everything that is happening in Israel and the Middle East. God is a covenant-keeping God, and He is fulfilling His promises made to the patriarchs of the faith.

Finally, Hamas has returned all the living hostages, but they are failing to return the deceased citizens, as they agreed to do in the treaty. We look forward to the day when all have been returned, so the families and all of Israel can begin to go forward with their lives. As Christians we know that the only one who can bring restoration is King Jesus, but, sadly, many do not know that the Messiah has already come, and they do not accept Jesus as Savior. So we continue to stand on the wall of intercession, and we pray for their salvation and for the Arab nations as well. Only God can bring healing and restoration, but it is coming. And Jesus's return is imminent.

Frodo's thoughts posted above about returning to life, picking up the pieces, has certain validity. Frodo knew that his life would never be the same, because of the price paid in order to receive freedom for the others. Everyone else could adjust over time, or set off for new horizons, but for Frodo and others, the story ends, at least in that world. Looking at the circumstances existing in our nation and in the world, how does one pick up the pieces or even continue on? 

Since Charlie Kirk's murder Turning Point USA has grown exponentially overnight, yet Erika and her children have a greater adjustment to make. Knowing her determination to continue Charlie's legacy, Erika will do wonderfully, especially with the support she is getting from so many people who loved Charlie and supported the ministry. Personally, in the quiet times, it will be harder, but they had a unique marriage, one truly made in heaven, so she has those blessed memories to cling to, giving her strength. 

In Israel, God will ensure that she lands on her feet, because the Jewish people are His chosen people, with whom He has a covenant, and He always keeps His covenants. Those nations who stand with Israel will be blessed, according to the Word of God, but those countries who continue to curse Israel by turning their backs on her and withdrawing support, will not go unpunished. In fact over the years if one looks at history closely, there are many examples of events where nations acting against Israel have already been punished. I won't go into that now, but suffice it to say, there are no coincidences with God.

Right now, our beloved nation of America is going through perilous times, and unless the church wakes up and stands up, we are in for even rougher days. This is not my assumption, but it is scriptural. I am not afraid, because I am a servant of the most high God, and Jesus is my Savior and Lord, but for those who do not yet know Him, or those who do not truly serve Him, their lives hang in the valley of decision. There are so many lies, so much deception, and so many people, including professing Christians, are not seeking to find out the truth for themselves. The truth is being exposed, with evidence noted, so that anyone can find out the facts for themselves. Ironically, not many choose to look for themselves, rather they listen to the cover ups of social media, newspapers, and naysayers. This government shut down is a case in point. Please wake up, America. 

As for me, my life has been greatly changed over the years, transformed thanks to my decision to follow Jesus, putting God first in my life, no matter what anyone else says or thinks. No, I am steadfast in my stand, and I invite anyone who truly wants to be free, to seek Him while He may be found. Therein lies peace that transcends all understanding! Selah. 

Day 302 Tell Them Daily

 

10/29/2025

"Our lives should be, according to our Lord's plans,

quiet but steadily flowing streams of blessing,

which through our prayers and intercessions should

reach our whole environment."

Ole Hallesby  

 

Last night, in the evening, I received unexpected news about a beloved friend whom I have not seen for awhile, and it has shattered my world. Since coming home I have received news from my previous home, my home away from home, a place I miss terribly, as I left behind many memories, and I have grieved the passage of time.

As most people know about my life, I moved back home to Virginia in 2021 the end of this October marking my fourth in my parents' home, shared with my younger son. Prior to this I spent thirty-five years in the beautiful Sangre de Cristo mountains of northern New Mexico, where my life changed drastically on one hand, and wonderfully on the other. This is where I found true joy and peace, and I met a lot of wonderful people who became my friends. 

When we first moved to New Mexico in January 1987, shortly thereafter I met my spiritual mentor and his wife, Peter and Rebekah Laue, who have been my friends since that time. They lived in Pagosa Springs, Colorado, but I met Peter through a mutual friend, Don Comptom, who was working with the boys' school in Springer, New Mexico, and my husband visited the prison regularly with Don. I can't remember how they chanced to visit us at our store in Las Vegas, but we became fast friends. Peter and I shared a common ministry of intercessory prayer. Peter and Rebekah had a sizable log cabin with a room over the garage lovingly called, "The Hiding Place," where many people have visited over all the years to be alone with God and sit in His lap. It's a wonderful place, and it became home to me, as I visited frequently. Since being in Virginia, however, I have not returned, but I wrote Peter and Rebekah a letter last week about my plans to visit my daughter and friends in New Mexico soon, and my deep desire to visit them and spend time with them in the Hiding Place. 

Last night, I received an unexpected phone call from Peter's son, John, who lives in California, asking me to give him a call, at his dad's request. I did, and I received the sad news that Rebekah had passed on to glory on Sunday after going through a tough few years where she became weaker and weaker. Peter had tried to get her up Sunday, but she was way too weak, so as she lay in bed, she said, "Peter," and he responded, "Rebekah." Then she said "I see light," and she went to be with Jesus. A simple, beautiful way to end a well-lived life. I can't think of a better and more peaceful way to go from this world to the next, forever with Jesus. John shared that he and his dad walked up to the mailbox yesterday to mail me a letter, and they found mine waiting in the box. He said our letters touched each other, and this stirred Peter's grief-stricken heart so much he wanted John to contact me. I'm so glad he did, sharing with me the last days of Peter's beloved handmaiden, as he tenderly referred to Rebekah. Peter obviously is grieving greatly, and I am having a difficult time of it myself. I regret not having talked to them more often, but they were not the kind to share such news. Life with Jesus is full of love, joy, and pleasure. 

Rebekah was a wonderful artist, and Peter has been a powerful writer, witnessing of the power and transformation in his life. A sample of his earlier writings can be found on an old website - https://www.stretcherbearers.com. Stretcher Bearers for Christ is the name of their ministry, and over the years their home in Pagosa Springs has been an open door for many travelers on the road to discovery in Christ. I'm not certain when I'll be able to go visit, as I am certain Peter needs time alone, and then, the holidays will bring his family. Plans for Rebekah's memorial will be individually celebrated, as each of their friends, myself included, will visit and share the time listening and remembering, alone with Peter. In a few days I will try to call, but I will be sending another letter.

I regret that the time passes by so quickly, and we become so busy in our lives that we fail to stop and make the effort to connect with those we love. When I shared this news with my older son, who has been battling cancer mostly on his own, due to troubling circumstances that have caused him to isolate himself from the family, with the exception of occasional text messages to me, he responded so:

"Well, at least she died with people who care. That's more than most people get. With health care issues so bad in this country it's only going to get worse sadly. Enjoy the time you have and tell the people you care about how you feel. I think that's the hardest lesson to learn. We all think we can do it tomorrow. But tomorrow isn't guaranteed." 

Wise words from one so cynical about life at this present time, but regardless of what he's going through, he has always responded to me with caring words, and even if he seldom says the words I'd love to hear, I know he loves me. His words are true. Regret is something I have had to live with too much, but I purpose with all my heart to try to do better. We are not promised tomorrow, and we do need to make the most of the time we have been given. Wiser words I cannot say, so I leave it here. 

Day 301 He Sees Me

 

10/28/2025

 "Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,

and cleanse me from my sin.

For I acknowledge my transgressions,

and my sin is always before me."

Psalm 51:2-3

 

It seems as if I have been in an intense spiritual battle for a few weeks, and particularly this one. The assault of the enemy is coming in seven different ways! Or so it seems. I just realized that this is the end of the month, and Friday is Halloween. Of course! The good thing about me is that I don't allow the enemy to get to me, because it doesn't matter who he uses to mount a full scale war against me, I am not going to lose my joy or my peace. I may get a little irritated, and I may shed some tears, and I may even tell God the same thing again - "Lord, I am so tired!" But then He quietly reminds me of Jesus' sacrifice and all He endured while on this earth. Likewise, He gently reminds me that Jesus is seated in heavenly places, right beside Him, in Heaven, making intercession for me. In other words, They are aware of my circumstances, and my feelings, and They are praying, plus Holy Spirit, who dwells inside of me, is interceding form me, sending messages to Them on my behalf! It's not as if I'm in it alone! I wonder if more Christians realized this fact would their overall view of life change?! 

Over this year of blogging, and even before, I have often shared about the pitfalls of my life, and it hasn't been easy, but it has been an amazing journey, and it continues to be that and more. All I do is try to be obedient to His word and to His daily instructions that He provides. Yesterday, while out traipsing around in the rain, running errands, with my friend, she asked me a question that opened up a sore spot in my history. She quietly listened as I shared my somewhat colorful life of wrongful accusations in my teenage years on through later life and my fall from grace, as I call it. My wake up call, which was almost instantaneous, as I have always walked with Jesus, or tried, even in my deepest, darkest hurts. At one phase of the conversation she asked me if I had forgiven myself, and believing I had, I replied, "yes" to her question. Later on, as I spoke to God about it, I realized that the reason the enemy is still able to drag me over to the proverbial rabbit hole, but he is unable to drag me under and down into that pit again is because I have not completely forgiven myself, but I willfully resistant to his devices.

I thought about it, and in the morning, bright and early, the confirmations of the word of the Lord came to me first through my friend, then Pastor Jack Hibbs whose scripture verses of the day were Psalm 51:2-3, as noted above. As the Lord always confirms in threes, to me at least, it happened again in my daily reading. As I was searching my heart, I realized that in order to break the cycle I needed to first, acknowledge that I needed to forgive myself, because God has forgiven me and no longer knows what I'm talking about! It's ancient unremembered history! Then, make certain that I truly forgave the ones who hurt me and abused me, and forgive those who try to blame certain things on me or accuse me of things not my doing. I need to set boundaries. That will require a bit more work, as I don't know how to do that. I have always shouldered the burden for everyone's shortcomings, but with God's help, I will persevere!

So, from now on, when the enemy tries to remind me of things that happened in the past, my response will be to silence him with "It is written....!" Just as Jesus did in the wilderness for 40 days and nights! I hope I don't have to duke it out with satan for that long continually, although he is tenacious in his sadistic ways, but God's word is forever settled in heaven, as I am fond of sharing. It is powerful and more active than any two edged sword (Hebrews 4:12). The only way the enemy can continue to bludgeon me with evil words and deceptive lies is if I allow him to do so. He has no authority, no open door, unless I allow one. 

Just as my eyes have been opened, bringing new life and much-needed healing, I pray that my words do the same for my readers. God's forgiveness is for all those who truly believe in Jesus and accept Him as Savior and Lord, as our Redeemer! Then we are faithful to forgive, as we have been forgiven of MUCH, and we grow in His grace and love, fulfilling His call to be a servant to others. This is our true FREEDOM! Share the good news!  

Day 300 Betrayal

 

10/27/2025

"In Thy faithfulness answer me."

Psalm 143:1 

 

As morning light breaks forth, the beginning of a new day, another page of life is born. A new chapter unfolds. A verse of poetry bequeathed in memories, hopes, and dreams, but lying underneath a web of lies, deceit, and deep scars. Help me weave a tapestry, a beautiful portrait of love and healing today, Lord. Aid me in eradicating the fear of daily betrayal, verbal arrows from one whose anger lashes out on innocence. Let your grace be sufficient for me today. My life is surrendered to You, as is my heart and soul. 

Sometimes I want to yell "Enough! Enough of the lies!" But I don't, because I don't want to hurt another's feelings, yet my heart aches with the pain of the insults that never cease. Sometimes I feel as if a target is drawn on my back, visible for all to see and draw aim. Are kindness and compassion inferior to hate? Can love break through and soothe the inner torment of a loved one's heart? I pray for answers.

"If I bow before Him in my inner chamber, then I am in contact

with the eternal, unchanging power of God. If I commit myself for the day

to the Lord Jesus, then I may rest assured that it is His eternal, almighty

power which has taken me under its protection and which

will accomplish everything for me."  

 Andrew Murray

Day 299 Blessed Assurance

 

10/26/2025

 "I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and 

delivered me from all my fears."

Psalm 34:4

 

The old hymn played over and over again in my mind carrying me on wings of prayer, bringing tears to my eyes. David the shepherd boy spoke of tears in the night being his companion, so I am certain that in his fellowship with the Great Shepherd worship was sweet and saturated with His presence. There is no fear in God's love. No matter what happens in the day or how many arrows fly by night in our dreams or internal conflicts that impede our sleep, His presence is tangible and real.

Blessed Assurance, Jesus is Mine

"Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine! Heir of salvation, purchase of God, born of His Spirit, wash'd in His blood.

This is my story, this is my song. Praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight, visions of rapture now burst on my sight; angels descending bring from above echoes of mercy, whispers of love.

This is my story, this is my song. Praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, all is at rest, I in my Savior am happy and blest; watching and waiting, looking above, fill'd with His goodness, lost in His love.

This is my story, this is my song. Praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long."  

Sitting here, listening and praying with the Christian embassy intercessors, someone says that "Unity is the soil where peace grows." He was referring to the perfect shalom peace that God offers, a peace that is lacking nothing, complete in every way - perfect! When the Jewish people say "Shalom shalom" in greeting or when leaving, it is said in the meaning of "May God's perfect peace be with you." We who love Israel, and who are learning to speak Hebrew, feel the same. One day we will be speaking Hebrew with Jesus, when He returns and takes us to our forever home.

A sweet spirit rested over the encouraging word spoken by Pastor Jonathan this morning at church. It was good to be in fellowship with the local body today. It was equally inspiring and uplifting to continue our study through the Old Testament with Pastor Greg at Harvest Ministries as we observe the appearance of Jesus to many Old Testaments characters, such as Daniel, Jacob, and Joshua. I love the balance of the word of God, one book, His Word, forever settled in heaven according to Psalm 119:89. More and more pastors are exhorting the church to memorize the word of God. It indeed is a lamp unto our feet and light unto our paths, as Psalm 119:105 states. When we have the word within us, and trials come, immediately we can defeat the negative attack, and use the words Jesus spoke to satan when He faced him in the wilderness by saying "It is written...!" 

The word speaks with clarity, and the wisdom of God is found on the pages of scripture. Studying the word and becoming intimately aware of the meaning of Biblical texts and times will be a strength in these disturbing days of mixed truths and messages. Jesus said many will be deceived, and I am witnessing the horrible effects of this reality. Knowledge of the Holy One or fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom that leads to blessed assurance. 

Day 298 Knowing

 

10/25/2025 

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for,

the evidence of things not seen."

Hebrews 11:1

 

Shabbat Shalom! It's a lovely Sabbath day with bright sunny skies, and a slight chill in the air that hints of cooler weather on the rise. I've missed services with Jacob's Tent for the last two weeks, so I was anxious to be back with them. This is the third Sabbath since the beginning of the new calendar year for the Jewish people, so the reading of the Torah - the first five books of the Bible - began all over again. I enjoy reading through the Bible again each year, because I learn something new each time I read it. My pastor has us studying a different book of the Bible, plus Jack Hibbs also covers a book at a time. I should be a scholar by now, but I am still learning, and I plan to continue to do so.

Today we discussed the life of Noah, a man counted as righteous by God, who was tasked in building an ark to house Noah and his family as well as two of every animal, birds and other species. God had grown weary of man's sinfulness, so He purposed to destroy the earth and all living creatures on it with a flood. The world had become so wicked, and the LORD saw that the wickedness of man was so great and his thoughts and the intents of his heart so vile that God was sorry He had made man. But Noah found grace in the eyes of the LORD, and He chose Noah and his family to survive the flood, so they could start again.

When Lamech, Noah's father, named Noah, he said, "This one will comfort us concerning our work and the toil of our hands, because of the ground which the LORD has cursed." (Genesis 5:29) Noah's name meant "rest." God spoke to Noah telling him that the earth was full of violence, so He was going to destroy it. He gave Noah instructions in how to build the boat, and Noah followed the command of the God without question. God told Noah that He would bring the floodwaters, but up until this time, no one had ever seen rain. He then promised Noah that He would establish His covenant with him, and from Noah would come all nations.

Imagine how much faith it took for Noah to step out and follow God's commands. Pastor Jack shared his experience as a new believer. He said that he read every book he could read, he was so hungry for the word of God, and anxious to experience His manifest presence. He said he labored for 5 months, until he realized that experiencing the presence of God comes from faith alone. God's words are truth and life, and that's the evidence. As I thought about it, considering my son's desire to see Jesus tangibly in this house, I thought that faith makes seeing unnecessary, because it's not sight, it's the knowing that makes the experience real, not a feeling, a knowing. We don't need signs, we just need faith, because His word is the evidence.

We, as believers in Christ, have so much to be grateful to Noah for, because his faith and obedience to God made it possible for us to be part of the covenant along with Israel. One man was considered righteous in God's eyes out of all the population. God did not say that his family was righteous, only Noah, but they were included along with Noah. This pattern will be seen in God's dealing other characters in the Bible. One God-fearing man plus his entire family are saved. It's a gift! 

Day 297 Master Designer

 

10/24/2025

"Our prayer life will become restful when it really dawns upon us 

that we have done all we are supposed to do when we have 

spoken to Him about it. From that moment we have left it 

with Him. It is His responsibility."  

O Hallesby 

 

Sometimes it's hard to let go, especially when it concerns our children, no matter how old they are. We can't turn the switch on and off when it comes to matters of the heart where our children are concerned. I've had more than my share of considerations when it comes to the welfare of my children over the years. I sometimes wonder if I was meant to have children, as I am told it was medically impossible, yet I birthed three healthy children. I experienced medical challenges all throughout my childhood, but as hard as my daddy tried to find help and, at best, relief, there was nothing medical science could offer in my era. Still I managed to survive, and I doubt that many of my classmates or friends even noticed. It was harder to hide the headaches when they became nauseating and so painful that I needed to lie down and cover my eyes, but I don't recall staying home from school much. It simply was not allowed. Sunshine or rain, we went to school. 

But here I am today, and although those first 57 years of my life were long, painful, and sometimes debilitating, I found unique ways to cover up, raise kids and run a household, go to college, mange jobs, volunteer at school, church, in the community, and a great many things. In spite of it all, I thank God for keeping me during those years. He heard me cry a lot, but He cradled me in His arms, taught me how to stand and be strong, finding His strength in time of need. I'm 75 now, so I've had a nice reprieve except for a few things over the years. Recently, I've been discovering that I can't do certain things as I used to, or at least, it's not advisable, but I still find ways around it. Right now I have a roof that needs some shingles nailed back down, and I have few interested in climbing a steep roof. I think I can make it up and get the work done, but I'm a little anxious about working my way back down. I guess we'll see how that one turns out. The fall from the crepe myrtles still haunts me, and the colder weather threatens to limit some movement. There are so many choices one has to make in life. "To do" or "not to do" that is the question!

I recently learned that certain members of the family for whom I pray daily are not inclined to faith in God. Religion is not something they have any interest in pursuing. I don't know why people don't realize that I am not religious or particularly spiritual. I am a follower of Jesus Christ, the One, the only One, who gave His life as a ransom for mine and theirs. I just accepted Him and His incredible gift of friendship and a relationship with God, who created me and everything else in this world. I once read: "Close your eyes and you'll see how much really belongs to you." That's a fact based on scripture that is true, proven, and on which I stand. How else could I have made it through this crazy life. And I've only shared bits and pieces thus far in blogs, even in conversations with others. My own sister knows very little about my life, but she's learning more since I moved back home. She's probably glad we don't get together much. My primary topic is Jesus. I live for Him. He's my go-to for everything. He's my life. Why is that so threatening to people. 

Life hasn't been easy for my children, and over recent years, I am discovering little secrets they were made to keep from me. Painful things, things I never wanted for any of them. Parents, who love their children and dream about the lives we desire them to have, would never want to see anything bad happen. I have a hard time seeing anyone mistreated or harmed in any way. Today I happened upon an article about a place in this State that is similar to my dream for an island of misfit toys, except this one is on a much grander scale. I wondered if it might be a place where I can volunteer, so I began to dream again.

In the book of Matthew Jesus is talking to the crowds, while the Pharisees are hanging around asking questions. He's sharing a message on the Parable of the Talents,giving illustrations about the Kingdom of Heaven and being prepared. In Chapter 25 He has already discussed the Parable of the Wise and Foolish Virgins, now Jesus is giving a more pointed sermon about the use of talents. He used money as the talent given, but talents can refer to gifts and callings, being faithful in little things, gaining more. The point of the parable is about multiplication of what He has entrusted us to use for the Kingdom. In this parable for the two people who wisely used what He gave them to manage, their talents were doubled, but for the one who did nothing, his talent was taken away and given to the one who made a profit. I think about this often, comparing it to the verse in Luke 12:48: "For to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more." Commentators say this can refer to wealth, gifts, talents, resources, knowledge, and a great many variables, yet to me it can also mean the degree of one's redemption. There is nothing we can do to buy salvation, but our gratitude is spelled out in our willingness to be faithful in all things. We are saved by faith, yet the word says faith without works is dead (James 2:17, 26). Jesus instructs us as He departs for Heaven to be diligent and continue to work, occupying until He returns. I have done a great many things in my life using the talents He has given me, and the gifts. Now that I am older, and frequently, slower, my mind continues to explode with ideas that I want to develop, and I want to share them with others, as I did at one time. I feel as if there is always some more that I need to do or finish. I am writing, or making attempts, and I am available, or at least I try to be. 

Today I found myself looking over the Coolworks site, a seasonal website for jobs, mostly at parks, resorts, and hospitality areas. I discovered that Glorieta, New Mexico now has Adventure Parks, and the jobs are full time and seasonal with housing. Glorieta has always been a Christian Conference Center, so I am not sure when this transition took place, but I'm happy that the old campground has been revived. It sounds like something right up my alley! I always dreamed of my place, my home for "misfits," and my children were part of the dream. But I realize more and more that things don't always turn out the way we'd love them to be. As sad as it is for me to watch my children, and my extended family, struggle, I have to lay it at the foot of the cross in the capable hands of the Master Creator/Designer. Just as He formed me and has a plan for my life, so He has an even better one for each of them. I will continue to pray, and I will trust Him. He has never failed me, or them, yet! And, He never will.  

Day 296 Gargle or Drink

 

10/23/2025

"Some Bible students drink at the fountain of

knowledge, others just garble."

Our Daily Walk

 

Jesus said, "If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink." (John 7:37).  In the beautiful old hymn, There is a River, the chorus goes as follows: 

"There is a river and it flows from deep within. There is a fountain, that frees the soul from sin. Come to this water; there is a vast supply. There is a river that never shall run dry". 

When considering the study of scripture in preparing for a sermon or considering a puzzling portion of a scripture that seems contradictory or otherwise difficult to understand, there is the temptation to seek the opinion of noted scholars in commentaries or their own exegesis written on the pages of their books. Wouldn't it be easier to sit down with God and discuss the matter with Him? I remember when I was in college, taking advanced literature courses as electives, if I had difficulty with a poem by T.S. Eliot, for example, I'd spend hours in the library reading critiques, rather than labor for hours trying to discover the secret of his prose for myself. In the long run, however, I did formulate my own opinions, but they had already been influenced by those of others. Today, if I decided to take a course just for the fun of it, I'd rely on my own considerations. With regard to scripture reading, I have never been one to really look past the scriptures, especially in the past thirty-five or more years, as I've developed a deeper personal relationship with God, and a love of His Word that holds all I need for life and godliness. Being an intercessor, spending time in prayer, reading the word to apply it to my prayers, I spend time listening and asking God's opinions or meaning on passages I find puzzling. I feel that's the better way, and it turns out that God wants to sit, chat, and teach me while enjoying a cup of coffee. It's called relationship, and He's all for it! That's the reason we're here - to learn of Him and to grow like Christ.

At the Passover celebration that Jesus shared with His disciples, He used that time to detail what was going to happen next - how He would be betrayed by one of His followers, how Peter would deny Him, and how the others would scatter and run. He told them the particulars of His trial, torture, ridicule, crucifixion, burial, and His resurrection. He washed their feet thereby demonstrating to the disciples that in order to be great in the Kingdom of Heaven, you had to be willing to be a servant. He taught them humility and kindness. He even instructed them on what would happen after He left, how He would send the Helper or Holy Spirit to help them. He wanted them to know that He would never leave them nor forsake them. And He wanted to let them know that He would return for them one day and bring them into His Kingdom. It was a lot to swallow in one evening, but then, Jesus had been telling them a lot of this over time. 

Jesus wanted them to be prepared for what would happen in the future, even past their time on earth, yet He wanted them to know that although they would share persecution and an end similar to His own, He would always be with them. Holy Spirit would be their Guide, reminding them of all He taught, of all the miracles He had done. He would indeed be their Comforter, as He is to us today. The promises Jesus made for His disciples then are true for us today. He warns of false prophets, those pretending to be Him, showing up saying they are the Christ and to follow them. But He warned us to beware and to be prepared for what is to come, what is already here, right now, staring us in the face. I wonder how many truly see and understand?! So many terrible things, calamities have happened, that it is hard to think that what is to happen will be more catastrophic than anything we have ever experienced or witnessed. But the scriptures are true. Persecution is already worldwide, and if we disobey God concerning Israel, then we will experience worse than Pharaoh when he would not let God's people go. Did Jesus mean to frighten us? No, because in John 16:33 Jesus says: "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

After saying these words Jesus lifted His eyes to Heaven and spoke to God, His Father in Chapter 17 of John. He prayed for His disciples, but He also included all believers who would come to know Him through the Good News that they would share to a lost and dying world. And that is our journey in Christ. We are told to go into the world, all of it, and preach the gospel, making disciples of all men, performing miracles, healing, deliverance, using the gifts of the Spirit freely. To do great exploits for the glory of God the Father, preparing for His Second Coming. That was the mandate then, and it remains the same for today. So, drink deeply of the water of the Word of God, come and sit with Jesus the better part of your day, learning of Him, there is a vast supply of this soul-drenching flow. "Come to this water; there is a vast supply. There is a river that never shall run dry". 

 

Day 295 A Man After God's Heart

 

10/22/2025

"Pride is the only disease known to man that makes

everyone sick except the one who has it."

Daily Walk

"I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners, 

to repentance."

Luke 5:32

 

Have you ever met someone who always had to be right? I don't know why that is unless it is a lack of self-confidence that is played out in a different way. I will never understand the motives of another's heart, but then I don't have to. That's God's business. But I am called to love everyone just as they are. Sometimes this is hard.

When Jesus was ministering to the people, He drew crowds from all walks of life and all ambitions. In fact He was highly criticized by the Pharisees and other religious leaders for the company He kept. When the Pharisees questioned the type of people He hung around with, those He separated for His reasons, He answered them with parables. If they questioned Him, hoping they'd trick Him, so they would be able to accuse Him of a crime, He would always counter with His own questions. Although the religious leaders wanted to trap Him so they could haul Him away to the Romans for treason, keeping their hands clean, Jesus would always silence them. They knew if they answered in a way that displeased the people, they would have to face a battle. So they waited, schemed, kept trying to set Him up. Eventually, all their conniving paid off with the arrival of Judas, the betrayer, but even then, Jesus could have called on the angels of Heaven to rescue Him from death, had He so chosen. But He didn't. 

When the Pharisees complained about Jesus dining with tax payers, prostitutes, and other seedy individuals, Jesus told them that He had called sinners to repentance, not righteous men, such as themselves, although He implied the last part. In this instance, he spoke about their spirituality and how they loved to be seen by others as important and powerful, to be feared and "reverenced." That really didn't go over very well, but then, usually when someone stands up and speaks the truth, people become offended. Jesus could be very direct, but He was here on a mission, and His plans or the plans of His Father, would not be thwarted.

Today Dutch Sheets, Give Him 15, commented on what he called "The Gift Mentality," common in the earlier days of the Charismatic revolution of earlier years and during the Jesus Revolution of the 70's. The new Christian believers, hungry for the Lord, often tried to grow too fast, and they misused the gifts of the Spirit that they were given. In the Jesus Revolution movie Chuck Smith of Calvary Chapel who shepherded these new Christian believers from the hippies movement, didn't really know how what to say when Lonnie Frisbee started experiencing the move of Holy Spirit in his life with gifts of knowledge and healing. Lonnie, not knowing how to respond decently and in order, as the Bible instructs, often interrupted the services, and eventually was asked to leave or chose to leave, when he was counseled by Chuck on this habit. Over the years this misuse of gifts and the subsequent problem of people running after the gifts more than the Giver of all gifts, led to a haughty spirit and misused the gifts of God. Dutch shared about one man, Hubert Lindsay, who although he was a part of The Jesus People Movement, experienced a different response to how to reach people for Christ. Dutch share:

"'I became so burdened for this generation,' Mr. Lindsay said, 'that I would walk the streets of the campus - sometimes all night long - weeping and interceding for those lost kids. I pleaded with God to save those young people.' God had given this man His heart for a lost generation."

Mr. Lindsay wasn't about the "gifts," he was about the calling - the Giver! He was a man after God's own heart, like David. It makes a difference in a ministry. Today we're seeing many people claiming to be gifted and using the title of "Apostle, Prophet, Evangelist, pastor, teacher" which are the five-fold ministry gifts given for the edification of the church. Some say these gifts are no longer in operation, because they have made a division between the Old and New Testaments, but they do recognize spiritual gifts and callings. It can become too confusing and create division if we place our eyes on any other than God's Word. Contrary to the belief of many, the Bible is one book inspired by Holy Spirit. If Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever, then His Word is the same. If He is eternal, so is His Word. Yet there are so many who argue over these facts. Jesus told the Pharisees in Matthew 23:24: "You blind guides! You strain out a gnat but swallow a camel." He said this in response to the heavy laws they were adding to the scriptures to burden the people, while not practicing them in their own lives, as they were too impossible to keep. He told them that they exalted themselves by wearing phylacteries and enlarging the borders of their garments. In verse 14 of Matthew 23 Jesus scolded them by saying: "'Woe to you, scribes and pharisees, hypocrites! For you devour widows' houses, and for a pretense make long prayers." 

Because Hubert Lindsay followed God's way, crying out for the souls of others from pure heart, earnestly desiring to see change in the hearts of the generation, God blessed him with revival, which is the fruit harvested from good seed planted on the prepared soul through intercessory prayer done in the secret place alone with God.  

Day 294 Layers of Blessings

 

10/21/2025

"Mercy, peace, and love be multiplied to you."

Jude 2

 

For the past couple of nights I have been unable to keep my eyes open, so I've gotten to bed a little earlier than usual. The only thing is that I wake up exhausted. I think that has a lot to do with whatever is going on with my health, but then who knows, because I really don't pay that much attention to cause and effect. I made chicken and rice soup on Monday, so I know that will cure my ails or so the ole wives' tales go. But since I didn't have to worry about supper tonight, it left me a bit freer to venture outside on this beautiful afternoon and battle the bushes. I had to contend with birds building nests amid the thorny vines, so some areas still need cutting. I hate to disturb nature, so those will have to wait. My cat was missing in action again, and it would have been the perfect day to play with him as I raked or cut branches or hauled the trimmings to the burn area. But no, Alejandro - that's what I call him when he behaves badly - never showed up, nor did he announce his appearance at the dinner bowl. Cats!! I say that a lot!

Before heading outside I was spending some quiet time, catching up on Pastor Jack's verse of the day. When I'm studying Paul's epistles, he always opens with "Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ," or similar words as a salutation. In the book of Jude, written by the half-brother of Jesus, his opening comments are "Mercy, peace, and love be multiplied to you." Then his next two verses are off and running about contending for the faith. As we read, Jude is warning the church about the battle of apostasy in the church and the emergence of false teachers who will infiltrate the body to cause confusion and chaos:

"Beloved, while I was diligent to write to you concerning our common salvation, I found it necessary to write to you exhorting you to contend earnestly for the faith which was once for all delivered to the saints. For certain men have crept in unnoticed, who long ago were marked out for this condemnation, ungodly men, who turn the grace of our God into lewdness and deny the only Lord God and our Lord Jesus Christ." Jude 3, 4 

I noticed that in Peter's first epistle he said "Grace and peace be multiplied." He was also dealing with issues outside of the church with false teachers creeping in. When Pastor Jack was discussing the verse, he said that the blessing was a layer on layer type blessing with the use of the term "multiplied." We know that "mercy" - more explicitly God's mercy - is not getting what we deserve; "peace" references God's shalom peace that transcends all understanding and is complete in every way; and "love" is God's agape love which is unconditional. Pastor Jack has a way of explaining things that makes it memorable. In this instance he uses In-N-Out Burger's 4x4 burger as an example, or perhaps that is his name for his favorite burger. It's like layer of layer of meat stacked on top of each other making it quite the sandwich. An adequate illustration for foodies, I imagine, but for me I much prefer layers of chicken and corn tortillas with green chili! But in considering this triple blessing of mercy, peace, and love, Jude is emphasizing the need for a greater blessing, or as Pastor Jack added in a world of ugliness, God makes all things beautiful. It made me think of Psalm 24 that opens with "The earth is the Lord's and all that dwells within." So in essence, the false teachers cannot contend with God's children, but as His children, we need to be ready to stand against every attempt of the enemy to sneak in. Peter reminds the church of how to remain in the faith and of the lifestyle they are to live. 

I received an email from one of the anti-trafficking ministries I follow announcing their short video nominee for the Utah Film Festival that, although tactfully done, was somewhat too graphic for my ole mind to see today. Or perhaps, not graphic, but suggestive, as it hits too close to home with me. But it opens up warnings for vulnerable teenagers, and how they are lured in by these professionals pretending to be a peer, or worse, showing interest in getting to know them better. Kids are lonely and confused, and in the world we live in, the schools are not protecting them well. In fact, they are making it worse. One thing leads to another and then the teenager is extorted with videos being spread around or threats of using the videos for gain. I haven't been able to become too involved in this area of ministry, because as I said, it is too close to home for me, but I do pray, post information, and I connect with several sites. Right now I know of a situation that is an open door to this type of betrayal or worse, but because of the denial of the parents, my hands are tied. Everyone has rights, until they are violated, and then it's someone else's fault or problem. Wrong. Parents need to be alert and open to truth. Experience means nothing to some people, as they think it can't happen to them. Wrong again. This is why I do not get excited by AI. Even Elon Musk has admitted the dangers of it, and yet our society is using it for everything. Years ago I saw a movie called Transcendance staring Johnny Depp (2014), that demonstrates the power of science and technology. It is well worth the viewing. 

These are troubling times, and whereas good things are happening with our young people, there are still problems plaguing the young. This is why we must be vigilant in contending for our faith and fighting for our homes and marriages. It's a time when we need layer upon layer of mercy, peace, and love, and we need to be busy spreading the word that God loves this world, and He sent a Savior to save us and deliver us from what is to come. Because what is coming is much worse than what is already here!