Thursday, October 16, 2025

Day 287 Hmmmm

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10/14/2025 

 "Each of us has a soul, but we forget to value it.

We don't remember that we are creatures made in the

image of God. We don't understand the great 

secrets hidden inside of us."

Teresa of Avila 

 

Reading has always been a favorite pastime for me, but sometimes I get so busy reading scriptures that I don't leave time to read anything else. Not that that is bad, because it is the best and only way to grow in our personal relationship with God so that we can teach others and lead them to salvation. But, it is  edifying to the soul to find nourishment in other works that give God glory. As I've shared before, I always ached to go to the foreign mission field and serve God as a missionary. But it seems as if, try as I might, the doors of my dreams became closed for me, whether it be through discouragement, timing, or favor of God. I still have the same ache and emptiness within me that screams for a chance to serve in the mission field. I feel that I'm too old now, as most ministries prefer younger couples. Since being home, I have investigated possibilities in the old ministries in which I participated, but those I knew have passed on to glory and are in the presence of God right now. We should never look back, and God assures me, we are never too old to serve.

The book I picked up a few days was Tortured for Christ by Richard Wurmbrand, a Pastor who spent 14 years in prison in Communist Romania, for sharing Christ. While imprisoned he continued to evangelize to his persecutors in spite of the torture he suffered. He wrote "I love the Communists with all of my heart." He also wrote that "Communists can kill Christians, but they cannot kill their love toward even those who killed them." What an amazing testimony of the transforming power of the love of Christ for another. He was betrayed by his friend, and even though he endured such trials in prison, he easily forgave his friend saying "we all make mistakes." The Bible speaks about the power of forgiveness, and it has been so clearly presented in Wurmbrand's life as in the lives of Corrie ten Boom and countless others. 

So far I have not been tortured for sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ, but I have been persecuted and warned not to share books with a certain family member, who had been reading the book of Revelation and asked me if I had a book she could read. I don't know why she became anxious after reading the Bible study guide, but she did, and I got blamed and verbally blasted. I've been betrayed by a Christian pastor, and I often wondered what I would do if I saw this man at the grocery store or elsewhere. Time went by, but when it did happen, I held no negative feelings towards him. The same is true of the first example. Neither of these cases compare to what Richard Wurmbrand experienced, but I can understand the power of forgiveness regardless of the situation. It sets us free, and even if they are never aware of it, it sets them free spiritually speaking.

Our lives are very different today than when I was growing up, but I always marveled at the missionary life, and I always wanted to be a part of sharing life, the gift of eternal life, with others. I'm sure that I have mentioned, many times probably, about my habit of reading stories about missionaries when I was a young child. I would spend a lot of time in the church library reading, imagining, and dreaming of some grand adventure. As a child, everything is an adventure, until reality hits home, as it often does. Regardless, as I've grown into the old lady that I now am, my heart still cries for Africa, and my heart grieves for the children whose innocence is stolen whether through abuse, neglect, war, or human trafficking. So many horrible things, unconscionable atrocities, sins of man upon innocent, trusting, vulnerable children. I don't understand it, and often I have asked God why it has to be this way, but I try to leave it in His all-knowing hands, but it hurts.

As Teresa of Avila says we all have a soul, and we are made in the image of God. We need to protect, value, and grow our relationship with Him. Again, I mention the secret place. He has so much that He longs to share with us as we sit quietly, reverently, in awe of His majesty, blessed by His appearing. Share your dreams with Him, and seek Him for the plans He has for you - plans to give you a future and a hope. I may never see the mission fields in another country, but I can hold them in my heart in prayer, and I can read about their lives in my monthly notices. I always pray, and I always will. My mission field for now is here with my family and the people He places in my path. Miracles in the making await the right response for a longing, empty heart. A soul who needs to know its value. We need only to ask, and Father will show us His desires. May we fill our hearts with gratitude for His faithfulness and blessings too many to count. But if you did count them, what would we say? How could we ever thank Him enough for breath, forgiveness, salvation, transformation, His mercy, His love, and His Amazing Grace. Start with honoring  Him for the first fruit of the air you breathe with each new morning.

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Day 286 Seek Peace and Pursue It

  

10/13/2025

 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you;

not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart

be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

John 14:27

 

It's been a very long night without sleep as we watched, waited, and prayed for the agreed upon release of the hostages. Israel's time zone is seven hours ahead of eastern time, so staying up was difficult. At one point I closed my eyes after the initial release of  four hostages, but I kept the news on to hear. There was a lot of noise from shouts of joy and rejoicingThe families of the hostages were waiting in Hostage Square in Tel Aviv for the release and for the arrival of President Donald J. Trump who flew in to address the families and to speak at the Knesset. His speech was well received by all present, as were the speeches by Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu, and Opposition Leader Yair Lapid. Speaker Amir Ohana of the Knesset presided and led the cheers of victory. When he identified Ambassador Mike Huckabee, he called him a "Rock Star," and he truly is a wonderful ambassador for Israel. President Trump was lauded for his service in establishing the 20 point peace treaty with the Middle East which included the immediate release of all of the hostages. 

Later in the day President Trump flew to Egypt where he met with a delegation of leaders of the Middle East who assisted with this treaty and for signing of the Peace Treaty. Those involved were: United States President Donald J. Trump and negotiators from Qatar, Egypt, and Turkey. It was a historic moment, and the world rejoiced for a victory they never thought would happen. We pray for peace always, but we also know as Christians that the prophetic time clock is ticking rather quickly, as demonstrations of antisemitism are still blatant and spreading. Hatred does not die easily, and this hatred has been going on since the beginning of time. 

As Christians we always want to rejoice, in fact, we are commanded to rejoice always:

"Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace that surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."  

Our Global Prayer Call was a time of praise and thanksgiving for God's mighty work in bringing this miracle to pass. Our time of worship included a song by Vesna Buehler from Psalm 126, a song of ascents.

"When the LORD brought back the captivity of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing. Then they said among the nations, 'The LORD has done great things for them.' The LORD has done great things for us, and we are glad. Bring back our captivity, O LORD, as the streams in the South. Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy. He who continually goes forth weeping, bearing seed for sowing, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him." 

Even in the midst of great joy, as intercessors, we remain steadfast as watchmen on the wall. Our faith is in God, not man, although God certainly has used President Trump as He did Cyrus of Persia so long ago. In fact Israel is calling President Trump their modern day Cyrus, and I believe the anointing is the same. We were reminded today that the peace treaty had 20 points that it turns out were negotiable, as there were changes allowed. But in scripture, in Zechariah 8, the Lord lists 10 points, all of which are not negotiable. 

Verse 2: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'I am jealous for Zion with great jealousy; with great fervor I am jealous for her.'" 

Verse 3: "Thus says the LORD: 'I will return to Zion and dwell in the midst of Jerusalem. Jerusalem shall be called the City of Truth, the Mountain of the LORD of hosts, the Holy Mountain.'"

Verse 4 & 5: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Old men and old women shall again sit in the streets of Jerusalem, each one with his staff in his hand because of great age. The streets of the city shall be full of boys and girls playing in its streets.'"  

Verse 6: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'If it is marvelous in the eyes of the remnant of this people in these days, will it also be marvelous in My eyes?' Says the LORD of hosts."

Verse 7&8: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Behold I will save My people from the land of the east and from the land of the west; I will bring them back, and they shall dwell in the midst of Jerusalem. They shall be My people and I will be their God, in truth and righteousness.'" 

Verse 9: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Let your hands be strong, you who have been hearing in these days these words by the mouth of the prophets....' Verse 11: 'But now I will not treat the remnant of this people as in the former days,' says the LORD of hosts."

Verse 14&15: "For thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Just as I determined to punish you when your fathers provoked Me to wrath,' says the LORD of hosts, 'and I would not relent, so again in these days I am determined to do good to Jerusalem and to the house of Judah.'" 

Verse 19: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'The fast of the fourth month, the fast of the fifth, the fast of the seventh, and the fast of the tenth, shall be joy and gladness and cheerful feasts for the house of Judah. Therefore love truth and peace.'" 

Verses 20-22: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Peoples shall yet come, inhabitants of one city shall go to another, saying, "Let us continue to go and pray before the LORD, and seek the LORD of hosts. I myself will go also." Yes, many peoples and strong nations shall come to seek the LORD of hosts in Jerusalem, and to pray before the LORD.'"

Verse 23: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'In those days ten men from every language of the nations shall grasp the sleeve of a Jewish man, saying, "Let us go with you, for we have heard that God is with you."'" 

Ten "Thus says the LORD of hosts" all non-negotiable, and many are happening now. Let us continue to watch and see what great things the LORD of hosts will do! 

Day 285 In Remembering - Rejoice!

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 10/12/2025

 "This is the day the LORD has made;

we will rejoice and be glad in it."

Psalm 118:24

 

Sometimes God really wants to get my attention, so He confirms verses to me - at least three times on the same day, at some point in each day. This time it was within minutes that He had this verse spoken to me from two pastors' messages', my devotional, and from reminding me of the prayer I speak when I wake up in the morning. It jump starts my day! This Psalm is one that is read at Passover as Jesus our Messiah is remembered and welcomed to the celebration. It is also read at other festivals of the Lord such as Hanukkah, Shavuot, and Sukkot as a song of praise and thanksgiving. I repeat this verse each morning before I get out of bed, because I want to remember that regardless of what happens during the day, I will still choose to rejoice in my Lord and be grateful for a new day to serve Him.

The day has been charged spiritually with expectation and hope in the air as we await the release of the hostages from Gaza who have been held by Hamas for 737 days. With each step made in preparation, it appears that this time the treaty will not be violated, and our prayers of 737 days will be answered. So we wait, and we pray, and, yes, we rejoice and give praise.

As the day progressed, once again the enemy tried to adjust my day and my attitude, but, thankfully, he did not succeed. On my prayer calendars for today these two quotations were given:

"Pray and never faint, is the motto Christ gives us for praying. It is the test of our faith, and the more severe the trial and the longer the waiting, the more glorious the results." E.M. Bounds

"We need to learn to know Him so well that we feel safe when we have left our difficulties with Him. To know Jesus in that way is a prerequisite of all true prayer." O. Hallesby    

Time spent in the secret place of the most high is a time of preparation, needed more at other times. It's a place where we must spend time each day to grow in His grace and glory, bask in His presence, and listen to His voice as He reminds us of the things we should know, as He leads and guides, and as He ever so gently prunes and refines us. 

"He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, 'He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in Him will I trust.'" Psalm 91:1-2

"You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance." Psalm 32:7

As I'm writing these words the familiar chords of the old hymn Great is Thy Faithfulness, is softly playing. During these times of waiting, rejoicing, remembering His faithfulness to us, I think of Daniel in the Lion's den; his friends Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in the fiery pit; and the prophets and obedient kings of Judah. I always thank Him for my family and the incredible miracles He's brought. Although things may appear difficult right now in my family, and certainly not what I would have expected or wanted, still I have no doubts that He will fulfill His promises to me, even if I don't live to see them. I refuse to fall into doubt and questioning when times become impossible at times. People fail, but God never. 

"What tore the veil, what empties hell, what never fails, only the blood. What testifies, what prophesies, death to life, only the blood." (Jesus Image)

I am exceedingly grateful to live in a country that stands with Israel as her number one ally and friend, a nation who understands the significance of Israel in our Judeo-Christian faith, the faith on which our country was founded. Our President Donald J. Trump is Israel's closest friend, and he stood against the formation of a Palestinian state and against the United Nations who have violated what the organization was established to do - "maintain international peace and security, protect human rights, foster friendly relations between nations and promote solutions to global problems." I am grateful that President Trump is not afraid to stand up for truth, go against the grain, and do the right thing especially when it is not the popular or "politically correct" thing to do. I'm so thankful to God that He has placed a man in the highest seat of government who obeys His word found in Micah 6:8: "He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?" He's not afraid to use the words "IN GOD WE TRUST." And He is not afraid to say that Jesus Christ is our Savior and LORD! 

The day is drawing close to a close for me, but it's early in the day for Israel, as they wait in Hostage Square in Tel Aviv. I'll be up all night waiting with them. Great is Thy Faithfulness, O Lord! 

Monday, October 13, 2025

Day 284 Vigilant

 

10/11/2025

 "Blessed be the LORD, because He heard the voice of my

supplications! The LORD is my strength and my shield;

my heart trusted in Him, and I am helped; therefore, 

my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song 

I will praise Him."

Psalm 28: 6-7

 

Sabbath is a day of refreshing, peace, and a time to relax and enjoy family. It is a day of rejoicing as we join with fellow believers in Christ, worshiping and studying the Word of the Lord. Shabbat begins for me on Friday evening, as it is observed in Israel, and I attend Shabbat in the Home with the Wilbur family online. It's short, but impactful, and I love the Wilburs! I also spend time with Marty and Jennie Goetz for an hour of worship and prayer. Marty Goetz and Paul Wilbur have been two of my favorite Messianic Jewish musicians, defenders of Israel, for many, many years. I can't remember when I began to worship with Jacob's Tent, perhaps eight years or more, but I love joining with them on Saturday morning as we open the word of God together, studying Torah - the first five books of the Bible written by Moses - as well as the entire Word of God - Genesis to Revelations. I also attend local and online Sunday services, as the Bible says in Hebrews 10:25: "Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching." I was raised in church, and my mother made sure that we were in church whenever the doors were open. Church attendance is part of the life that I choose to live, because I love God, and I want to grow in the knowledge of His will.

There are those who feel that I am somehow dishonoring God by attending both a Christian and a Jewish church, but obviously they do not know the word of God, nor do they know the character of Jesus. Jacob's Tent is a congregation of believers in Christ Jesus, from all denominational backgrounds, including Jewish born believers, who feel called together by the power of Holy Spirit to serve the Lord in one fellowship. They use the Hebrew calendar, follow the reading of Torah, as well as the complete Bible, they observe the feasts of the Lord, and by their own preference they obey the food laws, just as Messianic Jewish believers - Jews who have accepted Jesus Christ as Messiah. We are brothers and sisters in Christ, children of God as the scripture says in John 1:12: "But to all who received Him (Jesus Christ), He gave the right to become children of God."   

During the day, the enemy began rearing his ugly head. Actually, situations have been developing this week almost daily, as the persecution and warfare increases against me just for being a Christian and loving Israel. By Friday it amped up into almost a full scale war in the heavens, but I didn't have to worry about that, because God is all over it. He has been reminding me of things He has called me to do, that I have been obedient to do, but more is needed. Following Him is my life. He alone is my First and Only Love. 

The Feast of Tabernacles ends tomorrow, and although I could not attend in person, I did sign up for the online participation. I am a bit behind due to other difficulties I'm facing, but I'll catch up. I have each morning's prayer with the International Christian Jewish Embassy Jerusalem to look forward to. The enemy is very cunning and deceitful, and he can present himself as an angel of light. I am so thankful that God taught me that truth a long time ago, so I can be vigilant in removing the threat by "casting down imaginations." When the enemy tries to come in and accuse and seek to manipulate our lives, we give a scriptural response, just as Jesus did when He countered satan with the words "It is written...!" 

There is much deception in the world, and the chaos and distractions - and there are many, and they are extreme - attempt to draw our focus away from what God holds most precious. We are told to pray for our leaders and those in authority so we may live peaceful lives (1 Timothy 2:1-2). We are commanded in scripture to pray for the peace of Jerusalem in Psalm 122:6-9. As Gentile believers in Christ we are instructed by the Apostle Paul, anointed of God, in Romans, chapters 9 - 11 regarding our place, our purpose regarding Israel. John 4:22 reminds us that salvation comes from the Jews. Romans 1:16 "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Jesus Christ, as it is the power of God that offers salvation to everyone who has faith - to Jews first, and then to Gentiles, as well." And in Romans 11:11 Paul instructs: "I say then, have they stumbled that they should fall? Certainly not! But through their fall, to provoke them to jealousy , salvation has come to the Gentiles."

I do not have to prove myself or defend my stand with Israel to anyone, I only have to walk in the truth of His word, and hold fast to my profession: "Dear friends, I have been eagerly planning to write to you about the salvation we all share. But now I find that I must write about something else, urging you to defend the faith that God has entrusted once for all time to His holy people." 

More and more I am witnessing pride in believers who feel that they have more to offer than others. Again I reference Romans 12:1-5 regarding how we are to live our lives and serving our God in unity with the brethren:

"I beseech you therefore brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. For as we have many members in one body; but all the members do not have the same function, so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another."  

I am also seeing many fall and follow wrong paths. Romans 1:22-23 speaks to those who deviate from truth: "Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man."

I have been accused of being involved in a cult because of my fellowship with Jacob's Tent and because of my involvement with the embassy in Jerusalem, but I recognize the enemy's plots in my life. When I accepted God's call to be an intercessor for Israel, increasing focus over the last two years, becoming a watchman on the wall, I felt so unworthy. Who am I to stand before a holy God on behalf of His chosen people? But I have prayed for God to break my heart for what breaks His, and He has answered. And I will continue to do so.

Whenever my children ask me a question about anything, especially when they share the hatred and  ridiculous beliefs and evil words of this world, I have one response, and that is with what I close this post today: 

"Study to show yourselves approved unto God, a workman who needs not be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." 2 Timothy 2:15

"All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work." 2 Timothy 3:16 

Saturday, October 11, 2025

Day 283 When God Says "Yes"

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10/10/2025

"Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying

'This is the way, walk in it,'

whenever you turn to the right hand or

whenever you turn to the left."

Isaiah 30:21

 

I rejoice in the faithfulness of our LORD, who is faithful to watch over His Word to perform it, in just the right timing, too! I woke up early, early this morning, as I was awakened about events happening in Israel at that very moment. With all the excitement of the planned release of the hostages after over two years in captivity, we cannot allow ourselves to slack from standing with Israel. The call as a watchman continues until we graduate to the next level and meet our Savior face to face. We are reminded daily that once the hostages are home, a long period of rehabilitation and restoration from all the trauma faced in the tunnels, in addition to coming face to face with the horrendous reality of the aftermath of that day of horrors, will need to happen. Many who been in captivity have not been told about their families, nor have the family members been given the truth about their loved ones who have been in the dark, chained, tortured, starved, and persecuted with psychological warfare, living in filthy, unsanitary places and not allowed to bathe. From time to time some family members received proof of life, but again, it was primarily for the purpose of further tormenting them. For those who are returned deceased the rigorous process of identification of the bodies must take place, as Hamas has returned unknown remains before. These two years have literally been hell on earth, or what one imagines as hell, for all concerned. Although I have never met any of these dear, precious people, I have grown to love them, as I pray for them daily, posting their photos on Facebook, both those reported as living and those presumed dead. When one is released, I weep in joy and thanksgiving, and when one is found dead, I grieve and mourn with my family in Israel. I have always prayed for Israel and love the people, but God has given me a supernatural love, and I pray most of all for their salvation, that they will know that Messiah has already come, is returning soon, and that He loves them. He is the deliverer, the only cure! When I see the people at the wall on the mount, I so want to gather them in my arms and share with them about Jesus, and how God wants so much more for them. May their eyes be opened and enlightened to the hope for which God has called them. He is the only way, and He is the only one who can heal and set the spiritual captive free.

This morning as I began to pick up where God had me leave off last week, so I could be built up and reminded of what I needed for the day, I found myself once more where God has had me return so often, where the story begins for me, the Sermon on the Mount. Before that, however, He reminded me of the enemy's attempts to dissuade me from the path He set before me. It's so easy to become distracted with so much happening, and the way the world is poorly handling "life" in general. There is so much deception, so many lies and tricks, while the enemy is gearing up for another full scale assault on the nations. It has been disheartening to watch and personally witness how many are listening to the lies, or those who are falling away from the faith, or those who are sitting on a fence with their legs dangling on both sides, afraid to commit. The only commitment that needs to be made is one to the Almighty God in whom we serve. In Israel President Trump is being exalted, while their own Prime Minister is being hung out to dry! I saw a post on the Jewish hostage family page saying "In Trump We Trust." I was appalled, as it is only God in whom we place our trust, no mortal man. Yet many people exalt man. No! God alone receives the glory. Regarding Prime Minister Netanyahu, this man has been attacked in every conceivable way by every nation. He deserves better as an emissary from God. God put the Prime Minister and President Trump in these positions, at this time, for His purposes, and it is high time people wake up and recognize that God has His hand on our countries, and He will not be mocked! We should be on our faces before a Holy God asking forgiveness and thanking Him for His favor, mercy, and grace.

Three times today the Lord pointed me to the books of Ezra and Nehemiah from three different sources. He always confirms to me in threes. The first was on the prayer call with Pastor Jack who taught from a scripture found in Nehemiah 4:17-18: 

"Those who built on the wall, and those who carried burdens, loaded themselves so that with one hand they worked at construction, and with the other held a weapon. Every one of the builders had his sword girded at his side as he built. And the one who sounded the trumpet was beside me." 

The Jews were held captive in Babylon for seventy years as according to 2 Chronicles 36:21 and Jeremiah 29:10. In the first year of Cyrus, king of Persia's reign, God stirred his heart, so that he would show favor to Israel and send His people back to Jerusalem to build the temple, the house of God. So a proclamation was made throughout his kingdom:

"Thus says Cyrus king of Persia: All the kingdoms of the earth the LORD God of heaven has given me. And He has commanded me to build Him a house at Jerusalem which is in Judah. Who is among you of all His people? May his God be with him, and let him go up to Jerusalem which is in Judah, and build the house of the LORD God of Israel (He is God), which is in Jerusalem. And whoever is left in any place where he dwells, let the men of his place help him with silver and gold, with goods and livestock, besides the freewill offerings for the house of God which is in Jerusalem." 

The heads of the fathers' houses of Judah and Benjamin, along with the priests and the Levites, and others in captivity who wanted to return home to Judah gathered together and returned home with the aid and assistance of King Cyrus. Among those returning was Zerubbabel who was put in charge of rebuilding the altar of the God of Israel to offer burnt sacrifices. Jeshua and others of the priests assisted in the rebuilding the altar and in the sacrifices and praises. The actual work on the temple did not begin until the second year, and naturally, they were met with opposition from the people who had been left in the land when the others were exiled. They included some indigenous, poor people who had been left behind to keep the land and some people the enemy sent over to occupy the land. When the leaders of this group asked to assist in the rebuilding, they were denied, because they were not part of the Jewish people. So, they looked for ways to hinder the work. Every attempt was foiled, because of the perseverance of Zerubbabel.

Ezra was among those who returned from exile during the reign of Artaxerxes king of Persia, who was sent to teach statutes and ordinances in Israel and to see about the spiritual restoration of the people. Those born in exile had never been taught the ordinances of God, so as a scribe in the Law of Moses he was given this task. When he arrived he found that the people of Israel and the priests and Levites had intermarried with heathen nations and had children. This was not allowed, so Ezra had to deal with this abomination in God's sight, and the pagan wives had to be sent away.

Nehemiah was a cup bearer to the King Artaxerxes, and when he received word from Jerusalem that the temple had been restored, but that the walls were not repaired and gates were burned, he was grieved. So he sought the king's favor to return to Jerusalem to oversee the rebuilding of the walls. God saw to it that not only did the king give Nehemiah permission to return, but he provided for every expense, just as He did before. Naturally, as with Ezra, Nehemiah was met with opposition, delays, resistance, and threats. They resisted every effort to impede the work, and the walls were rebuilt, as noted in the above scripture from Nehemiah 4:17-18, with a trowel in one hand and a weapon in the other.

These men withstood exile, returned to face opposition and every conniving spirit who tried to stop the work of the Lord. These men were not warriors, they were priests, Levites, ordinary men who would not back down, not give up, and they fought back in obedience to complete what the Lord had told them to do. In considering the present day situation in Israel, war on every front, the horrific loss of innocent lives and military, and the fight to exist in the land given to them by God, the IDF and the leaders have stood against every onslaught of the enemy, and have resisted every attempt to destroy them. Over the two years, we have witnessed miracles, divine interventions, and stamina beyond human understanding. They have been fearless, dauntless, resilient, and they have not wavered. Led by Prime Minister Netanyahu, who himself has faced so many battles, lies, attempts on his life, and the administration and military cabinet set in place, Israel has remained strong, aided by the strong support of America. God watches over His people.

Now as we wait for the hostages to come home. A plan has been put in place, hands have been shaken, words have been spoken, and Israel is following her part of the deal. There is hopeful expectation in the air, fear, concern, a mixture of feelings, families holding their breath. Only God knows, but our eyes are on Him alone. 

Whenever we choose to walk with the Lord, we will be putting our lives on the line, so we must understand that surrender means giving our lives unreservedly to the cause of Christ. I have been attacked from every angle for choosing to stand with Israel and for honoring the call of God on my life. The enemy would try to make us doubt God, as he did in the Garden with Eve. So he plays on every angle in our lives to distract us, to get our focus off of the primary task. Right now in America we see chaos everywhere, homes being torn apart, sin in the camp, all kinds of folly, but we must remain vigilant and at our posts, our eye on the prize, our gaze on the Captain of the Armies of Heaven, Jesus Christ, King of kings, and LORD of lords. It's all about Him and the furthering of God's Kingdom. 

Whatever you're going through, listen for the pause of heaven, listen for the still small voice. Listen closely for God's yes. These are reminders that we are hearing His voice. Stay focused!  

Friday, October 10, 2025

Day 282 The Time Given

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10/9/2025 

"Selective obedience isn't obedience at all; 

it's only convenience."

 

It's not easy to have to backtrack when I'm writing. I always think I write good notes, but when I look at them in light of the next ones to be finalized, I find myself lost! Since my daily reading of the Bible has been altered somewhat this year, not as routine, it doesn't even help to go back over what I have been reading. In short, I've been all over the place, because God lead me in a different direction. The fun thing is that when He does this, that is, when He wants me to "see" something, He always confirms it in another way or through another person or message. I'm learning not to be surprised, just in awe of His ways that are definitely higher than mine.

Last night at the Harvest Ministries group study I host we discussed the subject of wrestling with God, using the life of Jacob as our example. As we study his life, we see that Jacob, whose name meant "supplanter" or "deceitful" or "one who grabs by the heel," contended with his brother, Esau, in the womb. Jacob's story begins in Genesis 25 when Abraham's son Isaac marries Rebekah who couldn't bear children. So Isaac prayed to God, and she conceived twins. When they were contending within her womb, she became greatly troubled, because this wasn't normal, so she inquired of the LORD, the scripture says. 

"But the children struggled together within her; and she said, 'If all is well, why am I like this?' So she went to inquire of the LORD. And the LORD said to her: 'Two nations are in your womb, two peoples shall be separated from your body; one people shall be stronger than the other, and the older shall serve the younger.'"

As the story continues and the boys grow up to manhood, there remains contention, as Esau, the older son, becomes the skillful hunter who loves the outdoors, and he is a favorite of his father, Isaac. Jacob is described as a mild man who dwells in tents, and he was favored by his mother, Rebekah. His story is familiar about how he stole Esau's birthright for a cup of stew (Genesis 25:29-34), and then he stole the blessing of the first born by pretending to be Esau, taking advantage of his blind father, the deception aided by his mother (Genesis 27). Jacob learns that Esau wants to kill him, so Rebekah instructs him to run to her brother, Laban's home for protection and to marry one of Laban's daughters (Genesis 28). Esau rebels against the family and marries one of Ishmael's daughters. Jacob's time in Padan Aram leads to many years of service and trickery at the hand of Laban who turns out to be a bigger schemer and manipulator than Jacob. But over the course of all these years as relayed in Genesis 28 - 32, Jacob becomes transformed, and his name is changed from Jacob to Israel which means "Prince with God."

"Then Jacob was left alone; and a Man wrestled with him until the breaking of day. Now when He saw that He did not prevail against him, He touched the socket of his hip; and the socket of Jacob's hip was out of joint as He wrestled with Him. And He said, 'Let Me go, for the day breaks.' But he (Jacob) said, 'I will not let You go unless You bless me!' So He said to him, 'What is your name?' He said 'Jacob.' And He said, 'Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel; for you have struggled with God and with men, and have prevailed.'" (Genesis 32:24-28).

Jacob is reunited with his brother Esau, but the rift never really is mended, and in fact as prophesied, the two nations continue to contend with one another up to this day. Jacob's name becomes Israel, and the twelve tribes of Israel are his offspring. It's a fascinating story, but the history of the nation of Israel is written throughout these pages of scripture. So it's not "just" a story, it's truth, and if studied in the context of scripture as it should be taught, we would have less "wrestling" going on in the nation today, as antisemitism continues to grow and sweep around the world in vicious and wicked condescension and vile hatred. 

I never felt as if I had wrestled with God, and I certainly never wanted to go against Him, yet I did. The obvious wrestling that resulted in my thirty-five years in the wilderness, on the back burner, so to speak, turned out to be my best training ground, and it prepared me for where I am today, and I know it has prepared me for what is ahead. If my life were not surrendered to Christ and my dependence solely on Him, I don't think I would have the strength to get up in the morning. But He makes it worth everything! I have survived the floods and the fires, the pruning, the pressing, and the sifting, and I've been alone most of the time. But I am grateful to God for the transformation He has done in my life. 

Being a great fan of J.R.R. Tolkien's "Lord of the Rings" series, I often watch the movies, as well as "The Hobbit" series, when I want to relax, smiles, and glean a little wisdom. Frodo Baggins, Bilbo's cousin and little charge, is tasked with the disposal of the ring of power into the fires of Mount Doom. It's a journey no one wants to undertake, so the task is left to Frodo, along with companions who go with him, the fellowship of the ring, they are called. The wizard, Gandalf, is a wise and trusted friend to whom young Frodo admires and respects. Along the journey, when the success of the undertaking is threatened, Frodo says to Gandalf:  "I wish the Ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened."  Gandalf responds by saying: "So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us." 

Many a tangled web of deceit has been woven in our times, and there has always been those who persist in choosing to wrestle with God and contend with man. Evil is abounding in our times, just as it was in the story of Frodo and the ring, and yet Frodo does overcome in the end, and evil is opposed. Galadriel, the Lady of the Woods, an elf, tells Frodo "Even the smallest person can change the course of the future." And her words certainly prove true in this tale of good versus evil. May we find hope in that as we walk out our destiny, deciding what to do with the time that is given to each of us. 

Day 281 Mighty Warrior

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10/8/2025 

"Blood of Christ wash over me."

 

 For days now as I wake up, as I lay my head to rest, as I go about my day I hear the words of the song "We need the blood, we plead the blood," washing over me. When I become distracted or something disturbs me, or if the enemy begins to cause my thoughts to wander back in time, I hear the words of this song "Blood of Christ" by Jesus Image repeated over and over again. The Word of God tells us in Ephesians 6:12 "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places." I having been witnessing the hoards of hell advancing in greater numbers daily, attempting to wreak havoc, cause divisions, create uproars nation to nation, coast to coast, covering the globe. This is why we are told to put on the whole armor of God, so we will be able to stand up against the enemy, not in our strength, but by the power of Almighty Spirit of God that works within us. 

When darkness clouds your vision and uneasiness threatens to shake your peace, and it will more and more as we see the days advancing, stand strong and take heart, because God will fight for us. When we surrender our lives to Christ, when we truly make Him Lord, not just speaking the words, but actively doing the work of the Kingdom, then He promises to fight for us! Our greatest battle zone is our minds, so let me remind you of 2 Corinthians 10:3-6:

"For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments (imaginations), and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled." 

When King Saul was fighting the Philistine armies, he and his men became intimidated by their champion warrior, Goliath, a giant in the land, who daily came out to taunt the army and cause them to fear and pull back. Along comes young David, the shepherd boy, bringing food to his brothers who were in the army of Saul, and to check up on the progress of the war so that he might inform Jesse, his father. When David hears Goliath boasting and railing, David became furious and wanted to know who dares to defy the God of Israel. So, David ends up volunteering to fight this mammoth of a man, this bully. In 1 Samuel 17 we read the story of David making a bold stand for His God:

"So Saul clothed David with his armor, and he put a bronze helmet on his head; he also clothed him with a coat of mail. David fastened his sword to his armor and tried to walk, for he had not tested them. And David said to Saul, 'I cannot walk with these, for I have not tested them.' So David took them off. Then he took his staff in his hand; and he chose for himself five smooth stones from the brook, and put them in a shepherd's bag, in a pouch which he had, and his sling was in his hand. And he drew near to the Philistine." (verses 38-40)

The verses that follow describe Goliath's response to a ruddy-faced, skinny teenager sent out onto the field of battle to oppose him, a mighty warrior! We pick up the story by hearing David's response to this outcry:

"Then David said to the Philistine, 'You come to me with a sword, with a spear, and with a javelin. But I come to you in the name of the LORD of hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. This day the LORD will deliver you into my hand, and I will strike you and take your head from you. And this day I will give the carcasses of the camp of the Philistines to the birds of the air and the wild beasts of the earth, that all the earth may know that there is a God in Israel.'" (verses 45-46)

Bold words, not received well by Goliath as he tightens his grip on his javelin, ready to hurl it at this wimpy opponent, or so he thought. He snarls his lip and he readies his stance, and...well you know the end of this story and the beginning of the next. God used David in all his human frailty to become the mighty Captain of Saul's army and eventually anointed as King of all of Israel. When Paul the Apostle was speaking of his thorn in the flesh, his human weakness, in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10, he realized that God's ways are profoundly different from our way of thinking. Paul realized that in his carnal nature he may succumb to pride. After all he was a self-proclaiming Pharisee of the Pharisees (Acts 23:6), although his actions as a follower of Christ did not demonstrate his carnality. He was a new creation through the blood of Jesus Christ. He shared so we would have an example of suffering for Christ, because when we surrender to Him, our lives are not our own. They never were, but we realize the difference and accept our dependency on Him.

 "And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

Just as Saul tried to fight a spiritual battle with physical armor, so often, most of the time we see the nation react in similar manner. Right now our Congress is on a shutdown, because the two parties could not reach an agreement, a stalemate on the annual budget. Whereas the demands of the one side want to create a greater deficit for our nation, rather than by cutting expenses in non-essential areas, many fraudulent in context, although worded so that the true use is not as obvious, it is harming the American people. But, people who demand to have things their way, in opposition to the will of the people who elect whom they wish to represent this country in the oval office and in other positions of leadership, the innocent suffer. It is an ugly thing, and it should open our eyes to how much things have changed.

On the other hand, we see revival breaking out at colleges and high schools, and in foreign countries more and more as the wind is blowing, and the Spirit of God is moving across this land. We need to decide, as the army of Israel in Saul's day had to decide, in whom we put our trust. 

"For since the creation of the world

His attributes are clearly seen, being understood by

the things that are made, even His eternal power and

Godhead, so that they are without excuse, because although

they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful,

but became futile in their thoughts and their foolish hearts were

darkened, professing to be wise, they became fools...."  

Romans 1:20-22 

Thursday, October 9, 2025

Day 280 Two Years

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10/7/2025 

"Comfort, yes, comfort My people!" says your God. 

"Speak comfort to Jerusalem, and cry out to her, that her warfare

is ended, that her iniquity is pardoned; for she has 

received from the LORD's hand double for all her sins."

Isaiah 40:1-2

  

The Feast of Tabernacles officially started last evening, and people have been setting up temporary shelters, or booths, in which they dwell for the eight days of the festival. This annual pilgrimage is done to remind the Jewish people of the time of Israel's 40 years in the wilderness, and as a reminder of God's provision during that time. It is a time when everyone, poor and wealthy alike, live in temporary, humble dwellings of branches, palms, with open skies. Today the attendees representing the International Christian Embassy Jerusalem (ICEJ), gathered in support of the families of the hostages as they remember today, the second anniversary of the unprovoked massacre by Hamas of innocent men, women, and children in their beds, in their homes, and at a festival of young people. Hostages taken that day still remain in the tunnels of Gaza, but an ultimatum has been made for the release of all remaining hostages, alive and dead. This is a time that is normally happy and festive, joyous and fun, instead it is bittersweet for all as they wait for their loved ones to come home.

The theme for the festival set up by ICEJ is taken from scripture, Zechariah 8:20-23: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Peoples shall yet come, inhabitants of many cities; the inhabitants of one city shall go to another, saying, "Let us continue to go and pray before the LORD, and seek the LORD of hosts. I myself will go also." Yes, many peoples and strong nations shall come to seek the LORD of hosts in Jerusalem, and to pray before the LORD.' 

"Thus says the LORD of hosts, 'In those days ten men from every language of the nations shall grasp the sleeve of a Jewish man, saying, "Let us go with you, for we have heard that God is with you.'" 

Last night at the first night of the ICEJ Feast of Tabernacles celebration, a pastor spoke about how beautiful corporate worship is to God, but he wanted to emphasize that during this time of celebration together as the ICEJ family and with Israel, that God is calling each of us to individual worship. This is something I harp on a lot, as you know, so I am thankful that I'm not the only one. It's great to meet people for the first time face to face, as well as to meet others, making new friends and wonderful memories, and as such, we can get carried away and neglect the quiet time alone with God. Here they are in Israel, in Jerusalem, the City of God, neglecting quiet time?! But yes, it happens, and I can well imagine it happens a lot, as they scurry around doing things, eating out, visiting, and attending the festivities and conferences. It happens to us every day in our individual lives, and then the unimaginable happens to us. We cannot afford to draw away from God. The Bible teaches us in James 4:7-8 to draw nigh to God, resist the devil, and he will flee:

"Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God, and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded." 

Pastor Manosa also shared that as he was thinking about spending eternity in heaven where we will be worshiping God continually, that he wondered, "Wouldn't that get boring?" When he consulted with God about it, God said, "No, because He reveals Himself eternally." Every fraction, every second, of our time in Heaven with God will be like an "Eternal WOW!" Not just a "spark" of revelation but a huge BURST of insight of WHO HE IS!! Imagine it! God's attribute is His Holiness. His essence is Perfect Holiness. There is not comparison. He stands alone! In Heaven "we become the object of His Love, and He becomes the object of our worship." Think about it...He made us in His Image, creating Adam from dust, but Holy Spirit breath of life. When we meet Him, we will breathe out that breath. First breath - God to man, and final breath - man to God. Even thinking about it like that is a mini Eternal WOW, because we see in part and know in part, but then...WOW!

So in this life, anything that takes our focus off of God is idolatry. I was reading the book of Hosea that is a good illustration of how God view Israel as an adulterous nation because of their preference to idols who had no life, no breath, could not speak, yet time and time again, the people of Israel and Judah turned to the gods of the land, until God punished them and led them into exile to the very nations they served. But He always had a remnant in Judah who did not follow the ways of the disobedient and idolatrous worshipers that He likened to spiritual adultery. He is returning for a Bride without spot or wrinkle. 

The Apostle Paul in writing to the Corinthians regarding to the New Covenant in Christ said:

"Therefore, since we have such hope, we use great boldness of speech - unlike Moses, who put a veil over his face so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the end of what was passing away. But their minds were blinded. For until this day the same veil remains unlifted in the reading of the Old Testament, because the veil is taken away by Christ. But even to this day, when Moses is read, a veil lies on their heart. Nevertheless when one turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord." (2 Corinthians 3:12-18)

God has been restoring Israel to the land He gave them that includes Gaza and West Bank or Judea Samaria. The land is being restored, and the nation is being blessed in scientific, technological, and medical advances. Agriculturally the land is bursting with wealth and prosperity. But there is much more needed, as in the nations of this world - a spirit of repentance. God can take the most horrendous atrocities and restore what the locusts have eaten away. If we Gentiles do the work He has set us to do, they will come to know Jesus as Messiah and Lord. I pray for that day to happen quickly, as revival has begun in so many places already. Young people are rising up, hungry for more, not a nibble, but a banquet. They want the meat of the word of God. And we must deliver, because it is happening now. For Israel, Zechariah 12:10 says:

"And I will pour on the house of David and on the inhabitants of Jerusalem the Spirit of grace and supplication; then they will look on Me whom they pierced. Yes, they will mourn for Him as one mourns for his only son, and grieve for Him as one grieves for a firstborn."

Let it happen now, LORD! Open their eyes during the Feast, and receive the blessing of knowing the One who died to set them free!  

 "He is here, He is here,

to break the yoke and lift the heavy burden.

He is here, He is here,

To heal the hopeless heart and bless the broken."

Jesus Image, "He is Here" 

Tuesday, October 7, 2025

Day 279 Ineffable God

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10/6/2025

"And they said to one another, 'Did not our hearts burn within 

us while He talked with us on the road, and while

He opened the Scriptures to us?'"

Luke 24:32

 

Have you ever experienced a moment in which all of a sudden the light comes on, and you know that you've been in the presence of God? Suddenly, while reading the word of God, or reflecting on something, or merely looking at something, and a spark bursts within your soul of knowing or a sense of being captivated by God! Heaven opens up and revelation is revealed within a millisecond of time. God comes near! I experienced this feeling yesterday while reading the word, as I expressed in my blog on Saturday. A vision He had given me at least 35+ years ago, and a light came on, just for a second. A glimpse of new hope! I've held on to dreams for so long, and with each passing day, they seem so unobtainable. Nothing I ever asked for, but visions from God and words spoken to me by Him. As I blog, and as I remember things, I begin to understand a little here, and a little there, but this was different. 

I wrote something awhile back and emailed it to myself so I wouldn't forget. It said, "I need to remind myself often that God does not move in my life according to my chronological age, and I must also remember that just because I am advancing in age rapidly, it doesn't mean I missed Him. He has a plan for my life, and although I know that I have done many of the things He wanted me to do, as He set it all up, there is still more to do until I take my last breath. I can look at Moses at age 80; Abraham, age 100; Sarah at 90. Caleb was 85 when he went in and warred for Hebron as his own inheritance after the Promised Land was taken. Nothing is impossible with Him. He can even raise the dead. I know He has, and I believe He can today. I wish more people could believe that."

Many times I have compared myself with others who seem to have accomplished so much, and I feel as if I've missed it, and I feel that my visions may have been exactly that - mine. I feel that I have done so little compared to others. And I do the "if I had" game. I guess that is the equivalent of going down the rabbit hole! Thankfully, I am avoiding rabbit holes and doing less and less comparisons, and I am trying to understand that I am uniquely me, so the plan God has for my life is uniquely mine. I don't want to become impatient and get in God's way. I think my family has had enough of that for a lifetime. No, I only want what He wants. This is why it is so important to have these moments where we know we have heard from God.

Each day Pastor Jack shares a portion of scripture with his 5 am MT audience of well over a thousand followers (4.5K-8.5K) from around the world, and this morning this verse confirmed what I had felt two days ago. God is faithful to confirm His word spoken to us, and it comes in the most unexpected ways, when you least expect it. So don't give up on hearing from the Lord. He is faithful, but it comes in His time and according to His plan. I know about waiting on the backside of the wilderness for a lot of years! Climbing the mountain takes even longer! Perseverance pays off!

"Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:1-2 

This evening in Israel Sukkot, Feast of Tabernacles, will officially begin. I tuned in for the first ceremony, but I need to check back tomorrow. I'm still tuckered out from my excursion on Saturday. I guess that must be a sign of aging, riding a bus several hours, walking around in the hot sun, being chased by bees, enticed by the aroma of fresh-baked goods, in a crowd of hundreds, including pets and strollers. I was butted, my foot rolled over, almost knocked down more than once when I hesitated for a moment to look at something. But...there is always a but...I survived and lived to tell about it. But...another but!..I did enjoy the time away from what has become my routine. I don't think anything should be a routine, as it implies something less than disciplined, which is how I try to live my life. I'm glad I allowed myself a breather, as the weight of intercession is a heavy and costly one.

I finished the reading of the book of Daniel today which oddly corresponds to where I am in the audio read through the Bible I do with a friend. I am going back in my daily read, as I should be in the gospels now, but God has had me on a circuitous path of reading through the Bible this year, and it seems His timing is ineffable! I've been wanting to use that word since I read it yesterday in my online devotional. It means "unable to describe, beyond expression." That's God! 

In Chapter 12 a vision is given to Daniel that greatly disturbs him, one he does not understand. He is informed by the angel, Gabriel, the following:

"But Daniel, keep this prophecy a secret; seal it up so that it will not be understood until the end times, when travel and education shall be vastly increased!" v. 4

"Only those who are willing to learn will know what it means." v. 10

"But go on now to the end of your life and your rest; for you will rise again and have your full share of those last days." v. 13

Curious words for Daniel, I imagine, but for us today, they are easily understood, especially as end time prophecy comes more into sight. According to these verses, and the ones in between, many will not understand, and they will pay a harsh price for their disobedience. Even so, God always has a remnant who will lead the way in an attempt to share the knowledge with those who are hungry and have a willing heart to receive. 

Today in the ICEJ call we continued the discussion of the Council of Nicaea as the beginning of antisemitism, spanning 1700 years. History has seemed to repeat itself as witnessed last year on October 7th. This year a plan for the release of all hostages, living and dead, has been set into place, but the enemy is hedging, as is typical. Nevertheless, we pray that this year will see an end to this war and the faces of Israel's loved ones, who have become my loved ones. O Father, please bring them home!   

So, we wait, and we pray, and we trust God above all else.  

Sunday, October 5, 2025

Day 278 Be strong!

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10/5/2025 

 "Preach the Gospel at all times. When necessary, use words."
—Francis of Assisi

 

 I was so anxious to get to church this morning, but after my long, wearying day-trip of yesterday, this ole gal was feeling a big haggard and worn! Still I gathered my thoughts, and I spent quality moments with Abba before the embassy call and preparing for church. My stomach was a bit unsettled from eating differently, as one does when on a fun-filled adventure with excited ladies and hungry men. Although we ate at a place that generally caters to the taste buds of everyone, it is not the case with my troubled gastrointestinal system, and a diagnosis of celiac disease (gluten sensitivity to the nth degree), which I was told could be deadly if I did not stick to a strict diet. My doctor tended to get a bit upset seeing how I was "almost dead" or "should have died" (his words, not mine) by the time I was diagnosed. Isn't the medical profession fun?! But, alas, I am still very much here, and after years of a better diet, I am healthier, I feel, regardless of aches and pains. So, once up and running, no pun intended, I pulled out a dress from the back of my closet, hoping to show off to a friend who thinks I only wear skirts. When I asked my son if it looked okay, he noticed that there was a small hole in the front, so off that flew. Then a series of failed selections, due to changes in body structure over the years, causing some things not to fit the same. So I ended up, pulling out one of my usual skirts made about 35 years ago (no joke), and threw something together. It's a good thing that I'm not much of a primper, as my friend was at the house to pick me up in no time. I left a stack of clothes on the unmade bed, and ran out the door. We arrived just as Pastor Jonathan began the announcements. Whew!!

After the incident happened to me on Friday, and all the drama of trying to get out the house bathed and dressed this morning, I wasn't shocked to discover that the sermon title was "Dealing with the Demonic." I knew that everything, beginning with Friday, was an attack of the enemy, so I guess he just didn't want me to know that I had a pastor who understood that evil is real and that the devil is alive and well and kicking up his hooves in the world today. When we began the praise and worship songs, I realized that I had not yet put on the whole armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-20), so I quickly prayed, and I pleaded the blood over the service and pastor. It's interesting that I had written about a song I'd heard called "Blood of Christ" on Thursday, and then on Friday I was verbally assaulted. That night I kept dreaming of the person, and I would wake up every two hours hearing the words "We need the blood, we plead the blood." Then once more, I'd go to sleep, and the same thing would happen, three times in a row. The last dream was about another person who was upset with me and has been taking it out on my son. I don't understand why, except maybe my being here limits his access somehow. I live a quiet life, try to be kind and inviting, welcoming, even if it may not be the best of circumstances. Things happen, and I get blamed, or so it seems. I imagine the devil just wanted to toss in more condemnation into the dreams that night. So, the sermon reassured me that I have a pastor who understands spiritual warfare. We are studying the book of Mark, and Jesus had more than one encounter with a demoniac. So, I was encouraged that in spite of all my morning trials, I made it to church.

In the afternoon, after giggling with my son over our usual silliness, I watched Pastor Greg's message, so I could prepare for my Harvest Group meeting on Thursday. His message was called "Wrestling with God," and it was the story of Jacob and Esau taken from Genesis 32. I had a Zoom meeting at 3 pm, and this afternoon I have been trying to play catch up on Bible study questions and putting my blogs together. I had so many emails, so I had to delete, delete, delete. Later this evening I caught a premiere of a pastor who has been in the process of restoration for the past sixteen months who is passing the baton to his son, while he will seek out the next season of his journey with the Lord. It is always wonderful to see a happy ending, as the world, even the Christians, love to criticize and find fault, making it difficult for anyone of any importance to fall down and get back up. Thankfully, this story had a happy ending, and I for one am eternally grateful. No one is perfect, and as Jesus said, in this world we will have troubles! With Him there is forgiveness and reconciliation.

So now, I'm ending my day, all tasks done, with a little time to read and relax. Until we meet again, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might! 

 

Day 277 Approved & Entrusted

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10/4/2025 

"But as we have been approved by God to be entrusted

with the gospel, even so we speak, not as pleasing

men, but God who tests our hearts."

1 Thessalonians 2:4  

 

Early to bed and early to rise do not always set well with this late to go to bed, not as early to rise gal! Today my sister and I spent quality time being refreshed amidst the company of a bus load of Christian men and women headed to Dayton, Virginia for a day of crafting. The ladies were gun ho to shop, while the men sat in lounge chairs, in the shade, sipping lemonade, munching on goodies, and enjoying the conversation. In some ways I felt as if I should be sitting on the curb myself, as I am not used to being away from home on Shabbat, unless there's a funeral or other family event to attend, but I think the Lord didn't mind so much having fellowship with good company. The trip began with prayer, and the bus driver, who was a Vietnam veteran, sang us a soulful hymn and amused us with his winning personality and funny quips. I spent the time weaving in and out of the excessive crowd of shoppers, avoiding yellow jackets that were being lured by the scent of homemade candles and homemade pastries and desserts! Since I'm allergic to bee stings, I void anything with a stinger! Let me just say it was challenging! 

Dayton is located in the Shenandoah Mountains, an area I love, but then I am so partial to mountains, as you know. I had hoped to see all the colors of autumn, but strangely the trees had not yet turned. I plan to return there within a couple of weeks for my second adventure, but this time one of my own making, so hopefully the trees will be ablaze with color. Dayton is a small town, with a population of 1756 (2024), situated two miles south of Harrisonburg, and it is a largely agricultural area with a rich culture and history. It has working farms mostly owned by the Mennonite Community, and the town has museums, historical buildings, shops of skilled artisans, handmade artwork and crafts, home baked goods, and so many other unique shops. This is one reason I want to go and just spend a few days visiting places I was unable to see, talk to the locals, learn more of the history, visit the old library, and write my story. I kinda want to see if I can find a room to rent on a permanent basis so I can finish my book in the quietness of this nook and cranny location, but God will have to work that plan out, that is, if that's His plan. I just know that I need to return and visit a spell, set on the curb, and then we'll see. Since moving from New Mexico, I haven't been able to find my "hiding place" in the woods, so this may be a lead. It's the first time I've felt hopeful in the four years I've been back home.

While riding back home, I thought about the times and places in my life I'd visited, places I've love to see again, things I've missed. Once upon a time I went to dinner theaters, concerts, the opera, Shakespeare in the Park, walked in the park, rode my mountain bike and hiked up many hills. I retreat to Sipapu Resort in the hills behind me, where I'd enjoy the snow in winter and the walks by streams in the other seasons. Now the prices are way out of my range, but it would be nice to visit once more. I miss Rascal and Lady, my two border collies who used to accompany me on daily walks when I rested from designing jewelry or designing handmade crafts and projects for customers. I've walked many miles and worn several hats in my multi-faceted mix of medical and artisan gigs. My life has been a blend of many fancies for which I am so grateful. When I gave up the dream I had because of my family responsibilities, God blessed me with a detour that wove a beautiful tapestry of magnificent colors and designs. When I think about the awful things that happened, they pale in comparison to the wonder of what God has done in spite of cruelty, hardship, trauma, and shame. He truly is a wonder-working God, and the Lover of my soul. 

 When I heard Pastor Jack read 1 Thessalonians 2:4 printed above, I saw the words "approved" and "entrusted" in a new light, revelatory light, as promises have been spoken to me by God, that I thought were lost. Dreams, visions, words, and so many scriptures come alive, and my faith is renewed again. The trip to Dayton was for a different purpose, that I can clearly see. I don't expect anyone to understand all that goes on in this mind of mine, but that's not important. The only thing that matters is that I hear God's voice and obey. I guess God wanted to highlight that fact, because He gave me these words twice:

"A humble and contrite heart knows that it can merit nothing before God, and that all that is necessary is to be reconciled to one's helplessness and let our holy and almighty God care for us, just as an infant surrenders himself to his mother's care."   - O. Hallesby

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Day 276 Be Still

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10/3/2025

"My soul wait silently for God alone,

for my expectation is from Him."

Psalm 62:5

 

Today was a long-awaited medical appointment with a specialist, and although I am not ignorant of certain specialties, I am at a loss as to why this one has come into my life. Nonetheless, I played the game, as I sometimes do, to appease a well-meaning doctor, who simply forgot to mention to me why this has been suggested. Does that make sense? True, I have some additional frailties at the moment, but I have always felt that I bring things on myself, because I do reckless things, like swing from trees. I am learning not to walk on curbs and play balancing acts as well. I am keeping my feet on the ground, with an occasional dance across the yard when I'm pruning trees or cutting the grass. I think that's reasonable behavior, even at my age!

Prior to leaving for my appointment, we had some mishaps with the bathtub not draining nor wanting to comply with treatment, plus some other annoyances that sent me into a panic attack, complete with trembling hands. So much so that I couldn't write. This never happens to me, even if I get anxious about something, I never get to this stage, unless someone is very sick, and I have make travel plans. That happened once, and I was literally turning in circles not knowing which direction to go first. Not a pleasant feeling, and I hope one I never have to face again. But, today, before leaving the house, my nerves were settled, hands no longer shaking, and I was ready to drive the distance to Richmond.

But, (there always seems to be another "but") once in the car, headed up the road, I received a call that continued for almost an hour until I reached my first destination. Normally I don't answer the phone when I am traveling, but this one seemed important. Bad decision. Since I'm reporting this story later, because of traveling I had to do this weekend, being bone tired when I returned, I am still reeling from the comments made to me during the call. I shouldn't be surprised, however, as it seems this has become a routine for my life. The words of Jesus spoken in Matthew 10:34-39 are certainly true.

"Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father; a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and a man's enemies will be those of his own household. He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it."

I am finding His words to be true, but I never expected such cruelty and vitriol to come from someone I love more than life. Knowing people believe such evil is not surprising given the degree of hatred the enemy has against me, or so I've been told by one who used to serve him. There are many things I don't understand, and, quite honestly, I prefer not to understand such wickedness. I only know that my life belongs to Jesus, and I will follow Him all the days of my life, even if I do so alone. 

 And by the way, the medical appointment went well, and I am good to go!

 

Thursday, October 2, 2025

Day 275 Who Am I?

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10/2/2025

"To me, who am less than the least of all the saints,

this grace was given, that I should preach among the Gentiles,

the unsearchable riches of Christ, and to make all see what is the 

fellowship of the mystery, which from the beginning of the ages has

been hidden in God who created all things through Christ Jesus."

Ephesians 3:8-9  

 

When Paul was writing to the church at Ephesus, he wrote these words, humbled by the fact that God had chosen him to take the Good News of Jesus Christ to the gentile nations. He considered himself the "chiefest of sinners," after being responsible for the ill treatment towards Christians prior to his encounter with Jesus on the Road to Damascus. Paul was a "Pharisee of the Pharisees," as he called himself, and he even participated in the stoning death of Stephen, a follower of Christ. When he met Jesus, he was on his way to Damascus with papers in his hands to arrest and drag off other members of "The Way" as Jesus' followers were called. Paul had an amazing encounter with the Lord as recorded in Acts 9, and his life drastically changed after that. Such is the way with our Lord who relentlessly pursues those He calls.

I can identify with Paul about being the chiefest of sinners, as God has forgiven me much. Like Paul I had grown up in the faith. My Rabbi/Teacher was Jesus, but I was way too young to understand many things then. Later, as I truly grew up, I sat at my Master's feet and learned much. In fact, I am still learning and never plan to stop. Paul was truly educated in Torah and the Prophets, and all the Old Testaments scrolls and writings, yet like his other orthodox Jewish contemporaries, he missed the details of Jesus' existence that are so obviously written throughout the Old Testaments scriptures, especially the prophets. It is interesting to me that back in early days, the religious leaders missed it reading the Old Testament, and today, there are actually pastors and teachers who disregard the Old Testament believing that only the New Testament is pertinent. Even so, they miss important facts and teach that the Jewish people have no  part in the message of salvation today, because they rejected Jesus. Somehow they get the idea that salvation comes through the church, not the Jews. I have written about Replacement Theology previously, and one quick read of Romans 11 will cancel out that erroneous theory; however, it hasn't for many who insist on having things their way. I guess what God says throughout the entire Bible, or the fact that Jesus is a Jew Himself, doesn't matter. One day it will! The enemy has truly blinded the eyes of so many people. I pray that the scales will fall off their eyes, as they did for Paul.

This morning Pastor Jack was sharing the scripture above from Ephesians, and he emphasized that any value or wealth, any meaning or purpose we feel we have is all wrapped up in Jesus. Because of God's grace and mercy, we have been given the gift of salvation through the blood of Jesus Christ, and it is through Christ alone we have any purpose or meaning in life. Nothing else matters. Only Jesus. Like Paul, I cannot understand why He would love me and want me. Who am I? I owe Him my life.

Today the Israel observed the Day of Atonement, as I shared yesterday, and it is indeed a solemn day of fasting and repentance. No work is allowed to include no bathing or any type of grooming, just total humbling before God, seeking His presence. For the orthodox Jews, they cry out for Messiah to come, and for the Messianic Jewish people, the cry for His return is heard. Tonight after the sun set, and the day was over, there was feasting and celebration. Soon the Feast of Tabernacles will be celebrated, a happy period of time, but the day of remembrance of the massacre by Hamas of their people on 10/7/2023 will make it a sad time, as hostages still remain in the hands of the enemy. Plans for peace are on the table, but like so many times before, the enemy is holding back. Our prayers is for an end to this nightmare for the hostages to return home, but also for the families of those who wait. For many their loved ones will return dead, and for the living, their condition is uncertain. For many of the survivors, as well as the soldiers who have been injured, or those so damaged mentally with PTSD, years of therapy await. So we stand, and we wait, and we pray. Our faith is in Jesus Christ, so we pray for the salvation of those who do not yet know that Messiah has come, and He will be returning soon. Only true peace can be found in Him.

This morning I was listening to the words of a song by Jesus Image that I sing over my life, but I cannot help but make it a prayer for all of Israel and over all who need salvation so desperately:

VERSE
Blood of Christ
Wash over me
Wash over me
Though sin has stained me

Blood of Christ
Come speak for me
My covering
It is Your Glory

CHORUS
We need the Blood
We plead the Blood
Receive the Blood
The Blood of Christ

VERSE
Perfect Lamb
And Highest Priest
Poured out Yourself
For all to drink

The Offerer
And Offering
You took the cup
And so will we

CHORUS
We need the Blood
We plead the Blood
Receive the Blood
The Blood of Christ

BRIDGE
What tore the veil
What empties hell
What never fails
Only the Blood

What testifies
What prophesies
Your Death is Life
Only the Blood

Only the Blood of Jesus Christ" 

May it be our prayer for all our loved ones - our children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, friends. We need the blood of Christ to cover us and set us free. Nothing but the blood of Jesus. 

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

Day 274 Face to Face

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10/1/2025 

 “I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand
on the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh
I will see God; I myself will see him with my own eyes—I, and not
another. How my heart yearns within me!” 
 

Job 19:25-27 

 

I am reminded of the faithfulness of Job when sorely tested by the devil questioning his mettle should calamity strike. God allowed the challenge, and Job rose victoriously, in spite of receiving a little help from his "friends." That's quite the overstatement! His friends were not friends, but I think in the long run they each learned a valuable lesson from the Almighty. Job knew that he had favor in God's eyes, and he did. Even the enemy knew that, so he wanted to see if he could make Job's faith fail. He failed! God rewarded Job with double of all he lost, and He had the three friends repent, then Job prayed for them. I wonder what they thought when they heard the voice of God speaking to Job? Imagine how powerful it must have been. 

Today is Day 10 of the 10 Days of Awe and our Focus is Face to Face. The focus city is Dallas/Fort Worth, Texas, and the 110 cities region is North American and the Caribbean. Other key cities in this region are: New York City, Dallas/Ft. Worth, Chicago, San Francisco, Los Angeles, Atlanta, Boston, and Miami. Canadian cities: Toronto, and Vancouver.  I think it is fitting that we conclude these 10 days by praying for the unreached in America, where turmoil increases daily. Senseless murders, vicious antisemitism are reaching unexpected areas, where normally such crimes would be unheard of. It almost seems unbelievable that a modern day city like Dallas/Fort Worth could be a focus city. But, recently, I read an article about the Muslim population of an area close to this vicinity attempting to build their own city due to the numbers of people moving there, but it was stopped by the Governor in fear of the threat of shiria law being imposed. It seems that there have been similar things happening in Michigan, New Jersey, and quite possibly New York City will gain a Muslim mayor in the new election. Only God knows what's next for our nation, as we wait. Today the government shut down, because Congress could not find common ground on the budget. It saddens me - I use that phrase a lot lately - knowing that the division grows increasingly worse daily regardless of what gains have been made by a moral administration. God is in control, yes! But He expects us to do our part, just as He expected King Jehoshaphat to do his part in 2 Chronicles 20. I'll leave you to research that story. It's a good lesson to learn about trust and obedience, humbly seeking God and standing our ground in faith. We must do better!

The word says that if we overcome we have the promise of seeing our Savior, the One who died for us, and that makes me excited. 

 "And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into
his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” 
2 Corinthians 3:18 

 

Oh, that we would have the heart of a child, lost in the wonder of His love, arms uplifted, waiting to be embraced by our Abba Father, Daddy God.

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"Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me."

Matthew 18:3-5

  

 

 "Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise; be thankful unto Him, and bless His name."

Psalm 100:4

"Our of the mouth of babes and nursing infants You have ordained strength, because of Your enemies, that You may silence the enemy and the avenger."

Psalm 8:2  

 

While in one area of the world politicians are battling over the budget, the corrupt trying to force the hand of others through fear, while the world watches, weakening the strength of a unified government, there is revival breaking forth in the land. Regardless of villages being burned, loved ones brutalized, terrified, and savagely cut to pieces by machetes, the survivors remain faithful to the One True God, and they will never renounce their faith or the name of Jesus, not even if they die in the worse possible way. Such love. Children and young adults are leading the way all over the world, as Bible sales are up and churches are being filled by younger generations seeking answers, wanting to know the God Charlie Kirk served and died praising. I pray for rain, fresh revival waters to pour down and drench us, for the fire of heaven to fall down burning off every thing that is not of Him. Purified. Cleansed. 

 "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death."

Revelation 12:11