Day 193 Buyer's Remorse?

 

7/12/2025

"A man's heart plans his way, but

the LORD directs his steps."

Proverbs 16:7   

 

I find myself at a loss for words again. This entire week has gone by so quickly that I forgot what day it was. I have been so messed up at times, confused and not knowing what to do first. There's so many things I need to do and want to do, that it becomes seemingly impossible to formulate a basic plan. Besides that, I cannot seem to find anyone who wants to work or friends who want to help. I guess I have lived too long, and the days of Little House on the Prairie, when friends helped friends, are long gone. The sad part is that even my widowed or single friends can't find anyone to help them either. So, I am determined to do the work myself, with the assistance of YouTube videos and a lot of prayer. 

It's been raining off and on most of the week, so the grass has grown up, and has been badly in need of cutting. We have a self-propelling push mower, but at times it just cannot make it through the dense grass in the back yard close to the ditch. Between the wind and the birds, most of the grass seed has ended up in that part of the back yard, making it almost impossible at times to cut. It certainly is becoming a work out for me, but I do eventually get it done. I must admit that the grass is beautiful, because I do not see one weed, although I'm sure that a little wire grass may be hiding between the blades. Yesterday I was able  to get the back yard mowed, and I managed to pull some more vines from the trees, but the mosquitoes were hard on my heels! I believe those little critters lay in wait for me, listen for the storm door to open and line up for their afternoon snack. One five minute trip to the cucumber patch, and I gained three huge whelps on my upper arm. I had to put ice on it for relief, but it's only temporary. My son wasn't feeling well from an old back injury, so he wasn't able to lend a hand with the yard work this time. I had hoped it would be different, but perhaps another day. I wasn't able to finish it, so it will have to wait until Monday now. So my yard is lopsided, so to speak, but at least the worst is done...until the rain comes again. With all the work and repairs needed around here and so much grass to cut, I sometimes feel cursed. Perhaps I am once more having thoughts of buyer's remorse, but then I remember my folks, and it's okay. It seems as if some things never pan out well in the end for me, and I'm an optimist! 

I've been watching Little House on the Prairie again, but it does my soul a lot good when I see Mrs. Oleson get her comeuppance. Like today, Laura had acquired a billy goat, the last of his kind she was told, but what she didn't know was the Fred had a bad habit of butting anyone who bent over in his clear view.  I had so much fun watching Mrs. Oleson fly through the air into a mud puddle created by her freshly hand-washed clothing water. It made me think about other adventures the Ingalls family encountered whenever Harriet Oleson was doing her best to bully the town, spouting her self-importance. But then, there were a few times she needed the friendship offered her, although it was hard for her to accept kindness from people she considered lower than her. Through the experience she would learn important lessons, only to be quickly forgotten by the next episode. Still, it does my heart good to giggle.

So, what have I learned today? What nuggets of truth have I gleaned? 

In my quest for sanity and self defense against mosquitoes I did a little research, and I found out that the little buggers prefer O blood. They are attracted by sweating, and on these hot, muggy days I am defenseless. They don't like peppermint soap, and I use it to bathe daily, many times before I go outside, but I think what I need to do is use liquid peppermint soap, diluted a pinch, and applied to the skin. They also hate lavender, and I just happen to have a bar of lavender soap and spray. This is getting exciting. They are attracted to carbon dioxide that we exhale as part of the cellular respiration. At least now I have some things I can try. In fact I may just try it in the evening before I go to bed, because they seem to love my room too. My windows are very old and worn, like the house in general, so I need to reseal them. Another "to do" for my list. See what I mean?? Buyer's remorse. But then, home maintenance is a given, and every home has its challenges. At least I am blessed enough to own a home, and I am still healthy enough to do some work, even if the mosquitoes do take advantage of the situation. 

So, another nugget that I tend to glean every day is to maintain an attitude of gratitude for the things I DO have. And I really do, but itching tends to make me irritable and forgetful at times. Still, it would be handy and dandy if I could find reasonable help. Oh well, that's a topic for another day. 

Day 192 Why, Lord?

 

7/11/2025

 "Why do You stand afar off, O LORD?

Why do You hide in times of trouble?"

Psalm 10:1 

 

When I was a child I remember my grandfather, Papa, always discussing various topics, most of which were over the head of this small child; however, I always listened intently hoping to glean some nugget of truth, because my Papa always spoke the truth, in my eyes. Many times, after exhausting the topic, he would say that he was going to ask God about it when he got to heaven. I always thought to myself that he must be making a long list of questions, because he was curious about a lot of things. Maybe that's why I developed such an active imagination, curious about most everything! I have never lost my childlike wonder, and I hope I never do.

In Pastor Greg's "daily devo," this morning, "Questioning God," he began by asking questions that children in Sunday School may ask as, "Why did You make the giraffe with such a long neck?" Then he progressed to adult questions found in scripture regarding heroes of the Bible or situations where God may not have responded as hoped. At the end of the devotional Pastor Greg asked a question for the Harvest Discipleship group to consider and discuss with each other. He does this every day as part of his daily devotional to engage the discipleship community in lively discussions. Today's question was "What questions would you like to ask God?" Many of the members asked heartfelt questions about death, life, struggles, and whereas I may have some "wonder why" questions for Abba, I tend not to ask, because I know He has His reasons, plus I'd be asking questions all day. I do ask Abba about things He's shown me or asked me to do, so this is how I responded:

"Lord, am I doing it right? I mean, You said write the story, am I doing that or am I spinning my wheels? Please enlighten me. Lord, do You like The Chosen and The House of David? Is it okay that I watch them? I know You guide my every step, and I don't want to be hard of understanding, I trust You, Father. Am I missing something? Is there anything else I can do for my children? All I want is to do it right, Lord. And I want to see all saved and sharing Your love. Lord, ... You know. You know."

I do seek God's counsel about what I watch, and we do discuss it, or at least I feel that He answers my feeble, often ridiculous, incredulous entreaties. After all He does care about everything that concerns us, or so the Bible says, right?! Later on, after a little time had passed by, and I had scratched and scratched my itching skin, applied hydrocortisone cream, salve, even forbidden alcohol and witch hazel solution and applied ice to almost every square inch of my body (okay, I'm exaggerating...a little!), I decided to ask God another question:

"Why, O Lord, did You make mosquitoes? and botlass flies in Belize? These carnivores are vicious! Why, O why are these blood sucking mosquitoes hanging around me?? I am one huge bite!!" 

I also posted a link to a website called Bug of the Week, by Michael J. Raupp, Ph.D., Professor of Entomology, as a point of reference and to add some fun to the questions, which I accomplished. One of the guys, who is also a host for a Harvest Group, agreed with that question. So I had a bit of fun with my side tracking.

The question Pastor Greg asked is one many people shun, unless of course, there's someone who is going through something serious or have to make a decision or a myriad of potential subjects about which we could drill God for an answer. When the movie The Shack came out, it was controversial, because at the start the author used a black woman to portray God's maternal side, but it was very well done. The story is very sad, but I have watched it more than once over the years. It has helped me through some rough places.The main character, outside of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, was a man who had lost his small daughter to a merciless serial killer who preyed on little girls, murdered them savagely, and hid them. The movie is about healing, discovery, and drawing closer to a God who is infinitely wise and all knowing, but whose ways we cannot begin to comprehend. When we question why God allows the guilty to kill innocent children, then allows them to live, it seems as if God must not care, and yet He is the God of unconditional love. When the father, Mack, of the little girl, Missy, spends a weekend with the Trinity at the shack in the woods where her clothing and evidence of her murder were discovered, he comes face to face with God as Judge. He encounters Wisdom in a cave who changes Mack's opinion of God. The movie has a strong message, and I think it is one everyone should read, because sooner or later, in life, we will need to seek the counsel of Wisdom.

One of my favorite portions of scripture is found in Colossians 4:2-6: "Continue earnestly in prayer, being vigilant in it with thanksgiving; meanwhile praying also for us, that God would open to us a door for the word, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in chains, that I may make it manifest, as I ought to speak. Walk in wisdom toward those who are outside, redeeming the time. Let your speech always be with grace, seasoned with salt, that you may know how you ought to answer every one."

As I was writing the words of that scripture, I thought about King Solomon, who asked God for wisdom to know how to rule his people. Solomon realized that as a man he needed the counsel of a omnipotent God guiding him in the way he should go. Thanks to the Jewish nation we have the written word to turn to for wisdom, because everything we need for life and godliness can be found in the pages of His Word. Most times it takes awhile for the light bulb to come on when we are facing challenges, but God hears our prayers, and He answers them. The answer may not be what we had hoped to hear, but the word says He is not slack concerning His promises. Again, mysteries. 

As we walk with Him, abide in His presence, or as I've written before - "Find the love of Jesus, and love Him back," we begin to see in part and know in part, but we grow in faith to trust God more and more, and our questions take on new meaning.

So, what are some questions you have for God? You can ask Him anything!
  

Day 191 Let Everything That Has Breath...!

 

7/10/2025

 

Once the days turn to double digits, the days turns quickly into another month, and so it goes. It seems at first, at the beginning of the new month, that the days are so slow, or at least it seems so to me. I have heard it said that when a person gets older that the days pass more quickly. Whereas I don't know if that is accurate, as for me, certain days appear to drag by ever so slowly. As usual, this day went by quickly. I had my Harvest group meeting tonight, then I was supposed to attend another meeting, but I lost the invitation and forgot which group it was. I usually write these things down, but I have so many invitations lately that I just began to "delete, delete, delete!" I guess I went over board just a wee bit! I know that sounds terrible, as I dearly care about each event, but sometimes I need a breather. To be frank, I have been taking a little time in the evenings this week to watch a little television. I am not much of a couch potato, and although I love movies, that just hasn't been my life for quite awhile. But when I do indulge myself, it is generally to re-watch a favorite friend or old time series, like Highway to Heaven or Little House on the Prairie, or the newer ones are The Chosen, and now The House of David. I just finished the eight episodes of the first season, and I can hardly wait to see what happens next. Season One ended with David holding Goliath's head while the Israeli army rode into battle against the Philistines. I did enjoy the production, as it was quite nicely done, but it was not as Biblically accurate, in my humble opinion, as The Chosen. It made the account of David's early life more interesting and quite believable, as I know the Bible cannot contain every detail. So I wholeheartedly recommend it, and I am anxious for Season 2.

First thing this morning I had to ask God to forgive me, as I've been a bit out of sorts, impatient, with an attitude. I haven't been myself, and it is not necessarily because I overdid and was burned out. No, I am just tired of the way people are treating each other, especially how they are treating God and professing Christians are treating each other. My life is simple. I trust God, take Him at His word, or at least I hope I do. Each day I am provided with a word from the Lord before I begin my day. It's really uncanny the way it happens, then it's confirmed once or twice, so I know it's God. When I was taking my shower this morning, I was praying, as I generally do while cleansing myself with the water, - why not with the washing of the word - I stopped to quote Psalm 51:10-13 as I am usually in the habit of doing in order to keep myself pure before God. I had started to put on the whole armor of God, but I stopped after putting on the loin girdle of truth - Jesus who is the way, the truth, the life!, to say these words. This psalm by David is a song of repentance, and I felt it is very important to remind myself of the words: "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Your presence, and do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, and uphold me by Your generous Spirit. Then I will teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted to You."

After bearing my heart and soul to Abba, I was able to finish putting on the rest of the armor, each piece carefully examined and correctly positioned on my spiritual body. I finished up some morning work, and morning quickly drifted into afternoon. I became flustered again while trying to find the air pump for my exercise ball I had asked my son to bring upstairs from the basement. I needed the support for my back, and it is one of the best ways to massage tight muscles. It's also fun to bounce up and down on, but I limit that sort of activity these days. I've had mishaps, much earlier in life, when I bounced myself right off into the floor. I had become rather enthusiastic, as you might imagine, but I'm certain there was reason. After searching obvious places where I may have stashed the pump, I gave up the hunt. I was too lazy to go outside in the hot, humid weather to get my tire pump from the car. It's been a bit more comfortable inside the house, and besides I need to move on to the next thing to do.

After checking with my son, Daniel, about his preferences for supper, I decided to make a broccoli and chicken casserole, so I began to gather the ingredients. Still feeling a bit disgruntled over my lack of accomplishment today, I decided that before I did anything else that I needed to praise God and dance! So I put on God's Great Dance Floor by Chris Tomlin, and I boogied in the kitchen, frightening the cat out of her wits! After playing that song twice, I decided that I needed Praise by Elevation Worship, and after that Praise performed by Solu Israel, so I could practice my Hebrew for the day! Revisiting those moments brings a smile to my face even now. I am revived for the second time today!

The hour is late, and the mosquitoes are finding their way into my bedroom for their nightly snack of AB+ juice! How could they survive without me!

As I begin to close out this post for tonight, I am listening to soft music entitled, Songbirds of the Spring by Tim Janis. He and his wife, Elizabeth, live in the Rocky Mountains in a log home surrounded by nature. He arranges instrumental music, mostly hymns, with photos and sounds of nature. He has a YouTube account, and his music is so welcoming and calming, spiritually uplifting. They seem to enjoy an idyllic life in their native woods, and if it wasn't a sin, I'd envy them, because it's the life I'd choose. But alas, I am here in Virginia, and we don't have to say any more. I miss Northern New Mexico where I lived in the Sangre de Cristo Mountains for thirty five years of my life. About the time it turns autumn when the leaves turn colors in October, I'll hopefully be traveling that way. The aspens will be in full bloom, and it will be so breathtakingly beautiful. I'll be sure to take photos and share. 

Until then, I bid you shalom and good night. Thank God for His blessings and His incredible gift of life. He is worthy of praise!! 

Day 190 God Winks

 

7/9/2025

 "You are my hiding place;
You shall preserve me from trouble;
You shall surround me with songs of deliverance." Selah

 Psalm 32:7

 

Last night while on the prayer call, anxiously awaiting my turn, a sudden storm came up, lightning and thunder and torrential rains beating down on my window sill. I had to shut off my video twice, excusing myself from the meeting, to clean up the rain that poured into my open windows. Finally, the storm became so intense that I had to slip silently out of the meeting altogether. I started to send a quick email of apology, but I had to get off and shut down my computer because of the intensity of the advancing storm. I felt so flustered, because for once in a great while, I had confidence that I had a word from the Lord to share with the people present. This is not always the case, as I feel intimidated by the ladies in the group, because they obviously more seasoned warriors than I appear to be, because they are activist-minded than I, actually going onsite to pray. I'm still wondering how I was so blessed to receive an invitation to this small group of ladies, but I am grateful. God seems to be opening many doors, but that's what happens when we say "Yes, Lord!"

This morning the ICEJ meeting began with an overview of the meetings between President Trump and Prime Minister Netanyahu, noting the respect shown to the Prime Minister by this President as compared to former ones. These are unprecedented times, and the allegiance between the two great leaders is unmistakable. With President Trump's policy of transparency for the press, in allowing them present at each briefing, and allowing them to stay longer when time allows, there was still time when the two allies met in secret. I believe that is always wise. Several times during the initial opening of our call, the presenter expressed surprise at the way God is working things out in His time. I think that's the point, isn't it? When we pray, according to His will, then it must be His time, as our time is irrelevant. He is the One who knows all things, all times, Creator of all things! It just seems that simple to me. in fact this is part of what I wanted to share. I've heard our President and certain staff members repeat the phrase "common sense" in response to how this administration will lead this country. The Bible speaks of common sense also. 

Last night I didn't get a chance to share my thoughts, so I'll include them now. First, however, the opening scripture for this morning's meeting was taken from Deuteronomy 32:35, but I want to begin with verse 34: "But Israel is my special people, sealed as jewels within my treasury. Vengeance is mine, and I decree the punishment of all her enemies; their doom is sealed." Verse 43 follows: "Praise His people, gentile nations, for He will avenge His people, taking vengeance on His enemies, purifying His land and His people."

This portion of scripture was highlighted as we consider the strategic tactics that have been used by Israel's military to defend themselves from the enemy's nefarious attacks over these 642 days. Iran is now in a position of no true power, other than proxies, and even some of those are tiring of the futile attempts to defeat God's people. Israel has weathered many storms, and still there is the question of the hostage release, the major point of it all. We must continue to feel confident in what we have prayed, based on Your word, O Lord, for this is why we pray. In Proverbs 25:2-3 Solomon shares: "It is God's privilege to conceal things, and the king's privilege to discover and invent. You cannot understand the height of heaven, the size of the earth, or all that goes on in the king's mind!" Other thoughts in Proverbs concerning God's hand on everything are as follows:

Proverbs 19:21 "Man proposes, but God disposes." The NIV puts it this way, "Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." This reminds me of a scripture I shared a day or so ago about us getting all puffed up and sure of ourselves, doing things we think are best, but God steps in and smacks our hands, and says, "Tisk, tisk, little one. I think I know a little better way."

Proverbs 20:18 "Don't go ahead with your plans without the advice of others; don't go t war until they agree." Proverbs 11:14 also advises that "there is wisdom in a multitude of counselors." The history of God's people repeatedly demonstrates wisdom of seeking the counsel of God before all others. Verse 24 of Chapter 20 adds an important question: "Since the Lord is directing our steps, why try to understand everything that happens along the way?" This is my main thought from the beginning. If we are seeking God, truly seeking Him, being directed by His word, standing firmly and in obedience, in right relationship, examining our hearts daily to ensure we are, praying His word back to Him by following the example of intercessors in the history of Israel, recounting His faithfulness to the generations, then why are we so surprised at what God is doing miraculously at this time? How He is using His people in Israel and in America to work on behalf of His chosen people. Where is our faith? 

If further evidence was needed, let me finish what He showed me: 

Proverbs 21:1 "Just as water is turned into irrigation ditches, so the Lord directs the king's thoughts. He turns them wherever he wants to."

Proverbs 21:7 "Because the wicked are unfair, their violence boomerangs and destroys them."

Proverbs 21:12 "God, the Righteous One, knows what is going on in the homes of the wicked, and will bring the wicked to judgment."

Proverbs 21:30-31 "No one, regardless of how shrewd or well-advised he is, can stand against the Lord. Go ahead and prepare for the conflict, but victory comes from God."

That's what I was going to share last night before the storm hit, more or less. Perhaps God allowed the storm to keep me humble. May He knew I'd feel insecure and chicken out, or maybe, just maybe it was only meant to be shared in this way. At any rate His word is always trustworthy and true, applicable to our lives at any time. We just need to remember from whence our help comes from!

 

Day 189 Hmmmm!

 

7/8/2025

 "I have been young, and now am old; 

yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken,

nor his descendants begging bread."

Psalm 37:25 

 

Days drift into days and nights into nights, and the new day dawns, and I find myself lagging behind once more. So much happens in a day, then very little actually changes. It seems as if time has gotten the best of me, and I feel as if I can never catch up and recapture the moments that have been lost. I sit here now looking out my bedroom window onto an open field of dandelions and white clover, crabgrass and an occasional cluster of blue violets to soften the overpowering blast of yellow. It seems as if it rains daily, even if only a short drizzle, causing the grass to double in height and badly in need of another trim. The house seems to continue to decay, although brick does stand the test of time. Regardless of the rock quarry that shacks the ground with every blast, cracking the plaster on the walls from the repercussions of the dynamiting, aiding the natural settling of the earth over the course of time, my parent's home is steady and strong, yet badly in need of care and repair. 

Considering all of this, I smile and breathe another prayer of thanksgiving to my God who has given me all this and more. I do not have the time to recount the blessings He gives me daily, because He gives me everything, and I would never get to the busyness of living and caring for all He has given me, if I constantly chattered on. But yet, I find myself, laughing when I get tired and remind Abba of my weariness, because He reminds me of all that Jesus endured in a day, walking the long, dusty roads and narrow, thorny paths leading across the desert to arrive at His stops for the day. His divine appointments. Jesus never complained of the tremendous heat Israel beats down upon its inhabitants. The great toil of traveling from place to place, warmly and enthusiastically accepted here, rejected and chased off in other places. He stood for hours and healed the sick, cast out demons, raised the dead, comforted the weak and encouraged those who were troubled and in need of extra attention. Coated with sweat and dirt and blood as He ministered. Many times He went without eating, other times He multiplied the loaves and fishes. He never tired of the ceaseless questions His disciples asked, because they could not understand His mission. The love of Jesus knew no bounds, and it is the same today. He tolerates so much with me. 

Perhaps I am feeling nostalgic today. 

 

 

Day 188 Be Still and Know

 

7/7/2025 

 "My soul, wait silently for God alone,

for my expectation is from Him."

Psalm 62:5

 

Every seven days I am offered a reprieve from my normal daily walk through the Bible, and a psalm is given as inspiration and a time of worship and reflection. The psalms of David are always a comfort to me, as David always speaks from his heart. As a shepherd David spent so much time alone in the fields watching over his father's flocks, protecting them from the elements and from predators attempting to harm or kill them. His pastoral psalms are so calming, yet riddled with the struggles of his heart and the actual battles he was facing, but he always assures the reader of the strength of the Lord. David knew his God, and as we witness in God's choice of David as the King of Israel, David was special and well known by God. How can one spend so much time alone in prayer together and not know the true motives of a person's heart. God called David the apple of His eye, and in spite of David's lowly status with his family, God chose him to rule and reign over Israel for ever. 

Psalm 62 was apparently written during a period of time when David was having difficulty, as he was obviously in distress, considering the anguish and passion of his words. Yet, in spite of whatever hardship or controversy David faced, his poems always reflected his unwavering trust in God. As the psalm begins, David writes in verses 1-2: "I stand silently before the Lord, waiting for him to rescue me. For salvation comes from Him alone. Yes, He alone is my Rock, my rescuer, defense and fortress. Why then should I be tense with fear when troubles come?" David repeats these exact words again in verses 5-6 re-emphasizing his confidence in the Lord his God, the Shepherd of his soul who never abandoned him in the pastures or desert all those lonely years of tending sheep. David was so certain of his Father's love that in Psalm 27:10 he wrote: "When my father and mother forsake me, then the LORD will take care of me." Although David's lineage may have been questionable, God love for him was not. 

I've been watching the new series, The House of David, and it portrays David as rejected by his father after his mother died, because David's father, Jesse, had a relationship with David's mother outside of marriage. While she was alive, David was considered part of the household, but later, after she died, David spent most of his time with the sheep. Jesse's other sons did not consider him a true brother nor Jesse a true son. This is why he did not call for Jesse when Samuel asked to meet all his sons. Jesse made sure that David spent his time with the sheep in the pasture. David could not read or write, but he wrote beautiful music and poems which later became the psalms. It is said that he learned to read and write as a servant in the house of Saul. 

It's interesting watching the stories of great men of God. This series is well done, as is The Chosen series. Both are the works of creative genius, and prayerfully will be used to bring many to belief in Jesus as Savior and Lord. I recommend both. 

Over the past few days, the Lord has impressed upon me the words found in the above Psalm 62, but He also points me to Psalm 46:10: "Be still, and know that I am God." Listen to the strength and calming reassurance of the entire Psalm, because in today's world situation it is good to cling on to single verses that bring peace, as with in verse 10, but it is wise to consider the whole counsel of the word and see its relevance for today. In your study of the word of God, remember that context is key! I am using the The Living Bible translation for emphasis today:

"God is our refuge and strength, a tested help in times of trouble. And so we need not fear even if the world blows up, and the mountains crumble into the sea. Let the oceans roar and foam; let the mountains tremble! 

There is a river of joy flowing through the City of our God - the sacred home of the God above all gods. God Himself is living in that City; therefore it stands unmoved despite the turmoil everywhere. He will not delay His help. The nations rant and rave in anger - but when God speaks, the earth melts in submission and kingdoms totter into ruin. 

The Commander of the armies of heaven is here among us. He, the God of Jacob, has come to rescue us.

Come, see the glorious things that our God does, how He brings ruin upon the world, and causes wars to end throughout the earth, breaking and burning every weapon. 'Stand silent! Know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation in the world!' 

The Commander of the heavenly armies is here among us! He, the God of Jacob, has come to rescue us!"  

Many may not find comfort in those words at this time, because they may be in the midst of wars, terrible loss as with the floods in Texas, the loss of loved ones. Somewhere, always, in this vast world, there will be storms, whether physical, actual and tangible ones, or those that rage within our hearts and minds. Memories can be tormenting, and the enemy of our souls does not easily relent, but we can be confident that we have a God who never changes, and He is even more relentless in His love. Jesus has overcome the devil, and even though he roams this earth, he has been defeated. So rise up and take up your position in heaven, seated beside Christ as a believer, and know without a doubt that He is Lord, and God will be exalted in every nation in the world! 

 

Day 187 All to Jesus

 

7/6/2025 

 "What are you so puffed up about? What do you have God 

hasn't given you? And if all you have is from God, 

why act as though you are so great, and as though you have 

accomplished something on your own? 

1 Corinthians 4:7

 

These are the words of Paul the Apostle, called by Jesus to witness to the Gentiles, writing to the church of Corinth that he planted on his second missionary trip. Corinth was a famous commercial center, but it was steeped in paganism and "infamous for its immorality." The church was growing, but with growth, problems and questions arise. I love Paul's words to the Christians of Corinth when he says in Chapter 2:2-3: "For I decided that I would speak only of Jesus Christ and His death on the cross. I came to you in weakness - timid and trembling." Paul was a Pharisee and a Roman citizen, tutored by Gamaliel, a great scholar and leading authority in the Sanhedrin. Paul once called himself a Pharisee of the Pharisees, and he once persecuted the church prior to his conversion experience on the Road to Damascus where he encountered the living Lord Jesus. Now, as an apostle he presents the gospel in a clear, honest, simply-spoken manner, as he himself was saved. Chloe from the church, one of the followers there in Corinth, had written Paul of the discord within the church prompting Paul's letter. It seems they were questioning the validity or qualification of who baptized whom into the church. Religion had somehow crept into the church, as it often does, so Paul is a bit frustrated at this point. Aside from Paul and this situation, this verses of scripture was posed as today's verse by Pastor Jack for our consideration. And, rightly so, as many today seemed to be puffed up considering themselves more learned about certain facts pertaining to the church, and it gets to be quite disconcerting. But then, as I have said, and as Solomon has said, "There's nothing new under the sun."

In considering this scripture, Pastor Jack asked the question "What is it that keeps you from seeing yourself as you really are, others from seeing you as you wish you really were, and God from helping you become what you would really like to be?" Ouch! No triple ouch! But thought-worthy no less. He suggests "pride covers your own sins; pride obscures the view of others; and pride hinders service for God!" I guess that's it in a nutshell, especially if you're trying to hide something, as we all have done, if we're honest. I know that there are things in my past that I'd rather not share with the world. But then, if there came a time when it may prove helpful to another person, then I would do it. In my blogs, and in my testimonies otherwise, I have become pretty transparent about things. I don't like to involve other people, ones who have caused me pain, as it benefits nothing. I'd much rather speak about God's mercy and grace, and His great healing power. 

When I consider the initial scripture above from 1 Corinthians 4:7, I have absolutely nothing to be puffed up about, but, like Paul, I too, have determined to know nothing except Jesus and Him crucified. He is the Savior of the world, and He has transformed my life since day one. I just didn't begin to realize how much until perhaps the last 25 years or more. Before that, off and on, I did know, but my guilt and shame kept me hidden and alone. I still served God and worked in the church, but when I was home, all I could do was think about how much I had failed God. Now, here God was using this donkey, as He often does use donkeys. I'm sure you know a few. But, I still felt so unworthy, and whereas I knew He said He had forgiven me of all my sins, the devil made me doubt. I was great at helping others, but I couldn't get over it concerning myself. Thank God the day of "Get off your face!" came! And I did! God is oh so faithful. I know I write about this all the time, but a little extra testifying never hurts, ya know! 

I'm not so concerned anymore about accusations, as I am with bringing Him the glory He deserves. I told my son that I was hesitant about publishing my book, because someone may recognize my name and have something derogatory to say about me. But then, someone always has something to say about some one. It's the way of the world, and it is exactly what Pastor Jack was questioning - pride covers, obscures, and hinders. So if someone is pointing fingers, then there are four pointing back at that one. This weekend, Pastor Jonathan presented the Harvest message for his dad in our series The Reluctant Evangelist, taking a look at the life of Jonah. Pastor Jonathan said that "God appoints circumstances (or storms) to bring us back" to where we should be, doing what God has said for us to do. In Jonah's situation, God "had prepared" a great fish to swallow Jonah. That would not be a hard one to miss as a sign! But in life many things happen, things that make us question why? Especially when harm is brought to the innocent or an unforeseen tragedy happens.

This weekend we became aware of flash floods in Texas after extended rainfall that rose within a short period of time to great height and flooded several areas killing many, including a Christian girls' campground in Kerr County. There are still 11 girls missing and a counselor, and others missing from other affected areas. Homes were unearthed, devastation everywhere, and damage to property and loss of lives in this catastrophic flood. Samaritan's Purse and other search and rescue organizations have been called in to assist. Prayer is being requested all over. On the 4th of July weekend, a time so many get away to enjoy family outings, and churches send kids to camps. Only God knows the whys of all things. We ask, we plead, we cry, some get so angry and feel betrayed, but God is not a God of wrath, and He loves all people. I pray that in offering comfort to others that it never becomes cliche to say "God loves you." Sometimes it is best to be there, provide hugs and reassurance of support and love, and listen and cry with a those who are suffering, who are grieving, and who are waiting for news.

It's always interesting the way my writing gets turned around when I am blogging. I always make notes, in case I get behind, as I did yet again, every time I get stumped about what to say. But when it comes time to rewrite and make sense of it all, including my journal notes, other events of the day seem more important, but I pray, relevant to the initial thought. We do, after all, owe God everything, and He owes us nothing. He already gave His all when He sent His Only Son to die in our place, to carry our guilt, shame, sin for a lifetime, and die in our place a horrible death. We owe Him everything. 

The idea is difficult on any given day, but it is particularly hard at times as mentioned above. He tells us in His word to give thanks, regardless, give thanks. And we should, so we do! Blessed Savior, still our refuge, we give You praise.

  

Day 186 Wise Decisions

 

7/5/2025

 "You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind

is stayed on You. Trust in the LORD forever, for in

YAH, the LORD, is everlasting strength."

Isaiah 26:3-4

 

It's late, as usual, and here I am, my thoughts jostled, as if in a fighting match, pushed and shoved, and battered, torn. Not just confusion but utter turmoil. I received a phone call, much too late, and I listened for well over an hour to the same chatter over and over. The very same I am subjected to many days and have been for many years. I wonder how long I am to listen. I do care, but my words mean little, my experience less. At the end of each session I come away with the same question - how long, O Lord, how long? I no longer subject myself to blame or self pity. There is a time and a season for all things, and I must finally determine the end of this one and the beginning of the next. It is so utterly despairing when I am unable to make someone I love, whom I would give my life for, understand it does not to be this way. I do understand more than realized by others, because my life is not an open book to everyone. In fact, so much has been forgotten, or conveniently or perhaps kindly, placed out of my remembrance for a time. Even so, it doesn't help now, and if shared, I would only be further condemned by the one I desperately want to save. But I can't save anyone. This I already discovered from things hidden from me, purposely, and over time. Such a deadly betrayal. But that's another story, not necessarily for another day. 

Oddly the Proverbs for today are described as "Wise Decisions in Life," and include Proverbs 18-21. There is a by-line written to the side that says, "The yoke of the Lord Jesus will never fit on a stiff neck." Now that is a timely word as Jesus says in Matthew 11:28-30: "Come to Me and I will give you rest - all of you who work so hard beneath a heavy yoke. Wear My yoke - for it fits perfectly - and let Me teach you; for I am gentle and humble, and you shall find rest for your souls; for I give you only light burdens." (NLT) 

So, let's take a look-see at these Proverbs that I have marked from today, beginning with 18:1, The selfish man quarrels against every sound principle of conduct by demanding his own way." Whew, I'd say that one landed on my doorstep at an opportune moment, a word of all-too-true wisdom. Verse 10: The Lord is a strong fortress. The godly run to Him and are safe." Thank You, Abba, for always being my rock, my strength, my high tower, especially in times when I feel so lowly and helpless. I can climb on the Rock of my Salvation and cling to Him. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. In Him is no deceit, only goodness and wonderful mercy and grace. He is my hiding place where I am safe from scorn and ridicule, a refuge in the storm when the fury rages, and there seems to be no respite. Verse 20 says that the "Ability to give wise advice satisfies like a good meal!" I have no words to encourage myself with regards to helping the above-mentioned, but I do know for myself that the Word of God is my life, healing, sweeter than honey, satisfies a hungry soul and a bleeding heart. When we were born again into the Kingdom of God, Holy Spirit breathed the breath of new life - His life - into our lungs. We can experience this refreshing each day, breathing in His glory, His presence, and knowing that it will be okay, and our minds can be kept in perfect peace, as they are stayed on Him, as the verse from Isaiah 26 states. The Bible does not just contain words, they are words of life!

The Proverbs in this group for today speak one truth and then counter it with the opposite. Do this and it's all good, but if you do this, all goes to squat or nada (nothing), or something along those lines. They counter each other. Sort of like blessings and curses. The overview sums it up this way: "The varied statements of common sense in today's reading describe the perils facing the wise and the unwise, character sketches of the poor and mighty, and value judgments upon things that appear to be good and things that are good." Proverbs 19:16 "Keep the commandments and keep your life; despising them means death." Well, that goes without saying!! Then in verses 20, 21, and 23: "Get all the advice you can and be wise the rest of your life!. Man proposes, but God disposes..... Reverence for God gives life, happiness, and protection from harm." O, how I pray that our leaders are staying close to the word today, to guide their steps. These verses make it clear that God is the one in control of all things, but He also allows us to make mistakes, so we will learn. the repercussions are often not pleasant in our lives, as well as in the government. So we must be faithful to pray and to trust God, no matter what happens. 

In Chapter 20 there are several verses that go along with prayers for our national and world leaders, and for all who desire to walk a responsible life. They are;

15. "Good sense is far more valuable than gold or precious jewels."

18. "Don't go ahead with your plans without the advice of others; don't go to war until they agree."

21. "Quick wealth is not a blessing in the end."

22. "Don't repay evil for evil. Wait for the Lord to handle the matter."

24. "Since the Lord is directing our steps, why try to understand everything that happens along the way?"

27 - 29. "A man's conscience is the Lord's searchlight exposing his hidden motives. If a king is kind, honest and fair, his kingdom stands secure. The glory of young men is their strength; of old men, their experience."

It's important to pray for our leaders, so I hope these encourage and guide. Finally, in Chapter 21 I will end with only the first verse. It is my standby for those who lead us, as it emphasizes what I have only expressed in the above verses and shared from an older woman's perspective and gained knowledge: 

"Just as water is turned into irrigation ditches, 

so the Lord directs the king's thoughts.

He turns them wherever He wants to."  

I'll leave my valued audience to chew on this last bit of truth and guidance, as the opening verses from Isaiah 26:3-4 are held closely in your hearts.

Now, I'm off to check out The House of David, the new series about the life of King David that my Pastor Greg Laurie assures is the best ever! 

Day 185 The High Price of Freedom

 

7/4/2025

"Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which

Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled

again with a yoke of bondage."

Galatians 5:1

"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of 

the Lord is, there is freedom."

2 Corinthians 3:17

"Therefore whom the Son sets free, is free indeed!"

John 8:36

 

Today we celebrate the Fourth of July when special television and media programs are planned in honor of the day. Generally I enjoy watching historical documentaries on the founding of our country or special tributes, but this year was a shift from my norm. Around midnight, or perhaps prior to it, the neighbors were already shooting off fireworks that lasted through the end of today, as it is now past midnight as I am writing. The very first rocket sounded like a sonic boom, shot from across the street from my house. In fact they must have purchased every loud fire cracker sold. I am thankful that with all this greenery around, there were no mishaps. I didn't really smell any grills cooking hamburgers, as charcoaled burgers are one of the special delicacies of the holiday along with home churned ice cream and icy cold watermelon. Now that I can appreciate! 

It was a quiet day for me, and I found myself napping off and on during the day after another late night. It seems as if I never learn that I need to get to bed earlier. I received emails announcing special programs, but I chose to listen to quiet music and read today. It was a relaxing day, and I was able to finish my blog from the day before. I learned that I have an audience following me. That makes it worthwhile, because now I know that someone is actually reading the posts. Perhaps that will encourage me to begin the book again. I hope so, because I want to be obedient to that call.

Early this morning during the five minutes of daily prayer with Pastor Jack, he mentioned that a scripture had been engraved on the Liberty Bell that is safely housed at Liberty Hall in Pennsylvania. The scripture is from Leviticus 25:10 that reads "Proclaim liberty throughout all the land unto all its inhabitants thereof." Isaac Norris, Speaker of the Pennsylvania Assembly, in 1751, chose this scripture. There is a replica of the Liberty Bell located at the Museum of the Bible in Washington DC. The context in which this scripture was written was about consecrating the fiftieth year as the year of Jubliee in Israel in which all the slaves were set free, each person returned to their own family and to their own possessions. It was a year of no sowing of crops or reaping; one would eat the produce of the field. It was a holy day. I often wonder why it is not observed in Israel today, but I do know that the Sabbatical year for land to rest, called Shmita. is observed every seven years, when the land is left to rest, to remain fallow, to replenish itself. I remember my daddy would do the same for the gardens he planted. He would leave certain areas and not plant, so the soil would replenish itself. 

I read an article by Ben Carson about the Liberty Bell entitled "What You Don't Know About the Liberty Bell" written August 24, 2016 in Time Magazine. Here is an excerpt: 

"After his assassination, President Lincoln’s body was laid inside Independence Hall with the Liberty Bell and its inscription placed directly overhead. Only a small fraction of those wishing to view the body were able to enter, but as many as 140,000 visitors paid their respects that day. According to reports, the line to get in was never less than three miles long.

I find it incredibly providential that Abraham Lincoln—the man who delivered freedom to the slaves—was given his final honor while lying below a bell named by abolitionists, bearing a verse that commanded the rest of us to fight for freedom.

Whether you’re black or white, Democrat or Republican, The Liberty Bell’s true story reminds Americans of all stripes that our nation’s history—and future—belongs to us all. It challenges us to tear down systems that hold us captive and honor the price great men and women have paid to cast and re-cast the American mold to form a more perfect union.

The Liberty Bell proclaims who America truly is, even when she seems to be finding her way. As Lincoln aptly stated in his Second Inaugural Address as the Civil War was drawing to a close, 'With malice toward none, with charity for all, with firmness in the right as God gives us to see the right, let us strive on to finish the work we are in… to do all which may achieve and cherish a just and lasting peace…'”

Mr. Carson is correct, I didn't realize any of these facts. I was never a real history buff in school, but I did learn to appreciate it better as a college student, because I had a teacher who made it so interesting. He taught us that history was about every facet of our lives, not just about wars and revolutions, but it included literature, art, all areas of life. He had a way of making history come alive. In recent years with all the changes, not necessarily for the best, I have tried to become more enlightened as to what is actually going on in our government and world. I remember memorizing the Declaration of Independence and part of the Constitution in high school. I was always memorizing something, but certain documents were mandatory, and I'm glad that was the case. I don't think anything of governmental importance is required learning today. There is much ignorance in the world today as to the true function of our governmental branches. Life has changed so much, as have values and morals. Thankfully, that is changing now, and perhaps celebrating our nation's history will bring back the meaning it once held. I certainly hope parents will teach their children what it means to be an American citizen. 

Hopefully, more immigrants seeking true refuge and a new way of life and freedom will decide to become citizens of our country now that borders are secure and safety is returning to our streets. But the price of freedom never comes without paying a high cost. In the beginning our founding fathers had to overcome much to attain liberty and establish our nation, a nation founded on godly principles and moral values.  Today we are fighting a battle to restore our country to these ideals, truths based on God's word. But there are still battles to be won. Sadly antisemitism is on the rise as well as other forms of persecution and racism. But there are brave men and women who are fighting back, standing for righteousness and justice. This year may true freedom ring, and may God's blessings be upon our nation and our leaders.  

Day 184 Things I Learned

 

7/3/2025

"In their hearts humans plan their course, 

but the LORD establishes their steps."

Proverbs 16:9  

 

"If you could take one lesson you learned from your father or grandfather - and pass it on to your children or grandchildren, what would it be?" 

This was the question posed in my Daily Walk for July 2nd, as I was pouring over the Proverbs trying to snag some wisdom for the day. Solomon certainly was wise, as he had an answer for everything, and if heeded, a person would do well. One of the wisest sayings of King Solomon was found in Proverbs 9:10: "For the reverence and fear of God are basic to all wisdom. Knowing God results in every other kind of understanding." I'm not wise like Solomon was, but I do believe what he said is so true. 

Regarding the wisdom my father and grandfather passed along to me...! I remember my daddy always telling me to "use your head!" It's not that I was hard - headed, although I could be quite adventurous at times. It wasn't that he thought I was slow witted, rather, I think he wanted me to apply myself and use the intelligence he knew God had gifted to me. I don't know why I think that now, because at the time I thought he was being cruel. He was stern in so many ways, but he also had a gentleness that I think only I may have been able to see, because I study people and think about what they say and why. Maybe that's a gift too, and perhaps a reason God had me turn the corner of my Big Dream to one I felt was lesser. But then, nothing to God is less. Often, it's much, much more, because only I could do it. That's the way it is when He created us, ya know! But then, maybe you don't know that. Then you best re-read Psalm 139, as it talks about how He saw us before He crafted us. How he has a book with our names on it, and in it are the specifics of each life. So we each have a job to do. I'll leave you to think about that.

My daddy also taught me to finish what I start. He loved to piddle, but he always finished it, even if he had to stop and think about how to do a certain thing. Sometimes, if he didn't have the money to do it the way he'd like, he always found unique ways to get the job done. I think my daddy was a genius in many ways. He didn't have a great deal of academic learning, but he could do and understand a lot more than some college so-called scholars could do. He even knew that New Mexico was a State and not Mexico. I thought I'd add that part, because I know a certain PhD who did not know the difference. No kidding!! My son, Daniel, may have acquired my daddy's skills in fixing things, and his vocation was mechanics. I asked him recently if he was able to return to work again and could do anything, what would he do. He said he'd be a mechanic. Doing what one loves is most important, and that what my daddy did too.

My grandfather, papa to me, died when I was in my early 30's, so he never had the opportunity to visit me in New Mexico. He would have loved it. Daddy sure did until his heart prevented the altitude adjustment. But papa loved to hop in the car and ride. He'd stop by the house anytime in the afternoon, and he'd say "Let's go for a ride." I think that's where I got my adventurous side, as I love to take road trips. I'll be doing that soon, hopefully. I've never been afraid to go anywhere, and I have done my share of covering this country, but there's still so much to see. Sometimes when I'm driving along, I'll think about papa and how he'd love to see certain sights. How I miss him! 

In thinking about what papa said or did, I think of his ability to tell a story well. He was friendly, and he loved my grammy. Just like daddy loved my mama. At least so it appeared to me. Both my papa and my daddy were mechanics, and both liked to garden. I don't remember if my daddy had started going to church regularly before papa died, but papa was a deacon in the small country church where I started out. He knew I loved to read, and he knew I loved to be in the woods, climbing trees or riding my stick horse or building a fort in the woods with tree branches, pine cones and leaves. He knew I loved watermelon and could eat the entire one, unless he stopped me. He used to make me sit on the ice cream freezer while he cranked to the end. He taught me to rake the leaves, then tumble down the hill smack into the middle of the pile. He taught me to laugh instead of cry, and he taught me to see life through the eyes of God. He got me my first real job working with church friends in getting the tobacco harvested. I never was a smoker, but I dearly loved to work tobacco. 

Sometimes, when things happen in a person's life, things that can damage a person's soul, causing great trauma, it is hard to forget. It can cripple a person mentally, emotionally, and even spiritually. It can make someone physically ill, and it can be irreparable, without Jesus. In thinking about my life as a child, about what I learned about my daddy's and papa's characters I can see that what I learned from them, even incidentally, helped me cope when things were hard. It also gave me great insight into the heart of a person by watching what they do, listening to what they say, how they say things or do things. The intention of the heart. 

I wonder what my papa would think of the person I have become? In spite of the wrong choices I have made in my life I knew that my daddy was proud of me, because he told me so, and he never tells anyone these things. He observed, he formed opinions based on what he heard sometimes, but he would admit to being wrong. I think we all have a tendency to do that or pick up offenses. Still, my daddy and my papa were honest men, and I believe they knew God was ever present in their lives. I've shared before that I saw my daddy on his crippled, aching knees kneeling beside the bed in deep conversation with Jesus. I imagine my papa had his way of communing with Jesus as well. Hopefully, I'll find out soon when I'm finished my race. Until then, I'll keep dreaming my dreams, finishing the ones I'm working on now, knowing there's more to be done. And that's okay with me. I'll always be the gal sitting on the world, looking off, dreaming on the great things yet to be, of the people I'll meet and help along the way, content knowing no dream is truly lost,\, it may just have moved a little further from sight, for the time being. But I'm learning that although my chronological age is advancing, that doesn't make a difference to God's plan, so I hang on...and I wait. I truly believe the best is yet to be in His design for my life, even though the world is advancing to evil. I'll just counter it with love, and that I learned from my father and grandfather, and hopefully, I passed it on to my children and grandchildren, and prayerfully, it will be passed on to the great-grandchildren.  

Day 183 The Mystery

 

7/2/2025

"The blood in heaven is a divine and

inscrutable mystery." 

A.W. Tozer 

  

As I amble my way through the study of the book of Hebrews, I become lost in the words and the meaning. I find myself reading and having to re-read just to understand the immensity of the sacrifice, His precious blood poured out for me. If there had been only me, He would have gladly done it. Jesus hanging on the cross for my sins, torn and beaten beyond human recognition, His eyes piercing mine, not in hatred or disdain, but in a love so amazing, so divine. The image is indelibly engraved in my memory. O that all would understand and surrender their lives to Him. 

Andrew Murray in Holiest of All made this analogy: "We know what it means to wash our clothes in water, how they are plunged into it and saturated with it, until the water carries off all defilement. The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses from all sin, because the Eternal Spirit imparts the very life and power of which that precious blood-shedding was the outcome and the fruit. This is the power that cleanses the conscience from dead works to serve the living God." 

I have always been a fanatic about clean clothes. Mama used to tell me that I didn't need many clothes, just so they were clean. She used an expression - "make clean come." My mama had many expressions whether they'd be called cliches or idioms or dichos or sayings in Spanish. She could have published her own book of phrases and words to live by. She knew and understood scriptures as well, so there was no fooling her. She would have appreciated Murray's analogy between the washing with water and with blood. We are baptized in water, where we die to our sinful nature, and we are raised from the water into the newness of life, raised in the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Water and blood, indelibly cleansed.

Murray also said "Just as Christ is the visible revelation on earth and in heaven of the invisible God, so the Holy Spirit again is the communication of the life and redemption of the unseen Christ." So many in the body of Christ do not understand the significance of or the meaning of a Triune God - the Father, the Son, the Holy Ghost. So, you see, it is not only the unsaved who have questions. But then, we will always have questions in this life, because we are finite in understanding, and God is infinite wisdom. He is wisdom.

As I am studying Hebrews, I find myself walking through the Proverbs on my Daily Walk adventure. Proverbs 8 begins with the question, "Can't you hear the voice of wisdom? She is standing at the city gates and at every fork in the road, and at the door of every house. Listen to what she says." In verses 11 and 12 of the same chapter Solomon says, "For the value of wisdom is far above rubies; nothing can be compared with it. Wisdom and good judgment live together, for wisdom knows where to discover knowledge and understanding."

As I pray for my family and this nation, above all I pray that every person would come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ, that they be filled with the knowledge of His will, that the eyes of their understanding would be enlightened, that all would know the hope to which they have been called. Paul put it so much more eloquently than I in Ephesians 1:15-23, and it is my prayer, my hope, as well:

"Therefore I also, after I heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, do not cease to give thanks for you, making mention of you in my prayers; that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power which He worked in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, far above all principality and power and might and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in that which is to come. And He put all things under His feet, and gave Him to be head over all things to the church, which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all." 

Bringing things full circle, I will end with words from Andrew Murray in Holiest of All: "Oh let us believe the infinite mysteries with which we are surrounded. And above all, this mystery too, that within us, the blood of Christ, the Lamb of God - that mystery of mysteries - is being applied and kept in full action by the Eternal Spirit, cleansing us and revealing God's presence in us."

Now live for Him! 

Day 182 Reeds and Flax

7/1/2025

 "A bruised reed He will not break, and a

smoking flax He will not quench...."

Matthew 12:20 

 

I'm sitting alone, waiting for the temperature to drop and the wind to pick up a little, so I can head outside to do some yard work, before it starts to rain again. There's a nice breeze blowing through the window here in the kitchen, so I guess I best stop procrastinating and get my boots on. Hardly had I written those words than I hear "Tzeva Adom" which is "Red Alert" in Hebrew. It seems as if the Houthis in Yemen are firing rockets at Israel again. So much for peaceful days. The head of the snake, Iran, has been silent, but the proxies are not. This is very disconcerting, but then, it has been this way for Israel for a very long time. It's just hard for me to think about children running to bomb shelters as a routine way of life. 

The scripture quoted by Jesus, Matthew 12:20, was taken from the text written by Isaiah the prophet in chapter 42 when he was describing the coming Messiah:

"Behold! My Servant whom I uphold, My Elect One in whom My soul delights! I have put My Spirit upon Him; He will bring forth justice to the Gentiles. He will not cry out, or raise His voice, nor cause His voice to be heard in the street. A bruised reed He will not break, and smoking flax He will not quench; He will bring forth justice for truth. He will not fail nor be discouraged, till He has established justice in the earth; and the coastlands shall wait for His law." (Isaiah 42:1-4)

God is speaking favorably about the Gentile nation, and later in verses 6 and 7 He continues by saying His people will be a "light to the Gentiles." Many people are confused about the Bible these days, especially when it pertains to Israel, but clearly Isaiah is speaking of Jesus, and the word includes us, as Gentile believers. In verse 9 God continues to speak through the prophet Isaiah saying: "Behold, the former things have come to pass, and new things I declare; before they spring forth I tell you of them." Throughout the books of the prophets, God speaks through them to warn, correct, and proclaim good news.

In the book of Matthew in Chapter 12, Jesus speaks these words from Isaiah: "Behold! My Servant whom I have chosen, My Beloved in whom My soul is well pleased! I will put My Spirit upon Him, and He will declare justice to the Gentiles. He will not quarrel nor cry out, nor will anyone hear His voice in the streets. A bruised reed He will not break, and smoking flax He will not quench, till He sends forth justice to victory; and in His name Gentiles will trust." (Matthew 12:15-21). Jesus had been teaching the multitudes, and the religious leaders were around as usual, listening to Jesus teach, although not for the right motives. They were trying to find reasons to condemn Jesus in front of the multitudes who are following Him. First, they seek to condemn Jesus for the disciples eating on the Sabbath (Matthew 12:1-8), then for healing the man with the withered hand in the synagogue on the Sabbath day (Matthew 12:9-14). Jesus tells them in verse 8, "For the Son of Man is Lord even of the Sabbath." After Jesus heals the man's hand, the religious leaders set out to plot to destroy Him. 

Jesus' heart was for the people, but clearly, the religious leaders acted out of jealousy, pride, resulting in a deep hatred for Jesus and the message He preached, because it threatened their position as self-made gods to be followed, every additional law they added, even though it was not written in the original laws given by God to Moses. They were the experts, which I find very interesting, because for students of the Law, they missed every prophetic word announcing the birth, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Yet, Jesus went about with His disciples delivering the good news of the Kingdom of God, and many were saved, healed, and delivered. He didn't yell or harass the people, or beat them over the head with rules and more rules, as the religious leaders did. His message threatened them, when it should have made them rejoice. The verses above speak of Jesus' response to those who sought after Him, "a bruised reed He will not break and smoking flax He will not quench." Those who followed Jesus were "damaged" like a bent over river reed, that although damaged, was not destroyed, still functional with care. Jesus saw the broken and damaged - spiritually, physically, morally weak people - and He offered them hope, healing, and transformation. Smoking flax has not been completely lit on fire, so it smolders, but it can be rekindled. Jesus sought to restore hope, encourage, build up, set lives on fire with the gospel. Using creation as examples, Jesus gives hope. Creation and the very act of creation since the beginning of time shout praises to His name and serve as examples of His majesty and awe. It is the same today if we take time to see and listen to the voice of nature. 

As I write, I always listen to music playing softly in the background. Sitting here, window open, I smell the cleanness of the air, a faint scent of honeysuckle, see the trees gently tousled by a subtle breeze, and I hear the birds' song, their conversation with one another. I'm listening to beautiful music by a skillful pianist playing old beloved hymns, amidst scenes of nature, setting the mood for listening and hearing. What a Friend we Have in Jesus is playing now, one of my mama's favorites, and a proper close for today, as mama was definitely a bruised reed, a smoldering wick, a delicate flower among the gardens of roses and azaleas, and every beautiful blossom imaginable. An artist who is now resting in the arms of the Savior she adored.

"What a friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer

 

O what peace we often forfeit
O what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer

 

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged
Take it to the Lord in prayer

 

Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness
Take it to the Lord in prayer"

 

Day 181 That I May Know Him

 

6/30/2025 

"But let him who glories glory in this, that he

understands and knows Me, that I am the LORD,

exercising loving kindness, judgment and

righteousness in the earth. For in these I do delight,

says the LORD."

Jeremiah 9:24  

 

What exactly does it mean to understand and know God? 

Evangelists coin the phrase "knowing God and making Him known" as the vision behind the call.  Rightfully so, as how can one make someone known without first knowing that person intimately, having a deep and lasting friendship with that One? Naturally the answer is that it is impossible otherwise. But then there are many examples of those in scripture who have professed to speak on God's behalf, yet they do not know Him, and He says that He has not sent them. The consequences for that did not turn out well for the false prophets named in Jeremiah, as I read today. In our modern age there are those touting the name "prophet" who are followed religiously like sheep being led to the slaughter, and whose books and prophetic words supersede the scriptures. We must be careful to whom we listen, and we must study the word of God so we are not tricked into accepting lies, cunningly supported by a form of godliness but denying the true power of God. Seek for Him with your whole heart, and He will be found. Keep your eyes trained on Jesus as the Author and Finisher of your faith. As we seek to know God, we must be wise of the schemes of the enemy who seeks to destroy us, because he hates Jesus, so he hates us. His love is feigned for his own purposes, but Jesus' love is true, and He proved His love by dying for us, taking on Himself all the evil of this world, so we could have fellowship with God for eternity.

In my personal journey, growing in my relationship with the Lord, I know that it takes time, commitment, and surrender to God's will and plans. John 15 speaks of abiding in Christ, making our home in Him, as He has in us. Listen as John the Apostle speaks so eloquently the words of our Savior, the words of life:

"I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing." John 15:1-5

Jesus has given us the Comforter, just as He promised the disciples. Holy Spirit teaches us, reminds us, of all Jesus did and said while He walked this earth. He convicts us if we stray, and He intercedes for us, as Jesus intercedes for us. When someone truly becomes acquainted with Jesus, understands Him, His message, His ferocious love for us, understands His birth, death, burial and resurrection, then he can begin to know Him. We love Him, because He first loved us. He gets our attention. He got mine. I wouldn't want to live my life any other way, than being in His presence, loving Him, being truly loved, just as I am, but transformed to a new life. 

So often I have quoted from the writings of some of the late greats, because they understood who Jesus is and all that He has done and will continue to do for those who love Him, who delight to follow in His ways. Clothed in His righteousness, His tender mercies, humility, meekness, longsuffering, perseverance, forgiveness as He forgave us, and in His great love. Lamentations 3:22-23 says "Through the LORD's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great in Your faithfulness."

Andrew Murray wrote about relationship with God in his book, Absolute Surrender:

“Being filled with the Spirit is simply this - having my whole nature yielded to His power. When the whole soul is yielded to the Holy Spirit, God Himself will fill it.” 

He said, “I need to spend time with God even when I do not know what to pray.” 

In his book, The Pursuit of God, A. W. Tozer said:

“O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, so that I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, ‘Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away.’ Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long.”

A W Tozer made it his deepest desire to live in the presence of God, and He did. “To have found God and still to pursue Him is the soul’s paradox of love.” 

Knowing Him is my greatest desire also. 

Day 180 Stay Alert

 

6/29/2025 

 "But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength;

They shall mount up with wings like eagles,

They shall run and not be weary,

They shall walk and not faint."

Isaiah 40:31

 

My heart is so saddened by what I am seeing in America, but I don't want to talk about that really. It becomes senseless to talk about it, when what is needed is action. I can pray about things, and I know God hears me, sees my heart is sincere, but when I can send letters, money to support the free legal teams, or support tangibly in other ways, then it is my responsibility to do more. I write about everything, but I don't know who, if anyone, is interested in my blogs or even what I have to say. I have always been involved in organizations directly supporting a cause. When I was in my 20's I helped out at the crisis pregnancy center as a counselor offering resources and support/encouragement, spiritual connections. I sewed maternity clothing for the ladies, and on weekends and holidays, I served as a crisis phone counselor. In my 30's, shortly after moving to New Mexico, I became involved with several community groups, usually church and school-related. But I was asked to be a co-manager of the literacy program, and my job was matching the adult students with the right volunteer to assist them in learning English literacy. The lady I worked with died a few years ago from cancer. I was saddened by that news, and I hope the program continues, as many need assistance. The school system in the area of New Mexico where I lived ranked so low, that programs were added. I was involved in an at risk program for young mothers and the fathers of the babies. I imagine that continues to be a problem to this day, as it seems to be an epidemic. At least the kids carried their children to term, and then they cared for them, aided by the welfare system. The State bears the brunt of the expenses, but they do not provide the type of support needed - how to stop having children out of wedlock. Sadly too, there are some fathers do not want to care for the children, so they live off the welfare money for each child, take vacations, and carry on their irresponsible behavior by impregnating another girl, maybe more, then making the rounds to collect the support money. I have witnessed this personally. It is disheartening. I am relieved that our government is involved in identifying fraud.

Since moving here, almost four years ago, I've noticed that several of the churches are involved with the Samaritan's Purse Operation Christmas Child project putting shoe boxes together for children all over the world. Last year my sister's small church put together 402 boxes, and I was able to assist with that, as I will continue to do. I had been knitting for community needs and painting faces for Dolls on Mission, missionary dolls, many of which end up in shoe boxes for the children around the world. I need to get back to helping, because it is enjoyable and satisfying helping others. Samaritan's Purse also needs help packing the boxes at many of the packing centers in states close by, and the individual churches always need donations for the children. Many churches provide clothes closets and food pantries for people in their communities, as well as personal toiletries and items for the home. So many needs exist in our world today, and we can all help do something.

My burden, my great love, is helping Israel through the International Christian Embassy in Jerusalem. I have attended daily morning prayer calls for 632 days since 10/7/2023, and I support other agencies and local churches in Israel that assist the Jewish people and the Arabs people who are in crisis. Since the massacre started this war, many are affected. We work with the IDF soldiers and other groups, and we support the hostage families, as well as the hostages after they have been released. The trauma they face, as do the soldiers who have experienced physical and emotional trauma from the battle, is a constant need. The embassy has provided horses to assist with emotional trauma in children who witnessed horrific sights and abuse. On a local level I work with other prayer ministries and organizations assisting Israel, and I have worked with a couple of churches in an attempt to get the message out regarding our awareness as Christians with Jewish history, connecting with our Hebraic roots. I've used my blogs in an attempt to explain the errors being taught in the church that have led to more antisemitism and hatred of the Jewish people. It dates back centuries, and it must stop. Thankfully, we have a President who is trying to support Israel and their Prime Minister at this crucial time in history. But there is so much more to be done, and we who are Christians need to understand the truth and expose the lies. We cannot remain silent, looking the other way. We need to silence the enemy by standing up and being the church God called us to be in support of our brothers and sisters in Christ. My job is to equip the church, and I so desire to reach out and encourage others to become involved. There is also a battle going on for our religious freedom, and our President has established a faith office at the White House, and the Faith Advisory Council that includes me as an intercessor along with hundreds of others, linking our shields of faith together to pray and stand for our leaders and our nation. We are praying for godly, righteous men and women to fill positions of leadership in our cities and states, and if God puts it on the heart of a man or woman of faith to run for an open position, then we encourage them. We are in a spiritual battle, and if you haven't noticed yet, if it hasn't come near your home yet, don't worry, it will eventually. As a follower of Christ Jesus warned us of all these things that will happen before His return. And it is getting closer and closer. 

We all have gifts and callings, things we feel compelled to do or love to do. Use your talents God has given you to help those in need. Please give consideration and prayerfully consider all I have said. Jesus said for us to occupy until He returns. We can't sit idly by and watch be destroyed when we can do something to make a difference. Our children are the future leaders of America, and right now they are very confused. Make a difference, and let them see your faith in action, as Jesus said it should be. What a great testimony to our children! 

Day 179 Teach Us to Pray

 

6/28/2025

"Lord, teach us to pray."

Luke 11:1

 

A dear friend called me early this morning. I hadn't heard from her in a while, but I knew she had been extremely busy trying to balance the care of the people in her life. She tends to bite off more than she can chew at times, and she has overcome many severe personal health challenges. Still, she finds the strength and wherewithal to take care of others, even in the midst of her pain. She's loyal, faithful, and loving, and family is everything to her, as it should be. I called her a couple of days ago, just to let her know I cared, and to touch bases, as I sensed something was up, and I was right. Being attentive to the voice of God is so important, and as a friend, who seems to have more than I can handle all the time, I want to keep my discerning ears open at all times. 

As the days pass by, and the war continues in Israel, we on the prayer wall become at a loss for words. Today I heard the words, "Lord, I don't know how or what to pray" spoken by one of male intercessors, allowing himself to be vulnerable. Thankfully, when we no longer know how or what to say, Holy Spirit steps in with words that cannot be uttered, and our prayers ascend to Abba on high, as incense. He knows our hearts are surrendered to His. One of my favorite words to pray when I don't know what else to say is "HELP!" and He does.

The disciples had been with Jesus for a time, had witnessed the periods of isolation when He separated Himself to be alone with the Father, to seek Him, and here they are asking Him to teach them to pray. In Luke 11 Jesus gives us what is known as The Lord's Prayer, the Model Prayer. I say it each day as a corporate prayer and as an individual response. When we repeat the words, we should do so deliberately, slowly, so we can fully understand the significance of each plea. It is not a magic all in one prayer. It's a model to show how we are to approach a Holy God. We come to Him in humility, surrendered and laying our hearts and souls on the line, never demanding, but in reverent fear. He is God. He alone is holy.

It is interesting to note that in this context found in Luke's account, the prayer follows with Jesus teaching His apostles the importance of continuing to ask, seek, and knock, when it comes to spending time in prayer. He gives a parable of the friend who comes at midnight and asks his friend for bread. The friend wasn't responsive to the needs of the one asking, but persistence paid off. This is the key - persistence. In Matthew 6, the same request for Jesus to teach them to pray was made by the disciples during the Sermon on the Mount. But here, Jesus follows His teaching by instructing them on forgiveness. He reminds them again, as He has just said in the model prayer, "forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors," the importance of remaining without fault when they pray. If you take a look at this portion of the Sermon on the Mount, it is interesting how his teaching continues from this point on. Nothing is to be taken on granted. 

Jesus then goes on to teach about fasting, then goes on to teach about laying up treasures here on earth. Later on in Chapter 6 He will end the chapter exhorting them to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and then all other things will be added unto them. He didn't mean glitz and bling, or keeping up with the proverbial Jones. He meant to have our priorities straight by focusing on the gospel message, sharing about the kingdom of God. Jesus warns about keeping our eyes open, full of His light, focusing on the true treasure, rather than earthly riches. We cannot serve two masters. I wonder how many people attending that massive gathering understood what He was saying?! Or did they follow Him, because He performed miracles and fed them? I must believe more people were transformed, small beginnings prior to His death, burial, resurrection, and the Apostles being filled with Holy Spirit and fire on that day of Pentecost. The book of Acts describes that day the fire fell from heaven, and they were empowered from on High to proclaim the Gospel of Jesus Christ to all men. They end up setting the world on fire, and they paid a dear price for their obedience and love of the Master, as we will, and as we do now.  

Before any of this can happen in the heart of a man, woman, boy, or girl, we have to listen to the very first words Jesus spoke at the beginning of His ministry, the same boldly announced by the man who preceded Him, preparing the way of the Lord. Matthew shares in his gospel that after Jesus' baptism by John the Baptist, He was led into the wilderness by Holy Spirit to be tempted by satan. After that, Jesus began to preach, and to say, "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand." (Matthew 4:17)

More than at any time in history these words of the kingdom of heaven being at hand are becoming more and more obvious to those who understand the words of the scriptures, the words of Jesus. We need to be aware, because we are in a spiritual battle that gains momentum daily. I don't have to look around to know that is true, but it would behoove others to take a look and paid heed. Today is the day of salvation, so make the most of it! Be ready when the King returns.