Day 346 From My Heart

 

12/12/2025 

 "Forever, O LORD, Your word is settled

in heaven. Your faithfulness endures to all generations; 

You established the earth, and it abides."

Psalm 119:89-90

 

Life sure can change suddenly; one minute all is seemingly going along well, except for the usual bumps in the road, but then...! So this week has been a bit disconcerting, as you know, if you've been following my story. I must say that I still am not certain how to react to all of it, as I sit and wait. I don't feel depressed or otherwise discouraged, but I don't like to wait around when I need to make a decision. But, for now I am chilling as best I can. I am choosing to focus on what I can do, rather than what I have no control over. I don't think we have as much control as we'd like to think we have anyway. As a follower of Christ I surrendered my life to Him. I know that nothing can come my way, unless He allows it. If something happens, then I consider that I have something to learn. I always have something to learn, and I always have much more room for improvement as I walk with Jesus daily. So, I am going to attempt to keep my focus on Jesus, waiting to see how my life will play out. What else can I do?

Today I was able to share with a friend about our children, how the enemy is out to destroy them. In case anyone has noticed, things are happening at record speed daily, and not just in regard to Israel. An arch enemy of Israel is trying to gain entrance and destroy them, and at the same time, it has gained entrance into America, and we need to stand up and take notice. I was speaking with a pastor friend yesterday, and I expressed my concern about the church not educating their flock or congregation about what is happening in our world, especially as it relates to Israel. People have listened to others, even in the church, and formulated opinions, and quite honestly and bluntly, God is not interested in what we think, but He is very much interested in how we respond according to His written word. I'd say, based on this election in Virginia, that He is not well-pleased, otherwise people would have voted more responsibly, checked out agendas, and seen the writing on the wall. I am thinking that many professing Christians just didn't vote, otherwise they are deceived as are so many Americans that good is evil and evil is good. I blame this attitude on the church, because as American citizens we must become educated about what is actually happening and how it will affect us, more importantly, our children. And we must base our decisions on the laws of God, not man's opinions. The enemy - the devil - wants to kill our children or control them. A plan has been put in place, yet the country is not seeing or hearing, as the truth of what the enemy's agenda truly states is being openly declared by the enemy itself. I repent on behalf of myself as an American, and corporately for my State and country, and I beg God's mercy and deliverance from the control of the Muslims in our country and Sharia Law. It's not coming, it is already here! I spoke to someone who knew nothing about the 10/7/2023 massacre in Israel nor did she know about the horrific murders in Nigeria, not to mention other areas of our world that have been going on for decades. I believe in limiting social media and the untrustworthy news sources, but there are honest reporters, and the truth must be heard and people made aware. It's not meant to make people afraid, but it is intended to make us aware and responsible.

Every time we turn around there is some disgruntled person or persons complaining about something (or everything) that our President does or does not do. The man has been under attack since he announced he was running for office the very first time. As followers of Christ we are told to pray for our leaders, regardless of who they are, so that we may have peace. If we would follow the word of the Lord, doing what it says to do, our lives would be easier. The Bible says that "A house divided against itself cannot stand," and we would do well to pray for our leaders rather than rake them over the coals. We tell God that we trust Him, but in truth, we trust Him very little, otherwise we would heed His Word. It is time to walk in wisdom to those who are ignorant or blinded by lies and coverups. May our speech be with grace, seasoned with salt, not with venom and prideful arrogance, walking in integrity, rather than ignorance and vengeance. Why can't we play nicely. As Christians, we should be leading the way!

I try so hard to live my life based on godly precepts, showing kindness to others, even when none is returned. We do not honor those who act irresponsibly or wrongfully, and we must learn to stop listening to those who are obviously speaking wrongfully, hatefully, but stand for the safety and well-being of our nation and world. Our children need to see us living our lives based on the integrity of God's laws and teaching them to be secure in the person God created them to be, walking in dignity.

Maybe I just appear to be spouting words to some, but I am tired of having to fight so hard when the truth is so clear and easy to follow. I don't understand how any clear-headed person can accept the mess and fight so hard against a President and his administration who is working to right the wrongs. He's not perfect, none of us are. But there should be a clear understanding of what is good versus what is evil, and we need to figure out whom we serve. 

Day 345 Small Things

 

12/11/2025

"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give up to you;

not as the world gives do I give to you.

Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

John 14:27

 

I had to laugh when I saw the above photo with the caption "Bit of a mess, but doin' my best...and feelin' blessed!" That about sums up my life for the past few weeks, but this week hit an all time "mess!" Waiting around for answers has never been my favorite thing to do, but it seems with each passing day that the challenge grows greater. I would say a few words about friends in time of need, but I don't really want to bring my focus down. Right now I'm doing well...and yes! feeling blessed!

I love it that we can be a mess on the inside but on the outside the joy of the Lord shines through. The darkness can never extinguish the light of Christ from our hearts. Today my son needed a little help with getting to one of the utility companies to pay the bill. A friend was gracious enough to call and offer to take him up the road, about a 5 minute drive, as we live in the same neighborhood. She also offered to help us with groceries, but I didn't really feel the need was urgent. My sister, however, offered to come and take me tomorrow, again up the road a few miles. I figured the worst case scenario would be for me to either pull out my bicycle and pedal the two miles to the store or else I could walk. It is pretty cold these days, even in the middle of the day, to walk to the mailbox, so I was grateful to my sister and my friend for the support. 

For the most part I spent my day preparing for my Bible study group this evening, completing my personal Bible reading, and finishing a blog. As usual, I am behind by a day, but I guess it is understandable given the past few days since the accident on Tuesday. I think I'm still in shock, and my son is still feeling the sting bodily and mentally. Now we're at the mercy of my auto insurance company and the mechanic. Both my son and I believe in miracles, as we do believe that miracles exist today, but that is another subject. 

My daughter called to cheer us up in the midst of our storm, even though she continues to battle her own sorrows with chronic illness and financial challenges. The fun never ends! But we both agree that God is good, and He has given us so much. How can we not continue to praise and thank Him for His wonderful blessings?! She has been ministering to others by leaving a voice message on her telephone. She calls her ministry "Hugs for Your Heart," and she includes a personal message, songs, testimonies, bits of messages from favorite pastors, and a lot of fun and comfort. She been doing some different types of messages. I personally think the radio should feature her as a spiritual uplift. The world can certainly use a bit of cheering up in the midst of the incredible evil that has been unleashed. So I'm praying that God makes a way. One thing that is really special about her messages is that she always ends with a quotation from Mother Teresa: "Do small things with great love." It's a special message all in itself to encourage the listener to never think they have nothing to offer to another person. Each one has a gift given by God, and we all work together to make the world a better place, if our hearts and minds are stayed on Christ Jesus as Lord and Savior of our lives. That most definitely is a prerequisite to real blessing, because without Jesus there is no real hope. He is the way, the truth, and the life!

I hope that whatever you may be going through as you read this blog that the hope of Christ shines brightly in your hearts. If not, run to Him, and you will never feel alone again. My family has been and continues to battle against the enemy of our souls who wants to stop us from sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ with all who need a Savior and desire to do a course change in their lives. It begins with surrender, being tired of the emptiness of the life one is living now, and reaching out to take hold of His outstretched hand. Don't delay, make that decision today.

It's late, and once again, it's time to call this a day. It seems it is later than many realize. Dare to hope, dare to trust! And remember..."do small things with great love."   

Day 344 Hodu L'Adonai ki tov

 

12/10/2025

"Jesus is not only the Great, 

He is the Only!"

Daily Walk Bible

 

This morning the sun shined brightly on another day to praise Him! "Hodu L'Adonai ki tov. Ki l'olam chasdo." It means "Give thanks to the Lord for He is good for His steadfast love endures forever." This verse for this Hebrew song is taken from Psalm 136:1, and as I sang it, my spirit lifted. I woke up refreshed, and although yesterday was filled with sadness, this morning was fresh and new. Awakened  early again, rather than think about the accident, I chose to think on the words of Philippians 4:4-8:

"Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand. Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on these things." 

So my day began on a happy note and continued through the day. Today marked the birthday of my older son, so thinking about him, all he had endured the past year, and how God had brought him through these horrific days, was more reason to praise. He is now cancer free, and he has a new job. He's still in his nice, new home in the area he loves. It may not be everything he wants, but it is all good news! We have every reason to rejoice and be glad. Not that I needed a reason, as He is good always! To be honest, I was a little surprised that I was doing so well, especially after kicking myself so many times over the "if only" thoughts that came from outside sources - the devil's henchmen - trying to drag me down into the rabbit hole of defeat. But in His mercy and incredible grace, once more God delivered me from a self-centered mood. It was a quiet day, and while my son rested from the mental drain and physical pain of yesterday, I focused on my birthday son.  

It's interesting, because in my study group for Harvest Ministries, we have been discussing the prophecies concerning the birth of Jesus, and how God brought His plan to pass in the "fullness of time." One of the questions asked was to think of an experience we may have had where God's timing was perfect. I have experienced being in God's timing, and I've experienced being out of His timing or will for my life. I was following the whim of my husband, who did not care about timing, as he was determined to do things his way. This never works out, as we all sadly found out. When I thought about the accident yesterday, I could not honestly consider this as God's timing, only as His mercy in protecting my son from harm. But at least it made me think. Whatever happens in life, God can turn around for good for those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28). 

My prayer calendar quoted the following quotation taken from Max Lucado's book Six Hours One Friday:

"And though God's people often forgot their God, God didn't forget them. He kept His word.... He never gives up. When Joseph was dropped into a pit by his own brothers, God didn't give up. When Moses said, 'Here I am, send Aaron,' God didn't give up. When the delivered Israelites wanted Egyptian slavery instead of milk and honey, God didn't give up."   

"When God became flesh and was the victim of an assassination attempt before He was two years old, He didn't give up. When the people from His own home town tried to push Him over a cliff, He didn't give up. When His brothers ridiculed Him, He didn't give up. When He was accused of blaspheming God by people who didn't fear God, He didn't give up.... God would give up His only Son before He'd give up on you."

Wow! That's a lot to consider, but it proves my point that God's love, His grace, and mercy is new every morning. This is why we can sing "Give thanks to the Lord for He is good, and His steadfast love endures forever." 

Day 343 I Remember

 

12/9/2025 

"Through the LORD's mercies we are not

consumed, because His compassions fail not.  

They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.

The LORD is my portion, says my soul,

Therefore I hope in Him!" 

Lamentations 3:22-24 

 

I awakened early, but I really didn't know why, I just knew I was to be up, even though I had not been asleep for long. I sat a while and prayed, because it was so peaceful. Mia was sleeping in my chair peacefully, so in deference to her, I remained seated in my bed. Later, after my son got up, and we chatted, I discovered some concerning matters, but he assured me that he was alright. He had made plans to change the oil on my car at a friend's house in a warm garage. I thought he had connected with his friend and that all was well, but I found out later, that this was not so. Not too longer after he had left the house, I got a phone call from him saying he had been in an accident. He had been run off the road by a fast driver, who kept going even though he saw my son's peril. The roads were icy, so my son was going slowly, but it doesn't take much to slip, slide, and crash into a guard rail, especially when someone is barreling up a narrow country road in the ice. Thanks to God and His divine intervention my son's life was spared. The car's fate is awaiting a decision, so at the moment we are without a car. Strangely I am not concerned about it. My dad's old Crown Victoria is being fixed in the interim. I really don't know what that will entail. 

I kicked myself a lot about this dilemma. I blamed myself, he blamed himself, and his friend blamed himself for not following up. Hindsight! My son always feels that God has reason for things like this happening, and I agree with him. I have some thoughts about it all, but God hasn't really revealed it to me for certain yet. We still have some talking to do. I sat here and couldn't budge myself from this state of shock, but the real shock came when seeing the photos and then the car. I've never been in an accident, so I was ignorant of many things, but we managed through it. I hope I never have to go through anything like this again. 

For the past "while" I have been troubled over many things, and my quiet time has been disturbed and inconsistent. I love my time with the Lord, alone, listening, singing, but sometimes prayer calls interrupt my time with Jesus. The calls are important, but as I have said countless times, I must have His presence to carry me through. I've had some health challenges, but although irritating and distracting at times, I hang in there, and God hangs with me. I'm waiting for that to be healed too. Actually, aside from some blows to the head and falling from trees and falling off curbs, I do pretty well for an ole lady my age. I stay active and moving. But I won't be untruthful about serving the Lord, there is a high cost for service, answering the call to intercession and discipleship, and I guess I am just a little raw right now. In more ways than one.  

I need to sit down and evaluate some things, and I need to get super busy on doing things around here. If I do consider a part time job, I need to know it is God's will. Or if I am to continue to write, then I must get busy with putting all the pages together. It's all in God's perfect timing. But, I no longer feel the "inkling" to "help" God, as if I could. He sees me, and He definitely knows my heart, so I'll just sit a while and chat with Him until the next step is certain. The one thing I do not want to do is anything outside of His timing or will. I've surrendered, and I have responded to His call to come back here to Virginia. Although it's already been four years, and honestly, I don't see much I've accomplished at improving the value of the home, still it doesn't seem important. Everything except Him is "stuff." 

Things are happening so fast as far as the prophetic timeline is concerned. It is exciting to watch, yet at the same time it is very concerning, because the players are not getting the message, and it is critical that they do. We need the church to rise up and take their place, so the messes can be corrected. In the meantime, as I am muddling through the human side of things, as opposed to the spiritual, which coincide in my life, I am sitting here remembering all He has done for me. The one thing I have is my testimony of His saving grace, and the many miracles He has brought to me and my family. The enemy is trying hard to kill, steal, and destroy my family, but He cannot have what or who does not belong to him. They belong to Jesus, and through the power of the blood, there they remain. It's a battle, but I remember every detail of my life, every time I've slipped and fallen or crashed headlong into one of my wrong decisions. He kept me then, and He's keeping me and my family now. I will always remember! 

Day 342 The Fullness of Time

 

12/8/2025

"Let it be to me according to your word."

Luke 1:38

 

Imagine what it must have been like for Mary when the angel Gabriel appeared to her to tell her that she was favored of the Lord? Then he continues with the rest of the message about how she will give birth to a child who will be the Savior of the world? She was a young teenager, betrothed to Joseph, so naturally she has a few questions for Gabriel. But her response in the end was "Let it be to me according to your word." She realized that this would mean accusations from others, and what would Joseph think or say! Still, without reservations, she said, "Yes, Lord."  Thankfully, Gabriel also went to see Joseph with a message to take Mary as his wife, and he did. I cannot begin to think how that must have been, and how strategically God had planned the birth of Jesus out knowing how others would respond. And thank God, thank You, Lord for loving us so much to work things out so meticulously. God with us. 

Mary is not the only one in scripture who dared to take a chance on following Jesus, listening and believing His words. The woman with the issue of blood for twelve years had exhausted all her money going to doctors without result. She was mocked, shunned, threatened, and forbidden to be near anyone or else they would be unclean because of her being unclean. She braved the crowds, shoved her way to Jesus, just to fall down and touch the hem of His garment. Instantly she was healed, and Jesus recognized her great faith. This is how our Lord is. He's a healer, deliverer, and much, much more. He is the Prince of Peace, Mighty God, the Everlasting Father, the great I am. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever, just as the word says. And He is still in the miracle-working business today.

The prophets foretold of a King who would come to save the world and make things right. In Genesis 49:10 it reads: The scepter shall not depart from Judah,  nor a lawgiver from between his feet, until Shiloh comes; and to Him shall be the obedience of the people." Then in Numbers 24:17: "I see Him, but not now; I behold Him, but  not near; a Star shall come out of Jacob; a Scepter shall rise out of Israel, and batter the brow of Moab, and destroy all the sons of tumult." Naturally, the Pharisees and the children of Israel believed that a King would come to rule and reign, but they missed so many of the passages throughout the Bible speaking of His service to others. They were not expecting His message or His method. It's the same with us today, even after He works so wonderfully in our lives. We do not understand, but soon we will.

In God's own time He orchestrated how Jesus would be born, when, why, how, answering all the questions throughout the Old Testament, and yet the message was missed. They did not understand. When Jesus came, His first message was "Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand." That was the message of John the Baptist. "Repent" simply means to turn your life around. Go the other way. And this was the message Jesus taught. 

God's timing is not our own, and the people grew so tired of waiting, of being under the domination of the Roman government. The message that Jesus preached was of a Kingdom not of man, but of God, a Kingdom of love. The scriptures talk about "the fullness of time." Much like Ecclesiastes says, "To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven" (Ecclesiastes 3:1).  After the exile for 40 years in Babylon, the children of Israel returned to rebuild the temple, first, and then they rebuilt the walls of Jerusalem and the homes. God used a tyrannical leader to first have them exiled for disobedience, and then, God used Cyrus to bring them back. There were, however, four hundred years of silence, without a word from God or a prophet, until God sent John the Baptist to prepare the way. In between this time, the Jews suffered much persecution. But God remembered, and He is true to His word and His covenant.

"But when the fullness of the time had come, God sent forth His Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, that we might receive the adoption as sons. And because you are sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying out, 'Abba Father!'" (Galatians 4:4-6).

The book of Ephesians puts it so clearly in verses 4-10: "Just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved. In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to t he riches of His grace which He made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, having made known to us the mystery of His will, according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself, that in the dispensation of the fullness of the times He might gather together in one all things in Christ, both which are in heaven and which are on earth - in Him." 

God's good pleasure, before the world was created! God had a plan to ransom man back to Himself through His Son, Jesus Christ. And it gets even better, because God wants to make us one new man, Jew and Gentile, in unity together. But it all began with Mary saying "yes" to God's plan foretold from the beginning continuing until fullness of His time. Just as Mary said yes to God to obey His ways, His plans, so we in obedience need to consider our yes to Him. Mary gave up her reputation, and so did Joseph, just in knowing human nature and of the laws of the time. Amazing. It is my prayer that we will search our hearts and think about what it is that God requires us to do to say "yes" to Him risking all. 

Day 341 Evening Thoughts

 

12/7/2025

 

The snow has melted, and there are only small patches to remind me of whiter days! But the good news is that more is expected, so I have something to anticipate for the morning. I love snowy days when I used to drag my rocking chair in front of the wood stove, smell the wonderful scent of pinon burning on the fire, and sip on my coffee quietly enjoying a peaceful day. I looked forward to shoveling a path in the snow, and making a snowman was one of my favorite things to do. That and make snow cream. The air was much cleaner way back then. Life was simpler, and in many ways, sweeter. Sometimes I would dance in the snow with my best buddy, Kenya, the neighbor's malamute. I think she loved it as much as I did, frolicking in the snow.

This morning I braved the cold and the mud, as I made my way to church services. This is the season of Christmas carols, pageants, and musicals. My church was hosting a cookie back off this evening with lots of hot cocoa and cider, plus a movie. It sounded like so much fun, but these ole bones were not up for an out of doors event, even with fire pits and loads of blankets. I know my limitations these days, so I stay home where it's warmer. My daughter called, and we planned to watch a couple of the Alf episodes, she on her end of the phone and I on mine. I even made myself a cup of homemade hot cocoa, but no marshmallows. 

Most people, I imagine, have been out this afternoon buying gifts and making plans for Christmas to visit their families near and far. I had hoped to make a trip back to the southwest, but things just haven't worked out since I moved back here. I can't stand the thought of never seeing my beloved New Mexico again, so I won't give up the hope. Sipapu is open and very busy, and the ski and snowboard season looks very promising. I remember my last year at Angel Fire Resort when we were not getting the snow we needed, and how sad it was without the big snow dumps. Sometimes I'd walk across the grounds from where I was living, trudging through the knee deep snow, sometimes higher. But I loved it. As long as I was bundled up, I was in heaven. Working at the resort was hard work, but it was also great fun, as the tourists returned each season, faithful ones who always came back each year. My favorite hiding place was either Red River or Sipapu which are smaller areas, and it was easy just to be invisible and blend into nature. How I miss the freedom of hopping into my car and winding up the pass to spend quiet time alone in the hills, or walking along the streams. I'd rather be outside than huddled in a cabin, but even in the night listening to the sounds was sheer delight. 

I didn't have a cell phone or a computer then, so the phone didn't make as many ding-dings, and people didn't have white do-dads hanging out their ears as they walked along looking as if they were talking to themselves, sometimes laughing loudly to give the thought more credence. I remember my cross country trips when the kids were little without a cell phone or GPS to guide my way. I used triptiks from AAA or used the atlas to help me route the way. I checked in with a family member within a given time frame each day, and the trip had been planned well in advanced so the route was known. If there were any course corrections, I'd let someone know. I didn't worry about someone stealing my car or worse. We'd be careful to get to a hotel before dark, because it was common sense with three small children, driving alone. The family called me a pioneer and thought I was brave, perhaps reckless, but I wasn't afraid. Even when I was attacked in my own yard one evening when the kids were young, I still went out at night or whenever I needed to. I couldn't yield to fear, because I had others to care for, and I had work to do and school classes to attend. So many years have passed now, and I'm not as quick to hit the road, and I have only myself to consider now. Funny how things change. 

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

By Robert Frost

 

"Whose woods these are I think I know.   

His house is in the village though;   

He will not see me stopping here   

To watch his woods fill up with snow.   

My little horse must think it queer   

To stop without a farmhouse near   

Between the woods and frozen lake   

The darkest evening of the year.   

He gives his harness bells a shake   

To ask if there is some mistake.   

The only other sound’s the sweep   

Of easy wind and downy flake.   

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,   

But I have promises to keep,   

And miles to go before I sleep,   

And miles to go before I sleep."

Day 340 Equipped

 

12/6/2025

"God does not ask about our ability or

our inability but our availability."

 

As the end of the year approaches I am asking God for direction in the next step of my journey. I always feel as if there is more and more to do, and the needs seem to multiply. Today my daily read was from the book of Titus. Titus was a young pastor, sent to oversee the church in Crete, where the commentator describes as "having a people who had some of the worst reputations in the world." Titus was sent to organize and shepherd the new believers, and Paul is writing him a letter of instruction. I'm sure Titus as a young pastor must have found the task and Paul's instructions daunting. Paul was instructing Titus in how to appoint spiritual leaders as elders and how to discern and to uproot the false teachers. Paul's instruction seemed similar to his training of Timothy, another youngster in the faith who was placed in a challenging position in Ephesus, a place where false doctrine was prevalent.

Titus was given a list of characteristics to look for in selecting a pastor, one who is blameless who will be teaching others to remain strong in the faith. Persecution followed believers in Christ, so they had to be solidly established in leadership to withstand temptations and accusations, as satan always works to accuse the brethren in order to destroy the work of the kingdom. The criteria for selecting a pastor was uncompromising, and included the following: he must have a good reputation and be well thought of in the community for the life he lives; he must have one wife, and their children must be well-behaved, obedient, respectful to their parents, and love the Lord; they must live blameless lives, not proud or impatient; not drunkards or fighters or greedy for money. And the list goes on - hospitable to strangers, sensible and fair, level-headed, clean-minded, and able to teach and lead others. That's quite a list of job requirements! But, honestly, it should be consistent for all who are walking with our Lord. The criteria was the same for the elders of the church. 

Paul told Titus that a person who is pure in heart sees purity and goodness in everything, but there are people who claim to know God, but their actions do not match what they say or teach. He instructed Titus to be gentle as a pastor and teacher and not to be intimidated because of his age, the same advice he gave Timothy. As men become older they should learn to be more sensible and trustworthy doing things and treating others with love and patience. Titus was instructed to guide the older men in this direction. For the older women he was to remind them to be respectful and quiet, not prone to gossip, which the Lord hates. The older women were to teach the younger ones how to live quietly, loving their husbands and caring for their children, so they will grow up to love the Lord and learn to be sensible and clean-minded. Ensuring that the home unit be set up according to scripture ways, with the husband as the head of the home, teaching his family the authority of the word of the Lord, encouraging their faith, and loving their wives. He was also told to urge slaves to be obedient to their masters, trustworthy and good workers so that others will see their lives and desire to know Jesus Christ. All wise counsel from the Apostle Paul to Titus, and it will serve modern day believers to follow the same instruction. 

The family unit is under attack in our world today, and it is extremely important that men take their place as the spiritual umbrellas of protection for their families. There are so many young people who are living their lives freely, not caring to follow any rules, much less being obedient to God's laws. Self-gratification and catering to worldly desires is all that is important, and they will go to any means to be accepted and make their mark on this world. But evil days are increasing, and we cannot turn our backs on the needs of these children. Thankfully people are going to church and Bible sales have dramatically increased since the death of Charlie Kirk, and the younger generation is no longer content with the same thing, they are being drawn to the church for answers, and the church needs to snap to attention in order to help them find their way. They desire truth and accountability which is a far cry different way than the way their lives had been going. Revivals are on the increase, and more people are giving their hearts to Jesus, but they will need encouragement and discipleship, and someone to walk beside them. This will take commitment from all of us to be available. Serving Christ and walking in discipleship costs everything. Today I was reminded of the missionary Jim Elliot who was martyred for his faith. He said "He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose." Jim and four other missionaries lost their lives trying to bring a tribe in Ecuador to Christ. He knew that surrender to Christ, even to the point of death to complete the command of Christ to go into the world and teach and make disciples of all men, would cost everything. Surrendering things of this world for a kingdom that never ends is what it is all about. 

I am very passionate about winning souls to Christ Jesus, so I will gladly follow wherever my Father leads me. As much as I'd love to go to the foreign mission field, I am on the national one for now. I want to finish my race well and completely, so I can hear the words we all long to hear from our beloved Savior, "Well done thy good and faithful servant, enter into My Kingdom." We each have our gifts and talents, and we all work together as one to become the bride of Christ, waiting and watching for His return. The commentator for the book of Titus stated: 

"One way to measure the depth of your religion is to look at the breadth of your concern for others."

True words, as it requires love and compassion as well as patience and perseverance to walk beside others, leading them in the path they should be going. The hour is getting close, and we are called to work until the end of day, while the Light is still shining. Stay strong and vigilant! Follow the wise counsel of Snoopy as stated above: "Do all the good you can, for all the people you can, in all the ways you can, as long as you can." And if you're lacking or feeling inadequate for the task, here's advice I heard from a respected pastor who was told the same advice: "Find the love of Jesus, and love Him back!"

Day 339 Snow Shine

 

12/5/2025

 

Schools were closed last night for today in anticipation of snow fall. Around 3:30 am this morning when I got up, sure enough it was snowing! Oh happy day! I turned up the heat and crawled back under the warmth of my covers. The temperature was low, and it was still snowing slightly once I got back up around 6:30 am, a more reasonable start of day. Alex was no where to be found, as usual, but I put out a hefty bowl of food for him and the big white cat who has been visiting lately. I think our home must have a neon sign beaming the message "All stray cats welcome! Free food and lots of it!" Always happy to help a feline in need.

My son was enthusiastic about the snow, as was I, so he stuck his little Grinch and my little snow ball out on the rail for fun. 

 

Oh, the games we play - anything to amuse ourselves! Well, not really, just a little silliness. Good for the soul! We settled down, and I grabbed my coffee and headed back to my room for quiet time. I must say that it took a while for me to settle down to serious business. My prayers were those of gratitude for answered prayer for the snow. The only things missing were the mountains and the neighbor's dogs from next door in New Mexico. How I miss those rascals! Cats don't appreciate wet paws and rolling in the snow like dogs. They don't run and jump and play. Well, Alex is an anomaly when it comes to normal behavior for a cat. He actually chases me and nips my foot if I run away from him while he wants to play, and he enjoys rolling in dirt, even mud, so snow might be enjoyable for him also. I guess I'll find out if he pays a visit during the light of day. I can't blame him for not venturing out today though, as it was extremely cold! The sunlight was so intense that it reflected off of the snow and distorted my vision. When it snows, the light is so brilliant.

What a fitting start as the Festival of Lights on the Jewish calendar, better known as Hanukkah, begins the evening of December 14th, and I am told that more snow is in the forecast. The celebration lasts eight days, and it is a festive time and a time of deep gratitude remembering the restoration and re-dedication of the temple in Jerusalem. In the second century Israel was ruled by the Seleucids (Syrian-Greeks), who tried to force the people of Israel into accepting Greek culture and beliefs. A small band of Jews led by Judah of the Maccabees, defeated a mighty army and drove the Greeks away, reclaiming their Holy Temple in Jerusalem. The temple's altar had been desecrated, so it had to be cleaned, restored, and re-dedicated. When they went to light the Temple's Menorah, they only had enough oil for one day. Miraculously, the oil lasted for all eight days, so this is why it is celebrated each year and called The Festival of Lights. The people celebrate by eating oily foods, like donuts and latkes (potato fritter), sing, retell the story of the miracle of the oil, play the dreidel, and exchange gifts each day. It's a happy time, and I think Jerusalem is due a bit of fun this year, particularly. Light in the darkness of all the wars. Hopefully, Ran Gvili, the last hostage (deceased from the 10/7/2023 massacre) will be returned from Gaza. That alone will be a celebration by all of Israel as that door of darkness is closed and families received some closure. 

Before the death of Jesus, he was in Jerusalem for Passover, He had ridden through the sheep gate with crowds shouting, "Hosanna, hosanna, blessed is He who comes in the name of the LORD." Someone wanted to see Jesus, so Philip went to tell Andrew, who in turn told Jesus. Jesus becomed troubled, and He predicted his death to His followers. 

"Now my soul is troubled, and what shall I say? 'Father, save Me from this hour?' No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify Your name!" (John 12:27-28)

In response to Jesus' cries, God responded, and the people heard His voice acknowledging His Son. Seeing their confusion, Jesus told them that the voice came from heaven for their benefit, so they would believe. And by His response they would know by what death He would die. The crowd did not believe, because they were expecting a King who would conquer their enemy and reign forever, so they asked Jesus, repeating His words, "'The Son of Man must be lifted up?' Who is this 'Son of Man?'" (John 12:34)

"You are going to have the light just a little while longer. Walk while you have the light, before darkness overtakes you. Whoever walks in the dark does not know where they are going. Believe in the light while you have the light, so that you may become children of light." (John 12:35-36)

Later, when Jesus was at the Temple, the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. I'm sure it was a set up, as the religious leaders wanted to trick Jesus into signing His own death warrant. As the story goes Jesus told them for the one who had no sin to cast the first stone. He had been writing in the sand, and I can almost see each one inching up close to see what He had written. Of course no one knows, but let's just say, perhaps Jesus was making a list. But, whatever happened, one by one, each accuser dropped their stone and walked away, and the woman was left there alone with Jesus. So Jesus told her to go and sin no more. Then He turned to the others who were there, and He said: 

"I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life." (John 8:12)

In the first chapter of John's gospel he identified Jesus as "the Light" when he was speaking of John the Baptist as the forerunner of "the Light." 

"There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light. That was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the world." (John 1:6-9)

As followers of Jesus we are told to walk in the light as He is in the light. Our lives are to be testimonies of His life in and through us, so He entrusted the apostles with that message, the truth that changed the world and continues to do so. Darkness is trying to creep into our nation, our cities, and our homes. The warning signs are like neon lights flickering in the darkness. We all see it, and we all know the source. We also know that the answer is the only one who can dispel the darkness, Jesus Christ the Messiah. Our job is just beginning, but the battle has been raging for quite some times. We can no longer look the other way and hope it doesn't touch down in our homes. It already has! 

Christmas is the time we celebrate the Light of the World's birth, and it is my prayer that as we prepare for that festive occasion or as we ready ourselves for Hanukkah, that we remember we are to shine the light of Christ and light up the world with the brightness of the Son of God who gave it all so that we might have it all! 

Day 338 Where to Begin

 

12/4/2025

"...for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was  thirsty and 

you gave Me Drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in;

I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you 

visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me."

Matthew 25:35-36

 

Winter is here, and in many places the snow is already on the ground. Temperatures have already been below zero degrees in northern areas of our nation. Sadly, there are many homeless on our streets, especially in more prominent areas of large cities, and the shelters do not have adequate room for everyone on the coldest of nights. Back in the day when my parents were growing up churches were more active in taking in people needing shelter, but today it doesn't seem to be the same. We have our programs and giving trees, adopt a family in need events, and give out food, perhaps on a weekly basis, but so much more is needed. Reaching out at Thanksgiving or Christmas with food and gifts, visiting prisons, nursing homes are all events done during holidays. People seem to be more concerned that pets are safely sheltered during the colder weather than human beings. This may sound harsh, nevertheless, it is true.

Tonight in my online study group we discussed the importance of having a grateful attitude, being aware of our blessings each day. One member who is a teacher shared that it was a scientific fact that anxiety can be turned around if we focused on things we are thankful for rather than focus on what is bothering us. So she suggests to her little students when one is a little anxious to make a list of things that they are thankful for which does the trick! It also makes one happy, and it sometimes brings laughter, but always, it changes our perspective on things. Proverbs 17:22 does say: "A merry heart does good like a medicine; but a broken spirit dries the bones." Making lists is always a good way to work out so many problems. I make it a daily habit to write down something good that happens each day. Then when I go back and look at it, it makes me remember pleasant times, and once again, I count my blessings.

Back in the 70's during the Jesus Revolution years when hippies were giving their hearts and lives to the Lord, desiring a change, to know the truth, hearts were tender towards others like themselves who needed Jesus. Keith Green, a young musician was one whose life was transformed during that time. In his memoir, Compromise, written by his wife Melody Green, she says that Keith would bring home young people needing a place to stay, and they would be sleeping on the floors, wherever there was space. He wanted to rescue as many people as possible, and he wanted to turn them on to God. He tragically died at the age of 28 along with two of their children, Josiah, 3 and Bethany, 2, in an airplane crash not far from home. Melody was left with Rebekah, age 1, and she was pregnant with their 4th child, Rachel. Melody continued the ministry they had started, Last Days Ministries. I got involved with the ministry later, giving out tracts, getting signatures for the Pro-Life Ministry, writing letters. It seemed that even back then I was busy writing trying to persuade people to stand for life. I also learned back then that not all who profess to know Christ understand that it is wrong to take a life, and that all life begins at conception. It's amazing to me how one connection can lead to another, then another, and soon I was all over the place. I guess it's no wonder that the same desires are still very much part of my life up to this day. I guess that must mean something, right?  

The message Christ preached was one of love and compassion. He came to save the lost sheep of Israel, and later his love was extended to Gentiles as well. Today many people are actively spewing hatred for the Jewish people and for anyone who stands beside them. This brings tears to my eyes and breaks my heart, because the Bible is so clear. With Christmas approaching, and everyone who follows Christ anxiously awaiting the celebration of His birth, they fail to realize that He is indeed the King of the Jews as He said so very long ago. They also fail to understand that if it were not for the people of Israel, we would not have a Bible today. I do not understand how the church could stray so far from the truth, and even less do I understand that so many think that the church has taken the place of Israel. I've spoken on this so many times, and I hope that those who have read it will open their eyes and seek the truth, because it is the truth of God's Word.

The Bible is also clear as to what Jesus expects of all who follow Him with regard to the care and welfare of others. In Matthew 25:31-46 Jesus is very clear about what He expects from those who follow Him:

"When the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the holy angels with Him, then He will sit on the throne of His glory. All the nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate them one from another, as a shepherd divides his sheep from the goats. And He will set the sheep on His right hand, but the goats on the left. Then the King will say to those on His right hand, 'Come, you blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in; I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.' Then the righteous will answer Him, saying 'Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You drink? when did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clothe You? Or when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?' And the King will answer and say to them, 'Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.' Then He will also say to those on the left hand, 'Depart from Me, you cursed, into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels: for I was hungry and you gave Me no food; I was thirsty and you gave Me no drink; I was a stranger and you did not take Me in, naked and you did not clothe Me, sick and in prison and you did not visit Me.' Then they also will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to You?' The He will answer them, saying, 'Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did not do it to one of the least of these , you did not do it to Me.' And these will go away into everlasting punishment, but the righteous into eternal life." 

These are sobering words spoken by Jesus, and we must take them to heart. Jesus said that we would be known as His disciples by our love for one another. In these troubling times, when it seems as if the world is going into hell in a hand basket, know that it is unless we as those who truly follow Christ do not step up and do as He commands. Because of God's mercy and grace given to us freely when we did not deserve it, so much more we ought to extend our hands in love and gratitude to others. Jesus also said that when it was in our ability to help another person, we should do it, without regret and expecting nothing in return. This season, the season of giving, instead of giving gifts that fade and wither away like grass, things most people really don't need, give the gift of life - your time. I'm still trying to find my way around Virginia again after so many years of being away, but perhaps there are doors that can be opened if we just look a little harder. I don't have all the answers, but I want to do something tangibly to help people who desperately need to see the love of Christ in action, not just on holidays, but each day of the year. I want to make a difference. 

Day 337 Little Blessings

 

12/3/2025 

"Think how in the inner chamber the hour of prayer may

become the happiest time in the whole day for us,

and how God may use us to take a share in the carrying out of

His plans, and make us fountains of blessing

for the world around us."

Andrew Murray  

 

All is quiet! Finally, I can relax and listen to An Hour with Jesus with Terry MacAlmon. My son has gone to bed, a little later than usual tonight. We enjoyed a great chicken with rice soup - with green chili, naturally, with gluten free white cheddar cheese biscuits. Our lives are simple. It's a little hard to think about Christmas in a few weeks. As always, I am unprepared for what the world considers Christmas with all the decorations and trees. I used to have my memory tree up all year, but I gave it away before I moved, and although it may sound a bit silly, I miss that tree. I have a friend who loves to send gifts that are Santa Fe style, so I won't forget my beloved New Mexico. How could I after living there most of my life, plus I had the best friends ever! They let me be - me! As it should be, don't you think?! I do hope I get a chance to return, especially since my daughter is still living there. 

Today for excitement my son and I braved the icy cold and replaced the tarp over the storage area. It's a temporary fix from the damage of the turbulent winds and rain we've been having. It seems as if every week we have rain, and whereas I am grateful for it, it has been creating some problems for us. But that's okay. In spite of the weather, I love being outside. I still have bushes to cut and monster shrubs to size down. I love burning the branches in an open fire, and I enjoy sitting on the step playing with Alex when he decides to come home. Sometimes I wonder if someone forcing him to go indoors, although that wouldn't be so bad. Perhaps someone needs his companionship, but the rascal always comes home, even comes into the house and stays a short time visiting. He's always dry and warm and happy to see his humans. Cats seems to have it made!

It's so wonderful sitting in my rocking chair listening to Marty sing old favorite contemporary music and traditional hymns. He just finished singing, "No one loves you like the Lord...." That's certainly a true statement. God's love is unconditional, and He loves it when we sing to Him. "He delights when we lift our voice in praise to Him alone. We were made to worship Him alone." It's wonderful to think about how much God loves us, and He longs for us to come and sit with Him. Although He is omniscient, He still wants to hear about our day. When we fall, He wants to pick us up. He is omnipresent, never leaving or forsaking us. "My God is Holy, forever Holy is our King. Worthy, forever worthy, to You our praise we bring." In case you're wondering, the words in italics are lyrics from songs Marty is singing. They seemed appropriate to interject.

Tired from all of my labors this afternoon, I decided to have a snack of popcorn later on before falling into bed. I decided to do it the easy way and microwave some prepackaged popcorn belonging to Daniel, rather than air pop. Although it was tasty, it wasn't the same as my healthy style of doing it with fresh melted butter - just at dab - and tons of salt. I didn't have any Junior Mints, however, so it lacked the movie effect, but I'll head out before long to buy some more. It's the little things that spice up life! I watched an old series about Africa for a little while, then I headed downstairs to work it off - the popcorn - on the Gazelle and my stretching exercises. 

Thinking back over the day, what can I say really spoke to my spirit? I've been reading the book of John, always a favorite, and I am about ready to begin the book of Acts, unless of course God directs me differently. I guess I'm learning that sometimes we need to deviate from what we consider our normal way of doing things. Every year I read through my Bible, and although I am learning something fresh and new each day, it seems as if I am missing something God wants me to see. I have other things I read, and Harvest Ministries keeps me on my toes with the community online studies, but there's more! A month or so ago, I felt the Lord leading me to jump forward in reading, then back, and I must say change has never been my cup of tea, and this hopping around kind of frazzled me, but I have been obedient. It's interesting, because as I did as I was asked to do, my scriptures were aligning with what was being discussed in messages I heard. It's as if God wanted me to get the point of the message, and Holy Spirit is always so gentle in instruction. I'm hoping that I can catch up, or go back so I can get everything read this year, in this one Bible, but if I don't, it's okay, because it's not what I want that's important. His way is always best. Besides which I read from more than one Bible, depending on what I am studying, so I more than read through the Bible once in a year. Perhaps I'm prideful in that way? Something to consider, but I just love reading His Word. It builds me up, puts me in my place, and teaches me what I need to know and share. I found this little quotation as I was reading today: "God's work done in God's way for God's glory will never lack God's supply." I like that!

Another good end of day. Until tomorrow! 

Day 336 "What's Next?"

12/2/2025

"You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me

from trouble; You surround me with songs of deliverance."

Psalm 32:7

 

This month began with a phone call that led me to another bend in the road in my journey, and I'm wondering "what's next?" I began to think about this day, wondering about the story I'm supposed to be writing. I always seem to get stuck at certain places, and I began to look at things from different perspectives. So my first thoughts, as I was sitting here mentally discussing this with Abba, writing in my journal as I sorted things out in my thinking, but I paused and went to a place, perhaps my hiding place deep within my soul where no one can touch me, and there's just me and Jesus. Peace enters - His shalom that's perfect and complete, soothing and refreshing. His presence was tangible, and I just wanted to stay here a while longer alone with Him. Dare I move, dare I make a sound, not even a sigh, afraid the slightest movement might disturb this moment. 

I took a sip of coffee, closed my eyes, and memories slowly came, and I saw the visions again, and they began to make sense. They became clearer, and I wondered if I was supposed to share the visions in the story. The truth is that whenever I attempt to share some of the experiences or roads I've walked in this crazy, surreal life I live, I am met with blank stares or a change in conversation, because not many people want to discuss spiritual journeys. Then things really become weird! But they're not, really. It's the life I live, and although I don't understand much of what I experience, I love my life. So if I'm alone, it's okay, but I'm never really alone, because I'm with Him.

As I  was sitting there, writing again in my journal, I began to see myself on a path that was quite lonely, but when my feet crossed over the boundary line, I saw Jesus standing on the path with His arms opened, as if He was welcoming me. As I drew closer, then closer to Him, it was as if He passed through me, and I was alone again, but I didn't feel alone. I was holding something in my arms - a lamb. I knew he was hurt, yet he healed. A verdant, grassy meadow graced by evergreens became its playground, while others began to frolic in the field, or so I thought, but then I saw a child holding the lamb. Then suddenly I was carried back to that day so long ago when I saw a little girl lying on the cold slab in the emergency room. She'd only turned three but a short time before. I had been visiting relatives with my little girl, and then my daddy was in the living room. He'd come to take me home. Something had happened, but he wouldn't say any more, so we rode in silence home.  

My usual meeting began, and although I took notes and heard every report, prayed every prayer, I was still preoccupied in part with what had happened only a short time before. Shortly after my call was over, and I was attempting to return to my earlier imaginings, I received a phone call associated with the one from the previous day. And then I knew that once more I would be taking another turn into another adventure, and I wondered as I had before - "what's next?"

Although the call was from a stranger, we became sisters instantly, sharing stories and laughter, because we spoke the same language. An invitation for a visit to the backwoods of North Carolina was extended, and a promise of information to follow. The telephone and internet connections are quite "iffy" in that neck of the woods, but texts seem to work, so I wait, for the next step. Strangely, I am beginning to see that perhaps in the same roundabout way things happen in my life, a new direction is about to come. At least I hope this is an answer to my puzzled mind about the story, as the person I am about to meet will intuitively relate. This reminds me of a summer I spent in Pagosa Springs, Colorado at a cabin by the lake with the man who became my spiritual mentor, who is the reason the phone call happened in the first place. I have to laugh again at the lengths God takes to get me back on the right path. I guess I'll know soon enough, and it's strange, but those words I just used "I'll know soon enough," sounds like deja vu.

It's late, and even though I am not tired, I need to rest, so this discussion will continue in another blog. Until then, spend time alone with Abba, resting in His lap, listening. He has a plan for your life. Your own adventure. Never stop dreaming. Selah. 

Day 335 Together as One

 

12/1/2025

"I do not pray for these alone, but also for those

who will believe in Me through their words;

that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and

I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the

world may believe that You sent Me."

John 17:20-21

 

When Jesus was praying for His disciples, He spoke about the relationship that He and His Father had together, desiring that their relationship would include the disciples, and not only His disciples, but for believers in Christ who would come from the teaching the disciples would do, trickling down through the generations to all who believe. Salvation would come first to the Jews, then the Gentiles, and it would spread world wide, which it did. They set the world upside down. 

Many times I have spoken about Christ's existence since the beginning of time, and the relationship shared with Father - Son - Holy Spirit. The unity they share is what Jesus and His Father want to have with all followers. Again, I offer the example of the Russian nesting dolls where one smaller doll is place inside the next, then that one is placed inside the next until all dolls occupy one. There are two thoughts about the spiritual meaning suggested through these dolls, known in Russia as matryoshka dolls: "They are a traditional representation of the mother carrying a child within her and can be seen as a representation of a chain of mothers carrying on the family legacy through the child in their wombs." The second: "They are used to illustrate the unity of body, soul, mind, heart, and spirit." I see the dolls as a simple representation of myself as the smaller doll, fitted inside Jesus Christ, who in turn is fitted within the larger doll who is God, the Father. Jesus said "as He is in me, I in Him, and He in the Father," so this object lesson clarifies things in my thinking about the relationship that God our Father and Jesus Christ our Messiah wants to have with us. I think visual aids, especially when they are "hands on," do have a purpose. Perhaps this is the reason Jesus used parables for teaching and training His disciples by offering truths based on ordinary subjects or objects or ways of life that the people would understand. The Pharisees caught on faster, I believe, than Jesus' followers, especially when He was referring to them. As one would suspect, the religious leaders responded in anger because of their jealousy, but others listening either did not understand or accepted His message, received it into their hearts, and were transformed. I often wonder how many of those who flocked after Jesus, listening to His messages, being fed, healed, delivered, were among those in the crowds at Jesus' trial, manipulated by the Pharisees and religious leaders, shouted "Crucify Him!" The Parable of the Sower and the Seeds and the Parable of the Wheat and the Tares bring to mind those who could be manipulated, as opposed to those who eagerly received Jesus and desired the Kingdom of God. How easily people are swayed by the enemy's tares or snares today!

Many negative thoughts and conversation (gossip) come to mind when we see professing Christian leaders, worship leaders, or pastors in active ministry fall from grace. Sometimes the truth is not discovered until they die, and then, someone betrayed or dishonored will step into the light and bring the betrayal to light. The Bible states clearly that when someone is in error, we are to guide them lovingly back into the family of God. We have been given much grace by God, and Jesus died for all our sins, so He expects us to do likewise by extending grace and mercy. The Scriptures also explain that if one does not return to Christ, then they are allowed to go about their way, still loved, just allowed to pursue their sinful inclinations elsewhere. It should be a time of great grief. I do not approve of the media airing someone's problems callously, especially when the source reporting is an evangelical ministry. The Bible says to go to your brother in private, and try to lead them back. As a group leader, I have witnessed the harm it causes a young believer who has put their trust in a pastor, to find out distressing news after they die. I was asked once how I dealt with such situations, how my faith remained strong. My response is that I keep my eyes on Jesus, and although I may follow a ministry or a pastor, I have only one God, and we are all imperfect and capable of making wrong decisions. How well I understand. I have received much grace and mercy from my Father, and I intend to offer the same. The closer I walk with the Lord, the more compassion and mercy I have. The word says,  “Because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment,” (James 2:13). 

Go and do likewise so that the light of Christ shines brightly to a hurting world. 

Day 334 Advent

 

11/30/2025

 "Earnestly contend for the faith."

Jude 1:3 

 

Words fail me. There's so much I know, that I wish I didn't know. When I finally hear someone identify a problem that I have somehow known existed for a long time, and people are just now admitting it exists, it confuses and angers me. It troubles me that no one took the time to notice the obvious, before young kids started to take their own lives. So much more is happening these days, at a much more accelerated pace, that awareness is beginning to peak. Could things have worked out differently had someone taken notice sooner? Had someone seen the writing on the wall? If parents had taken more time listening to what was being said without it being voiced? I wonder a great deal about a great many things. 

This morning I attended my local church, very happy to be able to attend after so many days when health did not allow. I always have my online communities, and while that is satisfying, it doesn't hold a candle to up close and personal. With the advent of the Christmas holidays coming, everyone is being caught up in the hustle and bustle of finding bargains and the perfect gifts for the special people in their lives. I have a hard time thinking about shopping when there are more important things I feel need to be done. I've been composing a list of names of people I've known, whom I've not seen nor visited in quite a long time. They don't live near me any longer, as I moved away, but they are forever in my heart. And for some reason they are in my thoughts more lately, so I need to call. I've missed out on speaking to some for one last time by not acting on these feelings. Then sometimes I wonder if I may be the one whose time here may be drawing close to an end. That is one certainly in life - we do not know the number of our days, only God does. But I do know that we are to make the most of each day and every opportunity to share the love of Christ.

Today Pastor Greg reminded me of an old saying I grew up hearing - "You're the only Bible some will ever read," and the rest of the saying goes - "yours the only words of life some will ever hear." As time is important, so are words. I remind myself daily of the proverb that warns us "Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit" (Proverbs 18:21). The book of James talks about the destructive use of the tongue, a powerful weapon, or it can be a life bringer. I certainly try to guard my mouth and my thoughts, and I admit that sometimes it is very hard to do. People disappoint, but God never. I'm realizing many things about the people around me, involved in my life, and family members. People are very competitive or perhaps it is not so much that as defensive. I imagine that comes from being unnoticed or feelings of being "less than," which I know a bit about myself. But unless a person is secure in whose they are, it makes conversation difficult, and it makes what is perceived at times impossible to defend.

I know someone who asks me questions, but once I begin to say the right thing I am cut off - even in prayer there seems to be a competition. I don't know why that has to be. Why ask me a question if you don't want a complete answer? I prayed about it, because it makes me feel helpless to offer comfort to this hurting person who has given everyone with whom she speaks the idea that she is much younger and has been abandoned and neglected. This certainly is not true, but it continues, and not only is it harmful, it is a lie, a deception that distorts truth and wrongly accuses others. I feel so helpless in so many situations these days when the answer to many questions is simply - Jesus! But that's something people have to want to figure out. And generally it takes being mired down in the quagmires of life until our hands reach up to grab His hand. 

I received a call this afternoon requesting prayer for a friend who is walking a dangerous path. There are so many voices rising up to deceive and manipulate those who want so desperately to be used in God's service, looking for signs and wonders from anyone who professes to walk in the supernatural. This is nothing new, as false prophets have always been around, and many times they have led unsuspecting, trusting people into dangerous situations and even into death. I was sharing with a group I lead last week about being careful what they read or become interested in learning. I once warned my younger son, who was a young teenager then, that there is a difference between information and fascination when considering the supernatural. The latter can lead someone into a journey into darker places. Today, the evil is becoming more obvious to me, but then I have seen the darker side of evil, and not because I was looking. At the time some things were happening, and in my walk with Jesus, I asked Him for answers to what I was witnessing and the truth of what I was reading in God's word. Always go by what is in the Word of God, and do not become deceived by anyone who tells you a different story or that they have a new revelation. These are indeed perilous times, and the enemy is out the steal, kill, and destroy. But we walk in the light of the truth of God's word. We hear our Shepherd's voice. So listen intently and spend time with Him every day. Help those who are becoming inquisitive about advances in technology. Protect those you love, especially your young children. 

I'm sorry if I sound melancholy tonight. It's not that. I just feel protective, so I am reaching out to whomever may chance to come across my blog. It's important for us to be ready, because Jesus is coming back for His bride, the church - not "a church," rather a remnant of people who are surrendered to His will and purpose for our lives. Whatever distracts or confuses or takes time away from being in His Presence and learning of Him, growing closer to Jesus, is not important. We must have our focus on Him. He is our salvation, our cornerstone, our place of refuge in the storms that come. Pursue truth no matter the cost.

Day 333 "Sing for Me"

11/29/2025

 "He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of

praise to our God. Many will see and fear the LORD

and put their trust in Him."

Psalm 40:3 

 

For the past two days I have been drifting off to sleep, unable to read for any period of time, or write, which distresses me, as I am I love reading my Bible. Each time I read new life rises from the crinkled pages of my new Bible, already showing the wear and tear of love. I cried out to the Lord for help to wake me up, as I desperately needed time alone with Him. I opened my email and began to pray over the needs. It always brings great sadness to my heart reading the news, especially from trusted sources or directly from the ministries. The news is a great source for prayer lists, as much intercession is necessary for our nation and this world's affairs. Our world desperately needs Jesus.

TBN was announcing a special showing of the documentary The Journey with Andrea Bocelli as he makes a 200 mile pilgrimage on horseback with his wife, Veronica, and friends traveling from St Peter's Square to his home in Lajatico. Andrea said that his father had given him a horse when he was young, as he wanted him to ride before he went completely blind. He was born with congenital glaucoma, and at age 12 he sustained an injury playing football that caused a brain hemorrhage that led to total blindness. I love to hear him sing along with his very musically talented family. As he rides across Italy he is sharing with his guests about his and their musical call from God and the spiritual significance of music. He questions some of his guests about their musical journeys. Journeying with him are Tori Kelly, Michael W. Smith, Tauren Wells, Taya, Clara Barbier Serrano, Katherine Jenkins, his daughter, Virginia and son Matteo. Not all rode horses, but some he met along the way.

Andrea speaks of his earlier years when he was trying to begin his musical career at age 35. He said he was always told he had a beautiful voice, but...! I can't imagine that, as his voice is so pure and celestial, and he always lifts me to a higher place when he sings. He said he loved to sing and for him it had to be not that he tell people he wanted to sing, but rather for someone to ask him to "sing for me."

This calls to my memory how I sang early in life. My grandmother and mama were always singing hymns, and I have wonderful memories of waking up to the sound of sweet music and whistling. As a child when I was at home, I'd go to the basement and put on movie soundtracks or listened to the older sounds. I have always loved music and singing, and I'd perform to my imaginary audience in the basement. In the 60's there was a music group of young people called Sing Out South that was formed to bridge the racial divide. They came to my school, and at the end they asked for anyone who wanted to join them to come forward. Well, I hurriedly ran up on that stage. When I told my mother about it, she said I couldn't join. I don't remember why now, but I was so disappointed. When I was young I always sang in church, so for me this was another step forward. This is not the first or last time I was told "no" to my dreams. As an adult in my mid 30's my mother was visiting New Mexico, and she heard me sing a solo. As we walked home, she told me "I didn't know that you could sing like that!" As a church member I went from full choir, to a small quartet, then I began singing solos. One memory I have as a five year old is singing in a play at Walnut Hill Elementary School. That's all I remember except that it was a play, and I was in the first grade. When I attended Southside Church of the Nazarene and Colonial Heights Assembly of God I sang in the choir and solos. I loved to sing, and I hoped it was a pleasant melody unto the Lord. Otherwise it's just noise. Singing must always be for Him, a sweet-smelling aroma, pleasant to Him and for His glory. That's how Andrea Bocelli sings, because he sings as unto the Lord. I don't really know if I'll ever sing in public again, but I do so enjoy singing at home. My son doesn't seem to be bothered by it, so that's a good thing. 

When the pilgrims arrived home, Andrea Bocelli shared:

"My favorite place is not on stage, surrounded by the crowds, but, rather, at home, surrounded by the people I love. Every time I am away, I hope I return a better man, a man of compassion, faith, and devotion. That is the journey that never ends."

He also said that one "hasn't experienced great joy without experiencing great pain." His son, Matteo, wrote his father a note that spoke of the importance of faith, family, love, forgiveness, hope, prayer, and serenity. How beautiful, as these virtues are exemplified in the life of Andrea Bocelli. He moves in mercy, kindness, and grace which he says are free gifts from God and are meant to be shared. He closes the documentary by singing a song he wrote called I Believe:

"One day I'll hear
The laugh of children
In a world where war has been banned.
One day I'll see
Men of all colours
Sharing words of love and devotion. 

Stand up and feel
The Holy Spirit
Find the power of your faith.
Open your heart
To those who need you.
In the name of love and devotion." 

chorus

"I believe in the people

Of all nations

To join and to care

For love.

 

I believe in a world

Where light will guide us

And giving our love

We′ll make heaven on earth.

 

I believe in the people

Of all nations

To join and to care

For love.

 

I believe in a world

Where light will guide us

And giving our love

We'll make heaven on earth."

Beautiful song by a brilliant man given to much kindness and love which he shares with his community and his precious family. It's a wonderful thing to see and experience in a family greatly blessed by God.

  

Day 332 The Day After

 

11/28/2025

"Bless the LORD, O my soul; and all that is within me,

bless His holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul,

and forget not all His benefits; who forgives all your iniquities,

who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction,

who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies, 

who satisfies your mouth with good things,

so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's."  

 Psalm 103:1-5

 

All has been quiet around the neighborhood today, but it has been a bit colder. My cat, Alex must be snuggling up somewhere, as I haven't seen him all day. Usually he's hanging in the screen early in the morning waiting for his breakfast, but he hasn't been home except to snatch a snack and leave again.  He's so independent, or so he wants me to believe.

My son was off visiting his friend this afternoon, so I was home alone for several hours, just like the old days when I lived in New Mexico. The phone was silent, as I imagine most folks were either taking it easy after feasting on turkey and the fixings yesterday, or they were out taking advantage of Black Friday sales. I'm not one for shopping and standing in lines or fighting over bargains, most of which are not necessities, so I prefer to miss out on bargaining for much of what I don't need. Instead I experienced a creative burst of energy and thought about possible useful handmade items for a few friends as Christmas gifts. There again it takes me awhile to get out and about, as I try to make it a habit to celebrate the spirit of Christmas and gift-giving all year around. I think it's more fun and rather enjoyable doing things that way. Ever hear the old saying to "buy me flowers while I'm living?" I'd rather spoil some people when it's not expected, or hoped for, or needed. Life seems to be getting tougher for some every day, but with the promise of better days. 

As usual, during Thanksgiving, I have been enjoying my Star Wars marathon. At this writing I am on the final episode - The Rise of Skywalker - including prequels or sequels, but I know that there are more spin-offs, but those don't interest me really. I enjoy the older and original movies. It's hard for me to believe that one of the main characters, Carrie Fisher who played Princess Leia, and possibly more have passed away, but the series dates back to when my children were young, so the actors are much older. Carrie Fisher's mother is Debbie Reynolds who died the day after Carrie passed away. Carrie died on December 27, 2016 from cardiac arrest, and Debbie died on December 28, 2016 from a stroke. I remember Debbie Reynolds from old movies, especially when she played in the musicals Singin' in the Rain and Tammy and the Bachelor. I have always preferred older movies, as they seem cleaner and contain tasteful humor, or what used to be called "good clean fun." Revisiting better days when it comes to entertainment can be a blessing. But my heartfelt prayer is that they both knew Jesus and are resting with Him today and for eternal life.

Today I've been revisiting the Psalms. Actually, I have been making it a practice to read through the Psalms and Proverbs monthly again, but I've gotten a little behind, so I'm catching up. Today I'm meditating on Psalms 27, which is one of my favorites since childhood. I often wonder how much I really understood back then, but I do know that God has had His hand on me, protecting and instructing since early childhood. Jesus often instructed the disciples about the importance of allowing little children to come to Him, and He would bless them, love them, and let them feel accepted. I'm so thankful that He calls us His own.

Psalm 27 is identified as "An Exuberant Declaration of Faith," in my Bible, and it begins:

"The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? When the wicked came against me to eat up my flesh, my enemies and foes, they stumbled and fell. Though an army may encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war may rise against me, in this I will be confident" (verses 1-3).

"One thing I have desired of the LORD, that will I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to inquire in His temple. For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; in the secret place of His tabernacle. He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock" (verses 4-5).

"And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD" (verse 6).

The Word of God is powerful, as Hebrews 4:12-13 says: "For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account." This verse reassures us that nothing is hidden from the God - He sees and knows every thing, and as Psalm 27 says we  have no reason to be afraid. The psalm also speaks to us about being hidden in the "secret place" where we are safe from our enemies. God's words are words of life and healing, and when we learn our position in Christ as believers, we can stand firm against any attack the enemy attempts to thrown our way. Maybe that's why I love watching Star Wars, because it is the story of good versus extreme evil, and that is what we face each day. So, we must learn to stand strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. We do that by arming ourself daily with His words.

In Psalms 27:11-14 the psalmist, David says:

"Teach me Your way, O LORD, and lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies. Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; for false witnesses have risen against me, and such as breathe out violence. I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the LORD!" 

Spending time with our Father in quietness, in our secret place or prayer room, each day helps us gain strength and perspective from Him before we have to go into the world in our daily work. Wherever we are and wherever we go, they can be challenges. We must be strong in His strength, and stand on the words that He teaches us. 

As I close out my day I do sing praises to the Lord, my God and my King! And I thank Him for all the blessings He brings to me. Wherever I go and whatever I do, He is always with me, leading and guiding me and protecting me from the evil in this present age. I remember all He has done for me and continues to do to make me His own. And as the opening Psalm 103 says He forgives our iniquities and he heals us and soon He will be coming back again for us where we will dwell with Him for eternity. Hallelujah!