2/19/2026
"Let the words of my mouth, and the
meditation of my heart, be acceptable in Thy
sight, O LORD, my strength and my redeemer."
Psalm 19:14
These past few days have involved much deep soul searching, not so much initiated by myself, as spurred on by events of which I am a part coupled with my desire as an intercessor to keep myself ever before the LORD, faithful to His call. One of my greater needs, I have found, has been to simplify outside distractions while balancing those things I must do routinely and as part of my daily human existence. Perhaps that's not spoken in clear terms. I have meetings I feel committed to attend, and others that I do not have to always attend. The volume of emails with invitations that I receive daily have become staggering, so I am ending up deleting most after I breeze over the introductory content. All of that has to be balanced with the ins and outs of running a home that is in great need of repair. My holidays of Christmas, New Years, Hanukkah, and others were different this season because of the loss of transportation and the events surrounding it. So, life for me has become impossibly intense. Now, as I explained yesterday, several seasons of prayer are blending into the others, as we wait to see what will happen to the people of Iran. So, still, life goes on.
This evening I began to watch segments of The Chosen Con available to fans who could not attend the live event. Any time I watch The Chosen or listen to the actors who play the disciples and other characters in the series share their feelings in playing these parts, I choke up and weep uncontrollably for the work that has gone into this series by Dallas Jenkins and his amazing team. It opens a new world of understanding to me, and I am very much aware of the Biblical accounts of the life of Jesus, and how He gave His life for me on that cross. But, seeing it played out with such passion and hearing how it has effected the lives of everyone who has been involved with the production and everyone who sees it can become overwhelming. It is a story that must be told, and it it has been beautifully woven into a masterful rendering of the life of Christ and His disciples. It breaks me just hearing the actors speak of what they encountered on a personal level, because I can understand how I have been forever changed. We are all waiting anxiously for Season 6 the story of the crucifixion to be released, and quite honestly, I don't know how I will be able to bear it. His sacrifice for my sins, how I nailed Him to the cross for my transgressions, wipes me out, breaks my heart. Since the day I actually was given a vision of Jesus pouring out His life blood for my sins, my life has never been the same. Once seeing Him on the cross for me, I can never unsee it. He died for me.
These verses come to mind, as does the one listed above which has become my daily prayer:
"The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul; the testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple. The statutes of the LORD are right, rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the LORD is pure, enlightening the eyes. The fear of the LORD is clean, enduring for ever; the judgments of the LORD are true and righteous altogether. More to be desired are they than gold, yea, than much fine gold; sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb." Psalm 19:7-10
The message His death has given me is the command He leaves with His disciples before He ascends to His Father in Heaven. And that is to go into all the world and make disciples. Share the good news. Do not be afraid of what man can do to me, because man will certainly disagree and try to cause harm. We are seeing this in our world today. I have spoken of spiritual blindness even in the church, but Jesus warned about the coming apostasy, as did Paul in his epistles. My part is to spread the word to others, and to stand as a watchman on the wall of prayer for Israel, refuting the lies told about God's chosen people and about their part in the redemption of mankind. We each have a part in the telling of the story of Jesus Christ, the Messiah. We must be faithful to what God has revealed to us. It is not easy to deny oneself, take up the cross daily and follow Him, as He requires of those who follow Him, but it is the only life I know, and it is the only life that I want to live. Once one comes to the place of surrender, it becomes possible, but only through Him. He carries us all the way. He never leaves us alone. That is joy unspeakable and full of glory. Selah.
