Day 56 Whatever it Takes

 

2/25/2026

 

My days have become very busy, and try as I may, I am unable to stay caught up. Next week I have an appointment scheduled to complete my taxes, and although I don't really need to put myself through so much grief each year, as I have nothing to report, I still manage to stress myself out. It's not really that so much as all the things I am involved in as part of the prayer ministries, and added to that family responsibilities, and then questions I am asked that go against the grain. Honestly, I've been a bit grouchy at times, and my responses have been straight forward and blunt. Of course it's not my nature to be cruel or short with anyone who is honestly needing an answer, but with all that is going on in the world, and especially in my immediate sphere of influence, it is rather disconcerting to be asked questions that seem to have obvious answers, especially for a believer in Christ.

I grow tired of the criticisms found on social media. Each day someone new has a podcast or video smearing someone's character or trying to discredit a fellow believer. Perhaps that's an example of an oxymoron, because in scripture we are warned against the sin of gossip, slander, and libel, so one couldn't be a true believer and behave so viciously. It would seem a common courtesy to avoid such things. Also wisdom, but we do need to be discerning. My advice is what I share almost on a daily basis, "Stick to the Book!" I coined that phrase from Billy Graham. I am so grateful that no one has made attempts to discredit him or his ministry, and if they have, please do not tell me, because my response would not be well-taken. I've grown very weary of watching pastors and leaders fall into ruin. I just pray that they run to our Savior, repent, and allow the Lord to clean them up. We have all fallen short of God's glory, and we can be duped by the "angel of light" sometimes. The enemy has been busy, and he is out to kill, steal, and destroy. So we walk in wisdom, discerning the truth through the Word of God. 

Wednesdays are my night when I unwind with worship leader Terry MacAlmon and listen to his Hour with Jesus aired on YouTube every Wednesday, unless he has been invited to minister at a church or an event to serve in worship. Tonight he played some of my favorite older contemporary songs and hymns. At a time when I was very ill, taking care of my daughter, who was very ill, and struggling to save my marriage, there were certain worship artists whose songs brought me comfort. Now when I listen to them, I am immediately lifted to the throne room of God, bowing before Him with the saints and angels. In the Presence of Jehovah is one of those songs:

"In and out of situations
That tug-of-war at me
All day long I struggle
For answers that I need
But then I come into His presence
And all my questions become clear
And for that sacred moment
No doubts can interfere

In the presence of Jehovah
God Almighty, Prince of Peace
Troubles vanish, hearts are mended
In the presence of the King

Through His love the Lord provided
A place for us to rest
A place to find the answers
In the hour of distress
Now there's never any reason
For you to give up in despair
Just slip away and breathe His name
He will surely meet you there

In the presence of Jehovah
God Almighty, Prince of Peace
Troubles vanish, hearts are mended
In the presence of the King"

The chorus takes me away to a place where I can release all my pent up emotions and just release them to Abba. Music can be so healing. Another artist who also has a spot on YouTube on Wednesdays in the middle of the day is Don Moen, also from Integrity Music back in the day. His songs, God Will Make a Way and He Will Come and Save You, are two songs that stir my heart. There were many nights back in those troubled days mentioned above, when I couldn't sleep because of physical pain, so I'd put on my headset and his CD, and I'd dance around the house with my stuffed cow Bubba as my dance partner. These days, whenever I hear Don's songs, I'll dance with Charles, aka Charlie Horse, my plush horse, as Bubba is still in New Mexico in service to my daughter at this time. I know it sounds a little silly for an adult to dance around the room with a toy, but I have a history of such things, and I'm too old to outgrow them, plus it works! Beatrix Potter would approve, and Jesus did say we need to be as little children, with purity of heart. 

Whatever it takes to keep my focus on things that will celebrate the glory of God is how I want to live my life. Even if I stand on my head in a corner and sing love songs to Jesus. It's an end to a wonderful day! 

Day 55 Let Us Say

 

2/24/2026

 "What then shall we say to these things? 

If God is for us, who can be against us?"

Romans 8:31

 

Just like most Americans I have been watching the State of the Union address to Congress by our President Donald J. Trump tonight. Yesterday I watched the Angel Families Remembrance Ceremony hosted by President Trump recognizing American citizens who had been murdered by violent illegal immigrants allowed in our country by open borders. Also streaming tonight are the first two episodes of the MAHA Movie Documentary - The Truth About Medicine. It's a busy night! 

The State of the Union address was lengthy, but I was pleasantly surprised by our President's recognition of those family members who had lost loved ones at the hands of criminals who were allowed to roam the city free, and others who had died in the line of duty, serving our country. The Congressional Medal of Honor was awarded to Korean War veteran Royce Williams, age 100, for his "heroic secret dogfight against Soviet MiGs in 1952." The First Lady had the honor of placing the medal around his neck. It was a treasured moment for him and for all Americans. Our veterans have selflessly served our nation well, and they deserve every accommodation. Our active military, often young men and women, deserve to be remembered and recognized for their dedication and service. And when civilians are victims of insanity, the families should be honored and comforted in their grief.

I have grown very disappointed in elected officials behaving poorly in public meetings or gatherings. Before social media became the blab all vehicle for those who disagreed with one another on subjects of vital concern to the Americans who have supported them and whose interests they are supposed to represent, men and women would meet together behind closed doors and work things out like gentlemen and ladies should do. Things have changed so drastically, and once clear-headed leaders have grown cold, vindictive, and thirsting for more and more power. It doesn't matter who is harmed. I don't understand why such people are allowed to remain in governmental positions. 

I am in my early senior years now, but I was raised in a family where regardless of how someone felt, we stood together on common ground. I was not born into wealth nor were we considered well off, but my daddy was an honest, hard-working man as was my grandfather. Life wasn't always perfect, especially when my parents were younger, but they still grew up with strong moral values in a time when a handshake meant something. We went to church on Sunday, and our Sunday School teachers were also our school teachers. They were also friends to our parents and grandparents, but none of this made us favored, just the opposite in fact. We were expected to be examples, and I pray we were. It's not that way now.

The MAHA movie documentary series on health just began airing to those who wish to see it, about the health crisis in America. So far it has been very enlightening, but as a biology major and former researcher in the field of diabetes, I was not surprised at many of the findings. I have also been employed in the health insurance industry. As a child I was very ill, and it continued until I was 57 years of age before the Lord healed my many infirmities. I had been to many doctors over that span of years, causing great financial hardship on my parents and myself. Over that time my daughter and sons, the younger son in particular, were facing many health issues, and my older son was diagnosed with thyroid cancer two years ago. My daughter has suffered with immunodeficiency disorders, and over the years we have searched for natural remedies. She had achieved a balance at one time, but recently she has been suffering other effects, and causing new health crises. In a recent study I had been doing for my own health concerns, I stumbled on to some research that got me wondering about cellular function, so I spoke to my daughter, and we're beginning a new protocol, if you call it that. I was encouraged when the first and second episodes of the MAHA movie spoke of the root cause of one disease that is said to be incurable. That word, "incurable," always catches my attention as it's been said to me a few times. I never pay attention to that word, because my God heals, and nothing is impossible with Him. It really boosted my self-esteem a bit to realize that I was "spot on" regarding my findings. For everyone who has negative things to say about Robert Kennedy, Jr. they need to see this movie. I am awaiting the next episodes with great anticipation.

I understand that each person has an opinion, but it is my heartfelt prayer that people will wake up and do the work themselves. Rather than listen to what anyone else says or how anyone else feels, check it out  for yourself and become informed. You may be surprised. Sadly, however, few will do the honorable thing, and the gossip and power plays will continue. The news is ripe with unhappy people protesting the very people they voted for in the first place. They didn't check credentials, so they got what voted for, in ignorance. Others are so disgruntled with life or so taken in by a cunning smile or grandfatherly hug that they go down the wrong path...until it is too late. Then we all suffer. This includes the church that appears to be staying home, sleeping in, waiting for Jesus to return, although with attitudes that do not align with God's laws, will they be ready when He comes as a thief in the night?! I'd be concerned. 

I'm just a simple person to whom God has given much - eternal salvation, and each day I work it out with fear and trembling. I am my own worst critic, as I want to be able to stand before a holy God and hear the words "well done." I want to finish the race that He has set before me to do. I don't aspire to be wealthy nor do I seek to be famous or admired. I am a simple servant walking out my faith, praying for the world, starting right here at home, and following to the best of my ability to go into the world and make disciples of all men, as Jesus commanded. I owe my life to Jesus Christ, and He is my everything. We are told to pray for leaders and those in authority so we may have peaceful lives. That's not such a bad command, is it? So why do we have such a difficult time walking it out?! 

"If it had not been the LORD who was on our side,"

let Israel now say - "If it had not been the LORD who was on

our side, when men rose up against us, then....!"

Psalm 124:1-2  

Day 54 Obedience

 

2/23/2026

"Obedience is not the essence of a right

relationship with God, but it is the

evidence of it."

Daily Walk

 

Sunday evening I had the privilege of hearing Sister Nechama from the Evangelical Sisterhood of Mary in Phoenix, Arizona speak at Jesus Image. When I need to be quiet and sit in the Presence of the Lord, I visit this wonderful online ministry located in Florida. I was delighted to see that Sister Nechama was sharing. She has a simple grace and shares from her heart as a bride of Christ who has dedicated her life to serving Him. She spoke of our relationship with Jesus, how He suffered for us, and how we will be tested, as He was tested. She said "We can't let Jesus distance Himself from us, or we will not be able to stand it." What she was referring to is the troubles that are now facing us and those that will be coming as the day approaches. She said for us not to fear what is coming, just to focus on Jesus. How those words burned in my heart, because these are the same words He spoke to me, "Focus on Me." It doesn't matter what anyone else is saying or doing or not doing or not saying. The only thing that matters is that I focus on Him. 

There are so many times in scripture that David cried out to the Lord in frustration asking Him, "How long, O Lord, before You answer me." Sometimes he doubted whether God was even listening to him. But as he cried out to Him, he would also speak of His faithfulness and his trust. There were many times in the scriptures where weakness overcame the believer. Jesus Himself cried out to God in agony as He hung on that cross crying "My God, my God, why have You forsaken Me?" Prior to this He faced the doubt of His disciples who did not understand His message, although He had spoken to them many times. After Judas left to betray Him, Jesus tried again to prepare them. 

As Sister Nechama looked out upon the sea of young faces in the crowd she noticed that there were older people in the audience, and she made the comment that it was good to see the older believers, as they would be needed as examples as the younger or new believers caught the fresh fire of Holy Spirit. It's interesting that she said that, as I have been feeling insignificant and no longer of use to the Lord, because I'm getting older. I'm considered a senior, and seniors, especially women, are to be watched over and tended to in the church, as if we are no longer capable of providing a service to others. Because of the rules imposed I don't really fit, because unless I'm a card carrying member, I'm just a visitor. But that's not me, and Jesus did say to occupy until He returned. I don't think He meant occupy a seat, but rather, be busy about the Father's business. I'm not sure how old Sister Nechama is, but she certainly isn't taking a seat. She's busy sharing with the younger ones. I pray that God will open up a door of opportunity for me, so I will know where I belong. I really don't want to spend any more time trekking through the wilderness. I know I have much to learn, and I am hungry for it. I ache to do His will in my life. It's what I live for, serving Him.

I was reminded once more of the verse in Zechariah 4:10 "For who has despised the day of small beginnings?" when God is reminding Zerubbabel of the importance of small steps in achieving goals, or at least that is how I interpret it. He was rebuilding the temple that had been put off for too long, so the prophet Zechariah was sent by God to encourage them to finish it. Opposition and delays always seem to come when we are attempting important tasks for the LORD, and the people had returned from seventy years of exile in Babylon. Naturally, there would be naysayers and discouragement. But obedience to the task is the important matter, and Zechariah provided the encouragement that the people needed, because he strengthened them in knowing the blessing in the future.

Perhaps I'm growing weary in the waiting. Sister Nechama reminds me that although I'm older I can still be valuable in sharing my journey with others, being a source of encouragement. Small beginnings? It just seems as if I'm Moses on the back burner of the desert waiting for a burning bush. At least he had sheep to tend. All I have is a feral cat and my son, who doesn't seem to be listening too well. So why am I here? I am writing, but am I accomplishing anything? I guess it really isn't important to know if anyone is listening or not. What is important is that I'm trying to be obedient by writing. I have to leave everything else up to God. I know He'll direct me to the next step. He always finishes what He starts, so I'll do what Jesus said to, "Keep your eyes on Me."

Day 53 The Fear of God

 

2/22/2026

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of

wisdom, and the knowledge of the 

Holy One is understanding."

Proverbs 9:10

 

As we meet together and pray for Israel and the nations, particularly each of our nations, by those represented on the daily global call, we ask that the fear of God would fall on our nations and our leaders, as we repent for our sins, first, then corporately, so that God will hear our prayers, forgive our sins, and heal our land. In Psalm 51:17 the psalmist says: "The sacrifices of God are a contrite spirit; a contrite and a broken heart, O God, Thou will not despise." These words were spoken by King David as part of the larger prayer found in Psalm 51 after his sin with Bathsheba, as he humbled himself before God, knowing that he had sinned against a holy God. In 2 Chronicles 7:13-14, after Solomon had finished building the temple of the LORD and dedicating it, God appeared to Solomon a second time saying: "When I shut up heaven and there is no rain, or command the locusts to devour the land, or send pestilence among My people, if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land."

This is an often quoted portion of scripture whenever the nation calls for a fast of repentance in our churches and ministries today, yet I wonder how many people fully understand the power of this prayer when it comes from a heart surrendered to God, truly sorrowful for circumstances causing this great call to prayer and fasting to rid the nation from gross sin. Often scriptures of great importance and power are quoted in almost rote or routine fashion, as easy grace, not counting the cost of such agreement in prayer with our holy Father. We still have much to learn about approaching the throne of grace before a holy God. Because of the sacrifice of our dear Savior, Jesus Christ, in freely laying down His life for all men, those who have received this gift from God through belief in Jesus and are following Him through obedience to His commands, have access to the throne of grace and God Himself. In days before, only the High Priest was able to enter the Holy Place and be in the Presence of God, and only once a year to make atonement first for his sins, then for the sins of the nation. Because of Jesus, His sacrifice, we can boldly approach the throne of God without fear. But, we must come humbly, with a fear of the God of all creation, the Almighty God. This fear is reverent awe of His power and recognizing His holiness. It is only through the blood of Jesus Christ that we can have access.

There's so much going on in the world today that it is deafening, and trying to separate myself from the noise takes greater and greater focus each day now, because the enemy does not want us to focus on Israel, Iran, or America. With the advances in technology especially with regard to Artificial Intelligence, AI, and social media's addition of ChatGPT which is chatting with AI, I see greater and greater decline and greater chaos, and pastors seem to be okay with this "tool." Elon Musk who developed much of this technology, warned of the dangers of it, but no one seems to notice or care. We don't have far to look when we just consider the name, AI, as in "artificial?" Does it not spark a concern or lifted corner of the eyebrow at least? I imagine that I have become too tech savvy under the guise of ignorance, but I can see the harm the ChatGPT has already caused in convincing a young man to commit suicide. Of course it was supposed to warn and assist people who were vulnerable like that, but it basically okayed it. I know that caused his parents concern. I think there was a lawsuit, but I did not follow the case. It just proved my point about caution.

In this fast paced world that requires every thing to be done using technology there is little, if any, human interaction. I guess most interviews are accomplished via computer now as well. I understand that AI writes sermons, resumes, even theses for college doctorates. Isn't that cheating? I imagine if you can become certified to marry a couple just by filling out a few forms, that anything's possible, and your resume could be very impressive. Gone are the days when a person sits eye to eye with an applicant, so one can assess a person's attitude by asking questions and noting the response. But then, is the person truly a person? I hear that robots are in the world now. Something to think about. 

This is why I stick to The Book, God's very clear Word.

“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom,
And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding."

 Proverbs 9:10

 "But I say to you that for every idle word men may speak, 

they will give account of it in the day of judgment."

Matthew 12:36   

Day 52 Restoration

 

2/21/2026

 "Give of your best to the Master, give of the strength

of your youth; clad in salvation's full armor, 

join in the battle for truth."

 

Moses meticulously followed the design provided to him by God in building the tabernacle, given to him on Mount Sinai while the people remained at the bottom, fearing the voice of the LORD. But, when the time came to actually build the tabernacle, the people willingly brought their gifts to the LORD according to Exodus 25. Their service to the LORD serves as an example to us as believers in Christ when we work together in giving willingly of the gifts God has given to us, so we can in turn serve others. The early church was an example of how God wanted the body of Christ to work. A description of the early church is seen in Acts 4:32: Now the multitude of those who believed were of one heart and one soul; neither did anyone say that any of the things he possessed was his own, but they had all things in common." The scripture goes on to speak of the people selling their lands and houses, giving the money to the disciples, so they could in turn distribute it or use it as needed. Although this sounds like a great way to do things, and I'm all for helping people, especially women in crisis, widows who don't have any responsible family supports, the elderly who sadly don't have support, and the orphans or kids who need homes, sometimes the system fails. If we all realized that everything we have belongs to the Lord anyway, and He is the one who gives us the abilities to earn our livings, the spirit of generosity may work better. Sadly today, however, the bulk of responsibility falls into the hands of government systems that can provide great support, unless the leadership has other plans. I speak of socialism which definitely does not work, because then people become pawns, but it seems as if that is what is happening in places within America, under the guise of assistance and concern. History bears the tale.

Today our Torah portion spoke of the building of this wilderness tabernacle which was a place where all the people gathered. In our houses of gathering, our churches today, we should meet for the purpose of first and foremost being a house of prayer. Jesus boldly spoke these words as he was chasing the money changers out of the temple after His triumphal entry. The church should also be a house of worship, praise, and a place where the Word of God is studied and disciples made, following Jesus' command before He ascended to Heaven. The focus of all church services should be on Jesus, our cornerstone,  the Author and Builder of our faith. Our worship should be focused on Him, purposeful, resolute, steady, conforming to His purpose. We are to be "echad" with God or "one" with God - uniquely His. 

"Now, therefore, you are no longer strangers and foreigners, but fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God, having been built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ Himself being the chief cornerstone, in whom the whole building, being fitted together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord, in whom you also are being built together for a dwelling place of God in the Spirit." (Ephesians 2:19-22)

Pastor Bill reminded us of our need to walk humbly before God, because as He is working in us to conform us to His will, shaping our character to be like His, we are being held to a higher standard. The bar to better conform to God's standards to serve Him better in these last days is being raised as the time grows closer for His return. If we are not walking humbly before our God, not walking in His anointing, we will fail. We can do nothing in our own strength, only in the strength of the Lord, and only as we have His Presence leading us, as it was in the days of Moses. He told God that he couldn't deal with the unruliness of man, and that if He wasn't going with him through this wilderness trek, that he didn't want to go. God, always faithful to His covenant, went before, behind, and beside. Even when they grumbled the loudest, God never abandoned His chosen people, and He never will. How do I know this? Because God repeated it multiple times in the scriptures, and He remains faithful to His people today. The world has yet to realize that, as does much of the body of Christ. His love for His chosen people has never changed, and Israel has the major part in the end time church. This is clearly referenced in both the Old and New Testaments, but again, even the church has gotten the message wrong. Scripture does bear the truth.

"When your days are fulfilled and you rest with your fathers, I will set up your seed after you, who will come from your body, and I will establish his kingdom. He shall build a house for My name, and I will establish the throne of his kingdom forever. I will be his Father, and he shall be My son. If he commits iniquity, I will chasten him with the rod of men and with the blows of the sons of men. But My mercy shall not depart from him, as I took it from Saul, whom I removed from before you. And your house and your kingdom shall be established forever before you. Your throne shall be established forever."   (2 Samuel 7:12-16)

"Now the days of David drew near that he should die, and he charged Solomon his son, saying: 'I go the way of all the earth; be strong, therefore, and prove yourself a man. And keep the charge of the LORD your God: to walk in His ways, to keep His statutes, His commandments, His judgments, an His testimonies, as it is written in the Law of Moses, that you may prosper in all that you do and wherever you turn; that the LORD may fulfill His word which He spoke concerning me, saying, 'if your sons take heed to their way, to walk before Me in truth with all their heart and with all their soul," He said 'you shall not lack a man on the throne of Israel.'" (1 Kings 21-4)

"For thus says the LORD: 'David shall never lack a man to sit on the throne of the house of Israel." (Jeremiah 33:17)

"In mercy the throne will be established; and One (Jesus) will sit on it in truth, in the tabernacle of David (Mount Zion in Jerusalem), judging and seeking justice and hastening righteousness." (Isaiah 16:5) (The parentheses above are my explanations for clarity.)

"'On that day I will raise up the tabernacle of David, which has fallen down, and repair its damages; I will raise up its ruins, and rebuild it as in the days of old; that they may possess the remnant of Edom, and all the Gentiles who are called by My name,' says the LORD who does this thing.'" (Amos 9:11-12)

"It shall come to pass in that day that the Lord shall set His hand again the second time to recover the remnant of His people who are left, from Assyria and Egypt, from Pathros and Cush, from Elam and Shinar, from Hamath and the islands of the sea. He will set up a banner for the nations, and will assemble the outcasts of Israel, and gather together the dispersed of Judah from the four corners of the earth." (Isaiah 11:11-12)

Isn't it exciting that God is faithful to His promises, to His covenants, and if we as Gentiles are faithful to Him, faithful to His Son, receiving His wonderful gift of eternal life, we are grafted into the vine and have a part. Israel will be restored, and Jesus will return as described to David's tabernacle on Mount Zion in Jerusalem and establish His throne. If we read the scriptures, and if we pay careful attention to God's Living Word, we can clearly see the truth. All such good news! Yet many are missing it.

Day 51 Caught in the Middle

 

2/20/2026

 "Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; but 

we will trust in the Name of the LORD our God."

Psalm 20:7

 

For the past two days I have been running interference between two opposing forces within my home, namely two cats. One a stubborn, ruler of the household, a calico named Mia who thinks she's the princess and the other cat is the buffoon. My cat, Alex, is the miniature Maine Coon, a semi-feral rascal who has decided to have domestic tendencies when it is convenient for him, such as extremely cold, ice and snowy weather when roughing it outside is not quite as enjoyable, regardless of the fact that he has a nice cat home filled with warm straw and blankets, if he wants it. He and Mia have been starring each other down, and jealous of each other's bowls of food. Mia has a special diet for stomach issues, and the food is for older, house cats who never venture past the door to go outside. Alex, on the other hand, probably can eat just about anything and be content, but we try to provide a better quality of kibble type food, as he does not enjoy wet food or fresh. He's relatively easy to please, but he does like clean water, as does Mia. In fact Mia complains several times a day if her water is not changed. When Alex decides to sleep over or stop over for a short visit, it's hard to keep Mia from standing her ground. It can become interesting, but at least it keeps my mind off other things that are much more problematic. I guess everyone needs a temporary diversion away from the news of the world. These two misbehaving felines provide that for me.

Events are happening way too quickly, but I can't say that I am surprised. All one has to do is pick up the Bible, and things are spelled out in compelling fashion for one who wants to know what is happening and why. Honestly, I get tired of trying to help people understand it, even though it is from the only trustworthy source - the Word of God. People much more prefer the deception of social media. Why I will never know. As the Bible says, and as I have often repeated, it is "as in the days of Noah...!" Right now The Chosen Con is going on, and listening to the story or binging the series is a real reminder that many do not have a clue as to what is happening, especially the church. And that is especially disconcerting since pastors should understand the Bible, but they don't. In fact many could care less about anything written in the Old Testament, because they feel it is not relevant for today. That seems interesting to me since it is so often quoted in the New Testament. With all the different translations that try to make the Word easier to understand, much has been lost in the context. This is dangerous, as we are not to add or take away from scripture. 

Shabbat began tonight at 6 pm, so I have a time of rest, and I really need the quietness and alone time with friends and Jesus. Tomorrow in the global call, we'll share communion, so weekends are truly restful, contemplative times for me, as we worship and study together. Later I may make a big bowl of popcorn and actually watch a movie, When Calls the Heart, a series based on books by Janette Oke of the same title. I was very encouraged with her writing when I was younger, as she began writing at the age of 50 years. She is in her 90's now, and she has authored about 75 books, all Christian fiction, all wonderfully written. That truly is a relaxing way to enjoy my day of rest. The popcorn with a few Junior Mints make for good company as well. Believe me, I need to find a way to rest after some of the news we pray about when we have our calls. This is why my days begin with worship, and our calls begin and end with worship. The battle belongs to the Lord, and He goes before us and protects us. We will not fear.

It's easy to get all worked up about the injustice of things that happen, or become involved with the intrigue, although I hardly find it fascinating, just difficult to understand how our nation has fallen to such depths of depravity, but then I talk about this way too often, and tonight I only want to say that my focus will remain on the Lord, the Commander of the Armies of Heaven, and as the scripture above says, I will not trust in horses or chariots or any of the modern age methods of diplomacy. Whereas I understand, and I live in the world, I do not have to become ensnared with it, as my citizenship is in heaven, and I am only a brief sojourner in this land that will soon pass away. While here, however, I remain faithful and ever diligent to the call of intercession standing on the wall, arms linked in prayer with my prayer team, our eyes on the prize of the high calling of Jesus Christ. 

Day 50 Sacrifice and Joy

 

2/19/2026

 "Let the words of my mouth, and the

meditation of my heart, be acceptable in Thy

sight, O LORD, my strength and my redeemer."

Psalm 19:14

 

These past few days have involved much deep soul searching, not so much initiated by myself, as spurred on by events of which I am a part coupled with my desire as an intercessor to keep myself ever before the LORD, faithful to His call. One of my greater needs, I have found, has been to simplify outside distractions while balancing those things I must do routinely and as part of my daily human existence. Perhaps that's not spoken in clear terms. I have meetings I feel committed to attend, and others that I do not have to always attend. The volume of emails with invitations that I receive daily have become staggering, so I am ending up deleting most after I breeze over the introductory content. All of that has to be balanced with the ins and outs of running a home that is in great need of repair. My holidays of Christmas, New Years, Hanukkah, and others were different this season because of the loss of transportation and the events surrounding it. So, life for me has become impossibly intense. Now, as I explained yesterday, several seasons of prayer are blending into the others, as we wait to see what will happen to the people of Iran. So, still, life goes on.

This evening I began to watch segments of The Chosen Con available to fans who could not attend the live event. Any time I watch The Chosen or listen to the actors who play the disciples and other characters in the series share their feelings in playing these parts, I choke up and weep uncontrollably for the work that has gone into this series by Dallas Jenkins and his amazing team. It opens a new world of understanding to me, and I am very much aware of the Biblical accounts of the life of Jesus, and how He gave His life for me on that cross. But, seeing it played out with such passion and hearing how it has effected the lives of everyone who has been involved with the production and everyone who sees it can become overwhelming. It is a story that must be told, and it it has been beautifully woven into a masterful rendering of the life of Christ and His disciples. It breaks me just hearing the actors speak of what they encountered on a personal level, because I can understand how I have been forever changed. We are all waiting anxiously for Season 6 the story of the crucifixion to be released, and quite honestly, I don't know how I will be able to bear it. His sacrifice for my sins, how I nailed Him to the cross for my transgressions, wipes me out, breaks my heart. Since the day I actually was given a vision of Jesus pouring out His life blood for my sins, my life has never been the same. Once seeing Him on the cross for me, I can never unsee it. He died for me.

These verses come to mind, as does the one listed above which has become my daily prayer: 

"The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul; the testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple. The statutes of the LORD are right, rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the LORD is pure, enlightening the eyes. The fear of the LORD is clean, enduring for ever; the judgments of the LORD are true and righteous altogether. More to be desired are they than gold, yea, than much fine gold; sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb." Psalm 19:7-10

The message His death has given me is the command He leaves with His disciples before He ascends to His Father in Heaven. And that is to go into all the world and make disciples. Share the good news. Do not be afraid of what man can do to me, because man will certainly disagree and try to cause harm. We are seeing this in our world today. I have spoken of spiritual blindness even in the church, but Jesus warned about the coming apostasy, as did Paul in his epistles. My part is to spread the word to others, and to stand as a watchman on the wall of prayer for Israel, refuting the lies told about God's chosen people and about their part in the redemption of mankind. We each have a part in the telling of the story of Jesus Christ, the Messiah. We must be faithful to what God has revealed to us. It is not easy to deny oneself, take up the cross daily and follow Him, as He requires of those who follow Him, but it is the only life I know, and it is the only life that I want to live. Once one comes to the place of surrender, it becomes possible, but only through Him. He carries us all the way. He never leaves us alone. That is joy unspeakable and full of glory. Selah.