Day 165 How long, O Lord?

 

6/14/2026

"Lord, You have been my dwelling place

in all generations."

Psalm 90:1

 

Everyone holds their breath as again we wait! Only one thing is certain, no two things are certain - No human knows what will happen moment by moment, shallow breath by breath; and second - God does! He knows everything about everything, because He is God Almighty the Creator of Heaven and Earth. He never sleeps according to Psalm 121. Our lives are in His most capable hands. He loves us, cares about and for us. Many people doubt that, and they doubt that His ways are much higher than our finite minds can begin to grasp. Personally I find peace in that knowledge and bedrock trust. He does know better, and He knows the plans He has for each of us. And so life goes on from one moment until the next, yet my life remains at peace, not always "calm," but I do have His peace that transcends all understanding. It has to be that way so that I can continue to keep my focus and my eyes on the Commander of the Armies of heaven. Simplistic, no, not really. It's called faith!

So why do I use teddy bears and children as illustrations for much that I write?! Jesus said that the Kingdom of God is made of little children, and we are to come as little children. I'll let you chew on that for a while. He doesn't want us to remain in a childish state, sucking our thumbs and hanging onto our mommy's skirt tails. He expects us to grow up as healthy Spirit filled children of God. Teddy bears - because I like them, and they bring me comfort and laughter. They remain quiet and allow me to say whatever I want to say, and they give me a hug afterwards. They agree with everything I say or think! And they let me know by their gentle, reassuring all-too-telling glance when I need to think about what to say and how to phrase it. They know, because they are all that is gentle and soft, unless of course I give them personalities that reflect my "other" side. Still, this was birthed in childhood, and perhaps it is "childish," to some, but it has saved my life in ways only trauma survivors can comprehend. 

At church this morning our passage of scripture was found in Mark 12:38-44, warning against scribes of Jesus' day, those who teach the law and the prophets, but they actually did so to their own advantage, as did the Pharisees. They looked down on many as less than themselves. The message was also a warning against the false prophets and doctrines of today, protecting ourselves by discerning the truth from what the Word of God has to say. Sound doctrine, and one I continually preach myself. The only way we can avoid that error in judgment is to abide in Christ and be a student of the Word, read the Bible Genesis to Revelation, and spend time talking to Jesus about it. I certainly don't want anyone to think that I am teaching false doctrine by my love of Israel, and my stand against false doctrine in the church - Replacement Theology and the New Pauline Perspective or whatever new comes down the pike - and my bold pronouncement against antisemitism. But I do not fear what I say is wrong, because if one wants to know the truth of God's word they have only to read it.

There are many things being taught that are against the Word of God, and it is concerning, and people need to know it, but as pastors and teachers disciple the people, teaching them the Word as this Pastor is doing, then they learn to know and love God's Word and desire to know more and more. That's me. I have an insatiable hunger and thirst for more and more of Him. That candle's never gonna be snuffed out!

Artificial Intelligence was mentioned - as to the good or bad. I believe there can be good as we progress in technology, as it helps the Underground Church, those being persecuted for their belief in Christ. It is great in reaching the younger generation for Christ, but interestingly, more Bibles are being purchased by the younger men. They want to hold it in their hands, mark it up, devour the pages! I'm so ecstatic when I hear about that. I love to hold the Bible in my hands. I have kept all my old Bibles, tattered pages and all, and I still grab them for reference and notes I've written. My entire life is written on the pages of my Bible, and my journals. Scripture cards I've made. I thank God for index cards and notebook paper! I pray that once I'm gone to see my Savior that the notes I've written, and the words I've penned will be useful to others. I know there's a lot on those pages I'd love to forget, but it's my life. I often repeat the words to my children: "Have you learned nothing from my life!" I am referring, of course, to my mistakes and mishaps.

Yesterday I watched an older movie with Johnny Depp and Morgan Freeman called Transcendence. I have always loved the versatile roles Johnny Depp has played in portraying different personalities. I pray that now he's older he will realize his need for Jesus and adjust his life. I always pray for such things, because God wants everyone saved, and so should we. This movie is about AI and the dangerous side of it, but on reflection there is a much deeper look into the love of a husband for his wife and her ambitions which transcend his own. I won't ruin the story by speaking more about it, but I do recommend it as a look see into the dangers of too much technology and the extremism and desperation of those who oppose it. What may begin as an emotional feeling of right and wrong can become ugly and cruel. Fear is a horrible monster, but then we try so hard to play God, but we don't fear and reverence Him as Holy. There is only One God, and we need to understand that!   

Day 164 Believe or Go Home!

 

6/13/2026

"No one deserves the title 'giant' when

measured against an omnipotent God."

Daily Walk

When God told Moses to send out the twelve spies to scout out the promised land, those chosen to represent their tribes were leaders, brave men able to go in check out the lay of the land - whether the people living there were weak or strong; whether the land was good or bad; whether the cities were camps or fortified cities; whether the land was rich or poor; whether there were forests, and they were instructed to bring a sample of the fruit. The names of each of the leaders chosen to represent their tribes were listed in Numbers 13:4-15. They were instructed to "Be of good courage." So off they went for forty days spying out the land and the people. When they returned they brought back a sample of fruit which proved that the land was rich, a land of milk and honey! They cut down a branch with one cluster of grapes that had to be carried on a pole by two men it was so huge. They also brought back figs and pomegranates.

After this initial fanfare upon their return, a less positive report was given by ten of the spies:

"Then they told him, and said: 'We went to the land where you sent us. It truly flows with milk and honey, and this is its fruit. Nevertheless the people who dwell in the land are strong; the cities are fortified and very large; moreover we saw the descendants of Anak there.'" (Numbers 13:27-28)

Caleb from the tribe of Judah spoke right up anxious to go in and conquer the land. The land God had already given them. But sadly, the people decided to listen to the bad report by ten of the spies, rather than the reports by Caleb and Joshua. The ten naysayers stirred up the crowd so badly that the people began to moan and cry, then began to blame Moses and Aaron, and they wanted to elect a new leader and return to Egypt. When poor Caleb tried to reason with the masses, they threatened to stone him. As most Bible scholars know the ten rebellious spies who made the people think God hated them were punished immediately by death, and the rest of the people were sentenced to wander in the desert for forty years until they died in the desert for their rebellion. When the sentence was given, the people tried to take their words and actions back, but it was too late, and God was not with them. Consequences always follow rebellion.

Today in our global prayer call in praying for Israel against antisemitism, praying for the church to arise and speak out against the lies being taught and speaking out against the hatred and persecution of the Jewish people, someone prayed that we needed a generation of Calebs who would be ready to stand up and fight for our nations. There are so many reports in regard to the war in Iran - will they sign a peace treaty, will they give up their uranium and promise not to build nuclear weapons or ballistic missiles, and a list of other "musts," and will talks continue to be on and off again for more months. It tends to wear people down, not knowing what will come next, although Israel has lived with this type of thing all their existence. In our own nation we are faced with several crises, and the enemy is very cunning in his strategy. The question is where will we as believers stand and on whose authority.

The media continues to sow discord and confusion, and it is done purposely. Social media is being manipulated, and AI creates false news reports, complete with AI generated photos. No one knows what is true or not. People jump to conclusions and believe the bad news without taking the time to check to see if it is valid information. This is becoming an epidemic in our nation, and in our world. As an American, and as a believer and follower of Christ, I am concerned with how all this affects our children. If they see parents and leaders vacillating from one wind of doctrine to another, what will they think? I know what I think, and it is not good. This is why our focus must remain clear. 

Why is it when God answers our prayers, we allow naysayers to come in and stir things up? Have you ever had that happen to you? Well, I have. I prayed and asked God to supply my needs, and He did. Prior to the arrival, however, I had someone call me up, because she was concerned that the person may not be on the up and up. Then another call and another call from other naysayers, because they could not trust that someone was telling the truth. Finally I had to put an end to the calls. Whereas I appreciated someone trying to look out for my welfare, all of this negativity was only making me sick, and I had to decide whose report to believe. Man or God's. I fully believed that God had divinely intervened in my life, so I said no more, and I left it there. As it turned out, all went well, and I received a wonderful blessing. Unlike the ten spies, I chose to rise against my giant and trust God, just like the little shepherd boy David did when he went against Goliath. The enemy wants to create confusion and doubt that left unchecked will lead to unbelief. I don't relish the idea of wandering for forty years in a desert simply because I chose to not listen to God whom I say I trust. Either I trust Him, or I do not.

As part of an intercessory prayer group, we hear many mixed reports and contradictory information. We have been standing with Israel since 10/7/2023, and the spiritual warfare is intense, as is the war against America, our families, our health, our finances, and every area of our lives. We must make a decision to believe God or go home and live in fear. Jesus already won the victory for our souls, but God does not expect us to sit it out. We are told to occupy until He returns. Let's not allow the oil to run dry in our lanterns. May our lights shine brightly for Christ. 

Day 163 Words of Life!

 

6/12/2026

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,

and the Word was God."

John 1:1

 

I woke up to The Chosen quietly playing in the background. It was one of my favorite scenes with Matthew and Gaius, the Roman Centurion who had been given the task to keep Matthew safe at the tax booth from angry people. Gaius has been watching Jesus heal and listening to him teach, so he is slowly being transformed, unable to unsee what he had witnessed with his own eyes and reconcile it with the life he had lived. One of the greatest transformations he had witnessed was that of Matthew. He was rich, employed and protected by Rome, but when Jesus passed by Matthew's tax booth and asked him to "Follow Me," without a second thought Matthew practically ran from the booth to become His disciple, leaving everything behind, including excuses as to his choices in life that separated him from his family and fellow Jews. Gaius was astonished, to say the least. He knew that Matthew had been feeling isolation from his family and probably sensed regrets, but Gaius had grown fond of him, and he realized how special and innocent Matthew truly was, but he had never seen this impulsive behavior.

In the scene Matthew encounters Gaius walking down the street, obviously troubled, but when Matthew asks how he is, he responds that he is fine. Matthew tells him he has many talents, but he is not an effective liar. Gaius seems a little surprised. Matthew asks about Gaius' family, and he snaps back at him, but then states that he's glad that Matthew has mended ways with his family. Then Gaius confesses that "home is complicated. I'm helpless." Matthew's responses really makes one think:

"You're right, Gaius. I don't know families well, and I complicate everything. But my Teacher, He makes everything very simple. Every day I wake up my ideas and fears are jumbled. I feel overwhelmed with doubts and regrets. So I just pause for a moment and remember. I have only one thing to do today, follow Him. The rest takes care of itself." 

I am always quoting scenes from this series, and often I think people get tired of hearing me, but although it may not be scriptural in total, and much has been added to the content that may or may not be so, it does me so much good to see what it may have been like when Jesus was on the earth ministering to others. I cannot help but speak of this work, of the love Dallas and Amanda Jenkins have poured into revisiting the stories, that are changing people's lives all over the world. 

The first song that came to mind when I started my day this morning was the old hymn, Wonderful Words of Life. The song begins with these words: "Sing them over again to me, wonderful words of life; let me more of their beauty see, wonderful words of life; words of life and beauty, teach me faith and duty. Beautiful words, wonderful words, wonderful words of life." I remember my mama and gram singing this beautiful hymn, and like all the hymns I learned to sing as a child, I continue to sing to this day! Sometimes I forget a verse or two, but the memory returns when I begin to sing. The other two verses are as follows: 

"Christ, the blessed one, gives to all wonderful words of life; sinner, list to the loving call, wonderful words of life; all so freely given, wooing us to heaven. Beautiful words, wonderful words, wonderful words of life."

"Sweetly echo the gospel call, wonderful words of life; offer pardon and peace to all, wonderful words of life; Jesus only Savior, sweetly echo the gospel call, Jesus, only Savior, sanctify forever. Beautiful words, wonderful words of life."

In a world where there's much chaos and confusion, ridiculous accusations flowing from every portal, every persuasion, it is so easy to become overwhelmed. But when our focus is on serving our Master and Lord, the most important thing is to follow Him. Proverbs 3:5-6 puts it this way: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths.   

Day 162 The Answer

 

6/11/2026

"Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light to my path."

Psalm 119:105

 

The third session of Day 3 of the Jerusalem Summit opened with the words "Welcome Home" spoken to the audience in attendance by the Ambassador to the Foreign Ministry of Israel. He said anytime anyone comes to Israel they feel at home, and they are welcomed as such. I cannot imagine a warmer welcome, and although I have never been to Israel, I already feel a great love towards the nation and the people. Standing with them these past three years during this horrendous moment in their history has been and continues to be my honor and a blessing. But for me the connection goes much deeper. We are born into families, and there are varying degrees of affection and even acceptance by blood kin. We discover that as time goes on. When we moved to Northern New Mexico, where I lived for thirty-five years, I left behind a great support system in my church. Reading through old journals I remembered my rather large church family, where we socialized outside of the church. It was remarkable. We knew our neighbors, and they were invited to be part of the fellowships and cookouts that we had in our home. We grew spiritually, and we felted loved. When we moved away at an extremely stressful period of our life when we needed the support we already had, we did not find the same degree of acceptance in the church in New Mexico, rather we were met with suspicion from some. It was an unsettling time, but we did form some friendships that were close. Over time and over increased problems, however, close ties can be lost, as that is the occupation of the enemy. Now, many years later, I have a new family, ones I've never met or spoken to, but we pray together daily in a global prayer meeting, and we all love Israel. We understand God's eternal plan of redemption. Salvation comes through the Jews.  

In several of the discussions during the Summit, young people, particularly Gen Z aged youth, seemed to be the focus and pivotal to getting to the eradication of antisemitism in our day, the increased hatred spurned on by social media, and to advancing truth about Israel. It was described as a battle for educational and cultural values, and a much-needed strategy to defeat the lies against the Jewish nation and against Zionism. To reach the young people who are the future leaders, it was suggested that more videos on Tik Tok might be needed, as this is the source of many of the false reports. It was reported that in this generation are more problems with mental health, depression, social anxiety, and they have an existential dread. They are confused by all the garbage that is coming out of the mouths of supposed journalists or once respected Christians who are causing this great upset, spewing lies and false testimonies. They themselves have bought into Satan's lie, as he is cunning and devious. In the past, if we consider when we were younger, when things got strange kids went "counter culture" in their approach to things. Baby boomers have much history of mixing things up in order to escape the raging war of the day. It was the youth of the day walking away from it all, finding their own way to cope, to exist in changing norms. The kids today are seeking "originality and uniqueness," and they need to see strength in the leaders of our time, especially the Church.

One speaker noted that the world has changed, and the battle cannot be won the same ole way. Everyone needs to go to Israel and get to know the land and the people. If they did they would understand that there is not another land like it. It is God's land, and the Jewish people are His chosen people. He made this decision, so why can't we honor it? Why can't the church which is called by His Name not protect God's own? The problem rests in the lack of wisdom, the lack of understanding, the lack of knowledge. The church needs to stop being naive. Jesus said to be "wise as serpents and harmless as doves." In defending Israel it was stated that one needed to know the Biblical defense, legal defense, and ethical moral defense. Another suggested that pastors have trouble knowing how to help in the face of such evil, that if they stand up, might hinder or harm their church. Congregations are divided on Israel, and already here in America there are church splits, or people are leaving if Israel is supported. The attacks on the churches has been going on for some time, but the hatred towards Evangelical Zionism puts a target on your back, or so I have heard. 

In considering all the wonderful discussions from fantastic men and women of God who know the history of Israel, I think the one answer, which I mentioned in previous posts is simple. Read the Bible! Just as you would read any other beloved book, this is the MOST beloved. It is the story of God's plan for redemption, and as Christians, followers of Jesus Christ, it is our story woven into the plan by Jesus Christ our Messiah. Study it and devour the truth. Pastors and leaders teach this book, chapter and verse. Parents sit down with your children and read and study it together. Pray with your children. Know what the Bible says. It may sound simplistic, but it has worked for me in my life. Reading the Bible is understanding the Jewishness of our Savior, Jesus Christ the Messiah. How can anyone with eyes to see and ears to hear miss that obvious truth! 

Day 161 Antisemitism

 

6/10/2026 

 "Choose this day whom you will serve... 

But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." 

Joshua 24:15

 

I love the illustration above, representing, in my mind, people of all nations with their hands on the globe, praying for the entire world, standing together, united and working for the common good. Our world is in a heap of a mess with more violence towards Christians, especially those who are identified as Evangelical Zionists, or those who stand with Israel for their right to be a nation, and for the rights of the Jewish people scattered all over the world. In many regards I am not surprised when certain people follow the misconceptions being spread, because the Bible said it would be so, especially in the last days, and this is the history of the Jewish people and anyone who is a friend. But, it is alarming to see that the actual Church, the Body of Christ, is buying into the gossip and slander on social media without caring to check the facts. Perhaps if more people stopped scrolling and consulted the infallible Word of God much of this hatred could be eradicated. More than this, however, a major problem exists, because the Bible is not being taught as one compelling story that it is. The Bible is a book with sixty-six chapters written by the Jewish people for the Jewish people. It is the story of Israel, and as such should be read and taught as any important book. It is the MOST important book every written, as it was written by God's Chosen People, the story of the land of Israel and how we as believers can become part of the story.

In my blog posted yesterday concerning the Jerusalem Summit, the speakers agreed that many pastors and leaders are too afraid to stand up to the lies of the media or the incorrect doctrine being taught in the church itself, or they just want to push it aside for someone else to deal with. After all, they are busy building their church and their agenda. God's plans just don't seem to fit their plans, but they believe they are guided by Holy Spirit. This may be an unconscious reasoning, nonetheless, we need to examine our hearts to ascertain the truth. Why does no one speak up and out about what is happening in our world today. Psalm 139:23-24 tells us to search our hearts to see if there is any wicked way in us. Second Timothy 2:15 tells us to study to show ourselves approved, workmen who rightly divide the word of truth. That means we can have discernment that comes from knowing and living God's laws. Then we won't be duped into believing what every popular journalist tells us. Whereas this is the responsibility of each believer, it should be a standard for the pastor or leader of every church so we will not be confused or made to believe what is simply not true. Much education is needed, but first, repentance - for believing negative reports without proof. Learn to know the truth. As someone once said "God said it, I believe it, and that settles it." Become that person who truly trusts in the Word of the Lord.

Day 160 Jerusalem Summit

6/9/2026 

"Those from among you shall build up the ancient ruins; 

you shall raise up the foundations of many generations;

you shall be called the repairer of the breach,

the restorer of streets to dwell in."

Isaiah 58:12

 

Today is the first day for the Emergency Jerusalem Summit hosted by the International Christian Embassy Jerusalem under the leadership of Dr. Jurgen Buhler, the CEO and other members of the ICEJ Office in Jerusalem and other nations. The purpose of the meeting is to address the rise in antisemitism since the October 7, 2023 massacre of Jewish men, women, and children living near Gaza by the Hamas jihad. It's interesting how quickly news of this horrific act on innocent civilians was soon turned from the suffering of the innocent by the news media to the people of Gaza whom they accused Israel of murdering. But the media spreading vicious lies is not new news to any of us, as it is a systemic epidemic in this world and an avenue used by satan to twist truth. The Jewish nation has been victims of hatred and the people accused of many wrongful deeds since the Lord began bringing them back home to Israel, as prophesied in the Bible. I could even say it began with Genesis, because satan's whole intention is the kill the seed of Abraham, because he knows that salvation comes through the Jews, through the birth of Jesus Christ who is a Jew.

The Summit will also include discussion regarding the false teaching called the Replacement Theology or supersessionism which is the false doctrine that the Christian Church has replaced or superseded the Jewish people as God's chosen people. It mistakenly asserts that the New Covenant through Jesus Christ has replaced the Mosaic covenant which renders Israel's covenantal status as null and void. Also, it does not teach that the birth of the Jewish nation as the Chosen People that God established through Abraham and reaffirmed with Issac and Jacob, whose name was changed to Israel. God told Abraham that through him his seed would be blessed, and his seed would bless the entire nation. This includes all born again followers of Christ Jesus who have accepted Jesus as Savior and Lord and who have been grafted in. We are the righteousness of God only through the blood of Jesus Christ. 

The lies that are so easily believed are based on false doctrine through media and certain voices who are ignorant of the Word of God, who have been led to believe a lie, and who are broadcasting these falsehoods as gospel, and this even includes the church. No one seems to take the time to seek the word to discern the validity of what they are being taught by others who dote on social media moral that the Word of God. Even pastors fail to rightly divide the word of truth, as they teach their flock to do.

One of the speakers who thanked those present, about 200, stated that while he loved seeing their support at each event and their dedication to Israel, that we needed to reach out to all the nations. He said he saw too many Caucasian faces, but several countries were represented. What he meant was that more people need to stop being afraid of what may happen if they speak up in their churches. They fear the hatred, the division, perhaps even the banishment from their own church for not buying into the gospel that is being taught. Regardless of why more people who know the truth are not speaking up is very concerning. Jesus told us to go and teach the Gospel to all nations. He did not mean sugar coated doctrine. He meant the truth of His identity as a Jewish Messiah and role of  Israel in end time prophesy. We must wake up and speak out! God said "Do not fear!" over and over in the Bible, and He said "so that they will know that HE is GOD!" Let us go forth in victory!  

Day 159 You're Gonna Be Okay

 

6/8/2026

"One night along in prayer might make us new men,

changed from poverty of soul to spiritual wealth,

from trembling to triumphing."

Charles Spurgeon

"With thee all night I mean to stay,

and wrestle till the break of day."

 

Sitting here alone in my room early in the morning, listening to bird songs, catching the scent of freshly cut lawn and clean earth, I remembered the days spent with my daddy before he passed away to join my mama in heaven. I miss him. I miss them both, and I don't think the hurt, the emptiness, never leaves us, because we have pleasant memories, perhaps even mixed with other thoughts, but I thank God that good always wins in my memory.

When I finished cutting the grass yesterday, looking back over it I could see my daddy sitting in his old, battered yard chair, sitting quietly, lost in thought. In the cool of the day he'd drag out that old chair and there he'd rest, content with his day. I know he missed my mama, and I wonder how many days he spent all alone even while she was still living, but resting in her bed. My sister helped him as much as she could, and I lived 2,000 miles away, unable to come home except a couple of times a year. So many times I wish I'd come home sooner, but he made me promise something, and I did the best I could. When he told me I could come, I felt I needed a job, and I couldn't find one. It seemed as if nothing panned out for me here, but perhaps I didn't try hard enough. The promise was hard to break. Now I'm here, but he's moved on to higher ground. I can't blame him. I don't think either of them would like this present world very much. They had too much good in them to be content in an America that's forgotten God.

Everything changes when we grow up, marry and have children. Women follow their husbands wherever they want to go, and such was the case with me. It was a bittersweet move to New Mexico, but I was obedient, and here I am now, family scattered, and my husband no longer my husband. It's okay, because God has taken me places I would never been able to go before. And although I missed a lot of people, places, and opportunities, He move than gifted me with more. I have met so many fine people, and when I left to return home, I later found out that many had died. That saddens me, because I hope they were not lonely. For many my visits were welcomed, even though I was performing my job duties. Still, for me, and for them, our relationship was more, and it was never just a home visit.

As I looked over the lawn my thoughts turned to other days, so I pulled out my old red retro yard chair and sat in my favorite spot across from daddy's nestled among the crepe myrtle trees. It would have been much better with the blossoms hanging over me, but they stopped blooming from spider mite infestation. Rescuing those trees has become my mission in life. My daddy planted those trees, more memories. So, naturally I'd love to sit among them and think about days gone by. Missing my grandparents, playing catch with anyone who'd toss the ball with me. I even missed hanging clothes on the line, but for some reason daddy thought it best to take those down. I wonder if he ever thought I'd make it back home.

Later on, after supper, I sat binging the last season of The Chosen. My heart broke as Jesus stood waiting for Judas to come forward to betray him, before they took Him away. As the disciples stood behind Jesus and watched in silently, in unbelief watching a man they called brother, kiss and betray the man who called his betrayer, My Friend. The look on Jesus' face I will never forget, as I imagine it to have been like that on His face. My heart broke with His at this betrayal. I have felt the hurt of betrayal, but not to the extent that our Messiah experienced it. He knew what He was facing, and He had agonized in the Garden prior to Judas' arrival, asking His Father to take the cup away. Nevertheless, not His will, but the will of the Father be done. 

As I was listening to worship music earlier in the day, I heard one by Jenn Johnson at Bethel Music I'd not heard before called "You're Gonna Be Okay." It opens with the following lyrics: "I know it's all you've got to just be strong, and it's a fight just to keep it together, together. I know you think that you are too far gone, but hope is never lost, hope is never lost. Hold on, don't let go. Hold on, don't let go."

That's how my day actually began, then followed the memories and the rest. The song is quite compelling, and I heard it just at the right time, which is usually the way God does sit when I turn on my playlist. I guess AI does have a plus if it had anything to do with choosing this song based on my likes. Mia has been keeping me company in the mornings, so I'm not lonely, as my cat is still enjoying the fresh morning air and lounging outside. He definitely loves this time of year. How could I not allow him this freedom to just be what he is - free to be!

Many people are alone, and many don't have memories of parents or friends and family. Over the course of the journey God set me on, beginning in New Mexico, I have met and grown to love so many lonely people, some with family, others without. But even those with family can be lonely, left alone except when I visit. All for show? Perhaps, but hopefully not always. 

Now that I have a car, and my health has improved, I need to follow through on what I wanted to do at the nursing center near my home. My community work has fallen off, especially since last December, but now I have a chance to pick up where I left off, or I can begin afresh! Where can my dreams go? Where can I follow?

One thing I know...it's gonna be okay! 

Day 158 Do You Feel Less, Part 2

 

6/7/2026

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 

'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 

plans to give you hope and a future.'"

Jeremiah 29:11

 

Life can be very unpredictable. As young people we think we know what we want to do with our lives, but when it comes right down to it, how many people really stick to the initial plan. When I was young I had many dreams, but as I have mentioned before, I was not encouraged to pursue even the noblest of services. Even counselors at school didn't really express an interest in helping us chase a dream or direct us to a vocation. We were pretty much left on our own. Help with scholarships was offered, but only minimally, but then that's my experience, but when I asked some other friends, they had the same reaction as I did. I wish things had turned out better earlier in my life, but in His mercy God made certain that I gained the experience I would ultimately need. And He's been providing more and more education as the years progress. I have to laugh when I think about going back to college and finishing my graduate work, but then nothing is impossible, as I love to say. I happen to believe and trust in that knowledge.

Yesterday I finished my post with my own quotation: "One experience cannot compare to a lifetime of service." I was speaking of taking annual mission trips versus becoming a missionary, living in an area, daily serving others whether internationally or nationally. But those experiences are worth everything, and they can shape and prune your life forever. I had one mission trip to Belize in Central America back in the day when passports were not necessary for that part of the Americas. I was in the rain forest as part of a ministry trip to the Mayan Indians. I've written about my trip previously, as well as the ones made by my husband to another part of the world. I briefly mentioned that a friend's daughter was working with Youth With a Mission (YWAM) a ministry I connected with through weekly Bible studies for a season, but I was unable to join due to family issues. My continuous desire has been to serve on the mission field, and God did hear my heart. I was sent to Northern New Mexico to eventually work in the health care business. He took me on a circuitous journey, but everything He has taught me, regardless of hardships endured, has been worth it all. Most importantly, it was my mission field! I Many churches and ministries send missionaries to other countries, but we tend to forget all the needs that we have within our own nation.

The foster care system is so in need of help, and the children need parents who will love and support them. Our First Lady, Melania Trump is continuing her work previously started with the foster care program. Her new program, Fostering the Future, was presented at the 2026 United States Senate Spouses Luncheon in Washington, DC, she shared, "My initiative, Fostering the Future, is built on four community-centric pillars to support America’s youth." Those pillars are a strong education, love, inspiring career ambition, and resilience. She shared her heart that day, and she received 100% approval from those in attendance. She asked them one question: "If I could spare one heart from breaking, would you rise with me?" That question says it all!

While our First Lady is busy improving the lives of the foster care children, our Second Lady, Usha Vance hosted a family camp this past weekend to kick off the Summer Reading Challenge. The event was held at "Camp VPR" (Vice President's Residence), and the one day camp was held on the lawn of the Naval Observatory. 

"Children read books, colored, painted, played, and dug in a play garden as part of the launch of the second lady’s summer reading challenge. There was also a rock wall, a slip n’ slide, an inflatable obstacle course, an inflatable moon bounce, and face painting."

Vice President JD Vance and their three children participated in the event. The couple is expecting their fourth child, a son, who will be born in July. Karoline Leavitt, White House Press Secretary, who is still on maternity leave after the birth of her daughter, also attended the event with her husband and son.

"The second family also partnered with the Department of Agriculture and local 4-H students to teach the campers about the new chicken coop installed on the property."

Each day is full of possibilities, divine appointments, fresh encounters. Nothing is ever really lost. Whereas I don't really like the expression "When one door closes, God opens a window," it does share hope. In Romans 8:28 Paul states that "All things work together for good for those who love God, to the called according to His purpose." The context in which this scriptures is taken is very important to consider. Paul is speaking about the suffering we go through as followers of Jesus Christ, as we await the glory of His coming. It speaks of God's everlasting love for us, and in verses 37-39 he lists how vast that love is for us.

"Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

He who created us in His image, and who sent His Son to die for us, and who put His Holy Spirit within us loves us beyond our imaginations! Every good and perfect gift comes from Him, and He has a plan and purpose for each one of us. We need never feel "less than" but we continue to strive to do our best in this world, taking advantage of every opportunity to serve others and bring Him glory. Encouraging children as our First and Second Ladies are doing is a really good place to begin! Our mission field is wide open in America, in our back yards, and beginning with our own families. We all have something to share with others, especially our dreams. 

Day 157 Do You Feel Less?

 

6/6/2026

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 

'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 

plans to give you hope and a future.'"

Jeremiah 29:11

 

High school reunions tend to throw some people into tailspins. Many people become excited about seeing old friends, particularly if the class was smaller, as country schools back in the day generally were. Everyone knew everyone, because the class was so small. My graduating class in 1968 was only 130 students, as I recall, but now that I think about it, there were "clicks," and we even had competing sororities. I was in one of the two most popular sororities in school, but it was based more on popularity than intelligence and personal achievement. Such things, especially in small country schools, could make those who were not "chosen" to feel like social outcasts, not "good enough" or "less than" others. So, those who were not invited to join the "elect" groups finally started their own sororities. I always thought certain prejudices were wrong even back in the day, because as the saying goes, "What would Jesus do?" This is the question in the book In His Steps by Charles Sheldon, that affected my life as a youngster, and it has remained so my entire life.

Yesterday I connected with an old friend from years prior to moving to New Mexico in 1987. I picked up one of my old journals to help me remember those days, and I saw name after name of people I can't remember. People who were obviously close to our family, but for some reason there are people and times that my memory has blocked out. Naturally when old friends get together after a period of time they share their lives. Truthfully, I hesitate to share my life at times, because I have done so many things, but it is only because of God's hand on my life. My experiences were not easily achieved, and going back in time brings up regrets and sadness. I am beginning to realize more and more how little I am really known, as if my life was not important, but every life is important, and sharing our lives, our stories, should bring us closer. However, often this is not the case.  

In one episode of Highway to Heaven Jonathan and Mark are attending Mark's 35th high school reunion. Mark is ecstatic about seeing some of the old friends, remembering "glory days" as a football player. Athletes are always popular in schools at any level. As it turns out Jonathan's assignment from God was to attend Mark's reunion. Since there were some people who as yet had not responded to the invitation, part of the assignment was for Jonathan and Mark to seek out these people to encourage them to attend the reunion. So, the story line revolved around a few class friends who were reticent about attending for one reason or another. They were successful in getting those classmates to attend, but as people began to "mingle" and share their lives, they began to feel a sense of loss, of not measuring up to another's achievements, comparing themselves with others who seem to have achieved more success in their lives. To make matters worse there is always a class "gossip" who makes it her job to inform everyone else of the hardships or juicy news of others, without really sharing her own life story, or if so, relate the truth. It's as if jealousies that began back in teenage years are never resolved, so keeping up with the "dirt" in others' lives becomes a vocation for such individuals. And, it seems as if that was happening in Mark's high school reunion. In the end things worked themselves out, and thanks to Mark's intervention, the tempo picked up with the last dance. But this left Mark to wondering why do people go to such extremes to make things appear other than what they truly were or are? There's the former prom queen who is now aged, whose husband left her for a younger woman; the prom king who became an actor, once adored, but whose fame has faded, balding without his toupee, and mostly unknown by the younger generation; and the man who has become very successful and speaks humbly of his life, yet when asked about family becomes despondent, because his wife "left him." I'm not sure whether she died or ran away, but his response was one of extreme brokenness, which went unobserved by the couple asking the question. But, in each of these three lives, they were successful, and we all become older, and many lose their hair.

Mark shared with Jonathan that even he was making his football glory days into more than they actually were. When my friend and I were sharing about our children, I realized later that I hadn't shared some things, many things. I seemed to dwell on the spiritual, because truly that is what is more important. In listening to her speak of her children and grandchildren I became a bit sad, because I don't see my grandchildren. My younger son has been married twice to older women who already had children, and I adopt complete strangers as my children, so these kids were welcomed and loved. Not being able to know my great-grandchildren is the worst! But they are bathed in prayer daily, 

I've had to give up a great many dreams, one of them, Youth With a Mission (YWAM) about which I have written. I attended meetings way back then, but I was married, and he was not yet a Christian so there was no way he'd be a missionary. As it turned out when he did get saved he earned his own money to take two missionary trips to the Dominican Republic to build churches, and he helped his brother in Christ earn money so he could go with my husband. Those days were priceless. Now I have only shadows of memories, but God has blessed me with many more. I was thinking about most American teenagers who go on mission trips in the summer really don't feel the call as a gift. "One experience cannot compare to a lifetime of service." Those are my words, and they are true.  

To be continued...! 

Day 156 Comfort Zones

 

6/5/2026

“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, 

he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” 

John 15:5 

 

I read today that the fear of life or living is the favorite disease of the twentieth century, and I can believe that, because I've seen the signs even in my own family. As a case manager I was responsible for evaluating the medical and mental health needs of Medicaid patients in order to determine eligibility for home health care services and other resources. So many individuals were on multiple medications prescribed for certain conditions which alarmed me, but then I was not a medical physician, although I do have a medical background. When I developed plans of care I always considered ways to encourage patients to think of what they would love to do with their lives, future goals, hopes and dreams. Having a history of chronic pain, illnesses and immune deficiency disorders all my life, I could understand on some level the pain and discomfort many suffered, but I never considered disability assistance. I persevered and found ways to cope with my pain. But, as a case manager I recognized the fear to hope for a life in the eyes of certain patients, because there had been years of dependency on Medicaid support, and the thought of losing financial and medical support can be very frightening. To even consider working a job or feeling capable of attaining freedom in a profession seemed unattainable due to their limitations. I know this to be true, because I have family members who receive disability assistance. It often seems like an uphill battle, but I believe in what Jesus can do, because He did it for me. We serve a God who heals, and in Him, we have hope. People are afraid to move outside of their comfort zones, especially dependence on systems, but this is true of life in general, because we do not trust the Author and Finisher of our faith, and quite honestly, this hope is not offered to many who need the encouragement.

Next week the International Christian Embassy Jerusalem of which I am connected will be hosting an Emergency Jerusalem Summit to consider the alarming rise in antisemitism since the October 7, 2023 massacre in Israel. It will also confront the false teaching of Replacement Theology and the new Pauline Perspective that teaches that the church has replaced the Jews and that Israel no longer has a part in the end time plan of redemption. I've written and spoken about this error in doctrine previously, so I am very anxious this summit will be taking place in Jerusalem. I must admit that the scriptures, particularly Paul's account in his epistle of Romans clearly puts things in the proper perspective, but again misinterpretation of information previously prophesied by the prophets has not been taken into account, especially in Chapter 11 which speaks of the Gentiles being grafted into the vine as wild olive shoots. Apart from the root, which in this case is the Hebraic roots established from the covenant with Abraham, the branches do not function. Jesus said "Apart from Me you can do nothing."Again, comfort zones will be shaken up, but the truth of the Word of God begins in Genesis and ends in Revelation, and no one can change the plans of God. As Psalm 119:89 says "Forever, O Lord, Your word is settled in heaven." I pray hearts will be open, and Holy Spirit will guide all in attendance to the truth. We are living in incredible times as prophecy is being played out right before our eyes. 

Our mandate in Isaiah 62:1-7 is clear as intercessors:

"For Zion’s sake I will not hold My peace,
And for Jerusalem’s sake I will not rest,
Until her righteousness goes forth as brightness,
And her salvation as a lamp that burns.
The Gentiles shall see your righteousness,
And all kings your glory.
You shall be called by a new name,
Which the mouth of the Lord will name.
You shall also be a crown of glory
In the hand of the Lord,
And a royal diadem
In the hand of your God.
You shall no longer be termed Forsaken,
Nor shall your land any more be termed Desolate;
But you shall be called Hephzibah, and your land Beulah;
For the Lord delights in you,
And your land shall be married.
⁵ For as a young man marries a virgin,
So shall your sons marry you;
And as the bridegroom rejoices over the bride,
So shall your God rejoice over you.

⁶ I have set watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem;
They shall never hold their peace day or night.
You who make mention of the Lord, do not keep silent,
⁷ And give Him no rest till He establishes
And till He makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth."

There are many "comfort zones" in our personal lives, in our nation, and in our world. This is the year we celebrate our 250th Day of Freedom. I pray it will be a year of realizing what freedom we as a people do have and truly embrace it. We must fight hard to keep it, and it will begin by our returning to the God of our salvation. Hearts of gratitude for what our Founding Fathers did, but understanding that their faith in God made it possible. Breaking free from what brings us comfort or control, and truly looking to God to rescue us once again from a nation that is standing on sinking sand. May we stand on the Rock of Christ our Savior. 

Even so, come Lord Jesus, come!

Day 155 Taste & See

 

6/4/2026

 "How sweet Your words to me; they are sweeter than honey." 

Psalm 119:103

 

Called as a child to follow Christ, following a crazy path, contrary to my desires, but deviating from the straight path, the narrow road, I often wonder if I have had any impact for the cause of Christ on another person. Sometimes when I'm sorting through files and old letters from friends, I will happen upon a note or card written to me or about me, that I may or may not remember about my job performance or something I did or said that has made a difference. I imagine I have become so accustomed to the rabbit hole of guilt and shame that I still seem to wander close to the edge when I remember. Words cut deeply, and the wounds take time to heal. I am grateful they do not fester from unforgiveness or bitterness. I imagine I have grown accustomed to unkind remarks about my decision to surrender my life to Christ. I've never been selfish, it's just who I am called to be, and the walk I have chosen to take. 

The Psalms are very soothing at these times, as I find a kindred spirit in David when he is crying out to God, alone and betrayed. But it is in these moments that the time with the Lord can be so sweet. I'm beginning to not mind so much - being misunderstood or caring too much. I'm in good company, because look at Jesus' life! He told the disciples they would be hated, and His prayer in John 17 included me. I'd rather be suffering for the cause of Christ than sitting on a fence with my legs dangling on both sides of the fence and be considered lukewarm.

The mini-dreams or visions are becoming more frequent, and today I dreamed of being in an airport. Whether alone or straggling behind I am not certain, but I was assisted by a friendly younger man who helped me along the path to make my flight connection. It seems as if he had many questions as we walked, then he'd go about his business. But as I was hurrying down another direction, all of a sudden he was back, helping me again, asking more questions about my trip. This happened off and on until my final leg of this cross-country hike to make a connection. It had to be a flight from Dallas, as I've been somewhere like it before. It seemed familiar somehow. The last time he walked with me he asked about my brother. That's when I arrived at my destination and could safely leave him. I remember wondering how he knew I had a brother. I don't understand it, and perhaps I never will, so it's written down, and I'll try to leave it for now. I'm not sure when, but I drifted asleep again, and awoke suddenly to the words, "If he does anything to harm you!" that came from the mouth of an angry woman in the crowd, although I really don't remember much about it. I guess I'll keep my eyes open and stay out of airports!

Tonight I met with my group I host for Harvest Ministries. We were talking about being prepared for heaven and what Jesus said about packing light for the trip. He warns us to stay alert, as no one knows when He may appear, only the Father. We also spoke about gratitude. Sadly, we as followers of Christ do not always have or show gratitude, and we have much to thank Jesus for. There's one young lady in the group who is learning to memorize scripture, so it is a joy for me to hear her enthusiasm. I am forever harping on the importance of memorization. It's a habit I learned as a child, and I still remember many of my favorite passages from early years, and from many years of reading and studying. I love looking at the context of scripture, so often we go over many passages. I love that the ladies are excited about the study, and it especially touches my heart when someone can quote the verses from memory. That reminds me of a scripture that I have used before in my blogs, "I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth." 3 John 4. Although the ladies are not my children, being the oldest in the group, I do tend to call him "kids." But it is a wonderful joy to see them "taste and see that the Lord is good!"

Day 154 At What Cost?!

 

6/3/2026

"No, but I will surely buy it from you for a price; 

nor will I offer burnt offerings to the LORD my God 

with that which costs me nothing."

2 Samuel 24:24  

 

An interesting thing happened to me today! Well, it seems as if interesting things are becoming more common, as my life becomes more complicated, yet much freer spiritually speaking. Each morning I turn on my music on YouTube, but this morning the normal appearance of the page on my phone consisted of "shorts" rather than videos. And the "shorts" were not ones I would even look at, because I don't have the time nor the inclination to scroll. I had to search for my music, and when it posted on the page, it still had "shorts" as part of the menu. Also, my search engine on the phone, which is Google, had erased my searches and only showed the usual daily happenings that Google reports. Even my search engine on my laptop, Firefox, was behaving unnaturally. I felt as if I was in an AI Twilight Zone, and maybe I was getting a foreshadowing of what is to come.

So, music aside, I decided to just talk to God before I began my Bible study. I talk to Him all the time, but I had much more on my mind, and I did want to ask Him why this was happening. It didn't take me long, as I am very much aware of the extreme tactics the enemy takes to distract, but he needs to consider what will catch my eye, rather than sticking just anyone on my page. As much as I love Dan Bongino, his rants were a bit much for me this morning.

Lately, with all the craziness around me I have felt a great desire to get away. Even on the global prayer call, we've been counseled to get away and rest. I guess I just don't feel that missing out on the daily content and prayers warrants a time away, and I'm only listening in as an attendee, which I love being in the background. I did begin to think a bit about time away. When I was growing up here in Virginia there were a couple of places I loved to go, but I was always with someone. In New Mexico I could get alone and hide, escape from the phone and computer, but it's not so easily done here. I began to ask Abba one more time, until the next, "Where can I go? I belong no where, Lord! Where is my somewhere?!"

I'm sure God rolls His eyes when I say those things, but God's not like that, and He really does care about everything that concerns us. Sometime we burn out and need to actually disconnect and rest! It doesn't mean I can't or won't pray, rather I'd escape the hundreds of emails that come my way. Just now as I am writing those words, I felt such joy burst forth from me, and I began to sing "Forever He will be...the Lamb upon the throne. I gladly bow my knee...and worship Him alone." These are lyrics from All Heaven Declares by Noel Richards. The song reminds me that God fills our hearts with peace, even when war is all around us. Even Jesus had to get off by Himself to pray, and I often think, that is precisely what I need in order to decompress and hear His voice.

My reading for today takes me back to Psalms 119:73-96. The Psalmist begins with: "Thy hands have made me and fashioned me; give me understanding, that I may learn thy commandments." It reminds me of Psalm 139 where David tells God that He has made us fearfully and wonderfully. So how can man question their Maker? Considering the make up of the human body is unquestionable proof that we were not a cosmic accident or mishap in space. No, we are God's creative masterpiece here to do His will. And that makes me so happy.

In planning the Emergency Jerusalem Summit that will be in Jerusalem next week, the ICEJ has been consulting with many pastors and ministries about attending the event. Today in the prayer call we were told that a Catholic priest had approached a member of the team about urging many to come together and work together, forgetting differences in theology. He said, "Whatever we call ourselves we need to work together." Of course he was talking about denominations and religious beliefs, so his point is well taken. The church does need to work together to combat the problems of our day, especially antisemitism. But the cost is dear, as aligning ourselves with the nation of Israel makes us a target. How did it get to this?! I have not been able to rally support for Israel, not even when there were still hostages involved. It saddens me how people tend to forget what is not right in front of them, and since the big news stations do not support conservative views, Israel being one, the coverage declines, and people forget. And when the fire gets too hot, they bow out. It's a good example of the Parable of the Sower and the Seeds. People tend to take the easy away around, but the Road Less Traveled is ignored. 

It made me think that we want something that costs us nothing. And we can use any excuse possible to justify ourselves. When King David took the illegal census of the nation, the people payed the price of his sin. God gave him three choices for punishment, and he chose to be under the hand of God rather than others. So the Lord sent a plague on the nation for three days:

"Then David spoke to the LORD when he saw the angel who was striking the people, and said, 'Surely I have sinned, and I have done wickedly; but these sheep, what have they done? Let Your hand I pray, be against me and against my father's house.' And Gad came that day to David and said to him, 'Go up, erect an altar to the LORD on the threshing floor of Araunah the Jebusite.' So David, according to the word of Gad, went up as the LORD commanded." (2 Samuel 24:17-19). 

When David approached Araunah who owned the threshing floor and told him that he wanted to purchase the place, Araunah offered for him to take it. "Then the king said to Araunah, 'No, but I will surely buy it from you at a price; nor will I offer burnt offerings to the LORD my God with that which costs me nothing." (2 Samuel 24:24). David knew the sin was his, and that the payment had to be paid by him. There is always a cost for disobedience, as there will always be consequences of surrendering our lives to Christ, but in the end He is victor! And the victory is ours! Hallelujah!!

Day 153 Ein Kamocha Adonai

 

6/2/2026

"Lord, there is no one like you! For You are great,

and Your name is full of power."

Jeremiah 10:6

 

Yesterday I shared visions I had during prayer, visions of women in distress, crying, lost, even to the point of not being consolable. One woman held in the strong arms of someone I believe was the Lord, grieving. Before I moved back to Virginia I had a dream about seeing people lining the road on both sides, desperate, lost, seemingly hopeless. I did not walk alone as I watched these crowds, walking single file slowly down the road, as if having no where to go, no one to turn to, heads bowed. I had the Captain of the Armies of Heaven by my side, although at the time I did not realize it. This morning in the prayer watch from the Messianic church in Israel, I heard about the weariness of the people, particularly the soldiers who are physically tired, some having been on active duty the entire time since 10/7/2023. Many deployed from other countries, including the United States, where they have made a life, having to leave spouses and children behind. War is not something new for Israel, but this war has gone on for too long. It's hard enough leaving your family behind, but hearing of the increasing hatred and antisemitism all over is very troubling when that person is elsewhere. These are indeed perilous times.

We turn to the Psalms for strength and comfort, but we also sing, praise, and worship our God. There is no one like the LORD - "Ein Kamocha Adonai." And He is worthy of praise. He is watching over Israel, although some would think that not so. Regardless of what appears to be, God is calling His people back to the land, and the land is prospering in spite of war, homes destroyed, lives changed from the savage loss of lives, senseless slaughter of innocents, against the lies and accusations printed daily. No one cares to know the truth of these special people. People who do not want war, but who have extended warm welcomes and outstretched arms to the ones who attacked them that early morning so long ago. 

I know what it's like to suffer when people turn against, accuse, deny, listen to lies and utter nonsense. But I made a promise to God when I surrendered my life to Him so many years ago, and I will stand with Israel, although I lose some people along the way, including family. It's happened before when I made a decision to leave a job due to prejudice on the part of my employer, and when I refused to attend a family event at a facility that treated others unfairly because of skin color and nationality. Veterans. Those who defend our nation and maintain our safety and security. It was long ago, but nothing really changes, as we see in America now. 

Each Tuesday morning I enter into worship and prayer with the Kehilat HaCarmel Worship Watch in Israel, and my heart is always warmed by the worship led by Karen Davis. She has an anointed ministry, and the songs are so beautiful and scriptural. Karen has been very ill for several weeks now, but she has returned, and she is lifting her voice in praise to her God, Adonai. Listen to the words of her song:

"I have set the Lord before my eyes, so my heart will not be shaken. I have set my will to seek His life. I will wait upon the Lord. I will lift my eyes until the hills to the God of all creation. I will lift my heart and worship Him, I will glory in the Lord. I will praise the Lord, I will praise the Lord. I will lift my eyes to the Lord most high. I will praise the Lord."

Another one that is equally beautiful: 

"I love the Lord for He has heard my voice. He's heard and answered me. He's lifted me above the flood, above my enemies. The pain of death surrounded me. I called upon His Name. He sent His word, delivered me, gracious is the Lord. So return to your rest, so return, o my soul. He has torn, but He will heal, He will come, He will restore. So taste and see that the Lord is good, His mercy endures forever."

As she sang she prayed for others who are having physical challenges. It seems as if many in the congregation have been hit with illness or other challenges, and as I listen and observe, I have noticed that many standing on the wall with Israel, myself included, have been encountering tremendous obstacles in their lives. Yet, yet, God is faithful, as we are faithful to praise His Name. Regardless of what happens, no matter what the enemy throws in our face, trying to weaken and destroy our health, and our faith, and steal our joy, it does not happen. We are victorious in battle, and this is a spiritual battle. One of our scriptures today is found in Psalm 61:1-8. It was written by David in a time of great distress:

"Hear my cry O God; attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Bor You have been a shelter for me, a strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah. For You, O God, have heard my vows; You have given me the heritage of those who fear Your name. You will prolong the king's life, his years as many generations. He shall abide before God forever. Oh, prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him! So i will sing praise to Your name forever, that I may daily perform my vows." 

O, Lord, you are worthy of our praise! There is no one like You. 

Day 152 If I Should Die....

 

6/1/2026

 "If I should die before I wake, I pray Thee, Lord, 

my soul to take."

Running, running, running, always running to catch up to some "to do" item! My head is swimming from all the incessant activity of the day, and it has only begun! After a nice, relaxing two Sabbath day rest weekend, I should be easing out of the starting gate, not at full gallop! I think I have something else God needs to teach me.

For me living my life is a continual refresher course, but that's good, because I love re-runs! Reading through the Bible each year has taught me how little I know, but then daily learning and seeing scripture come alive is what the life hidden in Christ is all about. I just finished reading the book of Job, and today I began reading the Psalms. Actually, I live in the Psalms, as I read them daily. There's so much transparency and true feelings expressed by David and others. The authors were not afraid to say how they felt, and God is never hesitant to speak back. I don't know why, but sometimes when I'm praying through lists or while I'm reading the Bible and praying, if I close my eyes, God will give me a vision. Today I kept seeing people hurting. At one point I had to put on worship music to get my focus back on the Lord, I was so distraught about some things I'd seen, and I did not understand. I heard the words from the song,  "so forget about yourself, concentrate on Him, and worship Him," and that snapped me back to reality.

So while praying for our nation, focusing on health and healing, several people on the church prayer lists came to mind, and I began to consider Job's dilemma, thinking about other times when people were in fearful circumstances, needing a word from the Lord. The Lord is always present with us in storms whether we are aware of it or not. Jesus came walking on the water when the disciples were in the storm. They thought He was a ghost at first, then Peter had to test it out. Jesus rebuked the storm, then got in the boat, and He reminded them of the miracle they had just witnessed - the feeding of the 5,000. Nothing is impossible with God. When Jesus and the disciples were crossing over to the other side of the sea after another busy day of preaching, a storm arose while Jesus was sleeping comfortably in spite of the rising water that was filling the boat. When they woke Him up, He silenced the winds and rain, and asked them about their shallow faith. He was right there with them, and they were fearful. God spoke to Elijah in a still small voice after He'd shaken the mountain, blown wind around, then asked Elijah why he'd come. Moses met God in a burning bush in the middle of the wilderness while tending sheep. He even made His presence known as Commander of the Armies of Heaven before Joshua marched around Jericho. His ways are mysterious, but He never fails us, and He definitely knows how to make an entrance!

The visions I had today every time I closed my eyes were glimpses, mere shadows. I guess I was tired, although I had rested well, and it was early when this happened. In the first vision I saw someone I know or knew, as she passed on to heaven not too long ago. Whoever it was, she was crying, in despair, and there was a puppy trying to console her, but even so, unable to help, more was needed. The Lord spoke then and said, "Do not forgive...a staunch, knowing position of hope. Maybe not all, but some will believe. Look how far God has brought you!" The next image I saw was a woman being held in strong arms, mourning, grieving, almost inconsolable. The other was someone at the church, calling out for help, not asking, expecting. And the last image was of a woman, again distressed, and I was talking with her, possibly about advocacy for her need? Where does all this come from in a short space of time. I was reading the Psalms and praying for America. Maybe that should be a clue. Our nation is in desperate need of prayer.

Dreams and visions are not unusual for me, and two of my children have also had dreams. I don't speak about the spiritual realm in this light often, because people are afraid of what they don't know. I've been reading through some of my earlier journals, hoping to find some answers I need for my book, if I ever get it in print. It's interesting when my then eleven year old son tells me God has spoken to him in a dream about getting his life straight. The spiritual warfare has been so brutal lately that I have found it hard to concentrate, and my notes have not been understandable, written in phrases rather than complete sentences. That's why I'm behind in some things, especially posting my blogs. But the notes are here, and I'll get it done. I promised, so I will. Good night. 

Day 151 In the Soaking

 

 5/31/2026

 "Pray for a faith like Job's that will not shrink

when it is washed in the waters of affliction."

Your Daily Walk

 

The past five months I have been in a season of suffering (testing) and disruption (testing), battling against a pernicious foe who would enjoy nothing better than to steal my joy and destroy my life and the lives of my family. When it comes to health issues I don't really get too concerned, and generally tend to find my own solutions. Other things spring up over and over in the family making it difficult to find rest, but I have learned to be content regardless of situations that arise by keeping my focus on Jesus which gives me peace - shalom peace. 

My faithful Alex has been missing on several occasions which causes me concern, but he always manages to reappear. He is a fair weather furry friend, much as humans can be so. I've grown very fond of that feral long haired mongrel, even though he is very fickle when it comes to affection. He does give me a high five though. Do cats normally do that? He has a somewhat sweet disposition, that is, as long as Mia, Daniel's cat is not present. So, in spite of any obstacles, I am managing well, but only because Holy Spirit comforts me and reminds me of the love of God in sending Jesus to die for my sins. That brings everything into perspective, and again, I lift my voice in praise. Praise and gratitude are the BEST weapons!

I've been studying the book of Job over the past few days, and he's been going through a series of events, back to back, and endured the "comfort" of his "friends." Job's adventure came to an end in my reading today after 37 chapters of endless prattle by his three friends. They were determined to give Job godly wisdom and counsel, and although there was a measure of truth in their verbal missiles, their accusations against Job were totally unfounded and not established. Those who criticize others often want to have the final word. A "think on this" or "thus saith me" sort of ending. But it's never really sensible advice, have you noticed that?! Repeatedly Job cried out to God for justice, maintaining his innocence, but he wanted God to give him an explanation about why this happened to him; so finally, after the voices slacked off, God obliged him.

In Job, Chapter 38:1-3:

"Then the Lord answered Job from the whirlwind: 'Why are you using your ignorance to deny my providence? Now get ready to fight, for I am going to demand some answers from you, and you must reply.'" 

God's first question to Job was: "Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me if you know so much." (Job 38:4)

God continues to overwhelm Job with question after question about the logistics of His creation - who laid the cornerstone of the earth, decreed the boundaries, commanded the morning to appear and the darkness to cover the earth? Then he began to question Job about how mountain goats give birth, who gives the horse strength, and enables the eagle to soar. Poor Job must have been bug-eyed and mouth hanging open!  

Finally, God says to Job: "Do you still want to argue with the Almighty? Or will you yield? Do you - God's critic - have the answers?" (Job 40:2)

About now I imagine Job's buddies may have been thinking..."Hmmm, we tried to tell you, Job, but you wouldn't believe you were guilty. Yep, that pride of yours!" Job was pretty shook up I'm sure, humbled that the LORD Almighty was speaking directly to him! So Job response was:

"I am nothing - how could I ever find the answers? I lay my hand upon my mouth in silence. I have said too much already." (Job 40:4)

The Lord again speaks to Job from the whirlwind in Job 40:7-14 saying:

"Stand up like a man and brace yourself for battle. Let me ask you a question, and give me the answer. Are you going to discredit my justice and condemn me, so that you can say you are right? Are you as strong as God, and can you shout as loudly as he? All right then, put on your robes of state, your majesty and splendor. Give vent to your anger. Let it overflow against the proud. Humiliate the haughty with a glance; tread down the wicked where they stand. Knock them into the dust, stone-faced to death. If you can do that, then I'll agree with you that your own strength can save you."

The Lord continues with a conversation regarding the strength of the hippopotamus and then the crocodile. In some translations God calls the latter Leviathan, but His point was that no person can stand against the strength of these creations. In the end Job speaks to God once more, then God turns to the friends, and He gives them a few words. Then, God has Job pray for them, probably so He won't have to deal with their audacity of speaking out of turn. God heals Job, and He restores to Job double of what he had before. He also gave Job seven more sons and three more daughters. The names of the daughters were noted: Jemina, Kezia, and Keren. The daughters were said to be exceptionally beautiful, and the meaning of their names bore witness: The Hebrew meaning of Jemima is "dove" or "bright as day"; Kezia means "cassia" or "cinnamon bark"; and Keren means "horn of beauty".

The story ends well, as Job has been restored, and he lives to the age of 140 to see his grandchildren and great and great-great grandchildren. What a blessing!

God is mysterious in His ways, but one thing I have learned that I am grateful for the hardships, for the pain, and for many experiences. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, or even this afternoon, but I am still grateful for the time He has given me. I can sing in great suffering and intense pain without the luxury of medication. I have moved over thirty times, losing everything many times having to begin again, but it has been worth the wear, because He has been with me, and He has shown me many, many things. He has taught me all I know, and He has given me everything I have - on loan, because everything belongs to Him. We are just stewards of His blessings while sojourners on this earth. I can live with that. In the soaking, in the fire, in the sifting, and the pressing He is here. Nothing else really matters, except in the end I will see Him, and of course, I want to take many with me. Heaven will be too good to miss! 

Day 150 This and That

 

5/30/2026

"In the cellar of your heart lurk the ghosts of yesterday's sins.

Sins you've confessed; errors of which you've repented; damage you've

done your best to repair.... Do your self a favor. Purge your cellar.

Exorcise your basement. Take the Roman nails of Calvary and board

up the door. And remember...He forgot."

Max Lucado, God Came Near

 

Whew! This has been a week and a half for me. Actually, the battles have continued on for a considerably longer time, but it has intensified exponentially this week. I must have done something right for a change, as the enemy's arrows have been flying from every direction. I have become very much aware of spiritual warfare, but this has been ... different! It makes me wonder what will come next, but nothing is ever surprising to me, even though I am nobody special in the world's eyes by any means. I imagine even donkeys are threat to many these days.

I live close to the US Army base, where I used to work many moons ago, in the Race Relations office standing against prejudice and unfair treatment in the 70's. There seems to be so much action in the air  these days with helicopters flying over my home that I wonder if I'm being watched. I have to laugh, but these days there are mixed views on those who side with Israel. Seems ridiculous, as we all should stand with Israel, especially if we are believers in Christ and know the Biblical prophecies or walk in moral clarity. But then, I speak about this so often that I don't want to belabor the subject again tonight. Tomorrow is another day.

Today our Torah reading began in Numbers 4:21 - 7:89 where the Lord spoke to Moses and told him take a census of Gershon's sons, after which He divided up tasks to the Levites in caring for and carrying the tabernacle from one camp to the next. Every word spoken by God to Moses was precise and to be followed to the letter. To disobey or not pay attention to detail bore consequences, as Moses found out, as well as others. Why can't we simply follow the rules? We do need them. Directions on how to do just about anything these days are available on line. And as in the early days, checking the facts or when in doubt...read the directions! The word of the Lord is here to bless us, not to jerk us around or keep us on a leash or chain. The word of God is about His love for all people, as everyone is made in God's image, and He desires that none perish but all come to eternal life through His Son, Jesus Christ. What's so wrong with that? It's a choice, and no one is breaking anyone's arm.

What caught my attention about the Torah portion beginning in Chapter 5 about the ceremonially unclean persons being isolated in order to keep sin outside the camp, as the tabernacle was holy unto the Lord, the place where God dwelt among them. Other rules followed for dealing with questions of sin in the camp. Sometimes reading about these things becomes tedious and even seems harsh, but again, God is a holy God, and He wants His people to be holy in their lifestyles. Of course God knew this was impossible for mankind, or He wouldn't have had Jesus come to earth just to die in order to save us from our sins. When God described the unclean things He listed three: leprosy, discharge, and touching a corpse. Immediately I think of Miriam when she and Aaron were complaining to Moses about Moses' leadership. God cursed Miriam with leprosy for her unbridled tongue and criticism of God's anointed. For the discharge I think of the woman with an issue of blood for twelve years, and for death - perhaps a family member who had died, or a dead animal that had to be moved outside the camp. But these physical examples could also be compared as spiritual examples for us today. Leprosy, although treatable today and no longer deadly, unless left untreated, came upon Miriam, because of her sinning with her mouth. Words we say or dis-charge from our mouths lead to our further spiritual downfall, and can eventually lead to spiritual death from a bitter spirit or the refusal to forgive our brother. Whereas I had not looked at this passage of scripture in this light, I have always warned that "Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit." (Proverbs 18:21)

Bill, our Shepherd Pastor, always reminds us to live in our purpose, and be faithful in the little things, because God has to test our motives before we can graduate to higher purposes. This made me think about the vision God had given me that leads me to remind Him that I am aging. I wonder how in the world can I accomplish this task if I am getting older by the day. It's not that I despise the smaller things, no I really like being unseen in what I do. But I do want to fulfill His call on my life in the way in which He wants it. Not knowing what that way is, I continue to continue doing what I am doing. I am being obedient to the things that come or what He last set me to do. Or at least I hope I am. I do dream, but I do not want to become known per se, although in writing a book there is the possibility. Remote at best, but if God is in something, only He knows. 

As a host for Harvest Ministries in an online group there are days when I wonder "How long, O Lord?!" But when all is said and done, I actually love the ladies and the group, and they are growing in their walks with Jesus. So, when Bill said that whining or not having a grateful attitude with ALL things could lead to leprosy of the spirit, I paid attention. I don't want to have a rotting corpse attitude. I want the joy of the Lord as my strength, and I want others to see God's joy and His character shining through my life. So should we all, as that is the goal. We have to let our light shine for this dark world to see that Jesus IS the way, the truth, and the life.

So all in all this was an interesting day, and a restful one. My home was in peace, God's shalom peace, that transcends our imaginations! 

Day 149 Movie Time

 

5/29/2026

"If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, 

and then make a change." 

Michael Jackson  

 

Today my son had a free afternoon, as his plans had changed, so we decided to do something fun, something we'd not done together in a long time. It was such a nice day, and yesterday I spent the day working outside, cutting the grass before the next rainy days came, and my son had worked along side of me getting some outside work accomplished. There never seems to be a shortage of work to do around here, and I am determined to get this place looking better than it has in quite a while. That will require determination and grit - "courage, resilience, and unwavering perseverance."

We decided to go to the movies, and the movie my son wanted to see was Michael, about the life of Michael Jackson, who was played by his nephew Jaafar Jackson. I heard Kirk Cameron, the Christian actor, speak about the movie, saying that it was a good one to see. Normally I'm a fan of movies like The Chosen and The Lord of the Rings, but I love movies about the lives of people I admire, and Michael Jackson always seemed a kind and considerate young man, only eight years my junior actually. I have never been a fanatic fan of any actor or singer, but I have always admired creative talent, and he was a very gifted artist with multiple God-given talents. The movie was well done, and his nephew definitely was the right one to play the part. Jaafar in his own right is a wonderful artist, and this movie was his acting debut, I understand. I pray his career follows an honorable path.

It was very emotional for me in discovering that Michael's life was one of deep hurts, and he was not allowed to be a child, which explains much of his life. His empathy for those who were hurting whether emotionally or physically becomes very recognizable and understandable. He was known for his philanthropy for those who had desperate needs, especially children. He often visited children in hospitals, and it seems as if when approached, wherever he was, he took time to visit with people and sign autographs. He loved stuffed animals and real ones, especially those endangered, and I can relate to both of these likes. He seemed very much a kindred spirit of sorts to me. It's a shame that his life was cut short, because he was going to begin his career again after controversy not included in this film, of which I am relieved. He had a very deep love for his mother, and they spent quality time together in the evenings watching movies and sharing ice cream. Seeing the relationship, understanding how she must have felt, and grateful for her defending Michael warmed my heart. 

We can never know what another person's life is about, and it seems that after people are dead, tongues begin to wag, criticisms comes, and on and on it goes. I don't know if this is due to jealousy or lack of something better to do. Perhaps the hope of notoriety they have desired in their lives and never achieved on their own merit. This may well be why people tend to kick others while they're down. I don't understand many things, as I've said before multiple times. I just know the person I desire to be, one who brings honor and glory to my Lord and Savior, and a person who loves my neighbor as myself...or better. I think this is what Michael Jackson wanted to do. Only God knows his story, but the movie was well worth the seeing.