Day 121 What's Worth Fighting For?

 

5/2/2026

 "For the Christian, this world is an arena,

not an armchair."

Daily Walk

 

Popcorn sounds like a good idea to me right about now! Hot air popped to perfection, very little butter, and a lot of salt. I can see faces cringe, but salt is actually very beneficial to me. I lived with migraines for fifty-seven years, and later on in life I learned that salt actually helped me get some relief. A few sips of Dr. Pepper and slowly dissolving Lays Potato Chips in my mouth, availing myself of the salty content. A swig of the doctor and holding a salted chip in my mouth brought a short time of respite, and other times, it calmed the tension right down so I could sleep. I don't like to make a habit of drinking Dr. Pepper with high fructose corn syrup as the main ingredient, but in such times, such dire straights, why not give it a go?! Oddly, my closest friend uses the same trick. What are the chances, because we seem so vastly different in personalities. It has to be our love for others, as she certainly has been here for me whenever I needed her. It's a bit harder now with two thousand miles separating us, but there is always the telephone.

Aside from stuffing myself with popcorn and enjoying Mexican Coke with real sugar, plus a few Junior Mints, I enjoyed another episode of The House of David, now streaming on Prime. Although it deviates from the scriptures a bit, it is quite good, and I recommend it, if you can tolerate bloody battles, very graphic in some details. When Samuel the prophet killed Agag, who just happened to be an Amalekite, whom King Saul did not kill, Samuel hacked him to pieces which the Scripture confirms in 1 Samuel 15:33. God told King Saul not to spare anyone or anything in that battle, but he did not listen. This and another incident following caused him to lose his kingdom. The second season begins after David kills Goliath and enters the service of King Saul, although he has already lost his anointing, and David has been secretively anointed as the next king by Samuel. Life has always been complicated, and if you have never read the Bible, you are missing out on a true adventure, and the story continues today. But, unlike most stories, we know how this one ends! Hallelujah!!

I'm still reading about Ezra's journey back to Jerusalem to restore the temple of God. As always happens, there's someone who opposes what is being done to make things better or bring improvements. The country had been laid waste, the gates and temple destroyed in Jerusalem by King Nebuchadnezzar of Babylon, and the people of Judah hauled off in exile, leaving only a few poor people and others transplanted by the Babylonians in the area. Nothing had been restored during this time, as Zerubbabel and his entourage were the first to return to the land of Israel. In all there were seventy years of exile for the people, so the land rested. The commentary states that Zerubbabel knew that they were on divine assignment from God, using King Cyrus of Persia, so any offers from the enemies of the land to help were not accepted. This did not bode well for them, therefore, the work on the temple was delayed for fifteen years as the people in the land opposed them, by writing to the King of Persia. Over time, perseverance in writing the kings of Persia, who checked through the records, plus the encouragement of two prophets of God, helped to clear things up and speed things up. When the enemies were told not to interfered, threatened by the king, and told to back off and to help with the cost out of the Persian coffers, the work was completed quickly, followed by another national celebration. 

Sometimes we have to stand up for what is right, and many times, as we've witnessed in our nation, it takes an inordinate amount of time to get things done, wasted time. But it seems as if no one really wants to rock the boat except for a few bold, courageous people who sign briefs and even a few pastors who instruct their flock about what is going on, rather than allowing them to sit comfortably on their pews knowing God is in control, and they are not to worry or be concerned. Well, I'm not one of those people, because I read my Bible, and I know what it says we are to be doing. I align with those few people, but it is getting to be risky to speak out, and that scares people. I never thought I'd live in a country, whose pledge of allegiance is One Nation Under God, and witness that this is not the feeling of the majority. Thankfully our President wants to correct that sentiment, and I am grateful. 

The commentator in my study of Ezra asks the reader to make a list of five or more things we considered worth fighting for today. Perhaps off the top of our heads most may say "family, faith, country" as starters. Zerubbabel and his company were faced with a decision, and they were willing to give their lives to defend their freedom. The same thing is happening today as Israel continues to fight for the freedom to exist, a right God gave them, but many critics disagree. If they read their Bible they would know, but then, many pastors and believers do not understand what the Bible teaches when it comes to Israel. They have been deceived into believing that since the Jewish people did not accept Jesus as Messiah that Jesus replaced them with the Church. How absurd a notion when the scripture so clearly states the opposite. This shows how easily people, even leaders, even theologians can be deceived and deceive others. This is happening in our government, and not just about Israel. 

I'm only one person, and I know that God has called me to be an intercessor - actually He calls everyone, but few want to do it, because there's a heavy price to pay. He has also called me to write, so this blog for now is my avenue, as well as the letters I write to government leaders, and forms I sign. Facebook is my podium for getting the word out, as well as evangelism and spreading the Good News with messages from pastors I support and music that honors and lifts up the Name of Jesus. I support missions, and I love helping my community. Although I don't really have a local church that I call home - yet, I do attend a local church, plus I attend my online Messianic Jewish-Christian church and others. I'm a Saturday and Sunday follower of Christ. The services I freely share, because the messages and lessons are well-taught. I love Jesus, and I can't think of a better way to spend my time than to talk about Him and sit in His Presence. My sister says I should be an evangelist, and who knows, maybe I am. But I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, because He is life!

So, what do you think is worth fighting for? Time is getting short, so it's time to choose! Don't be left behind!

Day 120 Proving Ground

 

5/1/2026

 "God does not call the equipped, 

He equips the called."

 

So many voices! I feel as if I am going to implode if I don't find a quiet place where there is NO NOISE! By that, I mean the continual aggravation of phones ringing, text messages dinging, or endless commercials and advertisements when I finally get a moment to watch a video. Life has many moving parts. 

I am so thankful to God for the education He provided for me in my younger years and the older ones. When I was very young all I dreamed of doing was helping others. If a missionary spoke at the church, I could hardly wait until I became old enough to trek off into the wilds and lead people living on the backside of the desert in nomadic villages to faith in Christ Jesus. I'd read books and dream, and then I read Burma Surgeon, and I wanted to go to medical school and then make my journey off to the other side of the world where I could tangibly help people while teaching them about Jesus. So far, I have only been as far as Belize back in 1986 for a summer Vacation Bible School trip into the rain forest with the Mayan Indians. That was before a passport was required to go to Central America, so at least I got to do something. It was a wonderful experience, but that is where my traveling far and wide ended...for now! I promised my friend recently that I'd get a passport, so I'd be ready when God said "Go!" So far I haven't kept that promise, but I will. How can I not?!

Life certainly has a way of coming full circle, though, and it works when God is the master planner. I've written about how I arrived in Northern New Mexico in 1987 when my husband defied the perfect will of God, bought an existing Hallmark Store, and moved us to Las Vegas, New Mexico, 1900 miles away from my family. I spent thirty-five years in northern New Mexico moving around, most of it alone, with my adult children in three different states. I miss my friends, and I miss the people and the culture that I grew to love so much. Since coming home to Virginia almost five years ago, I've reunited with some friends and family, of course, but I've also watched family and close friends die. I know I was meant to move back here, purchase my parent's home, and hopefully get it back to looking better. So far I have a new roof and a new stove. I have managed to get some wicked Virginia Creeper out of the crepe myrtle trees and bushes, but it is tenacious, so I can't turn my back it grows so fast. But with a home there will always be something to do inside and out. Thankfully, I have my younger son to help me, but he's been through some health challenges, so he has good days and bad. Good thing I remain an energizer bunny...most days. Here lately, though I've slowed down, but I feel that motivation may be on the rise.

When I said that I was glad God had given me a college education as well as an amazing set of careers in the work place, I said so because the biology degree and research techniques I learned are beginning to pay off. It's truly inspiring that I have managed to remember so much of my research methods and about the human cell. Still, many years have passed by, but I do remember how to search for what I need to know. I'm even considering drawing the cellular study guides from my research. I know that may sound a little weird, but then I'm a person who visualizes chemical equations in my head. Scary!! I even have a bit of Dr. House in me, as I see body structures. I don't travel down the body like his images in the series portray, but I do visualize the muscles and bones, and cellular make up, musculature and nervous system. I owe any knowledge I have to God, who has stuck with me since before I was born, and He continues to groom and teach me through the power of Holy Spirit. I am blessed! I have so far to go, so much still to learn. Of course my main passion is God's Holy Word, and I enjoy dissecting that as well. 

I'm not sure how all God's plans for my life will pan out yet, but I do get very encouraged when I read my Bible about the Kings of Judah and now I am in the days of the exile when God uses King Cyrus, the Persian king to send His people home to Jerusalem to rebuild the temple on his dime! The story begins in the book of Ezra, but it was prophesied by the prophet Isaiah two hundred years in advance of the actual occurrence in Isaiah 44:28. There were 50,000 Jews who responded to Cyrus' decree and accompanied Zerubbabel, whom Cyrus chose to lead them, back to Jerusalem. The very first thing they did when they arrived home was to praise and worship God! They didn't have any blueprints or building materials, but included among those returning home were priests, carpenters, masons, and common people all called by God to complete a project He had ordained two hundred years in advance using a heathen king in a foreign country where He had exiled them for their evil ways for seventy years, which was also prophesied through Jeremiah the prophet and confirmed in a vision by Daniel. And today we get to see prophesy written throughout the Bible come to life before our very eyes. These are wonderful years to be alive, participating in God's restoration of Israel, using America as an ally for His chosen people.

But many do not see it. Even the church has become blind to the truth of the Bible, but nonetheless God will have His way. Sometimes I wonder why God called me back to Virginia, as I feel so all alone many times, but perhaps that is where I can listen and learn. I've spent most of my life on the back burner, in the desert or valley, and the times I did make it up the mountain to the summit, were short lived. I learn better in the valley, but the scene from up high is breathtaking! But, as long as He's with me in the valley, I can take it. Because He's with me, I know that things will work out, and until He tells me differently I'll just keep doing the last thing, and I'll trust Him with the rest. 

Day 120 Afraid to Speak?

 

4/30/2026 

"A lie can travel halfway around the world while

the truth is putting on its shoes."

Charles Spurgeon  

 

My trick to avoid distractions when I turn on my computer for worship music first thing in the morning  has been by using my cell phone music app instead of YouTube on my laptop. This way I can avoid the algorithms of podcasts, sermons or prevent any undue scrolling, so I can focus on quiet time and sidestep  distractions. It's been working better for me, helping me avoid the "shorts" and annoying advertisements, however, it didn't quite work this morning. Somehow, I believe that God wanted me to see this sermon clip by Derek Prince sharing how to take authority over demonic spirits that tend to sneak their way into our minds, causing depression, confusion, weariness, and a list of uneasy responses that can become disastrous if left unchecked. It drew my attention, because I had been crying out to the Lord for help in dealing with a situation I am facing with someone close to me. It becomes disheartening feeling helpless in certain cases, especially like this one.

A good friend whom you can trust with anything, because you know that as horrible as things may be, that friend will still love you and will stick beside you. But then, sometimes the best thing you can do is step aside, because you cannot continue to condone certain behaviors, and if you continue to listen and remain silent, it can be misinterpreted as agreement. I have learned over time that nothing is gained by listening to the same set of arguments over and over, unless that person is willing to settle it outright, by going directly to the one who has offended. Harboring grudges doesn't help, and bringing in other people only feeds the grudge. I believe what scripture says about forgiveness, and in listening to Derek Prince's video, I understand a bit better that the enemy part in it all. No one likes to hear the word "deliverance" voiced, but honestly, this is exactly what it comes down to, if victory is to be grasped. Jesus gave us authority, but sadly this is another one of those subjects the church leaves untouched. 

I have never been one to listen to news stations, and especially now with all the bias, confusion, and outright lies and ugliness that lead to social unrest and wrongs committed, and often violent behavior, involving already unstable persons. Quite frankly, I believe many of these situations are planned or staged, making it a worse crime by people in positions of authority. But this seems to be the norm, and it seems to be what people want to see and hear. People feed on it! When did truth and common sense stop being what people want to know? We have certainly lost our way in America, but then, it is not just America, as the hatred in the world grows daily. 

After the third assassination attempt on our President's life, there were ugly and vile comments made that should sicken the heart of any person. Words no decent person should ever speak at the expense of another. When did this become funny? or entertaining? And yet, every day people will tune it or sit up late to hear this irreverent garbage. The worse part is that much of it comes from the mouths of professing Christians or governmental leaders. Social media is the chosen method of spewing lies and conspiracies. 

The church remains silent on most issues, but I feel that all people should be educated as to what is going on and the proper way to deal with it. Jesus made it very simple in His teachings what is required of His followers. Death to self, surrendering to Him, is the requirement for a follower of Christ. When we die to self, we lose our opinions, and we take on His view. We become like Him and we learn to live for Him. We become salt and light in this world, but first, in our homes. I believe that many pastors and church leaders are afraid to speak up for what they believe, because they are afraid of what may happen or what they may lose. Jesus and the disciples gave us a glimpse of what could happen, but I do not see this example in many churches, and so far none locally. Jesus said we are to occupy until He returns to take us home. We are to make a difference in this world. We cannot hide from it. That is not love, and Jesus called us to love one another. 

Jesus told his disciples what was in come, and the Apostle Paul and the disciples continued to warn us in the epistles. From Genesis to Revelation we are instructed about life, and yet, no one seems to have read the whole counsel of the Word of God, or they have forgotten. In the book of Revelation Jesus has the final say. He is returning for His Church which is to be spotless and holy. We are failing in this regard when we do not speak up and out for the Gospel message. In Revelation 21:6-8 says:

"And He said to me, 'It is done! I am the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End. I will give of the fountain of the water of life freely to him who thirsts. He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his God and he shall be My son. But the cowardly, unbelieving, abominable, murderers, sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars shall have their part in the lake which burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death.'" 

This is a pretty chilling warning to The Revelation, and I do not want to be included in that terrible list, especially not cowardly. We cannot be afraid to speak up and help people understand what is true, what is relevant, and mostly share the Gospel of Jesus Christ to a sinful, lawless world who insists that hatred of others and murder of innocents is justified. May we repent and seek the mercy of a Holy God while there is still time.

 

Day 119 Broken Things Can Be Restored

 

4/29/2026

 "You are my hiding place and my shield;

I hope in Your word."

Psalm 119:114

 

Feeling a little vulnerable today, but I'm not sure why?! I started praying this morning right off when I got up. I was talking to Abba about some new friends I've been praying for in North Carolina. What a story they have, and God so amazingly took a terrible illness and transformed the tragic circumstances into something so beautiful. The couple experienced great loss and endured great pain, and the road to rehabilitation has been long and arduous, but it is a testimony to the power of our miracle-working Father who is our healer, the God of the impossible. But for Him, nothing is impossible. 

I have another friend whose husband has been healing from head trauma from an accident, then, more recently, she had an accident and is dealing with a concussion from head trauma, and injury was sustained to the neck causing great nerve damage and severe pain. She's been trying to continue to work and be her husband's caregiver, but now she has been slowed down, and she is unable to do as much. Having gone through similar circumstances, I can understand very well what each is enduring, and it is not easy. I am so glad that they have each other, and she knows that there's someone who truly understands and is praying. 

 In thinking over my life and situations I've encountered  and the roads I've had to travel alone, the spirit of heaviness attempted to bring me down, but I have become more aware of his tactics, so I put on my praise and worship music and began to worship our Creator of Heaven and Earth. When the grief becomes too much to bear, put on a garment of praise.

I happened to come across a message by Billy Graham "Why You Must be Careful in Old Age." I mentioned this in a previous post, but, now, I remember Billy saying that we need to set boundaries, even with family members. As I was looking through my notes in my journal, I saw the words "help me know I'm not alone in this." I believe it was part of a message I received from my friend I mentioned above, and I understand what it means when someone does understand and can really put themselves in that person's shoes, because she's been there and can empathize. It makes the prayers more real, because you know the person praying for you can actually feel your physical pain and emotional trauma. I have felt very alone many times, because I don't really have Christian friends who can understand where I stand. I am blessed to have a few friends in a small prayer group, and although we may not always understand, we can feel comfortable sharing. We can laugh and cry together, and there's no shame. I am grateful for that.  

During the global prayer call for Israel this morning, our host for the day was the national director from Denmark. He was sharing with us about the restoration of Israel in the last days, when he changed his direction and said that he felt as if there may be someone in the group, in the livestream, who may be going through a difficult time feeling that they had failed in their life and ministry. As I was listening to Nick speak, I noticed that the conversation in the chat had stopped, and there was a message at the bottom and to the side saying the chat had been disabled. I thought that was strange, but with Zoom calls things happen. Besides, I was listening as I always do and seldom write in the chat. Then Nick began to speak saying he felt that someone on the chat needed to hear what he had to say. And when he spoke, I knew the message from God was for me. I do not believe in coincidence, and I had already spoken to God about things, written about it, received confirming scriptures, plus music, plus after the meeting was over, when I picked up my Daily Devotional for Spiritual Warfare which I do not read daily, when I turned to today's devotional it read "I Will Not Allow the Proud to Oppress You." WOW!! 

As Nick continued he said that there was someone who was sitting in shame and brokenness feeling that their life and ministry felt broken. Then he said "Your blessing will come to the righteous today." How could he know that I have been struggling with broken dreams again?! How could he know I was being oppressed by the devil?! Only God knows these things, and I had been crying out to God in prayer. Suddenly, the chat was moving again, and it was as if only I had been affected by what was happening. I quickly wrote a message thanking Nick, and I said that I needed to hear that message and word today. The message seemed to go unnoticed by anyone in the chat. Somehow I knew this moment was mine.

Prior to the meeting I had been finishing up the blog for 4/27 that I had started but fell asleep on the 27th and last night, so I needed to post it. The words Nick spoke regarding broken dreams were very similar to the words I had spoken to my son about him not giving up on his dreams. Coincidence? As I said before, my son doesn't believe in them either! I can tell that my son has been confused about God's ability to forgive and turn back to a person. So I pray for his eyes to be opened and the crooked places to be made straight. Surrender is difficult for some, but I can sense the deep need in a person's life when they cannot forgive, when they cannot go on, when they cannot dare to hope or trust. 

So many people are seeking peace in this world today, surrounded by evil that is of the vilest sort imaginable. It is my fervent prayer that when our nation is rededicated to God as One Nation Under God, that something will break, and victory can be won. The battle has been long, and the casualties many, but our hope is not in man, our hope is built on nothing else but Jesus' blood and righteousness. To God be the glory!

Day 118 Yeshua, I Need You

 

4/28/2026

"Nothing comes from nothing; nothing never could."

"Something Good" from The Sound of Music

  

Our monthly Harvest Bible study group prayer meeting was last night, and it was a good end to the day.  Mary leads the meeting, and tonight she began by sharing a Carman video from back in the day where he was singing and dancing as he shared seven words for praise in the Hebrew language: Hallel - to praise and celebrate; Yadah - worship and adore with lifting the hands; Towdah - offering a sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving; Shabach - to shout and be triumph; Barak - to kneel and adore God; Zamar - to sing and play musical instruments; and Tehillah - singing and praising God in hymns and spiritual songs. What a fun way to begin a prayer meeting, entering into His gates with thanksgiving and into His courts with praise! It brought back wonderful memories of Carman's ministry and concerts we were privileged to attend with the youth at the church when my children were young. Prayer meetings with my friends is the best way to end the day, especially when there is laughter.              

My morning began with worship, as it always does. It seems as if Alex, my wayward cat, seems to always show up just as I began to sing. He falls to sleep pretty quickly, and he does not demand my attention. This is my quiet time, so as long as he's a gentleman, it's okay. This morning as I read my daily Psalm I began to go over recent events in my life that have been causing me concern. I often think about the brevity of time and importance of relationships, and this morning I was asking God, as I do daily, to restore my family. So much has gone by the wayside, so my greatest desire is to see my children reconciled with their dad and each other. It is so sad to think that so many of my friends and acquaintances share the same prayer for their families. So we pray, and because this is a spiritual battle, we stand!

A song began to play, the lyrics speaking my heart: "Yeshua, I need you, more than words can ever say;  Yeshua, I need you. Every moment, every day be the flame within my soul, be the one who makes me whole; Yeshua, I need you."

As it turned out, this song was a great lead in to my Weekly Worship in my Daily Walk Bible, the subject -Looking Up from Down Under."  Sometimes I think God writes these verses and devotionals just for me. I don't believe in coincidences, only divine appointments, as there is just no way! This is my life. I cry out to Abba from the depth of my soul, and He hears me and answers. It's not always so quickly, but He answers, and He confirms, so the answers ripple. I love it!

The commentator noted that it's easy to become overwhelmed by foolish and sinful rebellion by people who profess to know God, but when we look at our own sinfulness, our difficult and dark times, we are brought much lower. I know personally that I don't want to let God down. I know that I am saved by grace, forgiven, but the memories never really leave, and I wish my life had been more God-honoring. I know the importance of examining our hearts daily, repenting when we slip or don't slip. Repentance is a good thing, a blessing, because it comes from a heart of worship, a heart that desires to be holy, live holy and close to God. Dwelling in His Presence and enjoying fellowship with Him daily. This is the life I live, the only life I want to live. It's the life I speak to my children about, and it's the one I teach about, my testimony of salvation and a life of surrender.

Looking at the Psalms of David we see that David was very transparent in his prayers to God. In Psalm 40 his faith perseveres during a heavy trial that brings him down into the depths of despair. What is characteristic of David's Psalms is although he may begin in a place of utter discouragement, suddenly he will make a change and begin to praise and worship the Shepherd of his soul. Psalm 40 is such an example. He starts in verses 1-4 by saying:

"I waited patiently for God to help me; then he listened and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out from the bog and the mire, and set my feet on a hard, firm path and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, of praises to our God. Now many will hear of the glorious things he did for me, and stand in awe before the Lord, and put their trust in Him. Many blessings are given to those who trust the Lord and have no confidence in those who are proud, or who trust in idols." 

The Lord heard David's cry for help, His ears are ever attentive to our cries. This is the way God poured His love out on Israel as they constantly rebelled about Him, because He loved them, He chose them. He does the same for those who call on Him out of a pure spirit and contrite heart. He will never abandon His children. May we call out to the Lord and say to Him as David said in verse 8: "And I delight to do Your will, my God, for Your law is written upon my heart!'"   

Day 117 This is the Day - Be GLAD!

 

4/27/2026

 "Make sure the things you are living for

are worth dying for."

Daily Walk

 

It's a new day, the sun is up, and we have survived the night! As unsettling as that may sound, it's a good thing to wake up and thank God for another day. But this day is special, because it's my baby boy's birthday, and he is half a century old. He's like me regarding the age thing! People always ask how we feel turning a certain age, but we don't feel differently, unless the weather has changed, and it stiffens the joints. For some, like Daniel, it's just another day, no change from yesterday except he may have received a few calls from family and friends, when generally the only ones who call are the pharmacy for medication pick up or a telemarketer. What he is saying may sound a little apathetic for the Christian mind set, but I get what he's saying. I understand, as the devil loves to make us feel forgotten or a waste of space. He's good at that game, but that's why we can't allow him to bring negativity into our lives. Each day brings new possibilities, so we focus on the good rather than the mundane or non existent things.

Each day has its own discoveries, we have learned, so we try to focus not on irksome moments, choosing to redirect back to happy plans! Pollyanna again! Think on a reason to be glad! Let me think, "play the 'Glad Game!' I'm glad, ecstatic really, that I have a son who cares about his ole mama, and he even enjoys going places with someone who wears a faded, floppy hat and wears outdated clothing! I'm glad that, although in his younger years he was rebellious, that his life is turning around, and he is seeing that just because the enemy tries to steal our joy and wreck our dreams, that our God is greater. Perhaps, he, like me, was told "you can't do that" or "we can't afford it" BUT, God can redeem the time and bring restoration, even if, even IF, his fingers are stiff and sore! The music is still there! And, nothing is impossible for God! We just need to put Him first in our lives, and we need to walk in His ways, not ours, and certainly not in the world's example. I am grateful, because I have a son who as a young child wanted more than anything to be in the presence of God and serve Him. He wanted to play anointed music for Him, but this boy's dreams were squandered on lies. Nonetheless, dreams can be resurrected! I know, because I am still working on my own. So play on, my son, and with all my love and the love of an Adoring Abba Father, you will fulfill your God-given purpose. I believe in you! And, God created you!

Playing games can be fun. We tend to play silly games around here, and we get a little goofy most of the time, but it keeps us sane and looking ahead, rather than bemoaning the what-ifs or why-me mentality! This week has been a bit distressing, with news we'd rather not hear, but kind of expected. I don't understand why things turn out that way. Maybe as a test to see how we handle situations that come our way - another's hurt, or realizing that what we'd hoped for (the best) didn't happen. What does it take to wake someone up, to have them realize that they are breaking the hearts of the ones they claim to love? My life has been different, and I have been criticized for really caring and caring too much! (The expletives were removed!) Can someone care too much?

I'm proud of my son's ability to put the past behind and go forward, even to the point of putting his feelings aside for another's sake. I'm so grateful to God for giving me two sons that do that, even though one may begrudge certain circumstances, but even so, he does the right thing, the honorable thing. I am grateful. I am extreme blessed and glad!

Day 116 What Do You Love?

 

4/26/2026

"For the eyes of the Lord search back and forth across the whole earth,

looking for people whose hearts are perfect toward Him, so He can

show His great power in helping them."  

2 Chronicles 16:9

 

It's interesting to me that each time I read through the Bible certain passages that I've read before many times seem to jump off the pages and fresh revelation comes. Reading the Bible is never dull, as there is always something new and life changing. Not too long ago I was reading about Solomon's dedication of the temple, and how the people gathered and worshiped for seven days after which time they returned home happy and well-fed. Plus Solomon sent them home with fig cakes and wine and other delicacies. Today I was reading about the life of King Jehoshaphat, son of Asa, who was a good king just as his son turned out to be. In fact, 2 Chronicles 15:17 says that "But here in Judah and Benjamin the heart of King Asa was perfect before God throughout his lifetime." That's a pretty good legacy to pass on to a son. 

In considering Jehoshaphat's life we read in 2 Chronicles 17:3-4, 6: "The Lord was with Jehoshaphat because he followed in the good footsteps of his father's early years, and did not worship idols. He obeyed the commandments of his father's God.... He boldly followed the paths of God...." When he was in the third year of his reign he began a nationwide religious education program, sending out top officials as teachers into the cities of Judah teaching them the Scriptures found in the Book of the Law of the Lord. Because of his efforts scripture says that the fear of the Lord fell on the surrounding kingdoms, and some Philistines and Arabs presented annual gifts and tributes to him, allowing him to build more fortresses and supply cities, thus adding to his strength. The commentary states that "His first love was not wealth, power, or any of the kingly trappings, it was a love of and a delight in the Lord." 

What's your first love? is the question that follows, and the question that we should all be asking ourselves daily. The Lord is constantly asking me to check my motives to ensure that they remain pure and never self-serving. It is so easy to fall into the trap of desiring pats on the back, recognition for something, especially if one has endured a lifetime of being put down, made to feel less, never quite measuring up in the eyes of another, or constantly being told that they are incapable of doing what their heart so aches to do. I understand these feelings, but I am grateful to my God who has delivered me from the snare of the chief of all liars who has attempted to keep me pressed down under the stronghold of guilt, shame, and insecurity. No longer do I allow his lies to determine the course of my life, and when I see that demonic liar attempting to bring another person down, I rise up in holy righteousness and shout "No longer! Thus far and no further, enemy!" If nothing else, I have learned under the teaching of Holy Spirit how to stand in the authority of Almighty God, and I will teach others the same.

In the study of the Revelation of Jesus Christ, the Apostle John shares the words of Jesus to the seven churches. These were actual churches during that time of early church history, and they serve as examples to the modern church, if we choose to learn from the scriptures, it applies to each church today who claim to follow the teachings of Jesus and the Holy Scriptures. Just as Jesus spoke to the church of Ephesus about their good works, and there were many, as they truly desired to follow Christ, so He said, "Nevertheless, I have this against you, that you have lost your first love." (Revelation 2:4)

Jesus is speaking to the pastor of this church, the leader who is the shepherd of the flock, just as today. He is saying in the verses that follow: "Remember, therefore, from where you have fallen; repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent." What Jesus is saying is for them to remember when they were brand new converts, how zealous they were for the things of God, sharing with each other, going out into the community to share the good news. They weren't concerned about building programs or increasing their ministries to build their own church membership. It was about the kingdom of God, not about a single church, but the church of Jesus Christ. Beloved, we have indeed lost our first love, and if we look at the other examples of the remaining six churches, if we are honest, we will see glimpses of the same compromises or incidence of self-absorption. Jesus says to the church at Ephesus that if they do not repent and return to Him as their first love, then He will remove their lampstand. A lamp stand brings light to an area, and we, as the Body of Christ, are to bring light, His Light, to a world that is dying in sin and lawlessness. We must be who He called us to be - salt and light. And we cannot fall into compromise of any nature, as many churches are doing now. We must live by the truth of the word. God loves everyone, and His desire is to see all saved, but as Romans 6 points out, we cannot continue to sin and expect grace to abound. If we love, as Jesus loves, as God loves, there can be no compromise. We all have sinned, but God has delivered us from our sinful nature, and He has turned our lives around so that we no longer want to be like that. We want to be transformed to the image of God.

It's time to think about what or who we love. It is time to truly make a course adjustment unless we fall into the depths of depravity along with others. We must be salt and light. We must choose our First and Only Love. Jesus Christ the Righteous.

Day 115 Faithful to the End

 

4/25/2026

"I have no greater joy than to hear

that my children walk in truth."

3 John 4  

 

The skies appeared troubled, as thunder rolled, rain began to fall, and lightning sent an occasional flash across the horizon. Seemed rather ominous in its approach, but colder weather was already announcing a change, a shift in the barometric pressure. The past two days have been much warmer, so naturally, since weather can be fickle, anything could happen. And so goes the spiritual battle in the heavens far above our vision, yet demonstrating caution as mother nature sends forth her cues.

So that was the way the day began. Another Shabbat with an unexpected twist or two, but then I should be used to those. I never liked change before, but I am learning that God demonstrates His great power in ways we would not understand, and nature seems to get people's attention. So I wait, in expectation, not worrying or even concerned, as I know that whatever befalls we have been prepared, because that's the way God does things. 

Today marked the last day of America Reads the Bible being held at the Museum of the Bible and hosted by Great American Pure Flix. Last night the day was finished off by actor, Dean Cain reading John 5. This morning was kicked off with worship by Marty Goetz and his daughter Misha, and reading began with John 6 and continued through the end of Revelation. Marty took his turn reading Romans 9 - 11, some of the most powerful chapters in the Bible explaining the plans God has for the future of Israel and our part as believers. Marty, as a Jewish Messianic believer was certainly the person to read this portion of scripture, especially since the church has been deceived by Replacement Theology. I spent most of the day listening as the Word of God was being read aloud by scheduled guests. It was a powerful day, and I hope it has made an impact on each person and ministry who participated in the reading as well as those of us who followed online. 

On May 17th our President will be rededicating our nation to One Nation Under God, and many will be gathered in Washington at the National Mall to commemorate this event. It's going to be a busy weekend, because there will also be a conference in California called Giant Slayer Conference, and Jack Hibbs will be speaking at this event. 

Last night a little before 8:30 pm I believe, in Washington DC at the Hilton Hotel, President Trump and his wife, Melania, along with members of his administration and friends, were in attendance at the Correspondent's Conference when a young man ran through the secret security guard area, firing shots, armed with a shot gun, hand gun and several knives. Fortunately, he was arrested and taken into custody for what was believed to be an attempt on our President's life. Investigation is still under way. The secret service man who was shot at close range, fortunately was wearing a good bullet proof vest that probably saved his life. The President was taken back to the White House where he immediately held a press conference.

Yesterday I was considering the brevity of time, and when things happen, as the unexpected event of last night in Washington, it makes the subject that much more concerning. Paul the Apostle chosen by Jesus Christ to take the gospel to the gentiles spoke of finishing well. Jesus spoke of counting the cost as His followers, and that those who follow Him, surrendering their lives to Him, must be serious, because He says the one who sets his hand to the plow and then turns back is not fit for the kingdom. I know how I feel and the response I have made, and I also know the cost I have paid for my life. But as much as I continue to check my motives, asking myself why I am doing this, I know that I do love Him, because He first loved me. And if I love Him with such a love, then my love for others will spontaneously overflow, making it much easier to persevere in these difficult days. 

Last night, after all of this, I was put to another test of what was most important to me, God or another. It was really silly, because if I hadn't cared I wouldn't have answered the phone. But still hurting people tend to take their anger out on someone else, because they feel helpless to confront the one who brought the hurt. I must be everyone's boxing bag, because I received a lot of back lash not of my making. 

In spite of everything that happened, and in spite of what may happen, I have decided that I will greet each day with gratitude, thanking my Abba for His gift of new life hidden in Christ Jesus my Lord, and I will sing and rejoice in it. In the evening as I fall into bed, again I will rejoice and be glad. There is always something good for which to say Thank You, Abba Father! for each breath and each new opportunity for the day! May we be found faithful when He returns.    

Day 114 Something Good

 

4/24/2026

 "...whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. 

For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away."

 James 4:14

 

For years I have kept a separate daily journal listing what I am thankful for each day, including calls I make and calls received from friends and family members who suddenly remembered that I live across the country or who'd stumbled over an old letter I'd written them that had been misplaced. It's always a thrill for me when someone remembers me, even as just a passing thought. I got an unexpected call from a friend saying she'd been to the Chile Cook Off in New Mexico, a regular annual benefit for the soup kitchen, and missed me. Three of us got together regularly for this event, judging the chili, or to eat or attend special events. I miss my friends and the things we used to do. 

I began keeping the daily list at the end of 2016. That's the year that the world turned upside down for me, but then I've had many such things happen throughout my life like that, but I'm still smiling. I wanted to put things down daily that I was grateful for, as a way to say "Thank You, Abba." I don't always show gratitude, but I want to do better. Plus I wanted to write down positive things that happened, because the world was getting so crazy. I needed to see something good. The top of each page looks like this:

 "Show me Something Good"

 "Thank You, Abba, for giving me another breath today! How will I use it?" 

 "Show me a sign for good that those who hate me may see it and be ashamed, 

because You, LORD, have helped me and comforted me."

Psalm 86:17 

I remember on Good Friday that year that, in my haste to get ready for work, I tripped and in an effort to keep from retrieving one more blow to my head, I reached out my arm to keep my head from hitting the corner of the door frame. That's when I heard a crack. All I remember is that it was extremely painful, so I laid down in the floor, and pulled my arm over my head to pop the shoulder back into place, thus relieving a little of the discomfort. I didn't see any bones sticking out or any bleeding out. There was a rather large patch of blood pooling under the skin, but I figured it was just going to bruise, so I finished getting dressed, with great difficulty, and I made my way across the house to my office. Trying to type and maintain my focus was difficult with all the pain, but I managed. 

Eventually I had to go to the doctor, because I had a four - to - six inch long by three inch wide area of under the skin bleeding that was not improving. Since doctors aren't allowed to do MRI's without a real good reason, my diagnosis went unnoticed until I had been tortured by a physical therapist who finally realized after several weeks... "You're not getting any better, are you?"As it turned out I had chipped off some shoulder bone, and I had mangled some ligaments and stuff in the arm. The surgeon felt that I would eventually need surgery, but I told him that God would fix me. He didn't believe me, but eventually after having the care of a specialized physical therapist, I improved, and I never needed surgery. 

This was also the year that one of my case management client's son tripped and fell slamming his head into mine, injuring my head, jaw, and neck. I didn't want a workman's comp case, but I managed to get one that wasn't settled until 2018, but the medical insurance remains open in case I need care. Since then I've had the noise in my head that I speak of often as bugs or woodsy night sounds, and I have pain that shoots through my temple into my eye. That's an additional pain to accompany the one from 1980 when I was attacked and hit with a 2x4 one night when someone came out from hiding behind my wood pile. That blow to the head was on the same side except on the top of my head, so the pain shoots down into the same eye. No one seems to be interested in that, plus my neurologist died from his own neurological issues and a broken heart from not being allowed to treat his patients. There are actually doctors who sincerely care about their patients, but insurance hinders their treatment. That's another topic to discuss at a later time. 

I have an aunt who is about ten years my senior. She recently celebrated her 86th birthday, and she said that she celebrated all week. I had shared with her about my 2007 Mercury Milan that I bought when I lost my 2017 Nissan Sentra in a recent accident, and she said she'd sold her car. It's hard for me to believe that she's already feeling that she's at an age where she no longer wants to drive, but then, I understand, especially since that man ran my son off the road without stopping to see if he was okay. At least she enjoyed her birthday. I used to celebrate my birthday for a week, shut down everything, toss the cell phone away, totally enjoying my time. Whenever I needed a break or just wanted to smell fresh mountain air, at a higher elevation than I lived, I'd make the trip through the pass to Taos and on to Sipapu Resort where I'd disappear for a few days. I miss those days, but I am grateful for the experience.

As my 76th birthday nears I have been thinking about things I need to do, just in case, and I also want to finish some things I've started. I don't know why, but as much as I love traveling, I don't have a desire to drive. Maybe my son's accident shook me up too much. He turns 50 on Monday, and he's already saying the same thing. He wants to go to New Mexico to see his kids, and I wish we could go together, but we have cats. If we drove we could take them along, but that may be a bit much for some family. But we'll figure it out. If for no other reason, since returning here to Virginia, I am seeing that life is shorter than we think, so it's important to tell the people you love that you love them, before one of us pass on. Relationships are so important, but many times, most times sadly, they are one-sided. I've discovered that. Everyone is busy, and life just isn't the same as it was when I was growing up, when the extended family was a tightly knit. How I miss those days. I guess I really haven't progressed as much as some of my cousins or friends, as I wouldn't even have a cell phone or computer if I didn't need one. But now everything is expected to be handled digitally. Sometimes I think progress is not really such a big deal. Physical contact is a more rewarding experience, even if people are still wearing masks. I don't get it, but I guess it's fear that keeps them from being free, breathing air. 

Tomorrow is another day, so maybe I'll reach out to someone, even if I only get a voice message. Gotta start some where!

Day 113 Time Well Spent

 

4/23/2026

 "Come now, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend 

 a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit;' whereas you do not know what will 

  happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears 

                                                      for a little time and then vanishes away."                                             

 James 4:13-14

 

I've been thinking a lot about time and the brevity of it. The closer it gets to my birthday and another year, I wonder if I made the best use of the time given me thus far. In studying the life of Solomon and Rehoboam, his son, the commentary states that "Rehoboam followed the Lord only as long as it was politically expedient. Once his kingdom was solidly established, he had no further use for the law of the Lord - or the Lord of the law. But in the end, it was Rehoboam who was the loser for his foolish decision." The consequence of this decision was a divided kingdom with Jeroboam leading Israel and ten of the tribes, leaving Rehoboam with his tribe and Benjamin. The tribe of Judah did have a king on the throne of David as God covenanted with David, until Judah was exiled to Babylon. In this line of David there were mostly good kings as opposed to all evil kings who reigned in Israel, turning from God to the worship of idols. Although Rehoboam repented and cried out to the Lord, he was not completely destroyed, but he was an evil king who never decided to fully trust in God. His son, Abijah became the next king, and he too did evil in the eyes of the Lord. 

The commentary poses a little query:

"Think of your life as a shiny new penny. You can spend it any way you wish, but you can only spend it once. And you cannot spend half a penny - it's an 'all or nothing' transaction. Find a penny and hold it in your hand as you talk to God about your life...and how you will invest the remaining years of it in his service."

Our study group tonight looked at the scriptures found in Luke 12:1-48 and asked the question "What owns you?" We discussed how fear could quietly control our lives, taking different positions from earliest childhood fears to those we encounter in later years, that keep us stuck in cycles. I fully understand how to be dragged around and sucked down into a rabbit hole of guilt and shame for literal years, living in fear of never accomplishing my dreams, afraid to even have a dream. I felt as if I would never be good enough after all my failures. The Lord was blessing me, but I knew I wasn't worthy. Every time I tried to go forward, I'd be knocked down and trampled on for affect by trusted people in my life. I laugh about it now, because I've always been a person who persevered and kept body and soul together. Life has a way of preparing us for the next step and then the next. The pity would be never having taken those steps.

Pastor Jonathan pointed out that:

"Jesus redirects our focus away from fearing people and toward reverence for God. Not a fear that pushes us away, but one that rightly centers our lives on Him. When we understand His authority and His care, down to knowing every detail about us, it frees us from living for the approval of others and anchors us in what actually matters." 

The next consideration was hypocrisy that spreads when faith becomes performance - checking off boxes of things that we feel make us look good, like good little Christian examples, but it's all a show, a lie. There are no boxes to check that qualify us for the kingdom of God. There's only Jesus. His blood washes us clean. That's it!

Often we become consumed with having, and our focus is on accumulating wealth, possessions, recognition, and our priorities become all mixed up, and we can even lose our identity. We lose focus and turn our affections to worldly things, but Jesus says for us to "seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added to you" (Luke 12:31). Matthew 6:19-21 says, “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

Then there's the subtle trap of thinking that we have so much time, but really we are not promised tomorrow, only today. We are to live without fear, trusting Him, with clarity and purpose, knowing that our deeds reflect what's truly in our hearts. Living for today, in God's way. There's a saying that is attributed to John Wesley, but I have also seen it as a quote from Mother Teresa. Both great examples of living the purpose driven life. "Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can."

May this be the focus and intent of our hearts. 

Day 112 Yom HaAtzma'ut

 

4/22/2026

 "Do not rejoice over me, my enemy;
When I fall, I will arise;
When I sit in darkness,
The Lord will be a light to me."

Micah 7:8

 

As the day drew to a close yesterday, the observance of Yom HaZikaron ended, and as the new day began, Israel began to celebrate Yom HaAtzma'ut, their Independence Day. A day of grief, mourning, and remembrance turned to a day of celebration over the birth of their nation. Today marks 78 years since Israel became a nation again. Even though yesterday was a time of mourning and remembering those who had fallen defending this great nation, today was a day of rejoicing and joy! According to a report: "This historic moment came after nearly 2,000 years of exile following the destruction of Jerusalem in 70 AD. The re-establishment of Israel fulfilled numerous biblical prophecies concerning the regathering of the Jewish people to their land (Isaiah 66:8; Ezekiel 36–37)."

Last night I watched a brief segment of the celebration, and I got to see the President of Argentina, Javier Milei, perform on stage with the musicians, singing in Hebrew with great enthusiasm and a little dancing. He was honored to light one of the torches for the ceremonies. He was also awarded Israel's highest civilian award, the Presidential Medal of Honor, by President Isaac Herzog recognizing his strong support, especially in return of the hostages. Milei also announced his plans to move the Argentina embassy to Jerusalem. There is a strong bond between the nations of Israel and Argentina, and it has been a joy watching the friendship grow and blossom! 

Today I attended an online event hosted by Israel365 in Jerusalem for an Independence Day celebration with reading the Hallel (Praise) and enjoying music and testimonies by Christians who support Israel. The Hallel is a group of Psalms 113 - 118 that are read at celebrations and appointed feasts and "serve as reminders of major milestones in Jewish heritage, including the Exodus, the giving of the Torah, and the hope for the Messianic Age. The intentional transition from mourning to celebration—within a single day—reflects a profound truth: the cost of redemption and the faithfulness of God to restore a people to their inheritance."

This is an exciting time to be standing with Israel as prophecy is being played out right before our eyes, and the eyes of the Orthodox Jews, because the scriptures are so clearly being seen, and the relationship between the Christians and the Jews is growing and encouraged. Since 10/7/2023, many have been returning to their faith in God, which is the Biblical heritage of the chosen people of God. As we stand in prayer with our friends, we pray that their spiritual eyes will be enlightened, and they will come to faith in Jesus Christ as their Savior and Lord. The fields are indeed ripe for harvest. This is also a time when God is returning those exiled to other countries back to Jerusalem as according to the word spoken in Isaiah 43:1-7:

"But now, thus says the LORD, who created you, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel: 'Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you: and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; I gave Egypt for your ransom, Ethiopia and Seba in your place. Since you were precious in My sight, you have been honored, and I have loved you; therefore I will give men for you, and people for your life. Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your descendants from the east, and gather you from the west; I will say to the north, "Give them up!" And to the south, "Do not keep them back!" Bring My sons from afar and My daughters from the ends of the earth - Everyone who is called by My name, whom I have created for My glory; I have formed him, yes I have made him.'"

This is the promise of the Lord. As we stand together, we pray for leaders of our nations, Benjamin Netanyahu and President Donald J Trump to continue to work in unity and harmony especially during this time with war between Israel and Iran. But make no mistake, as this war has been ongoing, and the goal of the jihadist Iranian government has not only called for the extermination of the Jewish people, but also America. The leaders and imams have been very vocal in their plans and threats against our nations, and it appears now that the leaders of Iran have been killed, that the Islamic Revolutionary Guard Corp (IRGC) leaders still plan to carry out the threats. Back in 1948 when Iran was recognized by Ben Gurion as a State, they immediately came under attack from the Muslims, but they were able to maintain their independence at a great cost. Israel has continued to face such challenges with wars over the 78 years of being a nation, called back by God who gave the land to Israel in covenant with Abraham. I am so grateful to be part of that covenant as a believer in Christ, grafted in as a supporter of the chosen people. I will continue to stand on the wall with my fellow intercessors according to Isaiah 62:6-7: "I have set watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem; they shall never hold their peace day or night. You who make mention of the LORD, do not keep silent, and give Him no rest till He establishes and till He makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth."

Am Israel Chai! 

Day 111 Yom HaZikaron

 

4/21/2026

 "I have set watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem; they shall never hold their peace day or night. 

You who make mention of the Lord, do not keep silent, and give Him no rest till 

 He establishes and till He makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth."

Isaiah 62:6-7 

 

This has been another emotional day for me as Israel observes their Memorial Day honoring the IDF soldiers who have given their lives for their country and for victims of terrorism. It is a time they remember those who gave their lives when Israel was attacked on 10/7/2023. Yesterday I mentioned Rachel Goldberg-Polin who spoke out boldly on behalf of her son, Hersh, who was badly injured and taken into captivity by Hamas. She was the most vocal, and the most well-known by everyone across the nation and the world for the valiant efforts she made speaking on behalf of the hostages and their families. 

Many have lost their lives in service to their country, but this has been a way of life for Israel. When an Israeli reaches their 18th birthday they are enlisted into service with the Israel Defense Force (IDF) - sons and daughters. There are even those who are not Israeli born citizens who volunteer to join the army, including Arabs living in Israel and Gentiles from other nations who call Israel home. The love the people of Israel have for their country is inspiring. They are also a very resilient people who continue to go on in spite of every evil they have had to face that comes against them or threatens their right to exist as a nation. I am proud to be a friend of Israel and continue to stand on the wall as an intercessor.

The scripture says, "And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; or if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it." (1 Corinthians 12:26) This is definitely how we feel about Israel and about the people. There is no one living and serving in Israel who has not been personally touched by the extreme loss of precious lives. Every life is a blessing, a blessed memory. ZAKA is the volunteer group that handles investigations and identification of victims, and they are also responsible for the care of the deceased. They are careful to remove remains and blood from the trauma sites, preserving the dignity of the deceased. This is another example of how every Israeli cares for the welfare of each other. They share each others' sorrows and grieve, but they also rejoice with others even in the midst of personal suffering and loss.

For Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu this is a day he remembers his older brother, Yonatan Netanyahu, who was killed in action on July 4, 1976 during the Battle of Entebbe (Operation Entebbe) in Uganda. He was the commander of the Sayeret Matkal unit, that led the operation that rescued 102 hostages from a hijacked Air France plane being held by German and Palestinian militants at the Entebbe Airport. He was the only Israeli who lost his life. He was 30 years old, and he is a hero not only to Israel but to Uganda. He paid the ultimate sacrifice laying down his life for others. Prime Minister Netanyahu returns to the site to pay honor to his brother annually on July 4th.

Observance of Memorial Day began last evening as the sun went down. One day ends and another begins. Tonight when the sun goes down, and the new day begins, Israel will be celebrating their Independence Day going from grief to joy in one smooth move. A day of grief followed quickly by a day of celebration. This is life in Israel. 

Day 110 Much to Consider

 

4/20/2026

 "And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, 

  knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; 

for you serve the Lord Christ"

 Colossians 3:23-24

 

Although last night was another up and down encounter, with back pain and restless legs to boot, I still woke up early and surprisingly refreshed in spite of little real sleep. I had a doctor's appointment scheduled for today, and although I just haven't wanted to go anywhere and do anything lately, because of health challenges, I pulled myself up and off I went. My appointments are always early afternoon because of early morning daily calls with the embassy in Jerusalem, so I always plan my day around these prayer calls. I took the scenic route through the woods, even though it takes longer, but it was nice going through the country back roads, off the beaten path. On the way home I stopped at the Family Dollar for some birthday cards, then the Amish store to pick up my gluten free bread, and finally Food Lion for a few necessities. Apparently they are short-handed as the shelves needed to be restocked in some areas, plus I heard a worker mention so as I left. It seems as if everyone needs workers around here, yet no one wants to work. If no one works, why complain about prices? It seems as if everyone wants a free ride with all the benefits without working for it. I'll soon be 76, and I have reconsidered going back to work should things get tighter for my senior budget. There are ample opportunities here making a good wage, and there are many job openings doing what I used to do as a case manager, but I don't want that responsibility. Who knows, I think about helping others, and that is the best way, as the system is definitely broken, and work as hard as the present government is trying to do, more help is needed. It breaks my heart, but for now, I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, and hopefully, I'm doing it well.

This evening the Israeli Memorial Day began, Yom HaZikaron, which honors fallen soldiers and remembers the deaths of those who died on 10/7/2023. It's very emotional for me, but tomorrow I will honor all those who have given their lives, but I also will grieve with the family members who have lost loved ones. Rachel Goldberg-Polin is the mother of former Hamas hostage Hersh Goldberg - Polin who was kidnapped in Gaza on 10/7/2023 and later assassinated with five others while in captivity. Rachel traveled every where asking for help to free the hostages, but help was not found soon enough. Thankfully our president was able to assist with the return of the remaining hostages. Tomorrow I may speak more about this, but it's too fresh right now, because I just listened to Rachel speak to a reporter on 60 Minutes who had met her before this interview. He even became choked up at one point, and he paused in his comments. Hersh was only 23 years old, referred to as her only son, but he had two sisters. Those who died with him were Carmel Gat, 40; Eden Yerushalmi, 24; Ori Danino, 25; Alexander Lobanov, 33; and Almog Sarusi, 27, executed and shot numerous times at close range right before the IDF found them in the tunnels. It was a very sad day, as they all were. 

As the rise in antisemitism gets crazier and people become more violent, there has been a conflict in Europe with Eurovision 2026 about banning Israel's participation after the threats received last year. However, there are vast numbers of celebrities who are finally opening their mouths and speaking out for these participants stating that these competitions have nothing to do with the current conflicts involving Israel. Why should these extremely talented young people be prevented from pursuing their dreams? Now that is a question we should consider in the United States and elsewhere. Why can't a young person, a middle-aged person, or an older person be banned or mistreated simply because they have a Jewish culture? In America anyone who wants to pursue their dreams as a citizen can do so. I have a blended heritage, as most people do, and I went to school. I had to get a scholarship and a loan, but I went, and I worked to pay off my own debt. I had nothing, but my husband worked hard, and we had three children, a mortgage, a car payment, and debts. We did it! I am very grateful when others need assistance and are able to receive it, and when I could help, I did, and I still do. That's the way I was raised. All this hate is ugly, just as it was when I was a little girl born in the 50's, but I thank God He shielded me from the hate. He only gave me love, and it grows daily for everyone, especially those who lead without conscience in our State. I pray for their salvation just as ardently as I do for others. Let's see how it turns out tomorrow after the polls close, and the votes are tallied.

My day would not have been complete without accidentally seeing an article in my Christian news about our former vice president speaking against our President at a woman's caucus. The criticisms were absurd and anyone with an education and who is able to read the news would know they were laughable lies. Yet, I'm sure she received a standing ovation, because that is just how evil things have become. While no one is perfect, there is a time when we must see with clear vision, speak out for truth, and expose the lies. But even if, God says that whatever is done in secret will be exposed by Him in the light, plus we all will reap what we have sown. I am grateful to hear Senator Federman speak out about the status of his party and his feelings. Perhaps someone else will speak out now, before the list of those who are up for re-election who are not going to run grows greater, probably because of fear of speaking the truth. It is easier to run and hide. The church does the same, sadly, but the day is coming, in fact, it is here now, when we must say, "Never Again!" 

Day 109 America Reads the Bible

 

 4/19/2026

"Righteousness exalts a nation, but sin

is a reproach to any people."  

Proverbs 14:34 

 

Today marks the beginning the America Reads the Bible as ministry leaders and national and international leaders, CEOs and ordinary people from all walks of life take their turn at the podium from Museum of the Bible's World Stage to read the Bible from Genesis to Revelation in one week.  One week One nation One book! The idea was inspired by Bunni Pounds:

"Bunni Pounds is the Founder and President of Christians Engaged as well as a Senior Vice President for Family Policy Alliance and Family Policy Alliance Foundation founded by Dr. James Dobson. She is the author of Jesus and Politics: One Woman’s Walk with God in a Mudslinging Profession and the upcoming book with the foreword by Candace Cameron Bure - Stepping Up to Lead: Rebuilding a Nation in the Footsteps of Nehemiah. She hosts two podcasts - Jesus for America, a devotional podcast teaching through scripture, and Conversations with Christians Engaged, an interview weekly show inspiring people to pray, vote, and engage ongoing." 

According to Intercessor's for America's post, "Pounds said the purpose of the marathon is to 'call the American people back to daily Bible reading for the well-being of our country.'  She hopes young leaders of tomorrow 'will rise to really fix the leadership crisis that we have in our country.'”

In Nehemiah 8:1-3, Ezra read the Word of God aloud to the people of Israel resulting in an "awakening revival and repentance" which inspired the people to get back to rebuilding the temple. Nehemiah was a contemporary of Ezra who had been sent back to Jerusalem by King Darius of Persia to rebuild the temple. Nehemiah served as the cupbearer of King Artaxerxes of Persia, and he had received news from a friend that the walls of Jerusalem were broken down and the gates burned. Upon hearing this news, he told the King who sent him back to Jerusalem temporarily to rebuild the walls. So Nehemiah mobilized the people, and overcoming opposition, they rebuilt the walls, and the temple was completed. Just as Nehemiah had to mobilize the people, Bunni Pounds feels that "America Reads the Bible is a sacred opportunity to call our nation back to its spiritual foundations. Through a public, continuous reading of the entire Bible in our nation’s capital by our national leaders from all spheres of influence, we believe God can spark revival in individual hearts and inspire Americans to carry the Word forward in their lives and communities into the next 250 years of our national story."

Just as in Ezra and Nehemiah's day, the call of America to rededicate our nation as One Nation Under God has met with opposition by many, sadly by those who serve in positions of leadership and in Congress. This should be a bipartisan effort to bring honor to our nation by giving honor to the God we serve, the One who makes all things possible, but sadly this is not happening.

Because of the sad state of our nation, the in-fighting and open, and often inflammatory comments made against each other, our nation is in trouble. Now is the time to humble ourselves and pray, seek God, as     2 Chronicles 7:14 instructs. It is a time to put aside hostility and stand in solidarity. The National Day of Pray will be honored on May 7th, and it will be another time for us to repent of our sins, humble ourselves and seek God's face. May we answer the call.

One Week. One Nation. One  

Day 108 These are the Days of My Life

 

4/18/2026

"We should all be concerned about the future, 

because we will have to spend the rest of our lives there."

Daily Walk

   

An early day today! Saturdays are usually my favorite days, because they are days of rest, relaxation, worship and singing, rejoicing, and listening to the word. Today was a very difficult and tricky text for Pastor Bill to go over, but I must say he gave us much to consider. The main reading was from the book of Leviticus, and it covered the laws for holiness as they related to personal hygiene and leprosy. Sounds like pretty heavy and intensely personal stuff, but really it can be understood from a somewhat different light if we look at it from a relative point of view which is what Bill does. I appreciate that about his teaching methods. We all need to know how to live in this world, because as Christians we represent a holy God, and we want to be examples of His righteousness to a world that's lost its way. 

When I was growing up my Mama and Grammy always had sayings for every occasion. With regards to personal hygiene and wearing clean clothes, they'd say "cleanliness is next to Godliness," or even if our clothes were older they'd say that they would "make clean come." Now I'm not exactly sure what that means, but I got their meaning, and I made sure that even if my clothes weren't store bought or perfect, as long as they were clean, the Lord didn't care. He cared that they were clean and fresh, and that I brushed my teeth, combed my hair, and took a bath. Or at least that is what I was led to believe. I was glad about that, because I always liked to look my best, and I can't remember being mistreated by anyone if my clothes were older. In fact Mama and Grammy both sewed, so I was blessed to have homemade dresses. I was always proud of my homemade clothing. As I got older, they taught me to sew, and I made clothes for my children and even made my husband shirts. The first one I made him I put the buttons on the wrong side, but he wore it anyway and never complained. When my older son graduated from high school, I made him a multi-patterned rayon shirt which was the rage at that time. He was the valedictorian, so I hope he felt special, as he loved that shirt. I asked him recently what happened to that masterpiece, and he said it went out of fashion. But fashion styles do circle back around, as history repeats itself. I'm still wearing skirts I made myself thirty-five years ago, and the rayon still looks brand new. I still receive compliments, and that makes me feel good, even though very few people wear ankle-length skirts. Virginians generally do not appreciate the Santa Fe style, but maybe I'll change the fashion mode!

Today marked Rosh Chodesh, the second month of the year on the Jewish calendar called Iyyar which marks a month of new beginnings. Just as the first month of the year, Nisan, began with Passover which marked the of the birth of the nation of Israel through their deliverance from Egypt, the month of Iyyar marks a time of healing and personal growth. When the children of Israel went through the desert they began to complain about not having food, and they grumbled about leaving the comfort of Egypt to starve in the desert. The Lord provided manna, bread from heaven, each day, but over a period of time and testing, the people complained about the same old stuff. The purpose of the daily manna along with the daily meal of quail, was to show them that God was their deliver and provider. It was a way of humbling  them and making them see their dependence on God who loved them and was going with them on their journey to the Promised Land. Several times they grumbled and wanted to return to the false security of Egypt, but God always heard their cries, and He always answered. Still, they had to pay the price for their rebellion, eventually through the death of an entire generation for their failure to believe that God would do what He said He would do. Why can't we just trust Him?!

As afternoon wore on my day became somewhat agitated by phone calls, texting, and other distractions at the wrong times. My relaxing and peaceful morning, recuperating from my tense and sleepless nights was becoming frought with confusion and anxiety. Even my cat has been a little more antsy than usual, as if someone is lurking behind him ready to pounce on him. Who knows what he encounters in his feral lifestyle in the wilds of Dinwiddie Gardens!

My windchimes were gently blowing in the breeze, and although they are supposed to be engineered to play Amazing Grace, what I discern is a blend of harmony and melody struggling against the breeze, but still pleasing in it's own way. So I can still hear and feel God's amazing grace, even so! Plus my imagination can harmonize the correct tune in my head, along with the bug sounds of trauma within my head that plays its raucous melody continuously. But I do find rest and peace. I have learned to do so in spite of whatever chaos or discordance drifts into my day attempting to bring disharmony. 

Later on in the evening after my son had his internet satellite aligned to receive the proper balance in order to function well, I was able to once again settle in to calm, and when I did finally pick up the phone in my self-defense, my daughter was happy again, and her topsy-turvy world had somehow righted itself, and she wanted to laugh again. 

These are the days of my life.  

Day 107 Higher Ground

 

4/17/2026

"You cannot lift your children

to a higher plane than the one on which

you live yourself."

Daily Walk

 

My alarm faithfully rang at 7 am, but I remained peacefully in bed, waking up intermittently until I drifted back to sleep. I hadn't slept well, as I didn't fall asleep until after 3:30 am. For some reason, try as hard as I might, I could not rest. So when the alarm went off, naturally I wasn't able to drag myself up, and so it went, drifting in and out of sleep, until almost 9 am! When I glanced at the clock and saw the time that got me moving! My prayer call was in about 30 minutes, and I hadn't prepared my heart. Whereas I know that God was not disappointed in or upset with me, I was very irate at myself for giving into the flesh and craving "just a little more time" to wake up. I am my own worst enemy!

Checking Israel's alerts I was happy to see that there had not been any rockets fired in Israel, and I was  relieved that the ceasefire in Lebanon did happen, while Iran continued to honor their ceasefire. I was able to get it all together, join the call and afterwards enjoy my quiet time, before I headed outside to finish cutting the grass. Seeing a freshly mowed lawn, in spite of more weeds than grass, warmed my heart. I didn't see my cat, Alex, until much later in the evening, however, because the in-house drama between my cat and my son's cat, Mia, who is a house cat, continues. The drama has become a daily encounter, as Mia is trying to keep the interloper out of her territory. I have to laugh, because she will vacate any room or flat service if we rattle the treat bag. In fact that's her plan, but it seldom works these days. Cats have a mind of their own, but I will not be moved!

As I continued my reading in 1 Chronicles I revisited King David's rise to the throne of Israel and his desire to build a temple for the Lord. Because David was a man of war, God denied his request, but He promised David that his son, Solomon, would be the next king, and he would build the temple for Him. David humbled himself before the Lord, and he praised God for his kindness to him in making him king and establishing a covenant with him and his family. God's plans will always be fulfilled, and it brings Him great joy when we obey His commands, walking in His plan. God entrusted David and Solomon with a greater, higher plan, and His plans would not be thwarted then or now.

In considering the rulers of Israel and Judah once Israel became a divided kingdom, it is difficult for me to understand how a godly king can have an ungodly successor, especially given David's leadership and Solomon's, yet in Judah the pattern was followed as it was in Israel. But for the most part Judah was ruled by men who loved God and whose rule was pleasing to God. I know that they were not perfect, but King David and Solomon loved God and obeyed His precepts. In the end Solomon's wives and concubines pulled him away from God, and he worshiped their false God's which led to a divided kingdom when his son ruled after him. He did not follow in God's ways as did his father.

Something happened in the afternoon that upset me, and although the matter is not completely resolved, I feel more peaceful about it, and I know that in spite of how things initially may have appeared on the surface, some decisions are made against another's express desires in order to have peace in the home. In speaking about children who do not always follows in God's ways, and who may not always make wise making choices, some seem to think only of themselves, but, I must say that my sons have not disappointed me, because when put to the maximum test, they chose honorably. Although people may judge what they do not know, when it comes down to making decisions that put others first, they do. Perhaps at a later time I will have the opportunity to share more personally, but it encourages me to know that my children know what Jesus would do, even if one of them is rebelling against Him. He will return, I have no doubt. Even when our children may not agree with us, they do watch us to see if we are consistent in word and deed. This is the higher plane, and I set my standards high for myself, because I serve a holy God, and I want to bring Him glory. I pray my children see His character in me and pursue the same. 

After a somewhat different day, I learned that the crew of Artemis II were sharing their experiences with the public, and in their description of God's creation and the awesome power of the universe, all His marvelous wonders, they shared the same feeling that given all that space we should learn to get along and seek peace, or something along those lines. It's wise counsel!