Day 30 How Will You Respond?

 

1/30/2026

"Circumstances never create character;

they merely reveal it."

Daily Walk

 

Moses and the children of Israel had arrived at Mt Sinai, and Moses had ascended the mountain to meet with God to receive the Commandments to govern the people. While he's gone the people are left to the watch care of Aaron. It took 40 days for the finger of God to write the laws on the tablets, meeting with Moses, so the people grew restless, impatient, and since Moses hadn't returned, they wanted a god to lead them. So they presented their request to Aaron, who told them to bring all their gold earrings to him. He melted them in the fire, then "molded and tooled it into the form of a calf." The people were delighted, so Aaron built an altar before the calf and announced that they would have a feast to Jehovah the next day. The people were up early, sacrificing burnt and peace offerings to the calf-idol, then they feasted, and the celebration led into drinking, reveling, and sexual immorality. It didn't take long for them to forget the promise to obey the God of Israel, and it certainly did not take Aaron, who had been consecrated as the high priest, to forget his position before the people. 

The story found in Exodus 32 changes to Moses on the mountain with God, and God tells Moses to hurry back down the hill, because the people have defiled themselves. God was so angry that He was ready to destroy all of the people and make a new covenant with Moses. But Moses begged God to relent because of His love for the people, and Moses told God that the Egyptians would say that He had tricked the people so He could slay them. He reminded God of His promise, his covenant, with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob and how Abraham's descendants would be as numerous as the sands, and they would inherit the land forever. In response to Abraham's intercession, God spared the people. This is an example of great intercession of Moses for the people, and as the story progresses, it is not the last time Moses would stand between God and man. Earlier in Genesis we learned how Abraham interceded for others as well. This is the gift of intercession, and it requires much perseverance in the face of great adversity. 

As Moses was going down to confront the assembly, his anger got the better of him, and he shattered the two tablets of stones on which God had written the laws. Moses immediately takes the calf and burns it in the fire, then he approaches Aaron. He asked Aaron what had made him commit such a terrible sin, and of course, Aaron didn't want to take responsibility for his own sin, so he blamed the people. He told Moses that he had merely tossed the gold in the fire, and the gold calf idol was formed and came out. Moses knew the truth in his heart, and he also knew that Aaron had encouraged the people to revel in an immoral manner. This sin cost Aaron dearly, as he was not allowed to enter into the Promised Land and died in the wilderness after the 40 years of wandering the people endured because of disbelief. 

The LORD was still angry at the people later, and although He promised that His Angel would travel ahead of them and clear out the Canaanites and other in inhabitants, He would not travel with them. Moses again intercedes with God, and He tells Him that unless He goes, he will not go:

"Moses talked there with the Lord and said to Him, 'You have been telling me, "Take these people to the Promised Land," but You haven't  told me whom You will send with me. You say You are my friend, and that I have found favor before You; please, if this is really so, guide me clearly along the way You want me to travel so that I will understand You and walk acceptably before You. For don't forget that this nation is Your people," and the Lord replied, 'I Myself will go with you and give you success.'" (Exodus 33:12-14). 

The rest of the story is well-known, and the journey that finally took them to the land of promise was not an easy one, although God was faithful to His promise in every way. Unfortunately, man continues to fail, and the journey is filled with grumbling and complaining and rebellion that leads to the destruction of almost an entire generation at one point. This story shows the frailty of man and the brevity of life. Throughout scripture and the story of the people of Israel, there have always been a remnant who obeyed God, and so it continued even when they were exiled for 70 years in Babylon. 

When Moses confronted the people over the golden calf idol, "Moses stood in the entrance of the camp, and said, 'Whoever is on the LORD's side - comes to me!' And all the sons of Levi gathered themselves together to him" (Exodus 32:26-28). About three thousand died that day as the LORD had the sons of Levi killed the disobedient with the sword.

Later, when in the Promised Land, Joshua also stood his ground with the people: "And if it seems evil to you to serve the LORD, choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD" (Joshua 24:15).

Elijah when he encountered the prophets of Baal on Mount Carmel, "And Elijah came to all the people, and said, 'How long will you falter between two opinions? If the LORD is God, follow Him; but if Baal, follow him.' But the people answered him not a word" (1 Kings 18:21).

It seems as if at this time in history man, who has been desperately blinded and controlled by deceiving spirits of darkness in this age, are being called to make a decision. A line is being drawn in the sand, and God is saying that you're either for Me or against Me. The church is being called to wake up and make a stand for godliness and holiness. The church is also being called to stand in support of Israel. The Bible clearly states that salvation comes through the Jews (John 4:22). This was said by Jesus, a Jew, the King of the Jews, to the woman from Samaria whom He encountered at the well. God confirms His covenant with His people in the following scriptures:

To Solomon in 1 Kings 6:13: "And I will dwell among the children of Israel, and will not forsake My people Israel."

In Psalm 94:14: "For the LORD will not cast off His people, nor will He forsake His inheritance."  

Romans 11:1: "I say then, has God cast away His people? Certainly not! For I also am an Israelite, of the seed of Abraham, of the tribe of Benjamin." Following this, Paul explains how Gentile believers have been grafted in as branches, but he also warns that we can be cut off if our attitude changes. 

How will we respond when we are asked where we stand? Have we settled the matter in our minds, or will we be like those of Elijah's day tossed to and fro by two opinions? Man has always had his opinion and his plans, but God is the one who has the say. Proverbs 9:10 says that "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." 

The choice comes to each of us, but my decision is clear: As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD. I will stand with Israel, as we await Messiah's return to Jerusalem when He places His feet on Mount Zion. How will you choose? Even so, Lord Jesus, come quickly! 

Day 29 Much to Learn

 

1/29/2026

"As white snowflakes fall quietly and thickly on a winter day.

answers to prayer will settle down upon you at every step you take, 

even to your dying day. The story of your life will be the

story of prayer and answers to prayer."

O. Hallesby

"Goodness and mercy shall follow me all the

days of my life."

Psalm 23:6

 

Yesterday I was sharing that I was going through a new season of re-learning what it means to be content in my circumstances. I've never really been a materialistic type, and I've never been one to be envious of others or want more than I have. I always thought of what I "needed" rather what I "wanted." I think that comes with my upbringing. My daddy worked hard, and he provided for our needs, but we didn't have many frills. Mama sewed, and she taught me to sew and craft, and it's helped me pay my bills and put clothes on my children's backs and food on the table. My sons always told me that I put others first, and they each encouraged me to do what I want to do with how many years I have left on this earth when I retired in 2018. They didn't mean that in a negative way, and I don't think that they thought I was about to kick the proverbial bucket. They feel that my life has been too much giving and not enough getting, or something like that. They understand that I enjoy being able to help those who need help. I've seen too many people making wills for after they die when their families need the help now. The scriptures speak about that in Proverbs 3:27: "Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in the power of your hand to do so." or in Galatians 6:10: "Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially tho those who are of the household of faith." Even the Apostle John had a few words to say about it: 

By this we know love, because He (Jesus) laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down  our lives for the brethren. But whoever has this world's goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him? My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth. And by this we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure our hearts before Him. For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and knows all things. Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence toward God. And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight. And this is His commandment: that we should believe on the name of His Son Jesus Christ and love one another, as He gave us commandment" (1 John 3:16-23).

My mama and daddy always helped us when we needed support, and they expected nothing in return. I think that's a wonderful way to be. Mama always said "It's more blessed to give than receive," and to give her flowers while she's alive, so she can enjoy them, not after she's dead. I have often thought about those words when I'm trying to help someone who needs assistance or support. Of course I worked in social service type jobs the latter part of my career, so that type of behavior should be a expected. Sadly, it's not. People often only want to do what is required, and then only between certain hours. But fortunately, not all are like that, or else our world would be in a worse fix than it is now. 

There are many scriptures in the Bible that speak of helping our fellow human beings when they are in need. Jesus certainly spoke of helping widows and orphans, and then there is the Parable of the Good Samaritan. Jesus Himself gave everything, so should be do less?! Sometimes I think I should have sought out Mother Teresa and her ministry to the people of Calcutta. There's a movie I saw once, City of Hope, about a doctor who was helping the people who live in the garbage heaps in downtown Calcutta. It breaks my heart to see anyone live in squalor, but seeing children go without really breaks my heart. I'm a broken record when it comes to lamenting about the lives so many children have lived. 

Earlier this morning in the global prayer call with Israel, what's happening in Iran with the people rebelling, tired of living in the shackles of a dictator, waiting to see what, if anything, America and Israel will do occupied the call. Everyone waits. In the meantime here on the home front of America and elsewhere in the world, the question of rising antisemitism and Sharia Law being imposed in our cities are topics of concern. The world is in total chaos and so far from the lawful and orderly manner of life before 10/7/2023 when Hamas massacred so many unsuspecting Jewish citizens in their sleep, in their homes. Drugged up murderers, spurred on after being indoctrinated by the hatred of Islam. Now it's spreading and civil wars are erupting in the streets of America. What has happened to reason? But the worst thing is: Where is the church? Busy doing what makes their churches grow, apathetic or unconcerned about anything that is going on elsewhere. Or they are deceived and lost in the wrong theology or listening with itching ears chasing anyone who says they are a prophet. Again, there seems to be no attention paid to what Jesus said would happen in these last days. Awaken from your slumber!

Before my life took this detour, I had asked Abba to give me a church where I could serve again and become a viable part of the body of Christ, just as I used to enjoy. I wanted a "normal" life where people noticed when I wasn't in church, and they actually called to check up on me to see if I was well and safe. This has not happened since I have been here, at least not with churches I have attended and supported. Even when I made the initial call to let the pastor know about my son's accident, I haven't received a call or text for almost two months. Why is this? "Praying for you" without follow up isn't much of a help, or do I ask too much?! Perhaps I shouldn't even mention it, but I have a son who's been mistreated by the established church, and abandoned and misrepresented. He's had his share of deep-rooted problems and challenges, but he has a desire to "belong" also. Once, as I was talking to Abba about a similar situation, I heard Him clearly say to me "You belong to Me." I think that's all I really needed to hear, and He does remind me still. I felt I needed to ask His forgiveness for wanting to be normal and have a church appreciate and "need" me. After all I am supposed to be "content." I say this with a smile on my face. I like Paul can say:

"Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content; I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need" (Philippians 4:11-12).

Paul is saying that,  "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippines 4:13), because he has learned to be content no matter the circumstances of his life. And if Paul can say that, so can I. He had his eyes on Jesus and eternity that laid ahead when his time on earth was done. And this is what I have heard God tell me so many time, especially since returning home, "Keep your eyes on the Commander of the Armies of Heaven." In church services I've heard Him say, "Focus on "Me," not that person to the left whose on their cell phone during the sermon or the elder in the back of the church scrolling on his cell phone during worship or prayer. I remember the words God spoke to someone I know: "I want you to look at each person you meet as more important than you are, because they are." God can be very direct, and honestly, that's the way I like it. I want my life surrendered and transformed by His will. I invite the pressing, the sharpening, and the molding of my life into conformity, so I can become more like Jesus. The teapot that needs to be stuck back into the refining fires, so that the cracks don't come. I'm a work in process, a chunk of clay on the spinning wheel with God's great hands forming me in to a vessel fit for the Master's use. Sometimes I get dizzy on that spinning wheel, but one day I'll walk away finished and glazed to perfection. Until then, I have much to learn about Kingdom living and growing in grace. I will be content with the process and wait for the answers to come in due time, God's good time, not mine. Selah.

Day 28 Contentment

 

1/28/2026 

"But godliness with contentment 

is great gain."

 

1 Timothy 6:6

 

 

As this year began I found myself in a new season of learning an old lesson. It seems that sometimes God has to give us refresher courses in areas where we are falling short. Or so it seems. Over the past four years, as I resettled back into my parents' home where I grew up, purchasing the house and beginning to work on fixing it back to its old appearance, I found the task becoming more and more daunting. At the end of November I made plans to begin again, not relying on anyone to help me in my renovation plans. All this time I've been trying to find someone who wants to help with some much-needed fixing up, but attempts have been futile. One older man actually shook my hand and said he'd be back with an estimate. When he didn't return or even call me back, I was devastated to learn that a handshake didn't mean what it did in my daddy's day. 

 

Early in December I made plans to have a new roof installed in January, so I felt that at last I was making progress, until December 9th brought an unexpected detour in my plans. My son was involved in accident on a icy back road when a truck hurrying past him clipped my car's mirror sending him off the side of the road down a slippery slope. Fortunately, a guardrail caught my little Nissan Sentra which prevented the car from rolling over upside down into a creek bed that would have drowned him. As it was he had great difficulty getting out of the car as two airbags had imploded. Thankfully, he did not sustain serious injuries other than further pain to his back. The car, however, is now in car heaven, and I've been without a vehicle since that day. My dad's old car was not able to be repaired, and the holidays and the weather have limited my getting out to look at cars. I have also experienced a little relapse in my health, but hopefully, it will turn itself around. My appointment with a specialist is not until the middle of February, so even that has taken time. I guess one has to schedule being sick far in advance in order to get an appointment. But all is good, and I am still smiling. I would say laughing, as I usually do that to keep from crying, but I'm just keeping it real.

 

My family has had more than its share of discouragements over these many years, and, for lack of a better word, many mishaps that have disrupted the family's relationships, leaving me as the mediator, or simply the last one standing. Strangely, I thought retirement would give me the freedom and opportunity to not have to be so concerned or involved in the drama of life. But I guess that's not so, and the fun is just beginning, or I hope rather that the healing can truly begin. Time, and much patience, will tell. In the meantime, God is teaching me some new lessons about trusting Him and in being content with what is happening in my life. I love the photo of the little Asian child taking a bath in the galvanized bucket. It brings back childhood memories. When I was little my grandparents lived in a home owned by Tom and Mary Puryear who owned the little country store on a country road catawampus from my grandparent's home, meaning just up the highway a dash and to the left down the little dirt road. I remember they had the best and largest homemade oatmeal cookies ever! There were fish tank style canisters, lying on the side, lined up on the counter, that held cookies and candies. There was a pot belly stove and small tables where my Papa and his buddies gathered to play checkers. Mr. Tom had an old dog that hung around inside the store sleeping. The store always smelled like wood and pipe tobacco, with a few cigars. My Papa sure did like his cigars.

 

The little house my Grammy and Papa lived in didn't have a bathroom or running water when I was little, so the water had to be pumped from the outside well, then heated on the stove for my bath. My tub was an old galvanized tub that had seen its days. My grandparents had eight children, so it had washed a many little ones in its day, I imagine. But I loved it back then. This is why the little girl above made me smile. Sweet memories even when days may have been a little harder for my grandparents. Later on, Mr. Tom installed a water pump into the kitchen, and he eventually built on a little bathroom, but without heat at first. Everything takes time to get done. I realize that more than ever as I work on this home with limited resources. But I think when we do finally get things done we appreciate it more, even in the waiting. I know that my daddy worked hard in order to get things done, and he was a jack of all trades, and he mastered quite a few. Others may have been creative, but he got the job done. I can attest to that, as I see some of his "fixes" are still holding strong to this day. Others I question, but knowing my daddy, he did what he had to do to get a job done at the time. I respect and appreciate that about him. And I sure wish he were here right now to give me a little advice, but he's in a place where he doesn't have to be concerned about fixing up things. I can hardly wait to see the mansions Jesus spoke about, although I'd be just as happy with a little cabin in the woods, no frills, just Jesus.

 

I got to thinking about Job's response when God first allowed Satan to put Job's loyalty to the test. Job was described as a man who was "blameless and upright, and one who feared God and shunned evil." (Job 1:1). Everyone is familiar with the story of Job, as it is the oldest recorded book in the Bible. When Job lost all his possessions and his children were killed, Job's response was:

 

"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return there. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD." (Job 1:21)

 

I must admit, these same words came to my mind on that eventful day in December. Through Job's struggles with loss, the lack of comfort from his friends, and his wife's terrible advice to curse God and die, in the end He actually came to know that before he had only been told about God, but when he encountered God in answer to his prayers, he came to understand how little he knew about the Living God of Creation. His troubling friends also learned a great lesson in humility. In the end God restored double of all Job had lost. Such a wonderful end to a traumatic story. It makes me wonder if the wife was there when he was restored. I guess that question will have to wait, although Job did have more children.

 

Paul, formerly Saul of Tarsus, also experienced a great season of testing and trials that transformed his life. Matthew, the tax collector, made quite an adjustment in his life to follow Jesus, as did Simon the Zealot, who learned to turn from his deadly methods of protecting the King of kings, to understanding that Jesus had a different plan and purpose as His earthly mission. Each encountered trials, challenges, loss, but they found "godliness with contentment is great gain." Jesus left His throne in Heaven to come to earth in the form of a baby, who grew into the Son of Man, in order to accomplish God's rescue mission for mankind who had failed so desperately. God's great mercy, and Jesus' obedience to His Father, ransomed our souls from eternal death, so we could be born again into the Kingdom of God by the blood of the perfect Lamb of God. His ways are infinitely higher.

 

So, in my season of change, I can whine or I can grow into the person God wants me to be - loving, patient, kind, merciful, full of compassion, extremely humble, yet resourceful. I am always careful to give God praise for everything that has been given, loaned, to me, as I try to ask Him about every decision I make. Perhaps He just wants me to become a little more self-confident in walking out what I already have learned as I sit with Him daily in our alone time. I'm really not certain at this time what exactly I am to learn, except to be content with all things at all times, and to leave matters in His capable hands. He is after all trustworthy. With that thought in mind I'll close out the day and dream of days to come as I wait and see what comes next. Shalom, friends.   

Day 27 Prayer with Friends

 

1/26/2026 

"Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, 

as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent

that you partake of Christ's sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, 

you may also be glad with exceeding joy."   

1 Peter 4:12-13

 

Last night I spent some quality time with four members of my Harvest online study group. One of the ladies hosts a Zoom prayer meeting for us once a month, and this was our second meeting. We had a small group, but it was a full, rich time of acknowledging who God is by using the ACTS Prayer Model which is a wonderful way to balance out and keep our prayers focused when we spend quiet time alone with God or in a group, such as this one. We wanted to have a time where we could exalt the Name of the LORD, and we wanted to get to know each other better. Each week in our regular Bible study group we share prayer needs, but the time is too short to really focus on specifics. But, just to be clear, prayer is the most important part of our lives, so if an urgent prayer need is presented, be assured that we would spend the time on it. Meeting once a month to focus on prayer, this method has been very well received by the other ladies, and I must admit that it is important to consider how to approach a Holy God on a daily basis in our quiet time. Below is an explanation of the ACTS Prayer Model provided by Google on my word search:

"Key Elements of the ACTS Prayer Model

• Adoration (A): Worshipping God for who He is, focusing on His attributes, character, and names (e.g., "God, You are loving and all-knowing").
• Confession (C): Acknowledging and repenting of sins to God, asking for forgiveness to clear the way for honest communication
  .
Thanksgiving (T): Expressing gratitude for what God has done, including specific blessings, answered prayers, and His faithfulness.
Supplication (S): Making requests for one’s own needs (petition) and the needs of others (intercession). 

Using the ACTS Model in Daily Life 

• Structure: It provides a simple, memorable framework that can be used for 3–5 minutes or longer in a daily quiet time.
• Balance: It ensures that prayer is not just a "wish list" of requests, but a balanced conversation that begins with worship.
• Flexibility: While it is a, it is a guide for honest, real, and heartfelt conversation with God rather than a rigid set of rules.
• Relationship to the Lord's Prayer: ACTS is loosely based on the Lord's Prayer (Matthew 6:9-13), incorporating adoration ("hallowed be your name"), confession ("forgive us our debts"), and supplication ("give us today our daily bread"). 

Benefits of the ACTS Prayer Model

• Helps Maintain Focus: It prevents the mind from wandering during prayer by providing a clear, sequential path.
• Deepens Relationship: It encourages a more profound experience of God's presence by starting with worship rather than demands.
• Increases Gratitude: By dedicated time to thanksgiving, it shifts perspective to recognize God's work in daily life." 

When we were discussing "Gratitude" and how it related to the trials we encounter in life, one lady shared that we need to thank God for the difficult seasons that we go through, because these are times of proving our commitment to God as well as our total surrender to His will. I realize that as we go through the desert, there are times of refreshing as we yield ourselves to God's care, trusting Him with each step of the journey. In our Christian walk we will spend much time in the valley, because in order to get to the mountain, we have to cross the valleys to prepare us to climb the mountain slopes. If we spent all our time perched on the mountain top, how would we realize the truth of the Word and the faithfulness of God. The scriptures speak of the testing of the LORD, and it is likened to times in the desert, or the back-burner of the wilderness, as I choose to call it. It's a time of preparation and a time of molding us and conforming us into the image of Christ. If we didn't go through trials, how could we face the deeper times of persecution and hardships that will invariably tempt to shake our faith and trust in God? Even when we do begin to ascend the mountains, there will always be briars, rock slides, twists and turns, and varmints hiding in the bushes and trees. This is the life of the follower of Christ. There is a high cost to discipleship. Jesus spoke about counting the cost in a parable found in Luke 14:28-33:

"For which of you, intending to build a tower, does not sit down first and count the cost, whether he has enough to finish it - lest, after he has laid the foundation, and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, saying, 'This man began to build and was not able to finish'? Or what king, going to make war against another king, does not sit down first and consider whether he is able with ten thousand  to meet him who comes against him with twenty thousand? Or else, while the other is still a great way off, he sends a delegation and asks conditions of peace. So likewise, whoever of you does not forsake all that he has cannot be My disciple." 

It is good to bring all matters to God in prayer. Spending time with Him alone, in quietness, listening and learning build the relationship and friendship He seeks to have with us. He has desired this since He created the world, and He hasn't changed His mind.

I value these times of prayer with my sisters in the Lord, and this model is just one way. The important thing is commitment to times of prayer and fellowship, growing in our faith together, sharing the good times and the bad, and learning to worship and adore our King of kings and Lord of lords. There's no better friendship than those who love the Lord and worship in Spirit and in Truth. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. We follow Him.

"The Spirit of prayer makes us so intimate with God 

that we scarcely pass through an experience before we speak

to Him about it, either in supplication, in sighing, in pouring out 

our woes before Him, in fervent requests, or in 

thanksgiving and adoration.

O Hallesby  

Day 26 A Hero Returns

 

1/26/2026 

"Commit your way to the LORD, trust also in Him,

and He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your

righteousness as the light, and your justice

as the noonday."

Psalm 37:5-6

 

Israel is rejoicing today, because the last hostage taken on 10/7/2023 is finally home! Ran Gvili was noted as being the first to rush into battle, in spite of his own serious injury, to fight the enemy at the entrance to Kibbutz Alumim until his ammunition ran out, and he was killed and his body taken hostage to Gaza for 843 days. He was "First to enter. Last to return." After months of intelligence work by the Shin Bet unit his body was finally retrieved from Gaza along the yellow line, buried alongside other bodies from Gaza. We rejoice with the family, and with Israel who at last will be able to close this chapter and begin to heal.

In this morning's weekly prayer watch from Kehilat HaCarmel we rejoiced with Israel and with the many families who have gone through the worst years of their lives. Perhaps now they can begin to rest, as they continue their fight to raise awareness for the continuing obstacles they face in Israel. The pain Ran's family was suffering was compared to a gaping wound that would not heal until his body had been returned. I know a bit about such things in the natural, as I have had a surgical wound open, whereby the decision was made to keep it open and cared for until it sealed on its own. Daily I had to tend that gaping chasm across my abdomen. Over the years there have been times when the incision would appear to be reopening, and once more I had to tend the site until it had resealed and healed. In the meantime the short incision grew in length each time this happened until now a once shorter surgical scar has spread almost across my entire abdomen. I imagine this is what Josie meant this morning about the wounds and scars of Israel since 10/7/2023. The former hostages, families of all who were lost in the massacre, and the trauma of war inflicted on so many citizens and the IDF soldiers themselves. Perhaps now healing can finally begin for all Israel's sons and daughters.

As the body was brought back, the army was singing the National Anthem of Israel, "Hatikvah" which means "Hope." An article was written in 2024 by Noemi Bowman explaining the great meaning behind their national anthem. The lyrics were written in 1886 by Naphatali Herz Imber, a Jewish poet, and the melody, was composed by Samuel Cohen.

 “'Hatikvah' stands as a significant piece of 19th-century Jewish poetry. It resonates deeply with the Jewish community, encapsulating their 2,000-year-old aspiration to return to and re-establish the Land of Israel as a free and sovereign state. Imber initially composed the poem in 1877 while staying with a Jewish scholar in Iași, Romania. This work profoundly reflects the Jewish people’s enduring hope and determination to return to their ancestral homeland." 

On May 14, 1948 Israel became a State when their independence was won, but the initial status go back to 1917 with the Balfour Declaration. But when we check Biblical history we see that the call to Israel goes all the way back to Genesis when God covenanted with Abraham, confirming through his son, Isaac, and Isaac's son Jacob. The words of the national anthem are as follows:

"Kol od balevav penimah,
Nefesh yehudi homiyah,
Ulefa-atei mizrach, kadimah,
Ayin letziyon tsofiyah.

Od lo avdah tikvateinu
Hatikva bat shnot alpayim,
Lihyot am chofshi be-artzeinu,
Eretz tzion, virushalayim."

 

English Translation 

"As long as in the heart within,
The Jewish soul yearns,
And toward the eastern edges, onward,
An eye gazes toward Zion.

Our hope is not yet lost,
The hope that is two-thousand years old,
To be a free nation in our land,
The Land of Zion, Jerusalem."

The soldiers were also singing a song, "Hineh Lo Yanum" or "Behold He will Not Slumber" based on Psalm 121:4. We rejoice with Israel, and we pray that they feel the LORD's manifest presence surround them. May He bring healing and His shalom peace in His Holy Presence.

"Hineh lo yanum Velo yishan Shomer Israel."  English translation:  "Behold He that keepeth Israel Will neither slumber nor sleep."

Day 25 Snow Days

 

1/25/2026 

"Whose woods these are I think I know.   

His house is in the village though;   

He will not see me stopping here   

To watch his woods fill up with snow."  

Robert Frost

Stopping by the Woods on A Snowy Evening 

 

As a child I loved snowy days, especially when we were able to get out of school early, or better yet, when school was cancelled. Of course there was always the chore of shoveling snow, but not until after we'd had our fun. I loved going to my grandparent's home, because they had a hill we could slide down and go a good long way. The woods were great to hike in, or I could sit on the big rock and watch the snow fall. Mama would make snow cream. Back then the air wasn't polluted, and as long as the snow was high enough so animals wouldn't walk on it, or worse, it was such a delight. When I was real young, my uncles and aunts were still young enough to enjoy sledding at night, but I wasn't old enough to go with them.  Still, I had my own fun. My grandparents saw to that.

I still get excited when it snows, just as long as I don't have to get out in it to travel. Too many people don't know how to drive safely, and of course, the accident in December when a truck ran my son off the road and into a ravine still makes me a bit cautious. I'm sure I'll get over that scare one day, as he is safe, even if the car is no longer with us. At least we're safe at home right now without a vehicle. For a little while longer at least, until we're able to get out and shop for one. 

We just had fresh powder followed by sleet, so I'm working on axing my way through the top layer of ice so I can shovel the snow. I've never minded shoveling snow. It's good quiet time, even when it's nippy, just as long as I bundle up and cover my nose. In New Mexico the wind was so bad and air so cold that I'd get an upper respiratory infection unless I covered my nose with a good thick scarf. It doesn't snow that much here, or it didn't use to, for many years. Since I've been back, it seems to snow a little more often. We may even get another snow fall next weekend, I am told. 

I love to watch the older movies when kids were taken on sleigh rides pulled by horses. It seemed like so much fun. I'm sure when my parents were younger, they went on rides, but I don't remember any stories growing up. And stories were big in my family. My papa had so many, and on Sunday afternoons as the kids would gather around, he'd spin some fantastic yarns. Many a time my grammy would accuse him of fibbing, but he'd say it was true. They were funny that way. 

How I miss those days growing up when fun was clean, and we spent much time in the great outdoors enjoying the beauty of God's great creation. Now days kids are shut up in the house with their devices keeping them company. No one gets to be creative on their own or learn to appreciate God's good earth. I don't think anyone really puts much thought into it. Like reading a good book. I guess those days are long gone, along with wholesomeness and creativity and laughter. I'm not even sure it is permitted to laugh any more.

Time will tell how the story of this life ends, but as for me, I'll still dream of days in the woods on a snowy day or at least enjoying the poetry of Robert Frost reminding me of sleigh rides and evening stops to enjoy the simple things of life. Perhaps with a cup of steaming hot chocolate with marshmallows and cookies. Yummy! Enjoy the snow and bundle up!

 

Day 24 What are You Waiting For!

 

1/24/2026

"Then the Lord said to Moses, 'Quit praying and get

the people moving! Forward, march! Use your

rod - hold it out over the water - and the sea will open

up a path before you, and all the people of Israel

shall walk through on dry ground!'"

Exodus 14:15-16

 

Reading this passage about the Exodus this morning made me laugh. God has unique ways of doing things, but He wanted Pharaoh to know that He alone is God, so He wanted Moses to get a move on it! God told Moses to lead the people by way of Piha-hiroth between Migdol and the seas, opposite Baal-zephon and to camp along the shore. Then He told Moses that He was going to harden Pharaoh's heart once more, and He said Pharaoh and all his army would be coming after them, believing they were trapped with no where to go. True to His word, things happened as God told Moses, the people panicked, and Moses is standing there with his staff - without a clue. So God moves the cloud behind them to blind the army, while the fire is in front to light the way for the children of Israel. Moses is still standing there, so God tells him, "What are you waiting for? Raise your staff, so I can dry the sea, so you can cross over on dry land!" As I said, He wanted everyone to know, especially Pharaoh, that He alone is God! His message hasn't changed. 

Moses found out all too soon what it was like to lead a mob of whiny discontents across the wilderness. It became much worse when God hardened Pharaoh's heart again, and he, along with all his chariots and men, chased after the children of Israel three days after they left Egypt with most of their riches. I'm sure it was something to behold watching all those people and animals trail off into the night. It was a well-planned and orchestrated event in history. God planned all this since before the foundation of the world, ya know! Just like everything else He did. 

What really troubles me is how slowly man responds to just about everything - Americans are the worst, and, sad to say, professing Christians are slower than the secular people. The people who don't know the LORD tend to listen to wrong influences, but then they don't see enough action from the church, so I guess they think they have to listen to someone. Personally I feel that checking out the source and the facts is the best way to do things, but these things must not be taught in school any longer. No wonder there's so much confusion about obvious matters. I still have to check myself daily to make certain that I am being accurate, rather than cynical about my understanding of things, but it doesn't take long when listening to an uninformed person spout the silliest contrivances ever without bothering to find out if they're right or wrong, much less consult the one book that tells us all we need to know about everything. I don't get it, but I guess I'm just a worn out old fossil, too old to know anything anymore. That's okay. I'm not offended, but I am here should someone want to know the truth. 

I love the story of the Exodus, and the stories that follow, about God's faithfulness in providing for every need they have. But, it is interesting that they are no sooner over one inconvenience, like food and water, when they encounter another, and the grumbling and complaining begins again. In between, after God overly provides for them, they do sing and praise the LORD, but all too soon, here they go again. But seriously, time hasn't changed for the majority of us, as we fall into the same old trap, never happy with what we have, always wanting more and better - faster.

There's always something to learn from everything I read in the Bible. It truly is the best book ever  written, as sales prove. Even hardcore atheists are finding out that's true, plus they are finding the answers to all their previous questions that man couldn't answer for them. I know that each time I read the pages of this ancient Book that I learn something new each time. God blows my mind on every page! But don't take my word for it, pick it up, put your electronics aside, open it up, and see for yourself. It's the best read ever, so what are you waiting for? 

Day 23 Solemn Call

 

1/23/2026

"Truly, these times of ignorance God overlooked,

but now commands all men everywhere to repent, because

He has appointed a day on which He will judge the world in

righteousness by the Man whom He has ordained.

He has given assurance of this to all by 

raising Him from the dead."

Acts 17:30-31

 

Fridays are special days for me as I prepare for Shabbat and the evening quietness and rest spent with my Jewish families - Paul Wilbur Ministries (Shabbat in the Home) and worship and prayer with Marty and Jenny Goetz. Promptly at 6 pm Shabbat officially begins, and all the work stops until 6 pm Saturday evening. It's a time of rest and spiritual refreshment for me and so many others who follow these ministries and obey the Sabbath to keep it holy. Of course, for me, and others, who grew up with Sunday as our day of rest, I still worship on this day as well. Right now between the weather and not having transportation, I still listen in and enjoy Sabbath and Sunday online services. I've been doing this for a number of years, and it is where I find peace and rest.

Yesterday was such a hectic day because of the new roof being installed, but today was not quite what I was expecting either. The day began noisily again, beginning with an early morning visitor coming to pick up the check for the roof, followed by several phone calls, each one important and time well-spent, but not as I had hoped. I must say that God has a way of getting my attention. He does say to be instant in season and out (2 Timothy 4:2). It's so easy to get our eyes off of Jesus and onto a situation unless we fight the distractions and be careful not to pick up offenses. Jesus told me to focus on Him, and more recently He has given me the vision of a horse with blinders on, eyes fixed ahead, being lead by a patient guide. If there is a dangerous situation, say a fire, and the one leading the horse past the blaze needs to keep the animal calm, he uses blinders, so it can only see what is ahead. The he patiently and slowly walks the animal past the danger. Maybe in the vision, rather than a horse, it was Jesus leading a stubborn donkey whose name was Linda! Not really, or at least not this time. The vision clearly spoke to the absolute necessity of keeping my eyes fixed on Him and not on circumstances, or people, what anyone says or doesn't say, or what is happening in front of me. Not too long ago I was given the privilege of seeing an approaching spiritual storm already going on in the heavens, and current events are becoming more and more ominous of what could be coming. I don't say that to frighten anyone, just to say all that is happening in our nation, in Israel, Iran, and around the world is not by chance. 

This week I was asked to write to the elected officials in my State and the federally elected officials. I really don't have to be asked to do this, because it is part of what I do on my own, and I have been doing it for many years. The cause that is dear to my heart is the sanctity of human life, as it should be of prime importance to those who call themselves human beings. I was shocked back four years ago when a gang of "pro-life evangelical pastors" voted for Biden and his Democratic party who clearly did a huge disservice to our nation, although many still remain blind to the fact or simply do not want to admit that they sinned, the results have been showing to be true in recent months. The "pastors" made Biden promise that he would not repeal the Hyde Amendment. Guess what! It was one of his first acts in office. One cannot dance with the devil and be surprised that he lied! A follower of Christ should not play with the lives of the innocent in the first place. People do not like President Trump and his administration. Well, God placed them in office in an overwhelmingly obvious display of His power, even saving President Trump's life twice, as He continues to do. So, you see, it really doesn't matter what you or anyone else thinks or feels, including myself. God is in control, and if He says Trump is His choice, then so be it. But honestly, if one cares enough about our country and truly wants to follow Christ, then the Bible should always be the final say in selecting someone for any position. How does what a person say and do line up with the Word of God?! That's the criteria. Everyone has the right to do or say or vote any way they choose, but one who professes to follow Christ, always follows God's Word. It's called surrender. Not a popular word in my family. 

Virginia had four years with a Christian Governor, Lieutenant Governor, Attorney General and Delegate. But now, the unhappy Christians now have a Governor who made it her first duty to change laws by to abortion to birth, change trans laws that hurt our children, and propose an abhorrent amount of evil legislation. We now have a Lieutenant Governor who is a Muslim, who very well may follow the example of the new Muslim Socialist in New York City where the call to prayer sounds five times a day, and I heard, but I have not confirmed, that Christians may be obliged to observe these prayer calls along with the rest of the population. Our Constitution was founded on Judaeo-Christian roots, and on moral rules, so when did it become legal to put in office someone who follows a god who calls Israel a little satan and American a big satan, and who calls for our death? If you think I am exaggerating, look it up. Just take a look at the slaughter occurring in Iran, all because people want to be free from a regime of hatred and violence. Lastly, our newly elected Attorney General was found guilty of fantasizing of murdering his opponent and his children. What about everyone else's children? Oh, yes, their babies are being killed, used for research, or taught perversion beginning in the lower grades. What happened to America? What happened to human beings? What happened to my family? It breaks my heart, and it breaks God's.

We must do better! God will not be mocked. Whatsoever a man sows, that will he also reap (Galatians 6:7-9). And as I printed above: "Truly, these times of ignorance God overlooked, but now commands all men everywhere to repent, because He has appointed a day on which He will judge the world in righteousness by the Man whom He has ordained. He has given assurance of this to all by raising Him from the dead.” (Acts 17:30-31).

Day 22 Through the Noise

 

1/22/2026

 "Let it be your business every day, in the secrecy of the

inner chamber, to meet the 

Holy God. You will be

repaid for the trouble it may cost you. 

The reward will be sure and rich."

Andrew Murray

 

My day began very early with the sound of feet pitter-pattering on my roof top. I looked out my window and saw men scurrying around, laying tarps on the ground, pulling ladders off their truck, busying themselves with covering the ground and bushes so the debris would not litter the ground. The day of waiting was over, and the men had come to put on my new roof. We had been instructed not to speak to the workers, to direct any questions to the office, or to speak to the crew supervisor. I was obedient, although I would have been able to speak to the workers, as I speak Spanish! Nonetheless, I waited, watched, and learned to adjust in order to participate in the global prayer call meeting and eventually finished preparing for my group study in the evening. The phone seemed to ring incessantly today, plus I had more than the usual text messages and instant messages. The "noise" was becoming deafening, but not from the work being done.

 

I've been participating in a fast with a local church, praying for the sins of our State, our nation, and our world, beginning with my own shortcomings. Believe me, I have plenty as I struggled through the day with all the activity. For months now I have been deliberately minimizing the emails that I open, because although I have reputable, Christian news and ministries, it becomes discouraging with all that happens in a day around the world. Not to mention the requests that I receive for prayer and financial support. It breaks my heart when I cannot assist tangibly. Since I retired many things have changed, but God does have me involved in the intercessory prayer ministry, and I am grateful to stand on the wall with others. I've been involved with intersession since I was very young, but with  progress comes excess. I was happy to see that the church I mentioned earlier was fasting social media, as that has been my idea for a very long time. I really am not one who sits and scrolls, and I am definitely careful whose information I read. Thankfully, God has given me an extensive education on watching out for false prophets, not that it's hard to miss if one is reading their Bible daily and seeking the Lord's counsel rather than that of man. Even so, I don't really do social media. Facebook for me is not a show and tell in the social sense, rather it is my podium for things that bring glory to God, and I use it to educate anyone who is interested in what the truth is about certain things happening in our world, especially our State and nation, and most definitely Israel. 

Today's devotional focus was from Acts 4:23-31, when John and Peter were arrested for preaching about Jesus and for healing the sick. The priests, the captain of the temple, and the Sadducees did not like what they were saying, as they were preaching about Jesus' resurrection from the dead. Many who heard the Good News believed, about five thousand men. The disciples were arrested, and then the next day they appeared before Annas, the high priest, Caiaphas, and others. They were asked by whose authority they were given to preach these things, so Peter, full of Holy Spirit, presented the gospel to the rulers. They were eventually beaten, told not to ever mention His name again, and released.  When they were encountered preaching again, Peter and John told them they had to obey God rather than man. I guess if more pastors and leaders read this account, perhaps they would understand that this is an instance when disobeying man is obeying God. There's much disagreement over praying for and obeying leaders that many mistake as gospel. God does not expect us to support ungodliness, nor does He expect us to support a political party. He expects us to support those who walk according to His Word, which is why we are to study to show ourselves approved unto God, workmen who need not be ashamed, but rightly dividing the truth (2 Timothy 2:15). The Bible is our guide to godly leadership, so we always support the person who is walking the closest to what God says on a cause or law. Always pray for leadership, however, as that is a clear mandate from our Lord.

This is the prayer the disciples prayed after being released:

"And being let go, they went to their own companions and reported all that the chief priests and elders had said to them. So when they heard that, they raised their voice to God with one accord and said: 'Lord, You are God, who made heaven and earth and the sea, and all that is in them, who by the mouth of Your servant David have said: "Why did the nations rage, and the people plot vain things? The kings of the earth took their stand, and the rulers were gathered together against the LORD and against His Christ." 'For truly against Your holy Servant Jesus, whom You anointed, both Herod and Pontius Pilate, with the Gentiles and the people of Israel, were gathered together to do whatever Your hand and Your purpose determined before to be done. Now, Lord, look on their threats, and grant to Your servants that with all boldness they may speak Your word, by stretching out Your hand to heal, and that signs and wonders may be done through the name of Your holy Servant Jesus.' And when they had prayed, the place where they were assembled together was shaken; and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they spoke the word of God with boldness." (Acts 4:23-31) 

Imagine what would happen if every church leader would pray a prayer like Peter's. Holy Spirit would shake the place, and the power of God would fill everyone with boldness to stand against the evil of this day. That's what I'm praying for! Hineni! 

There's so much noise in our nation and world today that it is deafening. This is why it is so important to separate ourselves, spending time alone with our Father, sitting at His feet, listening for His clear word of direction. Many turn on their computers first thing in the morning or their phones, and they begin scrolling and using their social media. Now with the advancement of AI things are becoming more insane, as men are blinded by what appears to be progress when it is NOT! It is my fervent, continual prayer that the church will awaken from their slumber, and pay attention to the signs of the times that point to the imminent return of Christ. Even so, Lord Jesus, come quickly! 

Day 21 Be the Light

 

1/21/2026

"And when the Pharisees saw it, they said to His

disciples, 'Why does your Teacher eat with

tax collectors and sinners?'"

Matthew 9:11

 

In the movie, The Christmas Candle, the new pastor, David Richmond, arrives in the town of Gladbury, where he has accepted the position at the church at the request of one of the matriarchs of the township. He is progressive thinker, who had not been a pastor of a church since the death of his wife and daughter from tuberculosis. He once was known as "the miracle man," because he believed in God's healing power and ability to perform miracles. When his family became sick, he prayed and believed for miracles, but they died, so he lost faith and walked away from the church. When the movie begins, he is serving soup in the homeless area of London in the modern age of electricity. He is visited by a lady from Gladbury who had attended one of his miracle sermons long ago, and she asked him to come to the town to be the pastor of the struggling church. They needed hope. After much consideration, he decided that he was meant to answer the call and return to ministry; however, he was not aware of the traditions he would encounter when arriving in the historic village of Gladbury.

Legend had it that a man named Harrington, a candle maker, had moved to the village in 1890 during hard times, and seeing the disheartened people he felt sadness over the suffering and lack of hope of the people. All he could do was devote himself to making his candles and praying for the people of the town. He was most sincere in his desire to see the helplessness leave their hearts, but he felt that his prayers made little impact. But he was wrong. As advent began, he prayed, and that evening there was a visit from an angel who touched one of the candles and blessed it. The candle was to be given to the one who needed it the most with the instructions to "Light the candle and pray." The one who received the candle lit it on Christmas Eve and did in fact receive a miracle, and the fortune of the town changed because of the happiness of the miracle for this family. And so the tradition continued for the next 200 years as each 25 years, an angel would once more visit and touch one candle. Upon hearing this story, the young pastor did not believe it, and this is the story of his journey into finding his faith once more.

During his time of skepticism, as he was working his way into belief, he worked his own miracle that preceded the others, by asking the people to be a light to others who were in need. He felt that this was the way to experience miracles - by being the miracle or the answer to the prayers of others for help. Basically, isn't that what Jesus called us to be? A light or help to those in need? In the Sermon on the Mount mentioned in the fifth chapter of the Gospel of Matthew, Jesus tells us:

"You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:14-16). 

This morning this story of the Christmas Candle came to mind as I was reading about Jesus' encounter with the Pharisees when they questioned Jesus eating with tax collectors and sinners. As they followed Him around the towns while He was working miracles, healing the sick, I imagine that they wondered why He always seemed to single out those people who were poor, homeless, of ill repute, widows, people perhaps considered of lower stature, not men and women of prominence. After healing a paralytic, drawing the attention of many others, Jesus passed by the tax office where Matthew was working. Jesus calls his name, thereby getting his attention, and He asks Matthew to "Follow Me." Immediately Matthew obeys, forsaking all. Later when Jesus was eating at Matthew's house with the disciples and other guests, including other tax collectors, and other men and women of ill repute, the Pharisees saw Him and asked: 

"'Why does your Teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?' When Jesus heard that, He said to them, 'Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. But go and learn what this means: I desire mercy and not sacrifice. For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.'" (Matthew 9:11-13)

In the story above, the candle maker was worried about having an heir to carry on the tradition of making the candles for the town that did not seem concerned about progressing to the 20th century and the use of electricity. The town wanted to condition the traditions of old, a fact discovered in a very sad way by the progressive young pastor. But, as often happens, when misfortune strikes, it opens a door for the true miracle to take place. Led by the new pastor the town discovers that they can be the answer to another person's prayers by simply being the light themselves. It's a wonderful story and a reminder that Jesus came to seek and save the lost, the helpless, the downtrodden in spirit and soul. He came as the Light to bring light and in so doing dispel the darkness of the age. Sin brings darkness and leads to death. Jesus came to set the captives free, deliver the sinner from the darkness of his sin sick soul, and shine the light of God's glory. We, who respond to His great gift by faith, calling on His Name in repentance, accepting salvation through His blood ransomed for our sin, walk in the light of His Presence and shine His light into the lives of others. 

In His ministry Jesus was known as a friend of sinners, so this proved to be a great discouragement for the religious leaders, as they did not know the Holy God, and their religion was on a form of godliness, denying the power thereof. Had they known the true message of the Gospel, perhaps their opinions and values would change; however, they denied the very existence of Christ as Messiah, although they had searched for Him all their lives. People put their hope in wrong things, as the people of the town of Gladbury who did not realize that the true miracle lies from within. This is the message Jesus taught, the message we believe, and the example we follow. One person, one miracle, one candle in the darkness, one light at a time. 

Day 20 Distractions

 

1/20/2026

"And seek the peace of the city where I have caused you

to be carried away captive, and pray to the LORD

for it; for in its peace you will have peace."

Jeremiah 29:7

 

Have you ever felt as if you're on a continuous roller coaster ride, swaying this way, a sharp turn the other way, until you're so dizzy that you don't know which way is which, and if you try to walk you find yourself turning in circles, confused? This has been my life since early December when my life had a major change. Of course it could have been a super change had it been the very worst, but God in His mercy and grace delivered us from harm. It seems as if the "distractions" are coming from every direction, and yet all around me are people who are going through so many life changes, and the only answer for all of us is to trust God and keep our eyes on Jesus. He is the only one who can keep us and deliver us through the storms of life. He is the only source of peace - God's shalom peace which is perfect and complete. We think we know so much, but the more we think we know, the less we do. But we can trust in God.

In the mornings I make it a daily habit to examine my heart as I begin my quiet time with Abba. So much is happening in our nation and the world that we need to make certain that our hearts are pure before a holy God. It's so easy to pick up an offense, or when we are going through something to judge another's lack of support as a lack of interest or not caring. I have asked myself more than once if I have any friends, but then, I have had the support of two sisters in the Lord, and my sister has visited more in the last month than I've seen her in months before. During the holiday season, however, it was a bit quieter, and I was unable to attend family functions. When I first moved here many things were different, and to say that living with someone with mental health challenges from trauma causing depression and suicidal thoughts is hard is a huge understatement. I have been trained in caring for such cases in my previous career, but not my own child. Finding out things I never knew but should have been told has been a huge eyeopener, and the guilt that follows can be debilitating at times. And it affects my health, and without the proper pastoral support for either of us, well, it makes it really difficult. I have become used to dealing with things on my own, and I've been on the back side of the desert for so many years, that I've learned to lean on Jesus. Focusing on Him, living in His strength, has been my safety in the storms. Still, God wants us to have human interactions and support, and it has been hard to find, except for a few rare people. Perhaps it's the times or the culture, but people are not as close knit as when I was growing up. Or so it seems.

I've found myself watching television more lately just to take a break from disappointing news, and I usually do not waste time looking at television. Sometimes because of the noise in my head from the last head injury, I need to turn on a movie, very low, barely audible, as a distraction so I can sleep. Highway to Heaven or Doc have been my bedtime buddies, both are clean series without sexual innuendos or worse. And when I need to binge, I turn on The Chosen as a reminder of the presence of Jesus. But I never waste precious time caught up in dramas, but because my focus was on escaping my situation, I found myself aimlessly wasting time just sitting there, not really focusing on the story lines, but nonetheless wasting precious time. I'm usually more intentional. Perhaps I've even been experiencing a bit of depression. Even so, I snap out of it easily by putting on Jewish music that sets my feet to dancing! and my heart to praising! After all, it's always a good time to praise the Lord!

The prayer call today pulled me back to my place on the Jerusalem wall as well as the Washington DC watch. As an intercessor I have a commitment to Israel to stand my watch praying with other intercessors across the nation and the world. When we answer a call to serve God, our lives are surrendered to Him. This is the life for me. Right now our eyes are on Iran and the people who are suffering under a dictatorship that spews hatred and violence. The people of Iran, precious Persian people who love Christians and Israel, only want to be free. Prophetically these are signs of bigger things to come, but we will remain firm till the end, engaged and focused on Jesus, the Author and Finisher of our faith and the Commander of the Armies of Heaven! 

When Nehemiah was sent back to Jerusalem to build up the wall of Jerusalem, he met with much opposition from the enemies who did not want the wall rebuilt, but he formulated a plan of action to insure success:

"And it happened, when our enemies heard that it was known to us, and that God had brought their plot to nothing, that all of us returned to the wall, everyone to his work. So it was, from that time on, that half of my servants worked at construction, while the other half held the spears, the shields, the bows, and wore armor; and the leaders were behind all the house of Judah. Those who built on the wall, and those who carried burdens, loaded themselves so that with one hand they worked at construction, and with the other held a weapon. Every one of the builders had his sword girded at his side as he built. And the one who sounded the trumpet was beside me."  (Nehemiah 4:15-18)

God has a plan, and distractions of this world will not hinder the work that He has for us to do. Many times over the years I have heard the same question voiced time after time: "What does God expect me to do?" I always point them to Micah 6:8: "He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?"  

When Jeremiah the prophet of God was taken to Babylon with the other captives, God encouraged him and told him to strengthen the Israel captives, telling them to build houses and plant gardens and eat the fruit of the land. He told them to marry and have children, so that they would increase in size and prosper. They were told to seek peace in the cities where they had been taken captive, and to pray and ask God to bless them with peace. He told Jeremiah that they would spend 70 years in Babylon, but after that time, He would visit them and cause them to return to Israel.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me, and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:11-13) 

His words apply to we who follow Him with a pure heart, and who seek Him and desire to live for Him, walking in His ways, applying His word to our lives. He will hear us, and He will deliver us from all the schemes of the devil, all the distractions he sends our ways. Just trust Him, and He will lead us safely home. 

Day 19 Honoring Martin Luther King, Jr.

 

1/19/2026 

"Use me, God. Show me how to take who I am,

who I want to be, and what I can do, and use it for a

purpose greater than myself."

Martin Luther King, Jr.

 

Today we observe Martin Luther King, Jr. who was assassinated in 1968 while standing on a hotel balcony in Memphis, Tennessee where he was to lead a protest march supporting the city garbage workers. I was a senior in high school that year, and I followed his life's work for years prior to his death. His death was a terrible blow to me, and it has followed me through the years. I still listen to his speeches, and his wonderful "I Have a Dream" speech continues to touch my heart. One day I'll meet him in glory, and I am anxious for that day.

I was reading his biography on the Nobel Peace Prize web, and it stated: 

"At the age of thirty-five, Martin Luther King, Jr., was the youngest man to have received the Nobel Peace Prize. When notified of his selection, he announced that he would turn over the prize money of $54,123 to the furtherance of the civil rights movement." 

He was a Baptist preacher, and an American civil rights activist and leader in the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People. He had a distinguished academic record, but he remained a humble man. He cared deeply for people, and I admire him greatly. 

 

 

He was a man of conviction who wasn't afraid to speak the truth and passionately stand up for the rights of others. When I think about all the injustices in our world now, the ones that are true and just, not ones being propagated in order to cause chaos and breed hatred and distrust, poisoning the minds of young people who are searching for truth and authenticity in a hate-filled, media-driven barrage of untruths and malicious behavior, I never thought I would ever see America reduced to what I am seeing today. Fortunately we have a President who is working to restore dignity and safety and restoration to our nation, and I think if Dr. King was still alive today, he would appreciate our leaders who are working so hard to share the truth and expose the lies that have been guiding people way too long. Perhaps he would be able to awaken the sleeping church, but he was trying to do that when he was alive and actively speaking up for righteousness and justice. Sadly the church is hard to wake up and harder still to speak up. But, now is the time to draw the line in the sand. Jesus did, and the naysayers walked away. May we walk in His example today. 

 

 

Day 18 Get into the Boat

 

1/18/2026

"Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch."

Luke 5:4

 

Today Pastor Greg was sharing about Peter's first encounter with Jesus at the Lake of Gennesaret. Peter was returning from fishing all night, and he was exhausted and frustrated, because he had not caught a single fish. This is how he earned his living, so I can imagine how much this weighed on his mind as the bread winner, and he was responsible to pay taxes to Caesar. Jesus had been teaching the people who had gathered by the sea, and He asked Peter if he could get into his boat to continue teaching. I loved this scene in the series The Chosen, because Peter's obvious displeasure about the situation was obvious, however, he did allow Jesus to get into his boat. The account in the Gospel of Luke did not mention Peter's brother, Andrew, as being present, but he did mention James and John, sons of Zebedee. I mention Andrew, Peter's brother, because he was the one who told Peter about Jesus in the first place. Andrew was a disciple of John the Baptist who was present when Jesus came to be baptized. Andrew was also a fisherman, so he was probably there. Jesus told Peter to launch out a little way and drop his nets. Peter told Jesus he'd been fishing all night and hadn't caught anything. Peter, whose livelihood was fishing knew the waters, nonetheless, He did as Jesus asked. That's when he got the catch of fish he wasn't expecting. Too many for one net, but Jesus did say "let down your nets," so when his net could not contain all the fish, he called for James and John. When Peter realized who Jesus was, he fell to his knees saying "Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord!" (Luke 5:8). Jesus told him not to be afraid, and then he called Peter, James, and John to be "fishers of men." 

There was another time when Jesus asked His disciples to get into a boat and cross over the Sea of Galilee to the other side. While Jesus was sleeping in the bottom of the boat a storm came up, and the disciples feared they would be drowned as the waves were violent, and the boat was filling with water. So they decided to arouse Jesus from His sleep out of panic for their lives. Jesus sat up, spoke to the winds, and they obeyed, the sea quieting down (Luke 8:22-25). This astonished the disciples who wondered who He was that even the wind and the seas obeyed Him. Jesus asked them why they had such little faith. After all they had been with Him and witnessed many miracles that same day, even the raising of the widow of Nain's son who was being carried out of the city in a funeral procession (Luke 7:11-17). Jesus had compassion on her sensing that her only son had died, and she had no means of support as a widow. So He told the man to rise, and he did, causing fear in the people who witnessed it. Then they gave praise and glory to God! 

After the feeding of the 5,000 found in John 6, the crowds were pressing in on Jesus, so He separated Himself to go to the mountainside to pray, while the disciples got into the boat to cross over to Capernaum. During the night a storm blew up, and the disciples were rowing against the torrent, frightened for their lives. When Jesus sees them stuck out in the middle of the storm, He walks on the water to get over to help them. The sight of Him frightened them, as they thought He was a ghost. When he got closer, He told them not to fear that it was Him, and Peter asked Jesus to call to him. Jesus did, telling Peter to keep his eyes on Him. At first Peter did, but later Peter sunk when he looked down. We are always told "Don't look down!" but Peter did and down he went, until Jesus pulled him up, and they got into the boat, the storm settling down.

Pastor Greg's approach to this lesson was not the same as my focus here. He mentioned the first story from Luke 5 and the net overflowing with fish, and he looked at instances where the three apostles were included and the others left outside. He suggested that perhaps it was because of the three's ability to either put their foot in their mouth, like Peter, or perhaps it had something to do with the Sons of Thunder, as Jesus named John and James, the sons of Zebedee, who had quick tempers. We can only consider why these three were always in the "inner circle," as in the transfiguration, the rising of Jairus' daughter from the dead, and in the Garden of Gethsemane when Jesus prayed asking the cup to be removed. I am considering their direction to "get into the boat, and go to the other side," and how it relates to our obedience.

Pastor Greg did ask if there was a time when God asked us to do something, and we didn't do it, or we hesitated. It's happened to me. I remember one time when I was a young mother, getting signatures from neighbors to stand for the Sanctity of Human Life, and a Christian refused to sign citing all kinds of statements that were not Biblical. I could take the non-Christian abuse, but this my young heart never thought possible. So I ran home, crying, telling God I wasn't going back out. I was given a vision of me hanging on to the doorknob, with a huge hand from heaven trying to pull me free. He wasn't cruel, nor did He tug, just a gentle nudge to let go, assuring me that He would go with me. I can't remember whether I went back out, but I'm pretty sure I did. I also had a similar time when I was distressed over something, and God gave me another vision of me as a child on my belly on the floor, kicking and screaming, and His finger was trying to still my fears by a giant finger against the middle of my back. I will never forget the Lord's insistence that I finish the job. My only thought as to why He chose me for these tasks is the same one I think every time He opens a door of opportunity: "But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him." (1 Corinthians 1:27-27). 

God wants our obedience. When I was waiting for a concrete answer about moving back home to Virginia after 35 years in New Mexico where my life had taken off finally, and I was living well, I need to make certain that He was the one saying to return, not me. After my divorce I never bought a home, as I was busy surviving, picking up the pieces, and it didn't seem to be a big deal. I was helping my daughter who was on disability, and I was working taking things as they came, and I enjoyed the home where I lived and my landlords and neighbors. I owned my own car, and I had a few possessions, second hand, but functional. I was content. After my daddy died, the home in Virginia was owned by me and my two siblings, and they wanted me to come home. About that time things began to change in New Mexico, and gradually over a period of years, I felt it was time to go home. I needed a home, and I already owned a third of one. Everything fell into place, but I wanted to make certain it was God's timing, and it just wasn't mine. Confirmation came in a text message from a friend who knew nothing of what I was doing, but the message said that God wanted me to "get into the boat, and go to the other side." The other side would be almost 2,000 miles driving, not by boat, but I got the message, and it became increasingly clearer by day, until on October 26, 2021 I ended up in Virginia. And so it continues. Sadly, I have not been able to return to New Mexico to visit, but hopefully, things will turn around this year, and I will be able to do so. Often obedience comes at a high price, but obedience is better than sacrifice per 1 Samuel 15:22. So I have learned to obey God. His is the best and only way. 

Day 17 Waiting

 

1/17/2026

 "But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength;

they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run

and  not grow weary, they shall walk and not faint."

Isaiah 40:31

 

No one likes to wait when they are waiting for something to happen. This is just human nature. We are naturally impatient, and society and culture has taught us how to expect, and often demand, an answer right now! But then, that's not God's way, and as His children we have learned that lesson if we are walking with Him daily. His timing is not like ours. In fact scripture says: "But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day." (2 Peter 3:8). He also says, “'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.'" (Isaiah 55:8-9).

I just finished reading the story of Joseph and how his brothers old him into slavery, and he was taken to Egypt for a period of time, where he grew in strength and power, as God prepared him for the plans He had for Joseph. In the end Joseph could have blamed his brothers for doing this to him, and he could have become angry with God, as people often do. But, Joseph's response to his brothers was: "But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive." (Genesis 50:20). 

In beginning to read the story of how God prepared Moses for the next leg of the journey for the nation of Israel, he had a considerable waiting time himself. When Moses was born, the Pharaoh of Egypt was killing all the baby boys being born to the people of Israel, because he feared they were increasing so rapidly in numbers that they would become stronger than them. The midwives feared God, so they did not follow the king's demands to kill all the baby boys. Then later, when Moses was born, his mother, knowing that God had given her a special child, hid Moses away, and he was raised by one of Pharaoh's daughters. God is so good that Moses' mother was chosen to care for him, plus she was paid to do so. God's plans are certainly way above our finite reasoning. Later on, Moses flees Egypt after killing an Egyptian who was hurting a fellow Israelite, and he ends up on the backside of the desert tending sheep for 40 years. During this time God was preparing Moses for His special plan as deliverer of His chosen people from Egypt. And as we know from history, this lasted another 40 years as they had to wander in the wilderness, learning another valuable lesson in trusting God's plan. 

I have been waiting for some answers recently, and today no matter which way I turned, what scriptures or devotional I read, even in my Shabbat sermon, the message for me was the same - Isaiah 40:31, as noted above, to wait on the Lord. This same message, once I thought about is the correct answer for a prayer request I recently received that I have been praying about for another. I knew there was something I was missing, and at just the right time, God's special and unique timing, the answer springs up not once, but thrice! He is so faithful to us. I even found the following word on my calendar from E. M. Bounds:

 "God is always within call, it is true; His ear is ever attentive to the cry of His child, but we can never get to know Him if we use the vehicle of prayer as we use the telephone - for a few words of hurried conversation. Intimacy requires development. We can never know God as it is our privilege to know Him by brief repetitions that are requests for personal favors and nothing more. That is not the way in which we can come into communication with heaven's King." 

God is never far away, and as this quotation says, He is always within earshot. We are the ones who fail to take the time to sit quietly, spend the time waiting, and we do not listen for His response. Sometimes it takes a while. As I mentioned, I'm waiting for an answer to some questions, and it's been over a month, but during that time I have watched Him and listened to Him in the prayer meetings I attend, the messages I listen to, and the scriptures I read, and I am hearing His voice, feeling His Presence, as I wait for specific instructions and answers. My job is to trust Him. So I will.