Sometimes I feel like I am at the edge of a great, winding chasm, hidden from the light of day, the only pathway visible is a downward spiral. Other times I find myself winding towards the top of the summit the light so bright, victory obtainable, but then, out of no where, a boulder shoots down the hill, and I find myself rolling down to the bottom. At times I am fortunate, and I grab hold of a branch or rock jutting from the surface, and I am saved from losing total ground. So it seems with this crazy game of life in which I find myself.
In truth we all face battles, but not everyone likes to admit they are fallible, they have shortcomings. All we hear are the bragging victories, but the victories are actually only tangible laurels, and the supposed victor's heart is longing and pain. Loneliness is very common especially when we have crowds all around, laughing, seemingly enjoying every moment of their weak, shallow, unfulfilled lives. All because of fear. Fear of appearing pathetic, fear of losing "friends," fear of what the family will say...fear...fear...fear!
And yet we confess to have a personal walk with Jesus Christ who lived beyond all fear..or rather...in spite of it. Does the price paid at Calvary say anything to us? We are victors through Christ, and we should be living beyond our circumstances. My only desire is to be more like Jesus, and when that becomes a true focus in your life, believe me, it brings sparks of anger to our enemy. So expect it! We will have battles to fight in our lives, it is unavoidable. The response is where the victory lies. And know this also, it can become very lonely as one by one, friends and family will misunderstand, and your "support" will slowly fade away. But the good news is that there is One who never turns a deaf ear, who is always by your side, and He remains loyal to you ALWAYS!! To me that fact alone is worth whatever else I endure.
My closest friend will be leaving next Friday or shortly thereafter, and the day she packs the U-Haul and drives off will be one of the most difficult days of my life. She is more like a sister to me than a friend, and she and I have stood together through years of tears and laughter, sorrow and pain, gaining and losing. The scripture that says, "A friend sticks closer than a brother." is accurate. Nonetheless, I can say "see you later" with a smile on my face and in my heart, because I know she's taking the next path on her journey, and it is time. Just as I know my next step will be taken. All I can really do, and keep my sanity, is focus on the here and now, on today, taking it step-by-step, and completing one goal at a time. Life can be hard, but as I look around me all I care to focus on are the countless blessings. Trust me, they are all around!
Tomorrow is Easter, the greatest celebration of the year! Remembering all He has done for us...for me! My cup runneth over! Yesterday I kept hearing the phrase..."Friday's here...but...Sunday is a-coming!" Well, today is Saturday, so one more day!! I'm already celebrating!
To all who visit my blog site...Happy Easter. I hope you experience resurrection life, and live it abundantly!
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