Day 302 Tell Them Daily

 

10/29/2025

"Our lives should be, according to our Lord's plans,

quiet but steadily flowing streams of blessing,

which through our prayers and intercessions should

reach our whole environment."

Ole Hallesby  

 

Last night, in the evening, I received unexpected news about a beloved friend whom I have not seen for awhile, and it has shattered my world. Since coming home I have received news from my previous home, my home away from home, a place I miss terribly, as I left behind many memories, and I have grieved the passage of time.

As most people know about my life, I moved back home to Virginia in 2021 the end of this October marking my fourth in my parents' home, shared with my younger son. Prior to this I spent thirty-five years in the beautiful Sangre de Cristo mountains of northern New Mexico, where my life changed drastically on one hand, and wonderfully on the other. This is where I found true joy and peace, and I met a lot of wonderful people who became my friends. 

When we first moved to New Mexico in January 1987, shortly thereafter I met my spiritual mentor and his wife, Peter and Rebekah Laue, who have been my friends since that time. They lived in Pagosa Springs, Colorado, but I met Peter through a mutual friend, Don Comptom, who was working with the boys' school in Springer, New Mexico, and my husband visited the prison regularly with Don. I can't remember how they chanced to visit us at our store in Las Vegas, but we became fast friends. Peter and I shared a common ministry of intercessory prayer. Peter and Rebekah had a sizable log cabin with a room over the garage lovingly called, "The Hiding Place," where many people have visited over all the years to be alone with God and sit in His lap. It's a wonderful place, and it became home to me, as I visited frequently. Since being in Virginia, however, I have not returned, but I wrote Peter and Rebekah a letter last week about my plans to visit my daughter and friends in New Mexico soon, and my deep desire to visit them and spend time with them in the Hiding Place. 

Last night, I received an unexpected phone call from Peter's son, John, who lives in California, asking me to give him a call, at his dad's request. I did, and I received the sad news that Rebekah had passed on to glory on Sunday after going through a tough few years where she became weaker and weaker. Peter had tried to get her up Sunday, but she was way too weak, so as she lay in bed, she said, "Peter," and he responded, "Rebekah." Then she said "I see light," and she went to be with Jesus. A simple, beautiful way to end a well-lived life. I can't think of a better and more peaceful way to go from this world to the next, forever with Jesus. John shared that he and his dad walked up to the mailbox yesterday to mail me a letter, and they found mine waiting in the box. He said our letters touched each other, and this stirred Peter's grief-stricken heart so much he wanted John to contact me. I'm so glad he did, sharing with me the last days of Peter's beloved handmaiden, as he tenderly referred to Rebekah. Peter obviously is grieving greatly, and I am having a difficult time of it myself. I regret not having talked to them more often, but they were not the kind to share such news. Life with Jesus is full of love, joy, and pleasure. 

Rebekah was a wonderful artist, and Peter has been a powerful writer, witnessing of the power and transformation in his life. A sample of his earlier writings can be found on an old website - https://www.stretcherbearers.com. Stretcher Bearers for Christ is the name of their ministry, and over the years their home in Pagosa Springs has been an open door for many travelers on the road to discovery in Christ. I'm not certain when I'll be able to go visit, as I am certain Peter needs time alone, and then, the holidays will bring his family. Plans for Rebekah's memorial will be individually celebrated, as each of their friends, myself included, will visit and share the time listening and remembering, alone with Peter. In a few days I will try to call, but I will be sending another letter.

I regret that the time passes by so quickly, and we become so busy in our lives that we fail to stop and make the effort to connect with those we love. When I shared this news with my older son, who has been battling cancer mostly on his own, due to troubling circumstances that have caused him to isolate himself from the family, with the exception of occasional text messages to me, he responded so:

"Well, at least she died with people who care. That's more than most people get. With health care issues so bad in this country it's only going to get worse sadly. Enjoy the time you have and tell the people you care about how you feel. I think that's the hardest lesson to learn. We all think we can do it tomorrow. But tomorrow isn't guaranteed." 

Wise words from one so cynical about life at this present time, but regardless of what he's going through, he has always responded to me with caring words, and even if he seldom says the words I'd love to hear, I know he loves me. His words are true. Regret is something I have had to live with too much, but I purpose with all my heart to try to do better. We are not promised tomorrow, and we do need to make the most of the time we have been given. Wiser words I cannot say, so I leave it here. 

Day 301 He Sees Me

 

10/28/2025

 "Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,

and cleanse me from my sin.

For I acknowledge my transgressions,

and my sin is always before me."

Psalm 51:2-3

 

It seems as if I have been in an intense spiritual battle for a few weeks, and particularly this one. The assault of the enemy is coming in seven different ways! Or so it seems. I just realized that this is the end of the month, and Friday is Halloween. Of course! The good thing about me is that I don't allow the enemy to get to me, because it doesn't matter who he uses to mount a full scale war against me, I am not going to lose my joy or my peace. I may get a little irritated, and I may shed some tears, and I may even tell God the same thing again - "Lord, I am so tired!" But then He quietly reminds me of Jesus' sacrifice and all He endured while on this earth. Likewise, He gently reminds me that Jesus is seated in heavenly places, right beside Him, in Heaven, making intercession for me. In other words, They are aware of my circumstances, and my feelings, and They are praying, plus Holy Spirit, who dwells inside of me, is interceding form me, sending messages to Them on my behalf! It's not as if I'm in it alone! I wonder if more Christians realized this fact would their overall view of life change?! 

Over this year of blogging, and even before, I have often shared about the pitfalls of my life, and it hasn't been easy, but it has been an amazing journey, and it continues to be that and more. All I do is try to be obedient to His word and to His daily instructions that He provides. Yesterday, while out traipsing around in the rain, running errands, with my friend, she asked me a question that opened up a sore spot in my history. She quietly listened as I shared my somewhat colorful life of wrongful accusations in my teenage years on through later life and my fall from grace, as I call it. My wake up call, which was almost instantaneous, as I have always walked with Jesus, or tried, even in my deepest, darkest hurts. At one phase of the conversation she asked me if I had forgiven myself, and believing I had, I replied, "yes" to her question. Later on, as I spoke to God about it, I realized that the reason the enemy is still able to drag me over to the proverbial rabbit hole, but he is unable to drag me under and down into that pit again is because I have not completely forgiven myself, but I willfully resistant to his devices.

I thought about it, and in the morning, bright and early, the confirmations of the word of the Lord came to me first through my friend, then Pastor Jack Hibbs whose scripture verses of the day were Psalm 51:2-3, as noted above. As the Lord always confirms in threes, to me at least, it happened again in my daily reading. As I was searching my heart, I realized that in order to break the cycle I needed to first, acknowledge that I needed to forgive myself, because God has forgiven me and no longer knows what I'm talking about! It's ancient unremembered history! Then, make certain that I truly forgave the ones who hurt me and abused me, and forgive those who try to blame certain things on me or accuse me of things not my doing. I need to set boundaries. That will require a bit more work, as I don't know how to do that. I have always shouldered the burden for everyone's shortcomings, but with God's help, I will persevere!

So, from now on, when the enemy tries to remind me of things that happened in the past, my response will be to silence him with "It is written....!" Just as Jesus did in the wilderness for 40 days and nights! I hope I don't have to duke it out with satan for that long continually, although he is tenacious in his sadistic ways, but God's word is forever settled in heaven, as I am fond of sharing. It is powerful and more active than any two edged sword (Hebrews 4:12). The only way the enemy can continue to bludgeon me with evil words and deceptive lies is if I allow him to do so. He has no authority, no open door, unless I allow one. 

Just as my eyes have been opened, bringing new life and much-needed healing, I pray that my words do the same for my readers. God's forgiveness is for all those who truly believe in Jesus and accept Him as Savior and Lord, as our Redeemer! Then we are faithful to forgive, as we have been forgiven of MUCH, and we grow in His grace and love, fulfilling His call to be a servant to others. This is our true FREEDOM! Share the good news!  

Day 300 Betrayal

 

10/27/2025

"In Thy faithfulness answer me."

Psalm 143:1 

 

As morning light breaks forth, the beginning of a new day, another page of life is born. A new chapter unfolds. A verse of poetry bequeathed in memories, hopes, and dreams, but lying underneath a web of lies, deceit, and deep scars. Help me weave a tapestry, a beautiful portrait of love and healing today, Lord. Aid me in eradicating the fear of daily betrayal, verbal arrows from one whose anger lashes out on innocence. Let your grace be sufficient for me today. My life is surrendered to You, as is my heart and soul. 

Sometimes I want to yell "Enough! Enough of the lies!" But I don't, because I don't want to hurt another's feelings, yet my heart aches with the pain of the insults that never cease. Sometimes I feel as if a target is drawn on my back, visible for all to see and draw aim. Are kindness and compassion inferior to hate? Can love break through and soothe the inner torment of a loved one's heart? I pray for answers.

"If I bow before Him in my inner chamber, then I am in contact

with the eternal, unchanging power of God. If I commit myself for the day

to the Lord Jesus, then I may rest assured that it is His eternal, almighty

power which has taken me under its protection and which

will accomplish everything for me."  

 Andrew Murray

Day 299 Blessed Assurance

 

10/26/2025

 "I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and 

delivered me from all my fears."

Psalm 34:4

 

The old hymn played over and over again in my mind carrying me on wings of prayer, bringing tears to my eyes. David the shepherd boy spoke of tears in the night being his companion, so I am certain that in his fellowship with the Great Shepherd worship was sweet and saturated with His presence. There is no fear in God's love. No matter what happens in the day or how many arrows fly by night in our dreams or internal conflicts that impede our sleep, His presence is tangible and real.

Blessed Assurance, Jesus is Mine

"Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine! Heir of salvation, purchase of God, born of His Spirit, wash'd in His blood.

This is my story, this is my song. Praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight, visions of rapture now burst on my sight; angels descending bring from above echoes of mercy, whispers of love.

This is my story, this is my song. Praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, all is at rest, I in my Savior am happy and blest; watching and waiting, looking above, fill'd with His goodness, lost in His love.

This is my story, this is my song. Praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long."  

Sitting here, listening and praying with the Christian embassy intercessors, someone says that "Unity is the soil where peace grows." He was referring to the perfect shalom peace that God offers, a peace that is lacking nothing, complete in every way - perfect! When the Jewish people say "Shalom shalom" in greeting or when leaving, it is said in the meaning of "May God's perfect peace be with you." We who love Israel, and who are learning to speak Hebrew, feel the same. One day we will be speaking Hebrew with Jesus, when He returns and takes us to our forever home.

A sweet spirit rested over the encouraging word spoken by Pastor Jonathan this morning at church. It was good to be in fellowship with the local body today. It was equally inspiring and uplifting to continue our study through the Old Testament with Pastor Greg at Harvest Ministries as we observe the appearance of Jesus to many Old Testaments characters, such as Daniel, Jacob, and Joshua. I love the balance of the word of God, one book, His Word, forever settled in heaven according to Psalm 119:89. More and more pastors are exhorting the church to memorize the word of God. It indeed is a lamp unto our feet and light unto our paths, as Psalm 119:105 states. When we have the word within us, and trials come, immediately we can defeat the negative attack, and use the words Jesus spoke to satan when He faced him in the wilderness by saying "It is written...!" 

The word speaks with clarity, and the wisdom of God is found on the pages of scripture. Studying the word and becoming intimately aware of the meaning of Biblical texts and times will be a strength in these disturbing days of mixed truths and messages. Jesus said many will be deceived, and I am witnessing the horrible effects of this reality. Knowledge of the Holy One or fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom that leads to blessed assurance. 

Day 298 Knowing

 

10/25/2025 

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for,

the evidence of things not seen."

Hebrews 11:1

 

Shabbat Shalom! It's a lovely Sabbath day with bright sunny skies, and a slight chill in the air that hints of cooler weather on the rise. I've missed services with Jacob's Tent for the last two weeks, so I was anxious to be back with them. This is the third Sabbath since the beginning of the new calendar year for the Jewish people, so the reading of the Torah - the first five books of the Bible - began all over again. I enjoy reading through the Bible again each year, because I learn something new each time I read it. My pastor has us studying a different book of the Bible, plus Jack Hibbs also covers a book at a time. I should be a scholar by now, but I am still learning, and I plan to continue to do so.

Today we discussed the life of Noah, a man counted as righteous by God, who was tasked in building an ark to house Noah and his family as well as two of every animal, birds and other species. God had grown weary of man's sinfulness, so He purposed to destroy the earth and all living creatures on it with a flood. The world had become so wicked, and the LORD saw that the wickedness of man was so great and his thoughts and the intents of his heart so vile that God was sorry He had made man. But Noah found grace in the eyes of the LORD, and He chose Noah and his family to survive the flood, so they could start again.

When Lamech, Noah's father, named Noah, he said, "This one will comfort us concerning our work and the toil of our hands, because of the ground which the LORD has cursed." (Genesis 5:29) Noah's name meant "rest." God spoke to Noah telling him that the earth was full of violence, so He was going to destroy it. He gave Noah instructions in how to build the boat, and Noah followed the command of the God without question. God told Noah that He would bring the floodwaters, but up until this time, no one had ever seen rain. He then promised Noah that He would establish His covenant with him, and from Noah would come all nations.

Imagine how much faith it took for Noah to step out and follow God's commands. Pastor Jack shared his experience as a new believer. He said that he read every book he could read, he was so hungry for the word of God, and anxious to experience His manifest presence. He said he labored for 5 months, until he realized that experiencing the presence of God comes from faith alone. God's words are truth and life, and that's the evidence. As I thought about it, considering my son's desire to see Jesus tangibly in this house, I thought that faith makes seeing unnecessary, because it's not sight, it's the knowing that makes the experience real, not a feeling, a knowing. We don't need signs, we just need faith, because His word is the evidence.

We, as believers in Christ, have so much to be grateful to Noah for, because his faith and obedience to God made it possible for us to be part of the covenant along with Israel. One man was considered righteous in God's eyes out of all the population. God did not say that his family was righteous, only Noah, but they were included along with Noah. This pattern will be seen in God's dealing other characters in the Bible. One God-fearing man plus his entire family are saved. It's a gift! 

Day 297 Master Designer

 

10/24/2025

"Our prayer life will become restful when it really dawns upon us 

that we have done all we are supposed to do when we have 

spoken to Him about it. From that moment we have left it 

with Him. It is His responsibility."  

O Hallesby 

 

Sometimes it's hard to let go, especially when it concerns our children, no matter how old they are. We can't turn the switch on and off when it comes to matters of the heart where our children are concerned. I've had more than my share of considerations when it comes to the welfare of my children over the years. I sometimes wonder if I was meant to have children, as I am told it was medically impossible, yet I birthed three healthy children. I experienced medical challenges all throughout my childhood, but as hard as my daddy tried to find help and, at best, relief, there was nothing medical science could offer in my era. Still I managed to survive, and I doubt that many of my classmates or friends even noticed. It was harder to hide the headaches when they became nauseating and so painful that I needed to lie down and cover my eyes, but I don't recall staying home from school much. It simply was not allowed. Sunshine or rain, we went to school. 

But here I am today, and although those first 57 years of my life were long, painful, and sometimes debilitating, I found unique ways to cover up, raise kids and run a household, go to college, mange jobs, volunteer at school, church, in the community, and a great many things. In spite of it all, I thank God for keeping me during those years. He heard me cry a lot, but He cradled me in His arms, taught me how to stand and be strong, finding His strength in time of need. I'm 75 now, so I've had a nice reprieve except for a few things over the years. Recently, I've been discovering that I can't do certain things as I used to, or at least, it's not advisable, but I still find ways around it. Right now I have a roof that needs some shingles nailed back down, and I have few interested in climbing a steep roof. I think I can make it up and get the work done, but I'm a little anxious about working my way back down. I guess we'll see how that one turns out. The fall from the crepe myrtles still haunts me, and the colder weather threatens to limit some movement. There are so many choices one has to make in life. "To do" or "not to do" that is the question!

I recently learned that certain members of the family for whom I pray daily are not inclined to faith in God. Religion is not something they have any interest in pursuing. I don't know why people don't realize that I am not religious or particularly spiritual. I am a follower of Jesus Christ, the One, the only One, who gave His life as a ransom for mine and theirs. I just accepted Him and His incredible gift of friendship and a relationship with God, who created me and everything else in this world. I once read: "Close your eyes and you'll see how much really belongs to you." That's a fact based on scripture that is true, proven, and on which I stand. How else could I have made it through this crazy life. And I've only shared bits and pieces thus far in blogs, even in conversations with others. My own sister knows very little about my life, but she's learning more since I moved back home. She's probably glad we don't get together much. My primary topic is Jesus. I live for Him. He's my go-to for everything. He's my life. Why is that so threatening to people. 

Life hasn't been easy for my children, and over recent years, I am discovering little secrets they were made to keep from me. Painful things, things I never wanted for any of them. Parents, who love their children and dream about the lives we desire them to have, would never want to see anything bad happen. I have a hard time seeing anyone mistreated or harmed in any way. Today I happened upon an article about a place in this State that is similar to my dream for an island of misfit toys, except this one is on a much grander scale. I wondered if it might be a place where I can volunteer, so I began to dream again.

In the book of Matthew Jesus is talking to the crowds, while the Pharisees are hanging around asking questions. He's sharing a message on the Parable of the Talents,giving illustrations about the Kingdom of Heaven and being prepared. In Chapter 25 He has already discussed the Parable of the Wise and Foolish Virgins, now Jesus is giving a more pointed sermon about the use of talents. He used money as the talent given, but talents can refer to gifts and callings, being faithful in little things, gaining more. The point of the parable is about multiplication of what He has entrusted us to use for the Kingdom. In this parable for the two people who wisely used what He gave them to manage, their talents were doubled, but for the one who did nothing, his talent was taken away and given to the one who made a profit. I think about this often, comparing it to the verse in Luke 12:48: "For to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more." Commentators say this can refer to wealth, gifts, talents, resources, knowledge, and a great many variables, yet to me it can also mean the degree of one's redemption. There is nothing we can do to buy salvation, but our gratitude is spelled out in our willingness to be faithful in all things. We are saved by faith, yet the word says faith without works is dead (James 2:17, 26). Jesus instructs us as He departs for Heaven to be diligent and continue to work, occupying until He returns. I have done a great many things in my life using the talents He has given me, and the gifts. Now that I am older, and frequently, slower, my mind continues to explode with ideas that I want to develop, and I want to share them with others, as I did at one time. I feel as if there is always some more that I need to do or finish. I am writing, or making attempts, and I am available, or at least I try to be. 

Today I found myself looking over the Coolworks site, a seasonal website for jobs, mostly at parks, resorts, and hospitality areas. I discovered that Glorieta, New Mexico now has Adventure Parks, and the jobs are full time and seasonal with housing. Glorieta has always been a Christian Conference Center, so I am not sure when this transition took place, but I'm happy that the old campground has been revived. It sounds like something right up my alley! I always dreamed of my place, my home for "misfits," and my children were part of the dream. But I realize more and more that things don't always turn out the way we'd love them to be. As sad as it is for me to watch my children, and my extended family, struggle, I have to lay it at the foot of the cross in the capable hands of the Master Creator/Designer. Just as He formed me and has a plan for my life, so He has an even better one for each of them. I will continue to pray, and I will trust Him. He has never failed me, or them, yet! And, He never will.  

Day 296 Gargle or Drink

 

10/23/2025

"Some Bible students drink at the fountain of

knowledge, others just garble."

Our Daily Walk

 

Jesus said, "If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink." (John 7:37).  In the beautiful old hymn, There is a River, the chorus goes as follows: 

"There is a river and it flows from deep within. There is a fountain, that frees the soul from sin. Come to this water; there is a vast supply. There is a river that never shall run dry". 

When considering the study of scripture in preparing for a sermon or considering a puzzling portion of a scripture that seems contradictory or otherwise difficult to understand, there is the temptation to seek the opinion of noted scholars in commentaries or their own exegesis written on the pages of their books. Wouldn't it be easier to sit down with God and discuss the matter with Him? I remember when I was in college, taking advanced literature courses as electives, if I had difficulty with a poem by T.S. Eliot, for example, I'd spend hours in the library reading critiques, rather than labor for hours trying to discover the secret of his prose for myself. In the long run, however, I did formulate my own opinions, but they had already been influenced by those of others. Today, if I decided to take a course just for the fun of it, I'd rely on my own considerations. With regard to scripture reading, I have never been one to really look past the scriptures, especially in the past thirty-five or more years, as I've developed a deeper personal relationship with God, and a love of His Word that holds all I need for life and godliness. Being an intercessor, spending time in prayer, reading the word to apply it to my prayers, I spend time listening and asking God's opinions or meaning on passages I find puzzling. I feel that's the better way, and it turns out that God wants to sit, chat, and teach me while enjoying a cup of coffee. It's called relationship, and He's all for it! That's the reason we're here - to learn of Him and to grow like Christ.

At the Passover celebration that Jesus shared with His disciples, He used that time to detail what was going to happen next - how He would be betrayed by one of His followers, how Peter would deny Him, and how the others would scatter and run. He told them the particulars of His trial, torture, ridicule, crucifixion, burial, and His resurrection. He washed their feet thereby demonstrating to the disciples that in order to be great in the Kingdom of Heaven, you had to be willing to be a servant. He taught them humility and kindness. He even instructed them on what would happen after He left, how He would send the Helper or Holy Spirit to help them. He wanted them to know that He would never leave them nor forsake them. And He wanted to let them know that He would return for them one day and bring them into His Kingdom. It was a lot to swallow in one evening, but then, Jesus had been telling them a lot of this over time. 

Jesus wanted them to be prepared for what would happen in the future, even past their time on earth, yet He wanted them to know that although they would share persecution and an end similar to His own, He would always be with them. Holy Spirit would be their Guide, reminding them of all He taught, of all the miracles He had done. He would indeed be their Comforter, as He is to us today. The promises Jesus made for His disciples then are true for us today. He warns of false prophets, those pretending to be Him, showing up saying they are the Christ and to follow them. But He warned us to beware and to be prepared for what is to come, what is already here, right now, staring us in the face. I wonder how many truly see and understand?! So many terrible things, calamities have happened, that it is hard to think that what is to happen will be more catastrophic than anything we have ever experienced or witnessed. But the scriptures are true. Persecution is already worldwide, and if we disobey God concerning Israel, then we will experience worse than Pharaoh when he would not let God's people go. Did Jesus mean to frighten us? No, because in John 16:33 Jesus says: "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

After saying these words Jesus lifted His eyes to Heaven and spoke to God, His Father in Chapter 17 of John. He prayed for His disciples, but He also included all believers who would come to know Him through the Good News that they would share to a lost and dying world. And that is our journey in Christ. We are told to go into the world, all of it, and preach the gospel, making disciples of all men, performing miracles, healing, deliverance, using the gifts of the Spirit freely. To do great exploits for the glory of God the Father, preparing for His Second Coming. That was the mandate then, and it remains the same for today. So, drink deeply of the water of the Word of God, come and sit with Jesus the better part of your day, learning of Him, there is a vast supply of this soul-drenching flow. "Come to this water; there is a vast supply. There is a river that never shall run dry". 

 

Day 295 A Man After God's Heart

 

10/22/2025

"Pride is the only disease known to man that makes

everyone sick except the one who has it."

Daily Walk

"I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners, 

to repentance."

Luke 5:32

 

Have you ever met someone who always had to be right? I don't know why that is unless it is a lack of self-confidence that is played out in a different way. I will never understand the motives of another's heart, but then I don't have to. That's God's business. But I am called to love everyone just as they are. Sometimes this is hard.

When Jesus was ministering to the people, He drew crowds from all walks of life and all ambitions. In fact He was highly criticized by the Pharisees and other religious leaders for the company He kept. When the Pharisees questioned the type of people He hung around with, those He separated for His reasons, He answered them with parables. If they questioned Him, hoping they'd trick Him, so they would be able to accuse Him of a crime, He would always counter with His own questions. Although the religious leaders wanted to trap Him so they could haul Him away to the Romans for treason, keeping their hands clean, Jesus would always silence them. They knew if they answered in a way that displeased the people, they would have to face a battle. So they waited, schemed, kept trying to set Him up. Eventually, all their conniving paid off with the arrival of Judas, the betrayer, but even then, Jesus could have called on the angels of Heaven to rescue Him from death, had He so chosen. But He didn't. 

When the Pharisees complained about Jesus dining with tax payers, prostitutes, and other seedy individuals, Jesus told them that He had called sinners to repentance, not righteous men, such as themselves, although He implied the last part. In this instance, he spoke about their spirituality and how they loved to be seen by others as important and powerful, to be feared and "reverenced." That really didn't go over very well, but then, usually when someone stands up and speaks the truth, people become offended. Jesus could be very direct, but He was here on a mission, and His plans or the plans of His Father, would not be thwarted.

Today Dutch Sheets, Give Him 15, commented on what he called "The Gift Mentality," common in the earlier days of the Charismatic revolution of earlier years and during the Jesus Revolution of the 70's. The new Christian believers, hungry for the Lord, often tried to grow too fast, and they misused the gifts of the Spirit that they were given. In the Jesus Revolution movie Chuck Smith of Calvary Chapel who shepherded these new Christian believers from the hippies movement, didn't really know how what to say when Lonnie Frisbee started experiencing the move of Holy Spirit in his life with gifts of knowledge and healing. Lonnie, not knowing how to respond decently and in order, as the Bible instructs, often interrupted the services, and eventually was asked to leave or chose to leave, when he was counseled by Chuck on this habit. Over the years this misuse of gifts and the subsequent problem of people running after the gifts more than the Giver of all gifts, led to a haughty spirit and misused the gifts of God. Dutch shared about one man, Hubert Lindsay, who although he was a part of The Jesus People Movement, experienced a different response to how to reach people for Christ. Dutch share:

"'I became so burdened for this generation,' Mr. Lindsay said, 'that I would walk the streets of the campus - sometimes all night long - weeping and interceding for those lost kids. I pleaded with God to save those young people.' God had given this man His heart for a lost generation."

Mr. Lindsay wasn't about the "gifts," he was about the calling - the Giver! He was a man after God's own heart, like David. It makes a difference in a ministry. Today we're seeing many people claiming to be gifted and using the title of "Apostle, Prophet, Evangelist, pastor, teacher" which are the five-fold ministry gifts given for the edification of the church. Some say these gifts are no longer in operation, because they have made a division between the Old and New Testaments, but they do recognize spiritual gifts and callings. It can become too confusing and create division if we place our eyes on any other than God's Word. Contrary to the belief of many, the Bible is one book inspired by Holy Spirit. If Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever, then His Word is the same. If He is eternal, so is His Word. Yet there are so many who argue over these facts. Jesus told the Pharisees in Matthew 23:24: "You blind guides! You strain out a gnat but swallow a camel." He said this in response to the heavy laws they were adding to the scriptures to burden the people, while not practicing them in their own lives, as they were too impossible to keep. He told them that they exalted themselves by wearing phylacteries and enlarging the borders of their garments. In verse 14 of Matthew 23 Jesus scolded them by saying: "'Woe to you, scribes and pharisees, hypocrites! For you devour widows' houses, and for a pretense make long prayers." 

Because Hubert Lindsay followed God's way, crying out for the souls of others from pure heart, earnestly desiring to see change in the hearts of the generation, God blessed him with revival, which is the fruit harvested from good seed planted on the prepared soul through intercessory prayer done in the secret place alone with God.  

Day 294 Layers of Blessings

 

10/21/2025

"Mercy, peace, and love be multiplied to you."

Jude 2

 

For the past couple of nights I have been unable to keep my eyes open, so I've gotten to bed a little earlier than usual. The only thing is that I wake up exhausted. I think that has a lot to do with whatever is going on with my health, but then who knows, because I really don't pay that much attention to cause and effect. I made chicken and rice soup on Monday, so I know that will cure my ails or so the ole wives' tales go. But since I didn't have to worry about supper tonight, it left me a bit freer to venture outside on this beautiful afternoon and battle the bushes. I had to contend with birds building nests amid the thorny vines, so some areas still need cutting. I hate to disturb nature, so those will have to wait. My cat was missing in action again, and it would have been the perfect day to play with him as I raked or cut branches or hauled the trimmings to the burn area. But no, Alejandro - that's what I call him when he behaves badly - never showed up, nor did he announce his appearance at the dinner bowl. Cats!! I say that a lot!

Before heading outside I was spending some quiet time, catching up on Pastor Jack's verse of the day. When I'm studying Paul's epistles, he always opens with "Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ," or similar words as a salutation. In the book of Jude, written by the half-brother of Jesus, his opening comments are "Mercy, peace, and love be multiplied to you." Then his next two verses are off and running about contending for the faith. As we read, Jude is warning the church about the battle of apostasy in the church and the emergence of false teachers who will infiltrate the body to cause confusion and chaos:

"Beloved, while I was diligent to write to you concerning our common salvation, I found it necessary to write to you exhorting you to contend earnestly for the faith which was once for all delivered to the saints. For certain men have crept in unnoticed, who long ago were marked out for this condemnation, ungodly men, who turn the grace of our God into lewdness and deny the only Lord God and our Lord Jesus Christ." Jude 3, 4 

I noticed that in Peter's first epistle he said "Grace and peace be multiplied." He was also dealing with issues outside of the church with false teachers creeping in. When Pastor Jack was discussing the verse, he said that the blessing was a layer on layer type blessing with the use of the term "multiplied." We know that "mercy" - more explicitly God's mercy - is not getting what we deserve; "peace" references God's shalom peace that transcends all understanding and is complete in every way; and "love" is God's agape love which is unconditional. Pastor Jack has a way of explaining things that makes it memorable. In this instance he uses In-N-Out Burger's 4x4 burger as an example, or perhaps that is his name for his favorite burger. It's like layer of layer of meat stacked on top of each other making it quite the sandwich. An adequate illustration for foodies, I imagine, but for me I much prefer layers of chicken and corn tortillas with green chili! But in considering this triple blessing of mercy, peace, and love, Jude is emphasizing the need for a greater blessing, or as Pastor Jack added in a world of ugliness, God makes all things beautiful. It made me think of Psalm 24 that opens with "The earth is the Lord's and all that dwells within." So in essence, the false teachers cannot contend with God's children, but as His children, we need to be ready to stand against every attempt of the enemy to sneak in. Peter reminds the church of how to remain in the faith and of the lifestyle they are to live. 

I received an email from one of the anti-trafficking ministries I follow announcing their short video nominee for the Utah Film Festival that, although tactfully done, was somewhat too graphic for my ole mind to see today. Or perhaps, not graphic, but suggestive, as it hits too close to home with me. But it opens up warnings for vulnerable teenagers, and how they are lured in by these professionals pretending to be a peer, or worse, showing interest in getting to know them better. Kids are lonely and confused, and in the world we live in, the schools are not protecting them well. In fact, they are making it worse. One thing leads to another and then the teenager is extorted with videos being spread around or threats of using the videos for gain. I haven't been able to become too involved in this area of ministry, because as I said, it is too close to home for me, but I do pray, post information, and I connect with several sites. Right now I know of a situation that is an open door to this type of betrayal or worse, but because of the denial of the parents, my hands are tied. Everyone has rights, until they are violated, and then it's someone else's fault or problem. Wrong. Parents need to be alert and open to truth. Experience means nothing to some people, as they think it can't happen to them. Wrong again. This is why I do not get excited by AI. Even Elon Musk has admitted the dangers of it, and yet our society is using it for everything. Years ago I saw a movie called Transcendance staring Johnny Depp (2014), that demonstrates the power of science and technology. It is well worth the viewing. 

These are troubling times, and whereas good things are happening with our young people, there are still problems plaguing the young. This is why we must be vigilant in contending for our faith and fighting for our homes and marriages. It's a time when we need layer upon layer of mercy, peace, and love, and we need to be busy spreading the word that God loves this world, and He sent a Savior to save us and deliver us from what is to come. Because what is coming is much worse than what is already here! 

Day 293 Gleaning

 

10/20/2025

"As we learn to know Jesus, our prayers become

quiet, confidential, and blessed conversations with Him,

our best friend, abut the things that are on our minds."

O. Hallesby

 

Waking up with determination in my heart and a prayer on my lips, I managed to steal myself away in quietness, to sit alone with God to seek my day. I admit it was a struggle as I awakened with this severe aching pain, I call it discomfort, in my shoulders and arms that has been plaguing me for weeks now. The battle has been gearing up steadily for months, and I don't have a clue as to what's wrong, mostly because I don't want to know. I just keep going. That is my life story, but I confess that there are days I want to cry, which does little good with the exception of clearing my sinuses. Pain is not something we make light of, but this is my way of coping with things, and it has worked for my 75 years of life. I trust God, because it is He who has made me, and I am fearfully and wonderfully made, with a plan and purpose. Nothing can hinder His plans for my life.

Around noon I packed up my doll kit and headed off for Dolls on Mission group. I had painted faces that I needed to turn in. The group seems smaller and smaller each time I go, but it was a cheerful group and an enjoyable time. I did not succumb to the evil of gluten at the munchie table of goodies provided for the workers, and even though the scrumptious appearance of carrot cake on my neighbor's plate was enticing, I fought the urge. Gluten is not my friend, and if consumed it is a painful reminder of the consequences of going against the stern warning of my doctor. Rather than painting faces today, I elected to draw the pattern and cut out the heads for someone else to paint. After that I cut out the bodies, as one cannot have a head without a body! The devotional discussion provided by one of the ladies applauded our efforts as missionaries here at home - as we are making the dolls for children in foreign countries, bringing the Gospel of Jesus Christ to them through the message of the dolls. It's a lovely way to pray for those who receive these precious creations from our hearts to theirs. We have one lady who accompanies some of the dolls to the country of choice, as she is a volunteer for Samaritan's Purse Operation Christmas Child. I was invited to take part in the chapter close to my home, but I declined due to the overload of ministry work I have now. I do love Samaritan's Purse as a ministry for so many needs, not simply Operation Christmas Child. I have thought of applying for a position, but I am waiting for a clearer directive. Sometimes I get back into that old thought mentality of being too old to serve. When I go to the Dolls on Mission on Mondays that idea flies out of my head as I see Eva, who is 101, still working hard at her table stitching up the closures after the dolls are stuffed. She walks in unassisted, and she is remarkable! 

Back home I had supper to prepare and many computer things to attend. I receive a never-ending battery of emails, many of which are filed for another day that never comes. I'm trying to unsubscribe or simply delete many. All have important information, but are redundant of other ministry emails, so I am getting more efficient in saving only what is needed. One day I'll have to go back and delete files from my overloaded hard drive, but not today.

One of my scriptures today is found in 2 Corinthians 3:18: "And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord's glory, are being transformed into His image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit." Paul had sent Titus to the church in Corinth, who had been swayed by false teachers seeking to undermine the calling and message of Paul. His letter was commending their change of heart. Here Paul is saying that although Moses had to put a veil over his face after he'd been in God's presence, Christ had removed the veil or separation between man and God. In the verse prior to this one Paul reminds them that where the Spirit is, there is freedom. The devotional spoke about surrendering to God totally, bringing our concerns and questions to Him, because He knows them already. He knows everything we say or do or think before we act on it or battle against it. He created us and knew us before the foundation of the earth. Psalm 139 is a beautiful reminder of His creative Spirit and His divine love for us.

 

I love this artwork called "You Knit Me Together in my Mother's Womb" based on Psalm 139. I believe that it is available for knitters also. In case you're wondering, I use Pinterest for my illustrations, as I have a board for my blogs and for other interests. I don't have a lot of time to spend looking at pins, but at least I know that I am not infringing on rights by using their pins, or they will let me know if I have unintentionally used one that someone else had previously used in error. It's my fail safe so to speak. 

My day ended with Little House on the Prairie, but I fell asleep in the middle of it. I gleaned the best of my day, thought about all the Lord had shared with me in private, and in the muddling through of my day. There is so much to learn! 

Day 292 Noise

 

10/19/2025

"The child learns to speak because his father speaks to him.

He learns the speech of his father. So we learn to speak to God because 

 God has spoken to us and speaks to us. By means of the speech of the 

Father in heaven His children learn to speak with Him.

Repeating God's own words after Him, we begin to pray to Him."

Dietrich Bonhoeffer

 

This has been an interesting Sunday, not exactly as I had planned it, but then my days seldom do go as planned. Nonetheless, they're enlightening in one way or another. I always learn something fresh and new, and I hope that I always do. 

Pastor Jack's verse of the day came from Philippians 1:9: "And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in knowledge and all discernment." That went well with my personal thoughts of the day. So much is happening in our nation, Israel, and the world's response. There is, to quote a friend, "a cacophony of noise" all around us, in response to current situations. There's so much discord and chaos, no one wanting to take responsibility for actions or reactions, and there is no accountability in our leaders, all leaders, and not just in government. It's a time where many are afraid of what's happening, and no one is giving appropriate answers, in fact no one is talking about what is actually going on. But that's simple really, because the answer is sin and pride, and if you examine the words sin and pride, what do you find that each word has in common? Let me help...SIN and PRIDE. "I" is in the center of each word, and that is generally the cause of many disputes in our lives, even in leaders. I won't belabor the point, because I've said it all before. Sometimes saying less is saying more. 

God allows difficulties to come into our lives, and into the nation, in order to test our characters. I've spoken of this also. I like the expression "All that glitters is not gold." Many people are talking about many new innovations or strategies, and I much prefer to compare every "process" or "idea" by asking God what He  thinks about things. That may sound foolish or impractical to some, but as believers and followers of Christ, everything is judged by scripture, or it should be. If we took time to study and know the Word of God, we would have less cause for medical assistance with prescriptions for anxiety and depression. All He asks is our love and obedience, and He wants us to have relationship with Him where we turn to Him and ask for help. God is not a crutch, He is active, alive, and responding to prayers. Our response is to keep on asking Him our questions and wait on His response. 

"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened." Matthew 7:7-8

Sometimes the response is not one we want, as having to endure suffering never is, but God does allow situations to see our response and the check our sincerity. As an illustration, think about gold as it goes through the process of refining. All the dross or impurities have to be purged from gold in order to purify it and increase its value. In biblical times the proper way to purify gold was to put it in a crucible and expose it to extreme heat in order for it to melt. When the dross or impurities rises to the surface, they are skimmed off. The process is repeated until one's appearance is reflected in the refined gold. The process of cleaning the dross from our lives happens in much the same way. In the midst of persecution, when we are suffering, God puts us through the fiery trials to see if we can withstand the pressure in the evil days. As humans, we tend to dislike any discomfort or hardship, but as God walks with us through the valleys and storms, we can witness first hand His comfort and love, and we are able to endure the hardest of circumstances, because we love God and desire to do things the right way, His way. Life in Christ is a process of growth that requires walking with Him daily, learning to be more like Him. We are made in His image, and when we accept Jesus as Savior and Lord, then the process of transformation into His character begins.

It's important how we handle all matters, as we have others watching our response. More importantly, God is watching, and he does not take kindly towards those who cause another to stumble, especially little children. Regardless of how busy Jesus was, he preferred children, and he prayed for them and blessed them and called attention to them. So much more should we do all we can to be the light of Christ in their lives. Sadly, many children are raised without a father, so they often go astray seeking attention and learning the wrong way to survive. Single mothers do the best they can do, and many have been successful at raising their children to become responsible and respectful adults. The price is high for these mothers, but they want a better life for their children. I can understand this desire, and it comes at a heavy price. Men are supposed to be the heads of the household, the ones who love and care for their wives, and they are to nurture and train their children to be obedient, loving and kind, and prepare them for life. Sadly our best is not good enough, and our well intentions are not received as such, and there is no pie in the sky. If I could gather all the foster children together, provide a home with well cooked meals, teach them the lessons they need to know, beginning with introducing them to a God who loves them unconditionally, and whose love never changes, that would be my dream. Being able to give them a proper life, one where love leads to kindness and a desire to pass the qualities on to the next generation and the next. But time is running out, and rather than a generation who treats others well, where laughter and love for one's neighbor is the accepted way to live, we see a troubled, self-seeking, defiant people. The examples they see are adults struggling to get by with leadership that is consumed with power and greed, who cannot live in civility with one another, disagreement the order of the day, while others suffer the consequences of their wrong decisions. But the younger generation can be and are being reached, because when a person is starving, they want to be filled. In the case of the present generations, they are seeking truth that is tangible, not merely voiced, without seeing substance or the fruit of those words being lived in life. They need to learn the right language, and this is where the church and ministries birthed from the church come into play. This is why Turning Point USA was so effective in turning out leaders, giving the desire, the confidence, and the resources to make a difference in this world, for the next generation. There are other ministries working to the same end also, making young disciples who will change the world into a God-fearing nation. We cannot remove God from our lives.

We must turn off the noise, the distractions, the double minded behavior of this present day, and be the men and women of faith we were created to be. Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom according to scripture, the Word of God as our guide. Learning to sit quietly with the Lord, making this our daily habit, seeking Him early. Relationships begin and end with Him. We must do better if this world is going to exist, and we must train up the children in the way they should go, so that when they come of age they will not forget. It is never too late for change. 

 

Day 291 Just Thinking Again

 

10/18/2025

"The truth never hurts - unless it ought to."

 

Where do the years go? What happens to friendships that seem to be so lasting, and yet time and distance seem to wear away the closeness or maybe things weren't really as strong as we thought. Then again there are people we seldom see or even talk to, except on a spur of the moment decision when we pick up the phone out of the blue and try to connect. Someone picks up the call, and it's as if time has never passed by, and the closeness you once had is still just as strong if not stronger. What makes the difference?

As I'm reading through my journals I am seeing names of people who were once close to my family, who attended the same church, some we had over for dinner. In fact it seemed as if we had people over for dinner quite frequently before we made the big move to New Mexico so many years ago. I read the names of those who reached out to my husband in his greatest time of need, and whereas I remember a few names, I don't remember so many people who supported him at that time. It was a tragic incident that forever changed our lives, but it's not something that I feel inclined to share now. I'm just wondering where everyone went, and why I was left alone when I needed a friend.

Somehow I always blame myself when things go wrong or are not as they should be. People are very important to me, and I feel as if I do form friendships rather easily. I've always been particularly fond of those others don't like or who are considered to be strangely different or underdogs. Perhaps because I consider myself a misfit toy, but in the best sense of the word. No more rabbit holes, remember?! In writing I am beginning to wonder how much freedom I should take to expressing certain feelings. I like to think that I'm a kind person, but my son tells me I'm a bit of a cynic at times. Perhaps, in a mischievous way, but then I'm learning that it's not pleasing to be suspicious of other's feelings or remarks. I always felt that I was way too trusting, and that has not bode well for me. Isn't it fun to psychoanalyze yourself?

Today I was thinking about unintentional lies, like exaggerating things, making them bigger or seemingly more important than they actually are or were. I began to think of the motives of my heart all over again. The other day Pastor Jack was sharing about Ananias and Sapphira in Acts 5:1-11 and how they lied to Peter about the sale of their land. The Lord struck them dead, because they intentionally lied, and they had no reason to do so. In Matthew 12:36 Jesus said: "But I tell you, on the day of judgment people will have to give an accounting for every careless or useless word they speak." That's a fearful thought, and I don't want to be that kind of a person. It makes me glad that I try to think before I speak. Many times I think people talk when they should be listening, or just be present. Silence can be the right response. Actually listening can open up clearer communication with God. The older I get the more I realize that I have so much to learn. I'm always examining motives of my heart, and I tend to be too hard on myself, I think. But in such situations, I'd much rather err on the side of caution.

"There are none so blind as those who will not see."

I've been reading the parables of Jesus in Matthew, and the disciples questioned Him about why He didn't speak more clearly. He said that some would understand, but others would not. I imagine that had to do with the openness or readiness of their hearts to receive, or again "motives." He told one group that all they wanted was food, or perhaps they came to be healed or to witness the miracles. I loved the way Jesus taught using real life situations in a simple, informal, yet specific way of teaching. He wasn't out to impress anyone, just show them how to live godly lifestyles and share the kingdom of heaven. His first words when He began His ministry were the same as John the Baptist's - repent for the Kingdom of God is at hand. Simple, direct, and on point. He said that we'd be known by our fruit, meaning character that develops from a well-lived life. That's what I want my life to be like - fruit bearing, the character of Christ who went around doing good. Psalms 17:15 is a good verse to consider when desiring the well-lived life: "As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness; I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness." The moment I pass from this life to the next I'll pass into the arms of the Lord, beholding His beauty and in His likeness. This is the promise. To be like Him.

Many things pass through my head as I consider the things I've learned and am still learning. Each day brings new challenges, new information, and the word opens up the truth of God's kingdom if we only have eyes to see. Everything we need to know, every answer to every question can be found in the one book of life, the Bible provided to us by God. Everything we need for life and godliness is contained on the pages of His Word (2 Peter 1:3-8). I pray I learn my lessons well.

 

   

Day 290 Perspective

 

10/17/2025 

"Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. 

For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought,

but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with

groanings which cannot be uttered."

Romans 8:26

 

For the past couple of days Alex has been a little frazzled, and he seems to want a lot of attention for a semi-feral cat. When he wants a little extra attention he comes around more often. He knows this is his home, but he seems to travel around. I'm not certain where he spends his nights, because he has not warmed up to his mini dog house yet, even with a new bed of straw. He loves rolling in the dirt and pine needles, but even the blanket of pine needles and leaves didn't tempt him to try out his new digs. That cat! One thing's for certain, he is well fed, and he's quite a handsome fella, so I'm thinking he's made himself a home away from home somewhere close by. At least he knows this is home, and he's knows that I'm his human mama. Knowing he's safe is the most important thing to me, and I want him to feel loved. 

Since yesterday's rant I've accomplished a few things. I managed to straighten out the spare room that is actually my room. It's my sewing, painting, and crafting room at present, but it is badly in need of an overhaul, as there's not much room in this house. It's amazing how my parents raised three kids with only three small bedrooms and one bathroom. Before I moved back home, I gave away a lot of stuff that I had, thinking that my daddy would have the tools and yard items I needed, but I was mistaken. His were so old that I don't know how he continued to used them. Plus, he was fond of electrical tape to repair exposed wires. That is not exactly the safest practice, but my daddy seemed to fix things his way, and it worked. He was a meticulous mechanic, reminiscent of the Fonz in Happy Days. I don't think he'd be too pleased with the state of his work area right now or with his little hiding place downstairs in the basement where he spent many afternoons listening to his blue grass music. My son has taken over residence in the dungeon, so appearances have changed. It is due a good cleaning, but then, what isn't around here!

Living here has opened up memories, things that I forgot about, but things that were important. Going through my journals trying to find dates and places hasn't helped my frame of mind either. Somehow I wonder why I'm putting myself through all the stress for a story. I even wonder if my story is worth sharing, but then, it's not really my story, it's God's. Everything about my life has been because of His hand on my life, so how can I do it justice?! This is where prayer comes in, and I need a lot of prayer these days. I don't really ask much for myself, except for the Lord to guard my speech and my heart. I could use a bit of quiet and peace and some down time, but wars don't allow for that. Watchman stand their ground, and I'm determined to do that. I want to be faithful in fighting the good fight of faith for Israel. 

Today I watched a movie with my daughter, although she's in New Mexico, and I'm in Virginia. She watches on her end, and I enjoys things here. Then we may talk later on about the movie, things that were said. She seems to recognize the importance of words more these days. Or at least she understands my way of thinking about the way people act a certain way or react to things. I always look into people's eyes, and I see a bit more than a person may normally see. I think being alone for most of my life, working with people who had special needs, who needed a listening heart helped me become more compassionate and patient. My daughter is a very patient person, even though, like me, she has experienced a life of chronic health issues and pain. Difficult circumstances in life can make a person better or they can break a person's spirit, turning them into bitter individuals. Fortunately, neither of us succumbed to the latter. We are alike but different, and that makes each of us unique in the way we respond to situations.

Each day has its own set of challenges. I find that my reprieve from pain has lifted, and the trauma to my body over the years has been unkind and unforgiving. Of course falling from a tree didn't help the situation, but I've been warned to pad the ground the next time I wrestle a vine up in the trees. If the discomfort becomes unmanageable then I put on my boots and head outside. I have one more trim to the yard due, so that will help keep my focus elsewhere. I've learned to handle things that bother most people. I have managed to adapt to the noise in my head that has been my constant companion since 2016, so I can handle the other things that cramp my style. The key is counting my blessings. Each morning when I open my eyes and see the sunlight or the shadows or smell the fresh air or the smell of coffee, it's a good start. If I can swing my legs over the side of the bed, manage to sit up on the side and stand up...then it's a great day! Good morning, Lord! is my first response. It's a good day. And whereas not so good things may happen, it doesn't mean that a day is bad. No, be grateful for the day. It's another day to make life better for another person. Life is only a breath. We need to make the most of it and cherish the moments. 

  

Day 289 Rest for My Soul

  

10/16/2025

 "Then Jesus said, 'Come to me, all of you

who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will

give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you,

because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you

will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy 

to bear, and the burden I give you is light.'"

Matthew 11:28- 30

 

Over the past few weeks I've not been my generally upbeat self, and the hard part about it is that I don't know how to articulate my feelings. I feel drained of strength and of the ability to organize my thoughts. I realize that after a huge spiritual battle, we must stay on task and continue the watch. Now is not the time to pull an Elijah running from Jezebel act. And it's not really that, because I don't fear anything, except perhaps the dust in my house combined with Mia's shedding fur choking me if I don't get around to vacuuming and dusting soon. It seems as if I've not had too much free time to think about cleaning or a great many domestic things, but I've decided that something has to give. I guess I'll see how that goes.

I've been trying to set aside some time for exercise each night, a habit I have always tried to follow. It keeps me balanced mentally, and it helps with my health management. While I exercise I watch a favorite movie that doesn't require too much attention, as it's one that I've watched many, many times. I'm still watching Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien, as I've mentioned previously, but I'm on the last leg of the journey to regain control of Middle Earth, so I'll have to come up with another movie that has life lessons and offers spiritual wisdom and insight. I like movies that make me think.

I'm discovering that I am a very intense person, and that makes many people uneasy, but I take life very seriously. I enjoy having fun and laughter is my second language, but when it comes to muddling through life's messes, it's important to walk in wisdom. There's too much anger in the world, and too many people at odds. I'm watching things happen on the world stage that are appalling, and that do not belong in the same standing as the word "civilized" implies. More and more children and younger adults are becoming confused, embittered,  conflicted and even violent, acting out the compromises and vitriol learned from their parents or other adults who have been influential in their lives. This is a travesty that has robbed children of their childhood, youths of their curiosity, and young adults their dreams. This is mainly due to the fact that those responsible do not want to own up to or be accountable for the mess they've created. Something has to change.

The tricky part of writing my story is having to go back into all the memories I have stored up in volumes of journals I've kept over the years. I have regrets and losses, trauma and hurts that go deeply, and by reliving them in the telling, I often wonder if it's worth the sadness. Maybe that's why it's taken me so long to begin to write and stick to it. I've started and stopped so many times, writing a chapter here and there, and putting it aside. Only God knows where it will all end up. After all, He's the master mind behind the desire and the mission. There was a time when I had a hand in helping troubled teenagers make wiser decisions, and after all these years I wonder how they turned out. Maybe one day I'll know. My own children have had their share of hardships, many I never realized were happening. My faith keeps me strong, and my prayers for my family and for all the others continue to flow heaven ward, drifting up to the throne room of grace. 

In Lord of the Rings Frodo and Samwise Gamgee are discussing the futility of the mission they're on, wondering if anyone will ever remember. It's a difficult task being a small hobbit charged with the responsibility of saving humanity from evil. Sam makes a good point in his response to Frodo:

"It's like the great stories, Mr. Frodo, the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn't want to know the end because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad has happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing this shadow, even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines, it'll shine out the clearer. I know now folks in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going because they were holding on to something. That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fighting for.” 

Therefore, in the spirit of Sam and Frodo, I'm going to continue to battle for the people of this earth by continuing to stand and fight the good fight of faith. It's what we're all called to do in our own, individual assignments from God. Sam and Frodo make it to Mount Doom, destroy the ring, and Frodo even lost a finger doing it! But he persevered. So for now, I'm going to find rest for my soul trusting God for the battle that's His anyway, and I'm going to take some time just to sit and be still.  

Day 288 Generations

 

10/15/2025

"Therefore know that the LORD your God, 

He is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and 

mercy for a thousand generations with those who love Him 

and keep His commandments."

 Deuteronomy 7:9

 

Moses was chosen by God to lead the children of Israel from Egypt to the Promised Land in Canaan, and it was no small task. Because he did not obey God when He told Moses to speak to the rock for water,  because of his anger with the people, Moses struck the rock instead, so he was not allowed to enter into the Promised Land. In this passage, Moses had been reminding the people of God's faithfulness during the 40 years of wilderness travel, and he was instructing them in the law God provided on Mount Sinai. He reminded them also that they were God's chosen people, meant to be holy, set apart for the Lord's service. He called them "a special treasure above all the peoples on the face of the earth."

"The LORD did not set His love on you nor choose you because you were more in number than other people, for you were the least of all peoples; but because the LORD loves you, and because He would keep the oath which He swore to your fathers, the LORD has brought you out with a mighty had, and redeemed you from the house of bondage, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt." (Deuteronomy 7:7-8)

The people Moses was addressing were a whole new generation, born during the 40 years of wilderness wandering, with the exception of Caleb and Joshua, who did not rebel against the Lord. In verse 9 of Deuteronomy 7, as noted above, Moses was sharing the fact that God's covenant with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob was binding, and it extended to a thousand generations of those who love God and who keep His laws. As believers in Christ, this word applies to us as well, and our generations will be saved also, if they are obedient to the Word of the Lord. How many people realize that this Word applies to them today? How many realize that as believers in Jesus Christ, we have been grafted into the Vine, Jesus Christ? And some refuse to believe or accept this wonderful gift. A free gift, and in return we receive eternal life. That's the best deal ever!

 

Day 287 Hmmmm

 

10/14/2025 

 "Each of us has a soul, but we forget to value it.

We don't remember that we are creatures made in the

image of God. We don't understand the great 

secrets hidden inside of us."

Teresa of Avila 

 

Reading has always been a favorite pastime for me, but sometimes I get so busy reading scriptures that I don't leave time to read anything else. Not that that is bad, because it is the best and only way to grow in our personal relationship with God so that we can teach others and lead them to salvation. But, it is  edifying to the soul to find nourishment in other works that give God glory. As I've shared before, I always ached to go to the foreign mission field and serve God as a missionary. But it seems as if, try as I might, the doors of my dreams became closed for me, whether it be through discouragement, timing, or favor of God. I still have the same ache and emptiness within me that screams for a chance to serve in the mission field. I feel that I'm too old now, as most ministries prefer younger couples. Since being home, I have investigated possibilities in the old ministries in which I participated, but those I knew have passed on to glory and are in the presence of God right now. We should never look back, and God assures me, we are never too old to serve.

The book I picked up a few days was Tortured for Christ by Richard Wurmbrand, a Pastor who spent 14 years in prison in Communist Romania, for sharing Christ. While imprisoned he continued to evangelize to his persecutors in spite of the torture he suffered. He wrote "I love the Communists with all of my heart." He also wrote that "Communists can kill Christians, but they cannot kill their love toward even those who killed them." What an amazing testimony of the transforming power of the love of Christ for another. He was betrayed by his friend, and even though he endured such trials in prison, he easily forgave his friend saying "we all make mistakes." The Bible speaks about the power of forgiveness, and it has been so clearly presented in Wurmbrand's life as in the lives of Corrie ten Boom and countless others. 

So far I have not been tortured for sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ, but I have been persecuted and warned not to share books with a certain family member, who had been reading the book of Revelation and asked me if I had a book she could read. I don't know why she became anxious after reading the Bible study guide, but she did, and I got blamed and verbally blasted. I've been betrayed by a Christian pastor, and I often wondered what I would do if I saw this man at the grocery store or elsewhere. Time went by, but when it did happen, I held no negative feelings towards him. The same is true of the first example. Neither of these cases compare to what Richard Wurmbrand experienced, but I can understand the power of forgiveness regardless of the situation. It sets us free, and even if they are never aware of it, it sets them free spiritually speaking.

Our lives are very different today than when I was growing up, but I always marveled at the missionary life, and I always wanted to be a part of sharing life, the gift of eternal life, with others. I'm sure that I have mentioned, many times probably, about my habit of reading stories about missionaries when I was a young child. I would spend a lot of time in the church library reading, imagining, and dreaming of some grand adventure. As a child, everything is an adventure, until reality hits home, as it often does. Regardless, as I've grown into the old lady that I now am, my heart still cries for Africa, and my heart grieves for the children whose innocence is stolen whether through abuse, neglect, war, or human trafficking. So many horrible things, unconscionable atrocities, sins of man upon innocent, trusting, vulnerable children. I don't understand it, and often I have asked God why it has to be this way, but I try to leave it in His all-knowing hands, but it hurts.

As Teresa of Avila says we all have a soul, and we are made in the image of God. We need to protect, value, and grow our relationship with Him. Again, I mention the secret place. He has so much that He longs to share with us as we sit quietly, reverently, in awe of His majesty, blessed by His appearing. Share your dreams with Him, and seek Him for the plans He has for you - plans to give you a future and a hope. I may never see the mission fields in another country, but I can hold them in my heart in prayer, and I can read about their lives in my monthly notices. I always pray, and I always will. My mission field for now is here with my family and the people He places in my path. Miracles in the making await the right response for a longing, empty heart. A soul who needs to know its value. We need only to ask, and Father will show us His desires. May we fill our hearts with gratitude for His faithfulness and blessings too many to count. But if you did count them, what would we say? How could we ever thank Him enough for breath, forgiveness, salvation, transformation, His mercy, His love, and His Amazing Grace. Start with honoring  Him for the first fruit of the air you breathe with each new morning.

Day 286 Seek Peace and Pursue It

  

10/13/2025

 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you;

not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart

be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

John 14:27

 

It's been a very long night without sleep as we watched, waited, and prayed for the agreed upon release of the hostages. Israel's time zone is seven hours ahead of eastern time, so staying up was difficult. At one point I closed my eyes after the initial release of  four hostages, but I kept the news on to hear. There was a lot of noise from shouts of joy and rejoicing. The families of the hostages were waiting in Hostage Square in Tel Aviv for the release and for the arrival of President Donald J. Trump who flew in to address the families and to speak at the Knesset. His speech was well received by all present, as were the speeches by Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu, and Opposition Leader Yair Lapid. Speaker Amir Ohana of the Knesset presided and led the cheers of victory. When he identified Ambassador Mike Huckabee, he called him a "Rock Star," and he truly is a wonderful ambassador for Israel. President Trump was lauded for his service in establishing the 20 point peace treaty with the Middle East which included the immediate release of all of the hostages. 

Later in the day President Trump flew to Egypt where he met with a delegation of leaders of the Middle East who assisted with this treaty and for signing of the Peace Treaty. Those involved were: United States President Donald J. Trump and negotiators from Qatar, Egypt, and Turkey. It was a historic moment, and the world rejoiced for a victory they never thought would happen. We pray for peace always, but we also know as Christians that the prophetic time clock is ticking rather quickly, as demonstrations of antisemitism are still blatant and spreading. Hatred does not die easily, and this hatred has been going on since the beginning of time. 

As Christians we always want to rejoice, in fact, we are commanded to rejoice always:

"Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace that surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."  

Our Global Prayer Call was a time of praise and thanksgiving for God's mighty work in bringing this miracle to pass. Our time of worship included a song by Vesna Buehler from Psalm 126, a song of ascents.

"When the LORD brought back the captivity of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing. Then they said among the nations, 'The LORD has done great things for them.' The LORD has done great things for us, and we are glad. Bring back our captivity, O LORD, as the streams in the South. Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy. He who continually goes forth weeping, bearing seed for sowing, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him." 

Even in the midst of great joy, as intercessors, we remain steadfast as watchmen on the wall. Our faith is in God, not man, although God certainly has used President Trump as He did Cyrus of Persia so long ago. In fact Israel is calling President Trump their modern day Cyrus, and I believe the anointing is the same. We were reminded today that the peace treaty had 20 points that it turns out were negotiable, as there were changes allowed. But in scripture, in Zechariah 8, the Lord lists 10 points, all of which are not negotiable. 

Verse 2: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'I am jealous for Zion with great jealousy; with great fervor I am jealous for her.'" 

Verse 3: "Thus says the LORD: 'I will return to Zion and dwell in the midst of Jerusalem. Jerusalem shall be called the City of Truth, the Mountain of the LORD of hosts, the Holy Mountain.'"

Verse 4 & 5: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Old men and old women shall again sit in the streets of Jerusalem, each one with his staff in his hand because of great age. The streets of the city shall be full of boys and girls playing in its streets.'"  

Verse 6: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'If it is marvelous in the eyes of the remnant of this people in these days, will it also be marvelous in My eyes?' Says the LORD of hosts."

Verse 7&8: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Behold I will save My people from the land of the east and from the land of the west; I will bring them back, and they shall dwell in the midst of Jerusalem. They shall be My people and I will be their God, in truth and righteousness.'" 

Verse 9: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Let your hands be strong, you who have been hearing in these days these words by the mouth of the prophets....' Verse 11: 'But now I will not treat the remnant of this people as in the former days,' says the LORD of hosts."

Verse 14&15: "For thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Just as I determined to punish you when your fathers provoked Me to wrath,' says the LORD of hosts, 'and I would not relent, so again in these days I am determined to do good to Jerusalem and to the house of Judah.'" 

Verse 19: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'The fast of the fourth month, the fast of the fifth, the fast of the seventh, and the fast of the tenth, shall be joy and gladness and cheerful feasts for the house of Judah. Therefore love truth and peace.'" 

Verses 20-22: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'Peoples shall yet come, inhabitants of one city shall go to another, saying, "Let us continue to go and pray before the LORD, and seek the LORD of hosts. I myself will go also." Yes, many peoples and strong nations shall come to seek the LORD of hosts in Jerusalem, and to pray before the LORD.'"

Verse 23: "Thus says the LORD of hosts: 'In those days ten men from every language of the nations shall grasp the sleeve of a Jewish man, saying, "Let us go with you, for we have heard that God is with you."'" 

Ten "Thus says the LORD of hosts" all non-negotiable, and many are happening now. Let us continue to watch and see what great things the LORD of hosts will do! 

Day 285 In Remembering - Rejoice!

 

 10/12/2025

 "This is the day the LORD has made;

we will rejoice and be glad in it."

Psalm 118:24

 

Sometimes God really wants to get my attention, so He confirms verses to me - at least three times on the same day, at some point in each day. This time it was within minutes that He had this verse spoken to me from two pastors' messages', my devotional, and from reminding me of the prayer I speak when I wake up in the morning. It jump starts my day! This Psalm is one that is read at Passover as Jesus our Messiah is remembered and welcomed to the celebration. It is also read at other festivals of the Lord such as Hanukkah, Shavuot, and Sukkot as a song of praise and thanksgiving. I repeat this verse each morning before I get out of bed, because I want to remember that regardless of what happens during the day, I will still choose to rejoice in my Lord and be grateful for a new day to serve Him.

The day has been charged spiritually with expectation and hope in the air as we await the release of the hostages from Gaza who have been held by Hamas for 737 days. With each step made in preparation, it appears that this time the treaty will not be violated, and our prayers of 737 days will be answered. So we wait, and we pray, and, yes, we rejoice and give praise.

As the day progressed, once again the enemy tried to adjust my day and my attitude, but, thankfully, he did not succeed. On my prayer calendars for today these two quotations were given:

"Pray and never faint, is the motto Christ gives us for praying. It is the test of our faith, and the more severe the trial and the longer the waiting, the more glorious the results." E.M. Bounds

"We need to learn to know Him so well that we feel safe when we have left our difficulties with Him. To know Jesus in that way is a prerequisite of all true prayer." O. Hallesby    

Time spent in the secret place of the most high is a time of preparation, needed more at other times. It's a place where we must spend time each day to grow in His grace and glory, bask in His presence, and listen to His voice as He reminds us of the things we should know, as He leads and guides, and as He ever so gently prunes and refines us. 

"He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, 'He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in Him will I trust.'" Psalm 91:1-2

"You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance." Psalm 32:7

As I'm writing these words the familiar chords of the old hymn Great is Thy Faithfulness, is softly playing. During these times of waiting, rejoicing, remembering His faithfulness to us, I think of Daniel in the Lion's den; his friends Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in the fiery pit; and the prophets and obedient kings of Judah. I always thank Him for my family and the incredible miracles He's brought. Although things may appear difficult right now in my family, and certainly not what I would have expected or wanted, still I have no doubts that He will fulfill His promises to me, even if I don't live to see them. I refuse to fall into doubt and questioning when times become impossible at times. People fail, but God never. 

"What tore the veil, what empties hell, what never fails, only the blood. What testifies, what prophesies, death to life, only the blood." (Jesus Image)

I am exceedingly grateful to live in a country that stands with Israel as her number one ally and friend, a nation who understands the significance of Israel in our Judeo-Christian faith, the faith on which our country was founded. Our President Donald J. Trump is Israel's closest friend, and he stood against the formation of a Palestinian state and against the United Nations who have violated what the organization was established to do - "maintain international peace and security, protect human rights, foster friendly relations between nations and promote solutions to global problems." I am grateful that President Trump is not afraid to stand up for truth, go against the grain, and do the right thing especially when it is not the popular or "politically correct" thing to do. I'm so thankful to God that He has placed a man in the highest seat of government who obeys His word found in Micah 6:8: "He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?" He's not afraid to use the words "IN GOD WE TRUST." And He is not afraid to say that Jesus Christ is our Savior and LORD! 

The day is drawing close to a close for me, but it's early in the day for Israel, as they wait in Hostage Square in Tel Aviv. I'll be up all night waiting with them. Great is Thy Faithfulness, O Lord!