10/28/2025
"Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
and cleanse me from my sin.
For I acknowledge my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me."
Psalm 51:2-3
It seems as if I have been in an intense spiritual battle for a few weeks, and particularly this one. The assault of the enemy is coming in seven different ways! Or so it seems. I just realized that this is the end of the month, and Friday is Halloween. Of course! The good thing about me is that I don't allow the enemy to get to me, because it doesn't matter who he uses to mount a full scale war against me, I am not going to lose my joy or my peace. I may get a little irritated, and I may shed some tears, and I may even tell God the same thing again - "Lord, I am so tired!" But then He quietly reminds me of Jesus' sacrifice and all He endured while on this earth. Likewise, He gently reminds me that Jesus is seated in heavenly places, right beside Him, in Heaven, making intercession for me. In other words, They are aware of my circumstances, and my feelings, and They are praying, plus Holy Spirit, who dwells inside of me, is interceding form me, sending messages to Them on my behalf! It's not as if I'm in it alone! I wonder if more Christians realized this fact would their overall view of life change?!
Over this year of blogging, and even before, I have often shared about the pitfalls of my life, and it hasn't been easy, but it has been an amazing journey, and it continues to be that and more. All I do is try to be obedient to His word and to His daily instructions that He provides. Yesterday, while out traipsing around in the rain, running errands, with my friend, she asked me a question that opened up a sore spot in my history. She quietly listened as I shared my somewhat colorful life of wrongful accusations in my teenage years on through later life and my fall from grace, as I call it. My wake up call, which was almost instantaneous, as I have always walked with Jesus, or tried, even in my deepest, darkest hurts. At one phase of the conversation she asked me if I had forgiven myself, and believing I had, I replied, "yes" to her question. Later on, as I spoke to God about it, I realized that the reason the enemy is still able to drag me over to the proverbial rabbit hole, but he is unable to drag me under and down into that pit again is because I have not completely forgiven myself, but I willfully resistant to his devices.
I thought about it, and in the morning, bright and early, the confirmations of the word of the Lord came to me first through my friend, then Pastor Jack Hibbs whose scripture verses of the day were Psalm 51:2-3, as noted above. As the Lord always confirms in threes, to me at least, it happened again in my daily reading. As I was searching my heart, I realized that in order to break the cycle I needed to first, acknowledge that I needed to forgive myself, because God has forgiven me and no longer knows what I'm talking about! It's ancient unremembered history! Then, make certain that I truly forgave the ones who hurt me and abused me, and forgive those who try to blame certain things on me or accuse me of things not my doing. I need to set boundaries. That will require a bit more work, as I don't know how to do that. I have always shouldered the burden for everyone's shortcomings, but with God's help, I will persevere!
So, from now on, when the enemy tries to remind me of things that happened in the past, my response will be to silence him with "It is written....!" Just as Jesus did in the wilderness for 40 days and nights! I hope I don't have to duke it out with satan for that long continually, although he is tenacious in his sadistic ways, but God's word is forever settled in heaven, as I am fond of sharing. It is powerful and more active than any two edged sword (Hebrews 4:12). The only way the enemy can continue to bludgeon me with evil words and deceptive lies is if I allow him to do so. He has no authority, no open door, unless I allow one.
Just as my eyes have been opened, bringing new life and much-needed healing, I pray that my words do the same for my readers. God's forgiveness is for all those who truly believe in Jesus and accept Him as Savior and Lord, as our Redeemer! Then we are faithful to forgive, as we have been forgiven of MUCH, and we grow in His grace and love, fulfilling His call to be a servant to others. This is our true FREEDOM! Share the good news!
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