5/21/2026
"I have one thing to do today...
follow Him."
Matthew, The Chosen
I'm listening to Steffany Gretzinger sing All Hail King Jesus, and it takes everything inside of me to keep myself seated and not jumping and leaping and praising God. It's hard to focus on what I'm trying to write. In fact I'm not certain what to write, how to write. I was struggling trying to play catch up, getting my notes written into blog posts, as I'm running behind again. For some reason I've been in a lot of pain, so I can't sit still long enough to finish typing. I can walk and pray, but I can't walk and type. Listening and singing, praising God at the top of my voice or in calm assurance, makes it difficult to focus when I can sit still. This is my life.
I was telling Abba just last night that I haven't been able to be in this place of sitting in His Presence, waiting, listening, because of the distraction of the pain. But this evening, I sat on heat, on ice, I did whatever I had to do just to be still long enough to finish my work. Turning on my music I heard Cody Carnes and Kari Jobe singing Psalm 63, and I knew I was on my way back into His Presence. Now I'm babbling as I try to worship and write, not wanting anything I feel to escape, desiring to share my heart, wanting more. The pain is still present, but it's as if it's insignificant, and His Presence lifts me above it, away from the distractions, away from the noise.
The song Mikhsi U'Magen (Hebrew for my shelter and shield) is playing - Shelter Me (Psalm 91 - and the lyrics say:
"When the night is dark and weary, and I cannot find my way, You come close and whisper gently, 'Child, I'm with you every day.' Through the shadows and the silence, when my heart begins to break, You remind me of Your promise, that You never leave nor forsake."
"Ruach Elohim fill my heart with perfect peace. Yeshua you are my refuge, in You all my fears will cease. Shelter me beneath Your wings. El Shaddai my hiding place. Hold me close within Your love, and let me see Your holy face.
I am safe, I am loved, in Your everlasting arms. You will carry me through, You will keep me from all harm. In the desert of my longing, when my soul is dry and bare, You provide the living water. Show me that You're always there.
When the storms of life surround me, and the winds begin to blow, You are my anchor and my fortress, You're the only hope my heart can know.
Adonai rohi You restore my weary soul. Yeshua You are my portion. You have made my broken whole. Shelter me beneath Your wings. El Shaddai my hiding place hold me close within Your love. Let me see Your holy face."
It's really strange, but I didn't remember putting this playlist together, and when I checked, it appears that YouTube put this mix together for me based on my preferences, I imagine. It's a little weird to think that this program knows me so well, but I guess things could be worse. Actually, it's not a system that knows me or can read my moods or preferences, it's Holy Spirit ministering. I won't call it coincidence or by any other name other than what it is, an appointed time with my Lord. I can do nothing other than follow Him, praise Him, show Him my love, nothing else matters. "Jesus have it all, Jesus have it all! To You belongs the glory, blessing and all honor, majesty and awe!"
In my earlier reading today I read the following quotation by O Hallesby:
"Jesus is moved to happiness every time He sees that you appreciate what He has done for you. Grip His pierced hand and say to Him, 'I thank Thee, Savior, because Thou hast died for me.' Thank Him likewise for all the other blessings He has showered upon you from day to day. It brings Joy to Jesus."
There's no other place I'd rather be than in His Presence, and it's why I seek out prayer rooms and 24/7 worship. This is the best part of my day. It's my one thing! I love to share my testimony, remembering all the things He's done for me. Today I had a dental appointment, so I had an audience. People need to know!
I'm listening to Upperroom Church, which is a 24/7 prayer, praise, and worship room in Dallas, Texas:
"I don't know how to say exactly how I feel, and I can't begin to tell You what Your love has meant. I'm lost for words. If there's a way to show the passion in my heart, can I express how truly great I think You are. My dearest friend, Lord, this is my desire. To pour my love on You. Like oil upon your feet, like wine for You to drink, like water from my heart, I pour my love on You. If praise is like perfume, I'd lavish mine on You, til every drop is gone, I'll pour my love on You." (Pour My Love on You)
This song is my heart's cry. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for meeting me in this place. Lord, I pour my love on You! Now and forever! No place I'd rather be than here in Your love! May the reader find shalom.
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